>play mmo
>join guild
>finally knows what its like to talk to someone everyday and care about their lives
>finally feel like I belong somewhere
You just reminded me that I'm too much of an autist even to fit in with guilds.
>talk on guild chat but nobody responds
>guildmates do things without me
>stuck at recruit level while people who joined after me are now members
what MMO?
>tfw all your old MMO friends drifted apart and MMOs are no longer about socialising anymore
I'll never fit in anywhere, I'll never connect with anybody. I accept this, yet my brain still won't feel happy.
>>29591889
Black desert online, its relativly new and looks really beautiful
>>29591813
>2 weeks later i stop playing all together without a word
>i even got an mmo girlfriend somehow even tho i never wanted one
>he can talk to strangers over voice chat without getting anxious
gtfo normie
>join a guild
>start raiding and group stuff
>they insist I talk to help communicate interrupts and such
>don't treat me weird for being a girl
I kind of suspect that was a meme but I'm pretty glad to find out that people don't actually go completely crazy and fuck up the game.
>>29592762
Tfw you grinded to 50 and spend 90 dollars on BDO just to resub to FFXIV
>be guild wars 2 fag
>aspie as fuck
>join one of the top wvw guilds on server
>guild has a teamspeak
>insists that i utilize it
>join it under the condition that i don't have to actually talk into my mic
>one of our guild's lieutenants is a girl
>qt voice
>later find out through our forum's "WHAT DO U LOOK LIKE IRL?" thread that she's also qt in person
>become determined to win her heart
At this point I actually started speaking with the rest of the guild on voice chat. I spent a good five days practicing and listening to my voice, just so I didn't have that nasaly RRREEEEE accent. Should I continue?
>>29593016
No you should kill yourself. Play the fucking game
>>29592788
>be like 12 playing WoW
>group up with friends
>pretend I dont have a mic because girly pre-puberty voice
>>29593016
>gamer gurls just can't play the game
>need to post their picture as well
>then you get into raiding
>unnecessary drama surfaces out of nowhere
>people start acting like total faggots
>the game gradually turns to shit with trivialization of old content and casual shit-tier new "content"
>game starts to die
>end subscription
>feel better again
FFXIV
>kicked out of every guild
>kicked out of too many schools to remember
>kicked out of fuck many more dorms
Fuck people desu
>>29593213
>Warrior
>Not Dark Knight
What I hate most about FFXIV is that there are so many different gear combos and people glamor underwear
And then I hate how "elitists" only boast high item levels and when you take them from their little carry group then lose all their elite abilities.
Meanwhile the REAL elitists are extremely nice and know what they're doing.
>>29593016
nigga u better be attractive/greatsocialskills if u think u have a chance. remember, every other member of that guild wants to win that bitch over too
>join guild
>couple of meme spouting /v/tards
>that one attention whoring girl
>everyone else is just a normie who log into to do their fucking garrison every day after work
>nothing actually happening
>Those times i would join a new raiding guild in WoW.
>haven't proven myself to everyone yet, they all have injokes and nicknames i don't get.
>The tense affair that is the first raid, where I try my hardest to not ever fuck up even the slightest. Do double extra reading on boss strats.
>Things go fine and we fast forward 3 or 4 months later and everything is comfy.
>Im secure enough to use the nicknames and engage in banter with other members, they banter back because I am accepted.
The most guilt-ridden thing about this whole process is that whenever a guild i am in breaks apart, i always look forward to joining a better one and I feel like the possibilities of where i could go are endless. I would spend days, weeks even, scoping server guild rankings and running PUB dungeons to show off to prospective members since a well equipped Warrior without a guild is always taken notice of.
I am always trying to push myself and I could never find a guild for longer than a year before they broke up. They usually ran into a skill roadblock on a major boss because they just weren't good enough as a whole, and nobody wants to replace their friends raid spot with a newbie just because they're better geared or skilled.
I rarely ever kept in contact with the guild members of my former guilds unless we ran into each other by accident and few ever made it on my friends list. I feel like an exploitative person who just uses the other guild members to advance in the game. In the moment? I love them to death and will happily spend long nights in vent chatting and playing with them, but as soon as the clan tag vanishes so do I.
There is multi-game guilds of people that follow each other around to game after game. I could never be in something like that. What if I join this great group of bros to find they suck? It was actually liberating when my IRL friends quit the game: i could finally raid as hardcore as I wanted without forcing myself to abandon them.
Am I a bad person /r9k/?
>too autistic for "normal" guilds
>not autistic enough for /v/ and /vg/ guilds
Atleast I can clear content pretty early because some people said I play good and now others ask me to join their raids.
>>29593522
>am I a bad person?
>uses vent
yes
