I know that feel so hard man. No matter what I do I'm still that guy deep down inside who did all the things that make me cringe at night and contemplate suicide. I can never shake the memories.

>muh self improvement.

your great moments and memories will fade, like looking through a fogged mirror

were all fucked no matter how special your ego believes you to be. And the ones who have the most pride and attachment will fall hardest.

If you think like that you'll never improve

>>29558421
>you've already lost too much time
>in the past i have decided not to make myself better therefore i cannot make myself better

you're right op, you're fucked.

I have lost too much time, and I can't change the past. However, I can improve myself and strive to find contentment all the same. I have until I die to find that, and if I die before finding it then I honestly don't think I'm gonna notice

Too late for what? To be at the same level as your peers at the same age? Tough shit. You should've gotten your shit together years ago

You're probably not even old. 35+ is old