Who /molested and bullied as a child and now severely mentally ill/ here?
>>29543340
I wasn't molested
but I sure am mentally ill lmfao
I was molested by an older cousin when I was about five, never told anyone because I'd repressed it for a while. Then the memory came back as I was becoming an adult
I can't ever say anything about it, because he's died now and I feel like I'll be the bad guy if I try to sully his memory
Now I hate myself every single day and wish I could muster the courage to kill myself. Sometimes girls show interest but I fuck it up by being cripplingly terrified of intimacy thanks to molestation
>>29543411
OP here. My older brother molested me and I have similar feelings. I panic whenever someone touches me. He's in law school now, and I'm a schizoaffective NEET. I managed to get into college, but I dropped out because I was hospitalized. My psychologist told me I also have borderline.
>>29543528
I have no idea if I have any sort of disorders, as I've never been to see a psychologist or therapist. I just want to bury this shit so deep down, it never comes out
I just really want a job and to find suppliers for hard drugs so that I can waste away and die, honestly. When I was getting high, I didn't think about, or care about, any of those things that bother me
I wasn't molested, but I guess emotionally abused?
My dad was narcissistic as fuck, manipulated and controlled my mom, got angry all the fucking time (like rage angry). I was always afraid he would beat me up etc. I used to get super anxious when he was around all the time.
He never beat me up though. It was just the fear was so great I felt nausea all the time.
I am 24, never had a job, can't look at anybody in the eye, can't talk on the phone or answer the front door etc. I'm about ready to kill myself.
