When was it?
For me it was all of the sexual discovery during youth. Got so close to sex but never had sex. Still 32 yr old khv.
That and video games, especially looking ahead to upcoming systems and reading about them.
>be me
>summer 2011
>12 years old, 18 now
>get obsessed with Harry Potter during the school year
>shit fell into place, i lived with my paternal grandparents but both sides of the family lived in the same town
>poor-ass mother gets a nice van and a nice apartment, with a nice job as a town clerk and a notary public
>everyone seems so calm, polite
>don't feel like the black sheep of the family like i normally do, feel important
>go to fair with family
>feeling so good about myself, growing out hair so i have this cute baby face that's thinning out because puberty and cute mop hair
>have online friends on a harry potter chat room
>everyone was so chill
>chat was so active i could leave during the afternoon and when i came back everyone was online chatting
>start talking to hot girl from texas on yahoo messenger, met on yahoo answers
then it all went wrong
>classic 'being a nerd is cool' tone fades away as SJWs become more prominent
>lucius malfoy on the chat gets a tumblr and becomes sjw supreme
>make a joke about sex
>starts calling me a pedo, saying i'm creepy
>everyone goes along with it bc she was an admin
>cry, x out, delete from my history and bookmarks
>sick to my stomach the next day, keep thinking cops are after me and that every call is them or her
>eighth grade, realise that the chat room i was on wasn't part of the site, it was embedded
>this is when shit like vlogs and raunchy let's plays and spoofs started to take hold, to give you a perspective, 2011-2012
>go to chat site, find radio one where people chill
>just put another Harry Potter name
>meet dude named jake
>he invites me to his chat, with him, two canadian cousins named joyce and tris, their friend jackie, girl from ohio named Ari, dude from india named Brown Mike, and dude from Detroit named Micheal. Yes, micheal. Jake's irl friend Lucas, Australian chick named Meegz
>girl from HP chat messages me, her character name is Padma
>we start talking
(cont, one sec)
>>29533620
>Start dating her
>naive
>she updates her pic, i fall for it
>google introduces reverse image search
>Lucas says she's fake, says I'll get hurt
>Also this girl says her name is Andromeda but her middle name is Arcadia, people call her Cadi
>k
>deny she's fake, say i won't get hurt
>confront her about it
>'oh i just uploaded it to different sites'
>believe it
>write poems about her
>KEEP IN MIND IM LIKE THIRTEEN AT THIS POINT
>get to summer 2012
>july
>says her friend Chimene is taking over her tumblr
>k
>july fifteenth
>Cadi messages me on YouTube
>"I'm sorry, I'm breaking up with you. It's not gonna work out, you know why", etc etc
>"What do you mean? I don't know why, why won't it work out?"
>never responds to me
>her youtube account is gone
>chimene adds me on facebook
>her and i are friends to this day
I think it might've been Chimene the whole time, robots :/
i don't have any magical period in my past, but i'm almost 30 so wizardhood approaches and i will gain magical powers soon
>>29533255
she's like a poormans version of barbara palvin
>>29533620
I remember having an ongoing relationship with a Hispanic girl from California when I was 12 and 13. We started talking and it was very friendly and then gradually raunchier. She was the same age and she was chubby but into modelling.
Then it suddenly ended. Wonder if I was talking to a guy.
Forgot all about that till now
>>29533255
>For me it was all of the sexual discovery during youth. Got so close to sex but never had sex.
This was hell but I agree. I miss when jerking off was exciting.
>>29533255
It was all pretty garbage, senpai.
I guess when college started I could masturbate whenever I wanted to, that was nice.
>>29533729
Also, cont to that
>eventually, the chat room site thing dies
>we add each other on facebook, use tinychat
>tris hates jake because drama, etc
>me, jake, joyce, and jackie are the group now
>also tris hates joyce but they used to be best friends
>november 2013, a sophomore at this point
>Jackie messages me
>'jakes fake, he deleted everything'
>eventually find out jake had a crush on jackie, but knew joyce wouldn't like it
>said 'don't worry, i'll find a way', then he deleted everything
>made it look like he was fake
I don't think he's fake because
>his voice in his skating videos matches his voice on tinychat
>his sister and mom on his 'real' facebook matches what he told us
>jackie got an anon on ask.fm saying 'i'll be back, i promise'
>i get an anon on tumblr (YES I KNOW, I WAS LIKE 14 AND A TUMBLRFAG) saying "I miss you. I hope you're doing okay brother. :c"
Never got closure, but I keep looking. Hoping I'll see him in public or he'll come back.
Probably the first time I went to visit my penpal. Lived with her and her mom for a few months, got to see and experience the country, and got into a relationship with both of them.
Each time I've gone out to stay with them though it's been amazing.
>>29533831
Yeah, I played truth or dare, played kissing games, hugged, held hands, touched some asses, but then just became a total recluse.
I remember finding out what condoms were and stealing some from a store or finding some condoms along the road (still in wrapper) and taking them home to put on and jack off)
My senior year of highschool and the summer after was filled with girls, happiness, and being really close with other people.
Now I'm back to total robotdom.
>>29533255
The most magical period of your life was discovering sex and you've never even had sex? Jesus Christ anon that is so depressing.
And followed by reading about video games. Lord.
>>29534153
What's so exciting in your life then, if you think his is depressing?
>>29534268
Nothing my nigga but I would pick something I had actually experienced. I don't even want to think about it because my life is depressing, but I would probably pick being a kid at my grandparents or something or playing video games as a little kid during the summer or something. Not literally two things that I had never even done. Just reading about experiences and not having experiences.
I'm not saying it's bad to not have sex or I'm judging him for not having it. I'm a robot over here too.
>>29533255
Probably when I as 17 and delusionally thought my dreams would come true.
I didn't even do drugs, let alone drink till it was legal. Will never understand how that optimism existed for that year.
>>29534299
I did play video games but I was referring to the sense of wonder that came from reading video game previews in magazines and having new technology to look forward to.
I also got some action, but short of actual intercourse.
Wrote both of these. >>29533802
>>29534008
Also should mention little league baseball and hockey
>>29534299
I guess the excitement comes from still having hope that it would happen, and being at the age where attractive girls were still legal. Now I know for sure it won't happen, because I'm not the type of person women find attractive, and women my age aren't attractive enough (body or personality) to be worth improving for.
>>29534409
The term you're looking for is Sehnsucht.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ys4kLCtXvNY
>>29533787
Op pic is. more cute. Deal with it.
>>29533255
9th through 12th grade of course, because of the people I got to be around, and finally sex (stuff, like being able to actually orgasm finally, rectal stuff, porn access near the end), internet access at the end. Alot of things happened and then nothing after.
A picture hasn't stung this much in a long time.
>>29533255
I had maybe 4 good years
>1984-1986
Music and TV was good, my older siblings were not yet at the "my family sucks and my little brother should be picked on and beat up while the parents are away" stage. I visited my grandmother across town while she was still normal and not obsessed with bugs and other stuff. She always made better food than my mom did. School went okay because kids didn't have a whole lot of social expectations at that age. Even up to middle school the social aspect wasn't that bad, but I was never invited to people's houses or parties. Maybe they just thought I was a giant retard in hindsight. I can see it in my yearbook and class photos.
> early 1995
I lived in a small town in an apartment for a while. I wanted to try a new high school and maybe convince my dad to move. It didn't work, but the late night free HBO that came with the apartment and general feel of freedom were memorable. Ended up quitting the high school after 2 weeks and just being NEET until I got sent off to more psych wards because of my truancy and general lack of motivation.
> 1996
Year I was supposed to graduate high school, but ended up getting a GED instead. Had a good vacation year catching up on Comedy Central and watching late night talk shows and SNL for the first time in my life. In my deluded mind I thought I may have a shot being a comedian myself. All it really did was delay my inevitable college till a decade later. I didn't want to go because school was "too boring" and I still had this idea that I was supposed to play football in spite of all my shitty experiences as a high school and middle school athlete. I don't know what I would have done in college since I wasn't into programming back then. My interests centered around architecture and city planning at the time. I thought I may be a civil engineer back when they were doing some career survey software back in high school.
high school was the peak for me. Had a handful of friends, part-time job, in a couple of extracirriculars, cheap car, disposable income, lots of energy, no real worries, no high speed internet and thus the computer addiction wasn't completely crippling yet, lived in a beautiful small town rural area, socialized and actually went outside pretty often, even dated a bit. Everything felt fresh and exciting and new.
That was over a decade ago, and its all been a sharp steady downhill from there. Wish I could just live in those moments forever desu
>>29534489
Thanks for this. Here's a song that I think expresses this a bit.
>https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Y6vCMOv73fY
I really miss early middle school/ early high school. It was the period of my life when I was just getting into anime and manga, so like 2007-2009. Shows like Code Geass, Death Note, Haruhi, FMA and One Piece were my life. I know it's all plebshit, but what do you expect from a 14 year old? Since it was all new to me, everything was a 10/10 and exciting and filled me with a sense of wonder. The anime community gave me the place of belonging that I was longing for. Back then school was easy, so I had all the time in the world. As soon as I'd get home I'd go outside and play soccer, road hockey, go biking, and just do all kinds of crazy shit with the neighborhood kids. At that point, I still had dreams and had the drive to want to be someone someday,
Now I'm in my 3rd year of uni, in doing an average degree at a low tier school and still barely passing. I've been out of touch with the neighbourhood kids for a long time, we've all gone in completely different directions. Also, anime these days just doesn't light that fire in me that it used to and has become a chore.
Mid to late childhood, around 7-11 years old. I used hang around 5 brothers and a few others and we'd build dens, play knock knock ginger, steal fruit from peoples gardens and sell it for profit.
We all loved DBZ and would spar with eachother with sticks or just our fists and then we'd terrorise other kids that weren't part of our group. It was great,
I even walked down a the street once holding two girls hands, both wanted to be my gf. Something I'll probably never see in adulthood.
>>29534523
I miss having sweet girls look at me like this
I want to go back right now
From the time I started playing WoW (Early 2006) to the end of BC. All my friends played too and it was fucking glorious, then I ended up like that lonesome Paladin in that one picture that circulates around 4chan.
>>29533255
saw my older cousin and a neighbor chick a few years older than me fully naked when i was a kid. I still remember these shit means they were somewhat magical moments
>>29536707
I remember being in a hot tub with my older cousin and she let me feel her pussy and feet. She was a teenager and I must have been 6 or 7. So satisfying
>>29534409
sorry im not trying to hate on you. to tell the truth its my birthday in an hour and a half and i just feel really depressed about life in general. not that my birthday makes me depressed or that i wouldn't be depressed any other day, just feeling extra shitty i guess.
>>29536811
Your cousin is a pedo
Middle school was pretty GOAT desu.
>pull off straight A's without really studying
>be 6'0 lanklet and make basketball team
>no worrying about a job or a future just chilling with bros
>>29536707
>tfw me and my bros would peep on my neighbors twin daughters swiming in bikinis
>mfw one of them is a dumpy fat mommy now
>>29533255
>junior year, 2012-2013
>start listening to pop punk and finally, my life has its fucking soundtrack
>made the varsity squad on cross country
>all my teammates were kinda annoyed by me, but i met a bro-tier freshman who i formed this dope tag team with.
>we'd finish within a second of each other
>competed in the state, helped them to third place
>Cross Country ends
>The Gators finally beat the Seminoles
>I'm the videographer on the basketball team
>go to games for free and get to hang out with the team.
>They're winning every game by 35 points.
>also my gpa is finally climbing up to where it needs to be, (2.5)
>at one game against our rival, i got crowdsurfed by my school's student section
>never before had i felt more universal and unconditional love from people i didn't know
>Basketball wins state
>I get a ring
>The Yankees and the Rays give us all free tickets to ball games
>I stumble my way into my first house-party
>"Anon's here! He's in the fucking house!"
>Take a body shot off a girl who would eventually become a tri-delt at FSU
>Track season
>None of my dick teammates from cross country did track that year cause they hated the coach
>around that time prom is happening
>Mom introduces me to the daughter of her friend,
>ask her to prom over facebook
>she says yeah
>Take her
>get my first kiss that night
>have a cool two month relationship, broke up because our beliefs wouldn't be long-term compatible. one of us would have to break
>She was a tumblr feminist
>I was probably just a dick
>Got to see my friend have his first real live show
>tfw all this happened, and all i was, was just an anime/vidya nerd who could run fast. I never needed to be anything i wasn't.
I don't think i had quite a hot-streak like that. Even knowing that hindsight could be making it better, there was never a school year where all the wires just sort of crossed in all the right places. It really helped set everything else up for all the other places i would climb to.
