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Can confirm that when you finish college and start working or looking for a job, life is over.
If your life was miserable during college, when you finish the difficulty increases up to hell mode.
Don't fall for the /it gets better/ meme. Try to make friends and enjoy your life during college otherwise you will regret it when this shit ends.
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>>29522360
>regrets
>about not forcing yourself into the social circle of Chad Thundercock and Stacey and not getting a normie whore roastie
uhm, no
It can't be that bad. Rrrrreeeealy?
>21
>>29522360
> be 26
> last year of my master's degree
> got kicked out of dorm, have way more expensive apartment
> got a pretty neat side-job 20h/week
> could go with less but I like actually having cash
> somehow managed to make and keep lots of friends, if i had the time i could meet someone any day of the week
> still kissless virgin
if I'm still a lone virgin by 30 I'm gonna kill myelf.
I can't fucking stand 15 year old kids bragging about the prime teen pussy they constantly get and asking me why I'm such a loser
I've accepted that high school was the best time of my life and that it's long gone now. Even it wasn't that good, but better then anything before or since.
>>29523059
If, as a single man, you are in a position to be literally told by multiple teenagers that "you're a loser" because they can smell your virginity or whatever, then there is something very wrong.
If you are an adult man and you haven't knocked a woman up (or have much younger siblings), then there is no real need for you to interact with very young people ever again, at least, not an an ongoing, recurring basis. And there is certainly no need to take some child's bullshit. My point being that however this happens, you can end it without too much trouble. What is it that you are doing wrong?
>>29522360
I'm 29 and I've worked all of 7 months of my life in total. Having your illusions about life taking the same course for everyone shattered, norrrrmie?
>>29523188
you know when there are famliy gatherings there are always kids around
and yes, they fucking smell it, it's so fucking embarrassing
> What is it that you are doing wrong?
waiting for the one
having "high" standards (no stupid, annoying, ugly, dumb as a rock roastie whore)
being a pussy and never making a move
being depressed because of all of this, vicious circle and all that
hating myself every wake moment (can't tell you why anymore though)
>>29523358
>waiting for the one
Don't do this. The one doesn't exist. Love is a meme.
>>29523358
I'd suggest that you quietly instruct their parents to control them, but as we all know, that type of thing isn't likely to end well.
So here we are, and what I've just advised still applies. Cut the offending parties out of your life, and just don't go to their things. You are a grown-ass man and you do not have to take shit from children if you do not want to. The simplest way of managing this is to just not be around them, or their idiot parents. It sounds like you've got other normie/upwardly mobile stuff going on in your life (ree), so it's not as if you would have nothing.
>19
>about to start a 3 year degree
>shut in
>watdo?
>>29523851
>19
You are just rubbish stupid normie
Tomorrow I turn 25 and I'll come post here.
>29
>NEET
>can't drive
>no ambitions or goals
>still don't know what job I want
>9 year employment gap on CV
>going back into education would be a waste of time
>everyone I knew growing up has moved on
>gfs/married/houses/careers
>left behind in a dead end northern town
>nothing to do here but drink yourself to death
>nobody my age to socialise with
>nobody understands that there is nothing to do for someone my age who has no social life
>all their advice just boils down to "go outside!" or "just b urself :^)"
>all the activities that take place outside are social activities
>have nobody to go outside and be social with
>every time I go outside I feel like I don't belong there and can't relate to anyone or anything
Recently I've been having grand ideas that I want to learn an instrument. I feel like it would give me a greater sense of accomplishment and self satisfaction than just playing video games for the gorillionth time...but then.
>would have nowhere to practice that isn't going to disturb someone
>can't afford lessons
>would be wasting around 500 pounds on something that I might not have the ambition to keep practicing
Bitch please. I'm 28 and my life has become much better in the past few years.
>>29522360
You should already have been working a shitty wagecuck job for years when you graduate to pay for school.
You should now be trying to get a job in your field/trade and be willing to settle on a shitty one there as well since you have no related experience.
If you're not lucky enough to get a decent job to start with you should work the shitty one for a while and use it as relavent experience on your resume to get a better one.
Once you have decent job with union and pension and that kind of shit you work it until you retire or die.
Your life should get better as your labor and skills become more valuable and you have access to higher paying and less back-breaking jobs.
>>29523059
>and asking me why I'm such a loser
Do you actually yell "that feel when no gee-eff" in the street or something? If you let nobody know you can lie all you want.
>25
>khv
>no education past highschool
>no friends or gf
>boring lifestyle
>live with parents
>content with life
>wagecuck
dont really care about anything
ill take any job that isnt back breaking labour
One week left until I join you fags. Some girl added me from one of these threads on skype then ignored all of my messages. I fucking hate roasties.
>>29522360
You shouldn't have fallen for the college AND wagecuck meme.
t. content NEET-for-life
>26 year old KV NEET
>mom has a friend who lives out in the country
>is going to send me to her ranch/farm whatever in a few weeks to work for 4 days for money (said 400$)
>says that i can play horseshoe and shoot guns out there
>guns
>rifles specifically and a "World war 1 shotgun"
>finely have a chance to kill myslef
>imagend going out into the woods with the ww1 shotgun and shooting myself
i'm shakeing at the idea its pretty fucking scary but this is probably the only chance i will get to an hero and i know damn well lifes not going to get better.
>>29524408
as i said, they can fucking smell it
besides I'm not talking about random people in the streets, it's mostly folks that somebody in my family knows. And I'm from an incest-ridden smalltown shithole where everybody knows everything so they all know i'm a kissless virgin
>>29524500
are you a fat ass or skinnyfat
are you in shape, or just muscle atrophy after years of neetdom?
i got asked to help someone on a farm sling hay, felt dehydrated and puked everywhere after 1 hour in the sun
>>29524532
skinnyfat
not fat, not skinny when i was 15 i was forced to play football as a linemen and the only time i through up was after doing drills for and hour 30 mins but that because the other guys drank all the water and the remaining water was boiling hot.
as long as i have cold water i should be ok while working
>>29522360
Who else /professionalanxiety/?
Holy fuck. I'm balls deep into a career that is way too challenging for me. Constantly paranoid, scared, worried. I decided to be an accountant and I literally want to cry/scream every god damn day. Even after earning a near 4.0 in college the chads at work just run circles around me like it's nothing.
I'll probably get fired eventually and it will all be over
>>29524500
>not getting that ranch milf pussy instead
Maybe you should anhero.
>>29524711
Same situation here, but I've been fired already.
Man it's so frustrating to be surrounded by normies all the fucking day.
They spend all the time talking about their crazy parties, things that they do with their fucking gfs and bfs and making jokes. And not only this but they are more efficient at work than you and at the end the boss is more content with their work results.
I fucking hate this shit...I hope this ride ends soon lads.
>>29524802
Damn, what was the reason they fired you and what was the job?
>>29524892
I was a data analyst. I was fired because lack of proactivity.
>>29524933
Nice.
Yeah my last job said the same shit to me. I busted my ass and did everything I was supposed to do but got a SHIT review (which was a total shock to me, couldn't fucking believe it) saying that they wanted me to be more proactive in the company and also that I had communication issues.
The communication issue was BS too. A month prior some dumb fucking account manager Stacy accused me of losing an important piece of paperwork. Told her theres no way, my desk is the most organized in the entire office, come check my drawers. I was basically the villain from the beginning and I think she might have convinced them I destroyed it to hide a fuck-up or something. To this day I know she lost it, that bitch.
>work at mcdonalds
>everyone that isnt on their deathbed is 16-20 years old
>wanna go to a 9th grader party anon?
>>29524754
shes like 78
>>29522360
>26
>haven't really lived a life
>feel too old for anything, even girls
>want to die
>>29525190
This is one of the things I'm terrified of. I have no qualifications and no work experience so the only employment I could find is in the service industry.
>30+ years old
>having to compete with 1000 other people for a burger flipping job
>immigrants fresh off the liferaft who would work for a pittance would get the job over me
What the fuck is out there for me?
>>29525216
Prime granny pussy is better than no pussy at all
She could have been a Stacy 50 years ago, look for pictures when you get there
>>29525255
I can just imagine a filthy rich capitalist grinning his ass off at this post.
>finishing my EE degree in a year, going to take career classes
>I'll be 27
>can get a job easily within months of graduating, making good money
>will take all my frustration out on women, no questions
>will probably go as far as faking relationships and then just bailing
I won't marry even pretend to take a woman after 30 seriously as a wife. Fuck em for being bitches my whole life.
>>29522360
>22
>finished bachelors degree a year early, have been working a typical corporate cubicle job making $55k/yr
>didn't realize that the movie Office Space was actually a documentary
Jesus Christ I feel like I waste 8 hours of my day every day. Everybody there acts like this is the end of the line and that it's the best job you could ever hope to have. The thing is though that if I didn't have a job I'd probably just sit around all day bored and doing nothing but wouldn't be getting paid. I just hate the fucking happy go lucky corporate koolaid they make you drink.
>>29525466
Oh...just realized the title of this thread was 25+. Sorry guys...
>turning 26 in one month
>hate my career
>quit my job a week ago
>no idea what to do now
>too dumb to get a STEM degree
>too prideful to take a job in trades
>just want to get paid decently doing something comfy and moderately intellectual
Any ideas? This has been eating me up all week. I really have no idea what to do with my life, and time is ticking away
>>29525950
>>too prideful to take a job in trades
Yeh making a boat load of money is bad for your pride, I know an electrician that makes 60/hr and hes only 3 years old than you are
>>29525950
The best job for a robot is a job where you don't have to interact with normies all the fucking day.
>>29526026
It's not the money that drives me. As a kid I always wanted to be a scientist, inventor, engineer, etc. But I didn't do well in high school so I would never get accepted into a STEM degree. Feels really bad
>>29526029
Like what? Interacting with normies seems like a requirement if you want to make a decent salary
>>29525950
>been told to get a trade for years
>have no money to put my self through school
FUCK
>>29526201
>ask a guy who does trades if they are taking apprentices
>get job
>they pay for your school
>>29526239
>>29526239
I have no idea what I want to do though
>>29524933
How did you get a job as a data analyst pls. I want to get into it
>>29526524
I just found the job offer on the Internet, I completed a form and sent my CV. The next day they called me.
>>29525190
would literally rather be homeless, hustling however i can, than work a mcJob. i cant imagine how soul crushing that would be
i hate the idea of jobs in general. you're just getting taken advantage of
t.26yr old NEET living at parents
>26 no lifer
>watching Grimm
>decide to google Claire Coffee
>find her Me In My Place photos
>cum buckets
We might be pathetic in the eyes of most people but that doesn't mean we can't enjoy the little things in life.
>>29522360
If I hate my life now as a former and possibly future college dropout, how will it turn out when I'm 25+?
Is suicide the only answer for me?
>parents banned me from the microwave/oven because i tok all the food from t kitchen fridge into my fridge in me room
>not allowed to have me own microwave/oven but can have a fridge
>have to wait 3 more months until i can move out
>tfw mom into findom so she manages my money
>have to wait until monday to ruin their food/drinks as revenge or maybe go so far as to leave the oven running for a few hours
>>29522360
how do you just "lose it" and go on adventures, or fuck your shit up
i dont care about anything but the future still worries me. seems like 99% of people get cucked into living how they dont even want to live and i don't want that. i dont want to bow to the fear. it all means nothing anyway
>be 37 year old wizard manlet NEET
>decide to waste some of my meager savings on alcohol because why the fuck not
>legal drinking age is 19 here
>get ID'd despite having grey in my beard
>forever_a_boy.jpeg
>show my ID, guy says nothing and takes my money
>take booze home and drink myself into a stupor to numb the pain of my empty life
>none of the potential opportunities of youth remaining
>cold solitude and painful memories of countless past failures
>only the steady march towards death to look forward to
almost 26 here. I'm in a world of shit
>>29522360
I'm 25 years old.
I've been a KHV NEET for 10 FUCKING YEARS.
Mentally ill and I'm actually so fucking tired of life that I no longer want to kill myself.
I really don't care anymore.
>>29522360
>tfw turning 25 soon
>tfw almost everyone I know has some kind of 4 year degree and good jobs
>tfw only have a GED
>tfw probably gonna be stuck working shit jobs all my life until I kill myself
>>29523059
Tfw i thought i was going down this path.
Mfw tinder saved me
I'm 18 and got a 15 year old qt gf.
Life is euphoric
>>29523426
>love is a meme
Good luck in life man.
>>29527328
Good luck normie cuck
I'm 25 and I'm two years away from getting a bachelor's degree. I failed three classes last year (the first college classes I've ever failed) and might lose my financial aid next year because of insufficient academic progress. I'm surrounded by people younger than me who are more well adjusted and by older people who have overcome more to get where they are.
I'm just a loser who is too afraid to try new things and too selfish to build relationships. I want to get better though and I am working on becoming a better person and achieving my dreams. I'm just so lonely though, even when surrounded by people.
>>29526804
Why don't you just speed up the process and kill yourself
>>29524500
That escalated quickly
Do the work and give me the $400 if you sodoku. My pupper needs surgery on an eyelid wart
>>29527328
Luck is a meme too.
>>29527469
Almost the same situation here anon. I hate being "the creepy old guy" among my college peers. I'm paranoid that it just broadcasts my life's failures to these happy, energetic, enthusiastic young people. Self perpetuating cycle of anxiety and self loathing...
Just gotta focus on myself and what I need to do. A jew in my situation wouldn't give a fuck what younger, more attractive people thought about him. He would just work hard to make money
>>29522360
Thisis only true if you never stop working.
>>29525255
>not fucking the migrants
>>29522360
I hated college and I enjoy my job. I have lots of projects and plans. I'm 30 and my life keeps getting better.
Maybe, I dunno... try something? Like, apply yourself? You're gonna die anyway, shame to waste your life.
>>29527469
Am I (you)?
Is this me?
>>29525274
>Prime granny pussy
>>29525398
SOC is over there
>>29522360
>have job that pays enough to live well, like I can eat out when I want, travel around the US, travel to Europe if I plan and save a tiny bit
>job requires almost nothing of me, spend most of work day sitting in darkened office working on various patrician projects, or lurking 4chan
>get superior performance evals and raises at least once, sometimes twice a year
>good friends, good "social life", etc.
Life is so goddamn good. This post sounds like something made up to troll but I swear to you it is only slightly exaggerated.
Take the civil service exam, young anon.
>>29524711
I became a lawyer even tho I don't want to be one and now I am stuck in an anxious hell for the rest of my life. Kill me
>>29527469
> I'm just a loser who is too afraid to try new things and too selfish to build relationships
you succinctly described me here without the usualy cognitive dissonance and excuses. gj anon
>>29526641
How can you enjoy a whore in a perfect place that you'll never have who got her entire life on a silver platter purely on account of being born female?
>be 26 in a few weeks
>have graduated with bachelors degree in irrelevant field a year or so ago
>couldn't get job because of charges on my criminal record that are almost 5 years old
>end up settling for bullshit call center job which pays minimum wage against commission
>make alright commission every check, but best paychecks are only ~$13 an hour
>sit in cubicle making phone calls from 8 am to 4:30 pm everyday
>didn't mind it so much at first but now the monotony is sinking in
>every day is a miserable hell
>also went bald in the last few years as I was finishing up my degree
>chronic depression/anxiety and drug and alcohol abuse have led me downhill over the last 4 or 5 years
>life was okay from ages of about 18-21
>ever since certain things happened its been miserable
>had one gf of 2 years who cucked me
>can't find another gf, any chances I had I blew
>weird looking bald head is getting me nowhere with girls
>live at parents house doing the same thing everyday
>all friends have either moved on or are equally depressed and its just depressing to be around them
>been isolating myself and staying home all day on the weekends
>don't see any end to this in sight
Seriously just let me get off this fucking ride already, my glory days are behind me, even then they weren't that great, but compared to now it was fucking paradise. Everything changes once you get older, I know its not as bad as it will be when I hit my 30s, but I can see the direction its going, and have seen these threads enough to know that nothing ever changes for the better. Just extremely disillusioned on life, I had my day in the sun I guess, but now that's over and it's never coming back. Unless a complete miracle happens, my life will just continue down this depressing path.
>>29526689
>If I hate my life now as a former and possibly future college dropout, how will it turn out when I'm 25+?
It's going to be the same except all the options that you still have will one by one rapidly disappear.
>>29528079
Are you a person who engages in solitary, non-constructive activities out of boredom and fear of failure? As I've been challenging myself I'm realizing that I'm a passionless and boring person and not some misunderstood genius. People aren't that interested in my mysterious and aloof cynical bullshit because I can't produce any noteworthy achievements, I can hardly even justify my own identity. Even this thread is masturbatory deflections of my short-comings. "If I identify my problems then they don't exist anymore!" and every day it repeats.
>>29528155
by fapping to her. did I forget to mention that part?
>>29528146
Fuck off normie scum. You are not a fucking robot.
>>29528304
I've been on /r9k/ since literally two or three weeks after its creation, and 4chan well before then. I think I'm more of a robot than you, who, statistically speaking, almost certainly came from reddit or facebook. I've been here since before robot meant what it does now, when this wasn't just a clubhouse for the sexually inexperienced.
>>29528146
>civil service exam
Tell me more about this. How did you study? what set you apart? I want to know
>>29528149
Thank you. I am a narcissistic so I spend a lot of time psychoanalyzing myself and finding labels that suit how I feel about myself. This is the simplest conclusion I've come to.
>>29524711
Same here anon. Been working in IT in 3 years and it's been terrible. I'm trying to get a different now that will let me keep my sanity.
>>29528422
Didn't study at all, it was just another standardized test, even easier than the SAT. I scored off the charts and I'm sure many people here would too.
Can confirm that life pretty much ramps up to hell mode after college if you're a robot.
Enjoy the safety of high school and college younger robots.
Anyone else's parents starting to yell at you for mundane things? My mom is screaming at me and saying she wants to die more than ever. She bitches and bitches about everything and takes her anger out on me.
Just become a NEET
Save up your energy and do something crazy.
/r9k/ helps me get through it. without having other people like me it'd be a lot more isolating.
>>29529515
> Save up your energy and do something crazy
like what? i always think about this because i hate the "standardized lifestyle" everyone seems to subscribe to
you know how you go on summer vacation, and you're bored and life seems meaningless? It's like that. except forever.
>>29528526
> I am a narcissistic
yeah me too. but not so much since i entered crushing depression and nihilism.. probably for the best it was exacerbating my anxiety. still, i felt more alive back then.
I have no desire whatsoever to achieve "success" and work is literally like slavery to me. I need to get the state to pay me a couple of hundred bucks a month so I can stop interacting with people.
>>29522360
>30, almost 31
>college dropout at 22, same time that I discover 4chan
>kept popping in and out of community college courses like web design for the next 6 years
>work the same wagecuck minimum wage job for nearly 9 years, new owners shitcan me after a bad shift.
>too much anxiety to look for new job
>been full NEET for two years
>I'm the weird uncle to who lives with grandma and grandpa
The good news is that I finally figured out what I want to do in life and how to do it, I just need to go back on the wagetrain, also when I was younger I got to have sex and do drugs and that was nice.
Also, I don't have AIDS which I thought I maybe had, so that is also good.
>>29530419
Narcissism can be expressed as self deprecation. We seek out labels that mark us as being exceptionally worthless. In reality what we feel is much closer to "normal", but we want to be special. Rather than letting my actions speak for themselves and embracing the fact that I'm an individual who acts on his desires I choose labels that fit aspects I want others to see in me, even if they fail to capture who I am. I'm starting to ramble now and it's hard to describe what I feel so I'll stop here.
>>29530439
Having AIDS would really suck. Why did you think you had AIDS?
>>29530583
nah i know what you mean. i often feel me entire personality is faked to tailor other peoples image of me. i want to appear interesting and a certain way, i don't really know who i am behind that.
I agree with this. I'm 24 and have been graduated for 2 years. It's much easier to isolate yourself, and your life becomes a boring routine.
I barely have friends and have given up on getting a gf. I have more money than I've ever had before, but still live at home and have no motivation to do anything cool with it.
>>29530627
> I have more money than I've ever had before, but still live at home and have no motivation to do anything cool with it
what COULD you even do!??? im seriously losing my shit because of this fucking boredom but i have no answers to this question. everything seems not worthwhile and pointless, not to mention scary and not worth the risk. but then you're stuck in this fucking boring hole, bleeding away the days, you don't even enjoy your safety so it seems so ridiculous.
FUCK
>>29530583
>Why did you think you had AIDS?
I put my unprotected dick inside of a very popular vagina and fell generally shitty afterwards and had some health issues. If not AIDS then definitely some other funny sex diseases.It was Hep C, but I cleared it
>>29525466
It hurts doesn't it. After you work a bunch of shit jobs and working your ass off in college to get there, your reward is to do nothing and get paid for it. What do you do anon?
>>29530614
>i don't really know who i am behind that
I don't want to sound like a meme but you're you, there isn't really a label to easily describe yourself. Who you are is mostly irrelevant, it's your actions that matter because that's how you can interact with the world. I think this is close to what Nietzsche wrote about, the ubermensch has a will and acts on that will.
I spent a lot of time trying to find myself after I turned 21 and became self aware. This was just navel gazing and masturbation doing shit like MBTI. Instead of actually developing myself through action I tried to find out who I am, a question without an answer.
>>29530747
Man I did work a bunch of shit jobs on the way into it too. I'm a data analyst. I guess I just wish it was something more fulfilling. It's nice to have money to spend, but I don't even really know what to spend it on.
>>29523059
I'm 23 and i hit on women twice my age. get old pussy all the time
>>29530780
> Who you are is mostly irrelevant, it's your actions that matter
both are irrelevant tbqh
> developing myself
is a meme
>>29531071
>> Who you are is mostly irrelevant, it's your actions that matter
both are irrelevant tbqh
> developing myself
is a meme
By developing yourself I mean trying things to see if you enjoy them.I wish I started exploring what was possible at an earlier age rather than wait.
>>29530798
>>29530654
>>29530627
>Its nice to have money to spend, but I don't even really know what to spend it on.
I have the exact same problem you guys do. Lots of money and nothing to spend it on. It makes you disillusioned with life after believing the "it gets better' meme. Normally this money would go to a GF but since girls don't want guys like me I put it towards hobbies that'll hopefully improve my life and keep me sane. I have a deathwish but I always wanted to ride a motorbike so I'm doing that right now and martial arts while working my pointless office job for the next few months. Then I'm going to take the leap and go on a trip someplace I always wanted, buy a guitar, my own place aka the things I couldn't do when I didn't have money even if its pointless. Not all at once but within a few years I should have a life that doesn't feel shit even if it is by some peoples standards.
What I'm saying is you have to fall in love with a life you want and build that instead of women these days or what society wants. Find a community you want to be a part of besides 4chan and r9k because this shit will rot your brain if you let it.
>25
>Been working in marketing for past 3 years
>Hate it
>Commute to Jew York City every single day from home.
>2 hours without any disruptions, however it's usually 3.
>Literally come home, eat dinner and go to sleep every single night.
>No energy or motivation on the weekends to do anything
>Literally want to do something fun, but no friends and no energy.
>Sleep every single day at 10 pm and wake up at 5.
>Spend 450 dollars per month commuting into NYC
It doesn't get any better. I'm depressed as fuck. I take adderall just to get me through work otherwise I'd collapse from exhaustion or get fired from my job.
>>29531535
That's around the right price for a monthly train pass from NJ to NYC. I interned in the city for a summer and had that commute. It's a rough life.
>>29531535
Anon you need to move or find a new job. That kind of life is only sustainable for so long until you lose your humanity and I'm not even memeing. You won't be able to relate to people outside of work or work related topics. Its literal torture wanting to connect with another human being but you can't because its not making you money.
>>29531535
Why do you take adderall?
>>29525950
IT support then sysadmin
t. about to get an entry sysadmin position after 7 years of being an IT support monkey
>turning 26 in a few days and literally don't have a single friend to hang out with
If you told my 19 year old self that I'd be spending my birthdays alone I probably would have laughed. I can't believe this is what my life has come to.
I was a friendless virgin for college, and it was as miserable a time as everything else in my life, basically because the years of isolation to that point made me unmotivated to even meet people. The only people I really knew were my roommates who seemed to like me, but I haven't talked to since graduating
Now I'm in serious trouble. I live with my parents because it's the Bay Area and really expensive. I was supposed to go to grad school but I didn't get great grades in college so I haven't even applied (lied to my parents, just say I don't get in).
I work a low paying job that's supposed to just be like a bridge, pre-grad school job but I don't even have any motivation to go through school again because i know ill be a friendless loser no matter what
>>29531535
I know this exact feel. I wake up at like 6:15 AM, get the subway at 7, get to work at 8. get subway back at 4:30, get home at 6 (I bike to and from the subway station to get exercise/sun). By the time I eat dinner and relax it's already time to go to bed and wake up again, the nights fly by even though I don't do anything. I get home on Friday and fall asleep pretty early because I;m so tired from the week. I love just relaxing at home, but I've never known what it's like to do stuff with people.
>>29528224
>Are you a person who engages in solitary, non-constructive activities out of boredom and fear of failure? As I've been challenging myself I'm realizing that I'm a passionless and boring person and not some misunderstood genius. People aren't that interested in my mysterious and aloof cynical bullshit because I can't produce any noteworthy achievements, I can hardly even justify my own identity. Even this thread is masturbatory deflections of my short-comings. "If I identify my problems then they don't exist anymore!" and every day it repeats.
Doing this right fucking now in my head right now. I made the mistake of getting high this weekend despite being sober for like 2 months. I thought I could recapture that magical first time after being away from it for so long, but i got nothing good going. Im not as depressed as I used to be, the anxiety is toned down, but boy do i feel stupid about the shit I say Im going to do vs what I really do.
>Say im going to try and meditate and maybe trip or something and see something profound to change my life
>Wasting my life for the past 4 hours currently watching Adult Swim, drinking beer and listening to IDM but no revelations, no trippy shit, nothing but feeling dull and wasting time
>Think that my hobbies making glitch art and electronic music and studying history makes me "deep" and "artsy" and "intellectual" but really its just a pointless waste of time
>Apply for a ton of jobs, get zip responses. Make a LinkedIn profile out of desperation, get called in a random interview with big name company in my field and knock it out of the park
>now freaking out because my NEETdom might be over any day and cant let go of getting high/drunk even though i know it doesn't do anything good for me anymore.
25, the year the magic of being young dies.
>>29531865
It blows. I take bus + subway. Cost adds up to be 450.
>>29531881
Trying to. Might move to NC because it's cheap and lots of jobs down there. This life is awful.
>>29532093
I leave at 645 and get home at 830 m8. I do the same thing. It's awful.
>>29531932
Adderall gives you energy and motivates you. He'll burn out though, eventually that shit catches up with you.
>>29532524
It's true. I'm in the process of it.
Wizard here.
I've been thinking of getting a waifu. Does that help the loneliness or make it worse? Also how does a waifu work? Do you talk to her? Pretend you are sleeping with her (not sex, just cuddles, etc)?
>>29532557
I quit after abusing it for energy/motivation like you are. It made me pretty cranky too, like super aggressive sometimes. On one hand it made me a normie (social, motivated, etc), on the other hand it made me an anxious wreck and a walking zombie. It was like my brain was on overdrive and had energy, but my body was failing. I looked awful. I was also taking 40mg of valium at night to sleep.
Anyways, when you do decide to quit the Adderall, taper off and make sure you do it slowly. Like I was taking 70mg daily and went 60 week one, 50 week two, 40 week three, etc etc
I guess some people quit cold turkey, but for me would have been a mess.
>>29524711
I'm going into accounting and have zero social skills. Could you tell me just how bad it is, before I make a huge mistake?
>>29522360
>Don't fall for the /it gets better/ meme.
I can also confirm that "it gets better" is false hope
>>29530439
Are you me?
Except im 32 going on 33 in a few months.
>>29530813
>get old pussy all the time
c-congrats?
i'm not sure who's winning here
>>29533734
Theres nothing wrong with mature pussy.
>>29532615
Thanks!
It's kind of like quitting cigs I guess,
Can't believe I'm turning 26 this year. Where does the fucking time go? I've accomplished absolutely nothing in my life
>>29534036
this is what i dont get. my entire life has been pathetic, mostly spent in my room or alone. but time goes by so fast for me. even the work week does.
you would think someone alone who does nothing time would go really slow. but it doesnt it goes by fast as fuck
>people think 20-30 isn't purgatory for men now
25-30 you're too old for 20 year olds and teens, they'll hesitate to even befriend you.
20-30 is the age police and the state fucking hate you. your insurance rates are high, you are profiled the most by police and you are the biggest threat to the state if you don't have a job.
27-30 is when people younger than you start calling you old.
22-29 is a lot of single males.
20-25 is also the time your highschool friends start going their own way, so you probably have to find new friends too.
everything is stacked against you during this time.
Time is going by fast as fuck and im getting old as shit. Is there anything i can do to ease the constant feelings of intense dread. Im realizing how little time we actually have on this earth and how aging isnt just a thing that happens to other people.
>>29534522
Just stop caring about it. Embrace the void. Think of death as literally resting in peace, where you no longer have to deal with this shit world. Your time isn't running out, your sentence is getting shorter.
>>29532574
It only works when you have schizophrenia.
>>29524275
>would have nowhere to practice that isn't going to disturb someone
fuck them, if you dont do it in midnight there is no problem, and depending on the instrument you can practise 24/7
>can't afford lessons
You wont need lessons
>would be wasting around 500 pounds on something that I might not have the ambition to keep practicing
Have to try, you never know.
>I bought a guittar 4-5 years ago, around 100 totally blinded, havent even seen one in person or know remotely how it works
> Not the best guitar but still sound good today. >Practise day after day not like a job or an obligation, just having it and play from time to time when bored.
>Actually capable to play all songs i like without any problem and experiment.
>Now I have a guitar, a piano and a violin. One of the best invested money in my life.
What instrument are you thinking of anon and what kind of songs would you like to play?
>25
>at uni
>basically an old man to the other students despite them being way more mature than me and having way more life experience and accomplishments
>they assume I can lead a group setting and get offended when I'm too shy to even talk out loud
pls help
anyone starting to legitimately hate their mom's?
My mother has turn into a complete fucking cunt since she turned 50 and gotten too fat to walk. She bitches and bitches. I'm having a good day and she just fucks it all up and makes me feel like shit. I go shopping and she bitches about the apples, bring milk and she bitches because i didn't bring the right brand. Constantly fucking nagging nonstop. No breaks, she's miserable so she fucks the day up for everyone.
>>29534097
>20-25 is also the time your highschool friends start going their own way, so you probably have to find new friends too.
>25
>Still haven't found new friends
JUST
>>29536273
where are you right now? is this reddit? no
>>29536302
What does my post have to do with reddit? I actually don't go there so I'm not sure
>people are having kids at my age
>mom won't let me have a dog
Fuck, someone end me.
25 years old here.
I had friends in college (either from school or from babby's first job that was filled with people my own age group).
Now I'm stuck in some shitty office with people in their 40s-60s who I just can't relate to.
This sucks.
25, two months left before I lose my IT job, worthless history degree, so fucked when it comes to finding a new job. Life gets very boring the older you get, realizing I'll always be a fucking cyborg.
>going back to school and starting a masters degree in a month
>anxious as fuck that I'm not going to be able to make it
I can't even email my fucking supervisor because I'm too anxious.
>born in the south
>baptized catholic
>not a spic
>don't remember childhood
>elementary school was nice tho
>got prescribed ritalin for "adhd"
>quit meds in middle school cause straightedge
>grades plummet but coast by because of the bell curve :^)
>start listening to psychedelic music and smoking pot in high school
>pine after one-itis until an acid trip convinces me that true love doesn't exist
>get a qt blonde gf in college
>rawdog everyday
>not into drugs tho
>super clingy too
>wanted to get married
>wasn't sure i could stand her being the only girl i ever had sex with
>break up after a year
>be single for a while
>meet qt brunette classics major pothead
>trip mdma at a rave and get best bj of life
>go out for six months
>develop schizophrenia while dealing lsd
>ask her to marry
>she breaks up with me
>fail all classes
>drop out of college
>put in psych ward
>live at home with parents
>no car (can't drive)
>partially retarded from hardcore antipsychotics
>collect neetbux and drink beer and smoke weed all day
>had sex with a gay dude out of loneliness
>now i got genital warts
>turning 26 next week
>too stupid now to go back to school
>5 year gap in resume
>no skills to speak of
>tried to kill myself but failed
>now on hardcore antidepressants
>penis doesn't work much anymore
>float through a colourless haze
>family tells me "just b urself and get a job"
>read books on anti-cosmic gnosticism
>look forward to death with glee
>college was the best years of my life
>now nothing will compare
