When did you first realize that it doesn't get better?
>>29518011
2010, Sophomore year. Literally the loneliest year of my life.
>>29518011
A long time ago. People always tell you to hold on, that there's light at the end of the tunnel. I've reached the end of the tunnel and found only a wall.
12. I came to realization that I had no self control and was doomed to fail.
When I was 18. Now I pretend my life has purpose just to mask the nihilism.
I'm still struggling with this fact, still doing the panicked hamster wheel thing.
Turned twenty-six in April. So about two years ago.
>>29518011
When I was five years old, after my parents divorced.
Was 7 or 8. Really wanted to sneak out and get killed in the nearby highway. When I did sneak out there weren't enough cars for a good chance at dying. Told parents I sneaked out because I say a cool looking cat.
Started to appreciate the irony in a perverse sort of way. It's like life fucks you in such a predictable way every time you try to dig your way out you stop caring.
There's a certain peace in knowing you've reached the bottom before and could reach the bottom again.
>>29518124
i can relate to this but i kind of know it won't. i just figure there's nothing else to do and am biding my time until i inevitably kill myself.
