When was the last time you were genuinely happy?
I honestly can't even remember, I want to say some time in my childhood but I don't know nothing sticks out. Maybe when I had hopes and dreams.
Nowadays it's just distractions after distractions to make it to the next day.
When I got really drunk a year ago
Probably not a good sign desu
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Wednesday
I was on a "date" with a qt gurl
We drank a smoothie and she showed me how to longboard
We talked for a lot of hours
Yesterday was also an okay day but the happy moments were all short
I went to a lake with a few qt girls, but I was scared a lot
Talked to a qt gurl whilst swimming and I was kinda happy
She was super nice
I didn't have friends for years
The 3 months of mental hospital stay almost fixed my anxiety
Now I only have to kill the depressions and borderline
Soon I will be normal
We're all going to make it
There are several times in the past I can think of when I was genuinely happy. But they're all distant. The most recent being mid-December, I guess. Such a fleeting thing, because then I fucked it all up on Christmas Day and here we are 6 months later of never fixing it, resenting myself the whole time, because it became impossible to fix this month. When will I next be happy? I'd like to say "soon, right? I just need to get over this, right?" but I dunno. It could be soon, it could be in a year, it could be next year.
I'd like to feel genuine happiness sooner rather than later. Until then, I just need to accept that I'm an idiot, get over it and I guess just keep busy.
