Clinging to the home that one day I'll magically change to be an alpha chad
>>29472316
Im a bit of a coward. But mostly I'm just waiting to have nothing left to lose. My mother is getting fed up, my father sees me as his biggest mistake. My little brother looks up to me still and I feel bad that he is going to be an only child soon and he doesn't even know it. It's killing me inside.
>>29472316
I'm only on r9k because im too lazy to really get a girl. If i actually tried, I honestly could get one whenever I wanted. But im 20 years old and in college. The last thing i need is dramas from some gf. See friends going through it, my whole gameplan is to get a successful career, gain money , then live the bachelor life style and fuck 10/10 women.
Im a very shallow dude
19 is too young to end it all. Plus I'll miss all of the cool future tech.
>>29472316
I stay alive for two family members, and I cling to the pathetic fantasy that I am worth something, and that life will change one day if I just apply myself and hang in there. A pathetic loser fantasy.
But when those two family members die, I will die as well. I'll make sure of it.
Maybe tomorrow I'll wake up somewhere better.
I feel like things will be better.
I also feel like it's not my time yet. I'll miss something if I do.
>>29472316
I've almost died on 3 separate occasions 2 of which were drowning the other was by nearly getting ran over
God can't fucking decide if he wants me dead or not so I'm just gonna wait for him to make his mind up
>>29472316
i'm doing some investments so my family keep some properties instead of the bank after I die, after that I can start my master plan
Spite. I feel like most people will be glad I am dead. So I stick around and do absolutely no good for anyone.
