This is not an /lgbt/ shitpost/shillpost, I have never been to that board and I never will go there. I would ask this question there but I know I'd just get bullshit hippie lovey dovey answers.
My questions:
1. Should I accept that I am bisexual, or fight it? I really like penises and testicles. Nothing else about the male form really, but those things arouse me greatly.
2. If I shouldn't, how do I fight it? If it helps, I've never masturbated to anything even remotely gay (i.e. traps)
3. If I should, how? I feel ashamed of my thoughts and feelings, like they're wrong even though I am not religious.
I really could use some advice, and I trust some of you will give some wisdom that could help me a lot.
Lmao anon it's really simple
I wish I had some dark insightful answer for you but it's honestly just try it.
Go out and suck some dick if you can and if you hate it just never do it again.
If you have feelings repressing them won't make them dissapear forever.
I mean you may do it once and figure out you hate it.
>>29451561
I don't think you should feel ashamed about it. It is what is it, if that's what arouses you, I don't think you should flagellate yourself for it.
If you want to masturbate to traps, then go for it. However, I wouldn't 'embrace' it too intensely, as traps as people are usually awful relationship material.
>>29451650
The issue is that going out and sucking some dick sounds awful, just like going out and fucking some girl sounds awful. If I were to go gay, I would want a long term, committed relationship.
If I were to do it once and realize I hated it, I'd have to wake up every day knowing I am "that guy who's sucked a dick." If I had a wife in the future, she'd have to kiss a guy who has sucked cocks. Nothing wrong with it morally, but to me it doesn't seem like it fits in the plan.
>>29451652
I don't like traps because I can feel the insanity even in their "cute" pictures. I would never date one, or even sleep with one, because of that.
I just really like cocks and balls.
>>29451698
Yeah I'm bi myself and coming to accept it wasn't so direct. I retract my advice, it wasn't very good. I apologise.
For my own personal bi life I just don't live it any differently as basic as that sounds.
I flirt with guys and girls and that's all there is.
Sorry that I cant really help anon, wish you all the best in your possible dick quest.
>>29451792
Don't worry about it, it's not bad advice, it's just not for me.
I appreciate you stopping by and trying to help at the least, thank you.
>>29451561
Same situation. Advice? Take advantage where you can. Its a whole new world out there. Think carefully about who you want to know though. Be smart. You'really in the unique position of being able to comfortably live a straight social life if you pleased. Per example I truly wish never came out to my family. On the upside. Last Saturday zero interest was being expressed in me until I started making out with a Qt gay guy. Suddenly his gal pal wanted was grinding her ass against me and touching me up. Didn't mind when she found out I wasn't gay and we made it out.
Ride the rainbow train for all its worth and milk the fuck out of a lucky situation.
Bamparoo
Advice is greatly appreciated. I just want to play with balls, but not be a bad person.
>>29451934
I guess anon, but I don't want to live the kind of life where I'm making out with random people, or grinding with random girls. There's nothing wrong with it, it's just not the life I want.
My biggest issue is that I feel like I love a man, but I want biological children. I struggle greatly with all of this.
Former denial biscum here. You're right about doing it with some random stranger being a bad idea, I learned that the hard way. Get a bicurious/bi/gay qt you can experiment with steadily. Nobody has to find out either, if that worries you. I wish I hadn't wasted my first confusing times with people whose faces I don't even remember.
Also, don't ever tell women you want to get with that you also like dick, they'll lose all respect for you.
>>29452052
I thought about the second thing, and you're right, I'd never tell a woman I like dick.
I feel even experimenting like that is doing a disservice to my future long term SO. I don't know. I'm fucked backwards and forwards in this strange collection of ideas I have about relationships and how things should be.
Are you happier being out?
>>29452100
It was certainly relieving to sort out that internal self-doubt, go ahead and experiment to your heart's content.
If by "out" you mean I go around telling my parents and friends I enjoy the hot beef injection and dressing up as a fairy spring butterfly at Pride then no. My private life is my own damn business. It's okay to like dudes, just don't be a giant faggot about it.
>>29452338
I see, well I respect that that's how I would do. That's the same philosophy I want to employ. I'm glad it's not just me who feels that way.
Another bump
It would really help if some more gay or bi anons could guide me a bit.
>>29451561
You should kill yourself for being a degenerate faggot.
>>29452545
Oh, okay, thanks for the advice.
I'm looking at some pictures of balls online, and I really want to hold them and suck them. I can't repress being a homo any longer I don't think. I feel ashamed.
>>29452704
Don't be so hard on yourself. It took me a year before I acted on my gay impulses. Eventually drank a fair amount of vodka, went to gay party and kissed a guy. Ended up feeling totally right. Even if it hadn't, not a big deal. A lot of people experiment at some point in their life, doesn't make you 'tainted'.
desu I agree with >>29452052
I wasted my first few times as well, shitsux. Idk about the whole women not respecting you cuz you like cock thing though, I've never had that happen to me lol
>>29452932
I understand, thank you for the advice. I don't plan to waste my first time, that's for sure.
I'm glad others can relate at least. Did you enjoy your experiences? Is anal sex really common? The idea of any butt stuff scares me.
>>29452962
I've had good and bad experiences. Anal is common but not mandatory. My best experience was one where I actually didn't have any condoms so we could only do BJ stuff, but he had a really nice cock so idk. Butt stuff can be fantastic, but i'm biased cuz I've been into butt stuff for a long time, even back when i was a "straight guy who just happens to like things up his ass."
OP, Bi-curious guy in the exact same situation as you are.
Let me share my story, thoughts, and feelings.
I feel like all of this stemmed from watching too much porn. I think the closest bridge in the gap is blowjobs, cumshots and bukkakes. It gives you the thirst for cock, and the obsession with going out and sucking one. It's probably got a lot to do with my narcissistic and addictive personality and admiration for my own penis.
I've gone through so many cycles of surpressing it and accepting it that I couldn't tell you where the fuck I'm at, everything is a complete blur. I download Grindr, make plans to meet with some guy, masturbate, delete the app, hope I don't ever see any of the guys I chatted to in public, and masturbate to girls excessively afterwards.
Kenjataimu: The period after you orgasm where your mind is at full clarity.
When you cum you know that the homosexual lifestyle is a complete joke. It's accepting degeneracy into your life and making you less of a man. The man inside you will always try to fight back, and that's exactly who you need to listen to. You can be confident with what you masturbate to, just don't make it who you are and keep it in the fucking bedroom at night alone with you and your hand. You're never going to go anywhere in life and you'll end up as one of these old faggots with wrinkly tanned as shit skin, a tank top and slight beer gut, a gold chain, nasty chest hair (unless you havent already shaved it), a fucking neon green speedo and some expensive designer sandals.
Do you want that kind of faggot lifestyle?
I'm just saying.
Will conclude in pt 2
Too big I guess
>>29453111
This is informative, thank you.
So how did you begin meeting people? Were you already pretty normie/extroverted, or did you use online sources? Is giving BJs as fun as it looks?
I don't think the thoughts will ever go away. They fuck with your ability to perform with girls. If we even managed to get a girl, it wouldn't matter because we're mentay ill and WILL fuck it up.
It's not a sexuality it's a sickness of the mind to be quite honest. If that means we're going to be fucked in the heads for the rest of our lives, well, at least we haven't sucked another dudes dick, right?
I don't know man, life is shitty.
We as a species need to call it a day and pack our things.
>>29453124
I know that kind of lifestyle, and I wouldn't want it for anyone, much less me.
I feel a bit different though- I never really bought into the "born this way" argument. There's a lot of stuff to counter it, and not a ton of truly solid evidence for it, but in my situation I think I might be an exception. I always felt porn was dirty, so I never watched much, and when I did it was just lesbian or striptease stuff.
I just always had a thing for seeing dicks, thinking about other guys dicks, it's weird.
I've had some feelings for men that extend to more than just homo lust for balls and cocks, true oneitis territory, but I have no desire to sleep around and suck random cocks. I know the fear of not wanting to be the guy who had sucked cocks, but still, it seems fun.
I am still listening, thanks for the advice so far.
>>29453163
In a way I think all sexual behavior could be boiled down to mental illness, it's a strange animalistic thing. I know what you mean, but I"m still conflicted. I don't disagree though.
>>29453248
>oneitis for a guy
OP I think you may be lost at this point.
I've never felt that way, just attracted to penis and now full body.
What do you mean exactly? Like you were friends with a guy and developed feelings for him?
You saw a cute guy and developed a crush?
This wasn't someone online in a different country, was it?
Either way, I think that you need to think more righteously. I disagree with what the other guy said - you will be tainted. You'll be less of a man and you'll always remember it.
Women are dreadful and men are disgusting.
These feelings truly make you see how awful people are from all sides.
>>29453124
>>29453163
nah fuck this guy. Self-loathing and suppression is what will actually fuck you up in the end. If it makes a difference I actually lost my virginity to a girl and i'm gay as fuck (didn't realize that at the time though). Hasn't affected my ability at all.
>>29453143
I met people at parties for the most part. I'm definitely not extroverted but alcohol helps. Going back to wasting my first few times though, all I had were one night stands, still haven't had a steady relationship. There's definitely a hook up mentality with gay guys, it sucks.
Also, BJ's are awesome. Few things as hot as watching a guy squirm with pleasure from sucking their dick.
>>29453398
Surpression and self-loathing is infinitely better than being a fag.
OP I'm your angel and the other guy is satan.
Remember that.
>>29453372
I have grown disdainful of women because in all of my experiences with them, they've just been lying, manipulative, evil things. I met a guy one state over online who I feel something for, completely for his personality really as I have no clue what his body, dick, balls, whatever look like, just face and that he isn't fat. I didn't see his face until much later into talking with him though.
I don't know man. It's not a porn fueled fetish thing, it feels bigger than that, love that kind of thing. Not that I don't think penises are cool, but I'm most confused because it's not a porn inspired penis fetish, it's a full on emotional thing.
>>29453398
I agree that self loathing cannot be good for you, but there might be some truth in what he says, maybe, I don't know. I have no experience obviously with any of this so I don't know where I stand exactly.
It sucks that a hook up mentality exists, that sounds terrible to me.
BJs do sound really fun.
>>29453488
Well, I don't know how much more of help I can be. The decision is yours. For me personally, I HAD to know, but that's just how I am. If I hadn't figured it out once and for all it would've driven me crazy. I think it also helped that I was in a very accepting environment (very liberal college campus for my undergrad). I personally feel like if I had suppressed those feelings they would have manifested as something more harmful later on.
You do you. As I said, I don't think you would be tainted if you go out and kiss a guy just to try it one night. To be honest it'll probz fade from memory after a year just because it didn't inspire anything worth remembering. And finally, to reiterate, BJs are fucking stellar from both ends.
>>29453677
Thank you for all the advice, you've been very helpful.
I don't think I'll publicly come out or anything but I can definitely tell I am bisexual.
I feel a little bit of residual shame, but I'm sure it will go eventually.
It wouldn't be so bad to try, so long as it was just a kiss. Also I bet.
Thanks again, I'm off for the night.
