So, what's happening in your life right now? Good, bad, or whatever.
>My mom left this morning to go to Yellowstone alone, she's in Iowa now (I'm in Indiana).
>Just got a job at my local movie theater
>trying to talk to a girl that might or might not be interested in me, I legit can't tell
>thinking about actually producing one of these scripts I'm writing.
>>29428510
Hoosierfag here too. Have a stable summer job to get some money before I start college at IUBloomington. It's sort of cutting into the self-studying I wanted to do, but eh. I'm also feeling Gucci because I know what I want to do and have a direct goal and focus.
Unfortunately, I'm a blackbot going to a predominantly white/asian liberal college, so my dating prospects are fucked.
Bad.
Can't find job. Just sit at home, don't do much of anything, despite having a Bachelor's degree. Parents think I'm just lazy, but they don't know I gave up because I simply couldn't find any jobs.
I've been toying with the idea of moving to a different city - the capital of my state - in order to have a better chance at finding a job; but a part of me thinks that even there, I won't find a job, and I admit that in many ways, I just want to run away from the judgment of my parents.
I can't wait to die.
>finally got some dr pepper
>talking with a guy I really like
>downloaded the bioshock games
>gotta watch the new re: zero, mitb, and raw
things are pretty good right now
I'm on abilify, because my psychiatrist thinks I'm bipolar and OCD. I do not agree AT ALL with the bipolar diagnosis.
I'm complying with the meds because I believe in giving it a fair shot and I'm also a good goy
Side effects have been remarkably mild minus the headache and slight weight gain.
It's more in the name that frightens me. I'm on an antipsychotic. They give this to Schizo's and actual bipolar cases. God Almighty.
I want off this stuff because I just don't think it's what I need. I'll see my psychiatrist on Thursday.
That's my life rn
>>29428712
>being homosex
>>29428661
Find the job before you move.
>>29428791
>mad he doesnt have a bf and couldnt get a gf
>>29428820
I have a gf tho. Take your meme sexuality and go
>>29428846
>has a gf
>still posts on /r9k/
Why dont you go pretend to be an alcoholic at an aa meeting too?
We all know you only hang out here for attention
>>29428893
You'd probably like her. She's sympathetic to the retarded.
>>29428805
Probably don't get hired because they see my application and they see that I'm 600 miles away. I'm not applying for high-end positions, only entry-level shit, so why would they even continue looking at my application upon seeing I'm from the middle of nowhere when they probably get tons of applications from the general area anyways.
Honestly bretty ok, im not a neet for the first time in 3 years and got a job at a grocery store. Im going to be getting my drivers license soon and im trying to save up to buy a car.
I might get quite rich this year and can't imagine how to handle it. What do I tell people why I'm not working?
I've got a new job and my own apartment. I want to kill myself more than ever. I'm not sure if it's effective, but I've been repeating the idea like a mantra on my commute in order to solidify it in my mind and overcome my fear of death.
>>29428962
tell em youre retired
>Mom and sisters family going on vacation without me.
My mom finally invited me when I told her i have no money after i quit my job, and theyre all ready to go, theyve been saving up money for a while it seems.
And she avoids inviting me until she knows i can't go on purpose. When i had a job she knew i had to ask for days off 2 week in advance so she'd invite me during those 2 weeks. I asked her to give me a heads up sooner but she's done it multiple times.
>texted dad happy fathers day yesterday
He didn't respond. He was here this morning to see my sister, didn't know until he left.
Basically my relationship with my family is falling apart. My mom always told me shit about how much she needs money to pay bills or whatever but she's always going out of town and taking trips and i feel like she just lies to get me to give her more of the little money i had (i already gave her 60% of my paychecks not including food i bought etc). I don't trust my family and i fear i won't love them soon.
I would've killed myself already but i love my dogs too much, i hope some day ill move away and live alone with my dogs and my family will never find us
>>29428510
I'm currently experimenting health issues. I expect to get cured in some months, this year at least. Besides this I'm perfect, I just want my health back.
>>29429008
At 24?
>>29428510
My brother got out of jail.
He's a low-mid level drug dealer. He beat the shit out of some guys that owed him money and wouldn't pay up. He was only in for a week. Realistically he totally deserves to be in jail, but hey, family's family, I guess. Whatever.
My Mom was in some womens shelter for a while after getting some coke that was actually some kind of meth or some shit. I don't really care, I don't think of her like a mother anyways.
Anyone in a similar situation?
started running everyday
started eating kratom
been improving my drawing skills
trying to diet
i went clothes shopping by myself for the first time
>>29429553
thatll be their reaction then you can brag
I met a fembot we went out on a date I was a sperg she hasn't replied to my text as much.. I want to kill myself cause she was perfect
>>29428510
I'm 20 and i just got a 6 figure income job, feels good :)
have (in my opinion) a 9+/10 gf
about to graduate college...
What do I do now that I already won life? Won't it be boring?
>>29429618
To start, you can stop making things up on an anonymous internet forum
>>29429562
Woah what a cool lie
>>29429631
Lol whatever you say, it's not made up though
The job is a computer science internship (it's 45$ an hour 40hrs a week, plus free housing in a pretty expensive city) which i got because I'm top 5 gpa in my class at a really good tech school with over 8000 students
>>29429562
im so glad im not black
>>29429646
>tfw anon thinks your situation is too bad to be true
>>29429675
I'm white, kind of poor though. /blue collar
Well, it seems that it's time to tell of the glorious day that almost was.
>be me
>be on my birthday, today
19, btw
>be having no money to self-gift for myself
Which is a bummer
>no friends that give a fuck
>sis is a christian nutjob, bro is in jail
>Mom feels like shit having her kids spiral out of control, and I'm the only sane one
>I say to Dad (divorced, also living with shitty sister, may god bless his fractured soul) Haply Father's day since he couldn't come over
>look for jobs everywhere, rejected at those jobs 'cause they're overstaffed, and no money to spend or pay bills
>inb4 I'm asking for attention/pity
I'm honestly not, it's just me venting. I just want to be normal a bit, and not feel like a hamper and failure towards her. I just want to be nice, ffs.but most importantly, I want a b-day I can look back on, not with sorrow.
>Living with family and lil brother, they don't bother me with anything as long as I help cleaning the house and shit
>Doing first year of chemical engineering, left industrial eng because I preffered chemistry so basically 1 year wasted, doing pretty well now
>Going to gym and kick boxing lessons
>Lost two dogs last year (one of old and another of poisoning) I still miss them so much, animals are better beings that humans itselfs, they are loyal and are there everytime you need them
I've got one more exam left for uni this semester, it should be pretty easy. But i'm running low on money so i should try to get some work soon. Having a gf is expensive, and ive been wearing the same pair of shoes for the last year and a half.
>develop vision problems
>doc diagnoses me with graves disease
>one week before overseas vacation with parents
>have to tell dad i cant go
i just know hes going to freak.
does anyone else have a dad where you would just rather be quiet than give them bad news? its fine as long as everything is going well, but when its bad news...jesus christ.
>friend i have crush on wont text me back
>manic forgot meds twice today
>smoking a joint rn til meds kick in
>want to stop taking them because they do everything weed does (CBD), but with more/worse side effects
>mostly bothered by dissociation symptoms that i had quit weed so they would stop, but feels like theyre worsening
>no idea who i am anymore
>idgaf
>start new job tomorrow nervous that i'll get fired (again) because of mental illness
dissasociating hard right now, just trying to focus enough to actually get something done. I'm fresh out of the hospital after having a potassium defeciency and feeling like I was going to die (irregular heartbeat)
it made me realize I've messed up hard letting my depression and schizophrenia hold me back for five fucking years and I should do something about it, but im so mentally fucked I don't know how to function at all.
on the other hand in the meantime of being batshit insane ive somehow managed by the grace of god to pick up animation and am now an independent sfm porn artist, so thats fun.
>1 week left of college
>3 weeks worth of work left
>everytime I do 3 hours of work I spend the rest of my day off doing nothing
>sleep cycle is cancer changes every 3 days
>autistic, depressed and never really made friends irl, have a good amount of hobbies and interests but nothing very common and always felt isolated
>only two close internet friends and close family
>one friend of mine is total shutin but decided to start a farm with her parents, decided screw it I have nothing else I'm doing with my life and joining her, in usa for summer as long as I can legally stay and may try to move here
>other friend I have everything in common with, but he fell in love with me and I just came to terms with realising I'm a lesbian, but I'm right-wing and care about family enough he convinced me to try something anyway
>feel like I'm always going to be unhappy in certain ways in life even though in a lot of ways my life is better than it's ever been, sometimes feel momentary happiness but usually struggle to find joy in things, probably would've committed suicide a long time ago if I didn't care for my family so much
>mfw I have no face to put an image with post because just got new pc
>summer term has started at school, im despising every moment
>Grandmother has been hospitalized for over a month but is showing progress
>Pupper is on the brink of death, probably only has a few weeks left
>Finalizing plans to see my bf next month
>>29430109
My dad's the same, man.
