Why am I only alert when on some kind of mind-altering substance

Thread replies: 6
Thread images: 2

Alcool
2016-06-21 02:15:51 Post No. 29426882
[Report] Image search: [Google]

File: no-ten-new-ik.jpg (18 KB, 435x510) Image search: [Google]

Alcool 2016-06-21 02:15:51 Post No. 29426882 [Report]

Why am I only alert when on some kind of mind-altering substance ?

I am a very passive person most of the time. I never get excited about anything and always see the worst in everything. I can't emphasize with anything. I have no hope and no passion in life, Even if my life is pretty ok in comparison to a lot of people in our society. I fake nearly all my feelings (if I even care at that moment). I'm not awkward in public even if I'm not a charismatic person either (though I feel I could be, but don't have enough motivation to keep it going if it happened). I traveled a lot, saw shit, lost people, experienced thrill, had gfs and had sex. I've been through alcohol coma, did mushrooms and smoked weed as much as the next guy.

But more and more as I go I'm just numb. And only when I'm under some alcohol or other drug do I start to get ideas and feel again, just to see that go away the next morning.

Of course i'm not the only one that feel that. How do you cope with that shit ?

>>

Anonymous 2016-06-21 02:19:17 Post No.29426938
[Report]

Anonymous 2016-06-21 02:19:17 Post No.29426938 [Report]

>>29426882
>Why am I only alert when on some kind of mind-altering substance ?

No.

How do you cope with that shit ?

Keep alcohol/cocaine/coffee/cigarettes/ in my system at all times.

>>

Alcool 2016-06-21 02:19:30 Post No.29426943
[Report]

Alcool 2016-06-21 02:19:30 Post No.29426943 [Report]

>>29426882
I'm drunk right now. I wouldn't care to make this shit thread if I wasn't.

>>

Anonymous 2016-06-21 03:06:47 Post No.29427769
[Report] Image search: [Google]

Anonymous 2016-06-21 03:06:47 Post No.29427769 [Report]

File: Bonobo biting sticks.jpg (34 KB, 403x600) Image search: [Google]

34 KB, 403x600

Ernest Hemingway said
"Write drunk. Edit sober."

You know if you only feel when you're altered it might be indicative to a repressed ... everything. I'd honestly prescribe that you find a place or spot that you won't be heard if you yell and scream. Then do so. Work yourself up into a sweat and yell with your whole body flexed.

Then control your breathing and go back to life.

As dumb as that all sounds, I bet you'll begin to regrow your deadened feels.

>>

Anonymous 2016-06-21 03:08:58 Post No.29427800
[Report]

Anonymous 2016-06-21 03:08:58 Post No.29427800 [Report]

You have to do the above sober though. When you're done you need to test how it went by being active in some chore or activity that you've procrastinated.

>>

Anonymous 2016-06-21 03:19:34 Post No.29427954
[Report]

Anonymous 2016-06-21 03:19:34 Post No.29427954 [Report]

>>29427769
But I don't procrastinate though. I do all my chores because the thought of having chores to do is too much to handle. I try to do the least possible, to have the least worries. And if that means doing all the shitty chores as quickly as possible, that's what I'd do.

This is how out of touch I am. I just live to not live.