Is anybody else here prone to panicking, fear and paranoia?
I often get the feeling I'm about to be "found out" or that something terrible is going to happen and ruin my life forever.
Anybody know this feel?
Please respond.
>>29420282
Get a job.
original advice
>>29420282
I know this feel. But I have OCD and get severly obsessed with this shit. I hope you don't have OCD. Normalfags don't know what the fuck they're talking about when they say they have it.
kill yourself you attention whore, if you were actually paranoid you wouldn't post about it here where we can see it
>>29420282
Have you tried working for a low wage?
>>29420282
"Found out" about anything in particular? Or is it irrational?
yep, I have no secrets that would negatively impact my life except the porn I occasionally fap to(nothing illegal of course) yet I still live in fear and a life of secrecy.
>>29420311
I have a job already. I haven't missed a single day of work in two years, even when sick, because I feel like my boss will sack me.
>>29420313
I also have OCD yes, pretty badly too. When I was a teenager and my mother moved the TV in the living room to hoover behind it I would notice even if it was moved by an inch and would angry as hell and often trash the room. My friend came over one time and I told him not to touch my PC and when I came back from the bathroom he joked that he had and I pushed him over. It's not so bad now but I still hate people touching my things and I always have things in order and so on.
>>29420336
I don't know what you mean?
>>29420374
I'm the same. I mean there's nothing that people could really find out about me, but still I feel I'm prone at all times to having the curtain lifted for a crowd of people behind it to start laughing at my expense. Is it narcissism? Autism? Paranoia? Retardation? I have no idea but I feel like a rat always scurrying around trying to stay out of sight.
>>29420374
>occasionally fap to
Are you sure? Not wanking 5 times a day then?
Are you a closet tranny OP?
I'm not even joking.
>>29420414
social phobia, guilt and shame. people like us are just fucked up.
>>29420446
the stuff i regularly watch is rather vanilla but sometimes I whip out the t-girl stuff.
>>29420478
I was talking about the frequency of the masturbation not the porn you watch
>>29420338
Irrational as far as I can tell. I mean I live a pretty pathetic lifestyle and maybe people wouldn't think that since I don't conduct myself in a pathetic manner, but still I feel like people are just tolerating me and that one day I will fail in some way and everyone around me will turn on me and tell me how they really feel. I feel under pressure at all times to succeed or to at least not fail. I feel I am a burden to everybody and to society itself and that by not ending my life I am just being stubborn and leeching on the world despite showing no real desire to be a part of it and not justifying my place in it. I feel anxious and uptight at all times.
>>29420462
OP here. No I'm not trans nor do I wish to be. I'm heterosexual, though I suspect many people have believed me to be gay on account of my "cute" appearance and apparent disinterest in pursuing women.
>>29420510
once or twice a day. why would the amount be shameful?
>>29420511
That sounds like pretty serious depression if its true. Have you spoken to a doctor?
>>29420559
That amount isn't. I was just wondering if it was excessive
>>29420282
I used to have this. The fear made me not realize how long and arduous my days were.
>>29420568
No I'm very reluctant to speak to a doctor. I just hate speaking with a stranger about such things as I feel unless I get to know them over time they will simply hear superficial information and use it to categorize me and prescribe me the relevant pills. Not that psychiatry doesn't exist for a reason but still, I am a stubborn individual and like to solve my own problems without adopting a position of inferiority and helplessness. I don't really comprehend depression and if I am depressed then depression has simply consumed my perspective and disposition for so long that I fail to understand any longer that life could be another way.
Pretty paranoid at the moment, scared of every noise and I see shadows move at night, cannot fucking sleep.
>>29420379
Do you also have weird rituals?
Like for example, one that I have is I have to have the closet door in my room open and wearing a beanie before I lay down.
I also can't take shits unless the shower is on, my hair is tied back and my shirt is still on. I uses to think this was normal behavior.
>>29420282
must be the CP on ur hard drive u filthy pedo
>>29420877
No nothing like that. I just can't stand people imposing their own preferences on me or interrupting my own preferences in a heavy-handed manner. Though I am also worried about germs and tend to either kick doors open (not forcefully) or do so with my sleeve over my hand, and when the cleaners at work come in at night and move my monitors around I feel immense anger when I arrive at work and see them moved and it takes me like 10 minutes to get them in exactly the right place, I also hate people forcing me to become a part of their lives, e.g. neighbours above walking loudly, people turning up the temperature at work and effecting everybody, people turning on the radio at work and forcing everybody to listen to that station rather than using earphones, and people saying projecting their own preferences onto me with the assumption that I share them, such as my mother entering my dark bedroom when I'm home and insisting I would prefer it if it was lighter. I am very easily overwhelmed by external phenomena and I honestly and reasonably disagree with the assertion that I should simply "get over it" or "suck it up" etc because I think that makes a person apathetic and callous and so on.
>>29420877
>>29420991
OP here again. I must add however that in regards to rituals I have eaten the same thing for dinner after work for close to five months now:
1 pot of pre-made cheese & tomato supermarket pasta
1 packet of crisps
1 chocolate bar
3-4 apples
I have no real desire to experience (what I judge to be) excessive novelty
>>29420311
I have a job, and most of my panic attacks occur when I show up to start my shift. It sucks. I'm fine later on into my shift, but like, when i first show up, and my first hour, i'm a sweaty, anxious mess,
Me, constantly. I try to avoid being found out by never speaking. It's worked so far
>watch "the thing"
>Wonder if my dog was an alien for acting strange
count?
>leave house to get food
>pass copcar driving in the general direction of my house
>they're going to my house to arrest me
>tfw dodged a bullet
>reluctant to go back home
>finally be home, sister doesn't say anything
>they've probably discussed another date to pick arrest me and my sister is in on it
>>29420282
yes it is why i do not go to social events people will expose me there
>>29420991
>>29421038
Yep. That's OCD all right. Glad to have someone to talk to about this. I only recently got the OCD diagnosis and I've been bothered by it ever since, but it also brought me lots of revelations.
I sometimes go into tard rage for that "moving stuff" thing that you have as well, but not to your extent. I mainly get this frustrated with the discs in my CD album when they are put out of place by other family members.
Also typing this triggers me a bit because I can't truly get out all the things I want to say.
>>29420282
>tfw when you're having a hard time you narrate what's happening to you in your head, like it's a story or a documentary
>tfw you pretend you have a friend and have imaginary conversations with her in your head
I'm not really paranoid about anything, but I worry a lot about getting throat cancer and diabetes.
