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Dear M,
how could I ever fall for you? You were LITERALLY a walking meme.
You dont believe me? Look at this fucking list:
>short, colored hair
>proud atheist
>liked edgy music (fucking Casper, come on...)
>flaming bisexual
Man, if I only never met you. But alas, I now have a thing for *deranged/alternative* girls. Seriously, thanks for nothing, you dumb bitch.
t. L.I.H.
M,
Half a year. Regret, self-loathing, despair. All building more and more. Insecurities several times over. Yet I still cared about you, never insulted you. Yet was too stupid to be honest with you when we last spoke. So half a year has passed and all I can do is watch you and him be happy and close.
Logically, it makes no sense for me to care and hurt for longer than we were even close for. But I do. I've just removed any means for other people to directly contact me for now, since I just want to wallow in my own self pity and self loathing.
I have to watch you be happy with him. Accept that what I've wanted this whole time is impossible, entirely as a result of my own stupidity. I have to brush myself off and just get over it. Have being key, it isn't a choice, I don't have the option where I can just put in as much effort as possible, wave a magic wand and the two of us would magically be together. The only option now is for me to get over it. That's what's left me so bitter and filled with anger towards myself. I made it impossible to have what I want, and I'm forced to get over it and want something else in the future.
I'm sure there will be an image of the two of you kissing soon. Good for you. I truly only hate myself, no one else. Go smile in your relationship and be happy. I'm an idiot, so of course I have to live with my stupidity.
