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Lets talk about:
Doubt, life struggles, self confidence, denial, social segregation, loathing, fear, and generally all those things that keep have you coming back to these boards for the lie that is safety
Or anything else you want to talk about or get off your chest
dude all i need is a room and a steady job and I can live comfortably by myself
why in the unholy fuck is housing so stupidly expensive people in the 80s didnt have to deal with this shit WHAT THE FUCK
>>29409406
>all i need is a room and a steady job
were you fired recently? or is your current income so ridiculous a natural enticing feeling toward change has overcome your routine?
>go to medical centre to renew valium script
>new gp
>just another stupid paranoid bitch who goes on about "le magic of le anti-depressants and ssri's" and how "s-someday t-they'll w-w-work i s-swear", "y-you're too young for valium" and etc
>suggests i see a new psychiatrist because he's "giving me too much valium" like she knows any better (prob some newly grad who doesn't understand jack shit about anxiety & depression) and probably only graduated cause she sucked off the teachers
>writes me a new script for only 10 5mg ones when i was on 10mg and got 50 5mg ones last time
REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, at least she had some nice tits, but fuck that bitch
>>29409406
Because of socialism senpai.
>>29409545
yeah i got fired a couple weeks ago. burned through what little i saved up and now im on the hunt again. back to square one.
oh well
I decided to start learning how to make Skyrim mods. If that goes well I'll try applying what I learn from that towards something like UE4 or general coding.
I'm tired of waiting for things to get better. About a year ago I reflected on my goals in life and concluded that the one thing I wanted the most was to start a happy and functional family with the right woman . Anything wrong with me is just imaginary, and I can get any girl I want.
That's it, that's my ambition. As long as hypothetical wifey and junior are happy with me and junior grows up to be kickass then I'd be set, anything else is optional. But I'm weird. I'm awkward, have a shitty accent, have no idea how to get a girlfriend, all girls I talk to don't see me as more than the aloof and quiet Nice Guy, and I'm so mentally fucked I don't know if I could even break the cycle. I'm not meant for dating, getting married, or kids. I can see that even now.
So fuck that I guess, if I can't have the grown-up dream I'll go for the childhood dream. I don't know how this making vidya thing will go or how I will find motivation in the long run but it beats suicide.
>>29409633
Poor bastard. I hope it goes well man.
No kids eh? Girl?
>>29409603
I have a close friend that works as a phamacy tech, and she tells me so many stories of the twisted characters she deals with on a daily basis. But she seems fair about it, attempting to make their drugs as economically friendly as possible, finding another cheaper brand, woth the same substance, and bumping the price down. You must have gotten a real bad crew at your medical center. Bunch of bizzar students, with no self confidence
>>29409743
>the one thing I wanted the most was to start a happy and functional family with the right woman
this is a great goal, but I be careful. Don't make all your bets on one table. Besides, remember that true happiness comes from inside.
>Anything wrong with me is just imaginary
Are you losing it? What do you mean by this? Are you saying it literally? Or in the self-empowering sense, that bull-doses the homes of doubt? I really hope you meant that in any other way than the literal sense, because if you did, your losing it man. No one ever reaches perfection, because perfection itself is a malleable notion. Like good and evil. Its all perception, how you perceive the world and its flaws.
>I don't know if I could even break the cycle. I'm not meant for dating, getting married, or kids
No man, that perception is too decrepit for such a young age. You still have time to forge your mind into something with a sexual future. Its aa good tjing you adleast stive to one day find your motivation in life. Until then, make that notion what fuels you every day. Keep fueling yourself to find it every waking moment. And when you find it, everything else you want will fall into place. Chin up lad, and good luck
>>29409193
Why the fuck am I still awake!
Dammit, I have to get up early tomorrow!
Fuck my picky ass body, not letting me go to sleep while hungry.
>>29410104
Hey man your not the only still eating. I general don't sleep too much. The only time I;m sleeping is when I pass out from the kind of fatigue that my body overwhelms my mind and I can't physically stay up. Not healthy. Need new patterns
I lost the will to love; does this mean I've lost the will to live? Can I have any kind of gratifying existence if I abandon all my relationships and just move from place to place? I feel so empty, like nothing will ever complete me. I really, really hate people and my relationship right now is dead and neither of us can let go.
This is why people start taking opiates ... I would if I weren't fully aware of how stupid it is.
I hate having a job. I want to enjoy summer with my cousins and friends. Instead I'm stuck in sweating in front of a pizza oven for ~25 hours a week putting up with bitchy old ladies who think their job is harder than mine and dudes in their late 20s with no future. What's most frustrating is that girl I've been talking to. I can't tell if she's avoiding me or if she's really just super busy. I'm pretty sure this insecurity has fucked me over in the past but I still don't know if I'm doing it to myself or not. It doesn't help that I barely know how to talk to/text girls.
I've been using tinder on and off for the past month or so, and have finally got my first match. She's pretty qt and is also close by, so I'm hoping all can go well with talking to her.
She's probably a bot, though.
>>29410235
>does this mean I've lost the will to live?
No man it doesn't. I went thru the same stage a while back, a long time ago. It's an emotional manifestations, like denial, over the fact that something in your life, particularly in your social circles, is such a rotten state, that you have lost that natural essence of love. It's also due to the lack of a focus point for the love you have. This is a phase that you will naturally over come, but I have no idea how long it will take. Months maybe. Years? I'm not certain since I don't have more details, but I can assure you it will come back, and you will know when that happens, because it's presence will be too strong to ignore. That fire, the heat it puts out is marvelous.
>It doesn't help that I barely know how to talk to/text girls
remember that they are creatures, with needs and flaws, anxiety and fears. They are horny too man. They want an alpha to take over them, to dominate them. But don't go about this as a beast. Approach her as a human, who you just want to have a good time with, a laugh at the expense of another human. The best I can tell you is that they are a lot like you and me and every man on the planet. Sure their insane in different ways, but their human, with natural needs. And don't feel nervous over talking to them. Remember that they too want to laugh and have a good time. Don't stress out over being the life of the party, but be someone who, if you had a copy of yourself, a clone, you would want to relax with, or go to a party with. Someone who can interact in different settings, and be a good mirror to the situation
I'm fucking losing it man, i read both of these as one.
>>29410235
>>29410285
>>29410235
>I feel so empty, like nothing will ever complete me.
Is this from the loss of personal goals in life? Has the light at the end of the tunnel become blocked by what seems to be a storm of accounts you aren't liable for? What do you want out of life then? What needs to change? What is the alternative path, that seems to have no storms, and clear skies as far as you can see?
>I really, really hate people and my relationship right now is dead and neither of us can let go.
Whats going on here man? Is this an outcome of the loss of objectives? This happens to a lot of us. We lose the notion of personal worth as a human due to the lack of accomplishments we were promised. And why the girl? Is she still the same person as when you meet? Or is she detached, looking for any reason to fight?
>>29410285
>I hate having a job.
What did you picture you would be doing with your life? Where did you want to work at some younger stage in your life?
>It doesn't help that I barely know how to talk to/text girls
remember that they are creatures, with needs and flaws, anxiety and fears. They are horny too man. They want an alpha to take over them, to dominate them. But don't go about this as a beast. Approach her as a human, who you just want to have a good time with, a laugh at the expense of another human. The best I can tell you is that they are a lot like you and me and every man on the planet. Sure their insane in different ways, but their human, with natural needs. And don't feel nervous over talking to them. Remember that they too want to laugh and have a good time. Don't stress out over being the life of the party, but be someone who, if you had a copy of yourself, a clone, you would want to relax with, or go to a party with. Someone who can interact in different settings, and be a good mirror to the situation
>>29410299
Best of luck to you man. I'll be rooting from the bleachers
