So I think I've officially got no friends, even online at this moment. The last people I talked to kicked me out. Feels thread, especially loneliness.
MY DAD DIED TODAY 15 YEARS AGO AND I HAVE NO ONE TO TALK TO ABOUT IT
I'M STARTING TO HAVE FEELINGS THAT I MIGHT WANT TO BE A WOMAN AND I HAVE NO ONE TO TALK TO ABOUT IT
I HAVE NO THERAPIST AND I HAVE TO WAIT AT LEAST THREE WEEKS BEFORE I'M ABLE TO TALK TO SOMEONE
I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN WAIT THAT LONG
>>29403670
ill be your friend anon :0
OP here, fucking bored as shit and I don't care if anyone reads this so I'm gonna tell how I lost all my friends.
>be me
>18yo, just graduated high school
>in school, had about 4 irl friends
>years ago was part of an actual group of friends
>2 of the last 4 irl friends I had were from that old group
>the old group hates my fucking guts
>the 2 "friends" only talked to me when there was no one else around so that they weren't seen socializing with me
>the other 2 just stopped talking to me when we graduated
>had 3 more friends that i used to hang out with irl, before they moved away and now they all go to different schools
>all 3 are going to the same college, a college i desperately wanted to get into but even though my test scores were well beyond the threshold, my grades sucked ass
>1 of the friends suddenly got fed up and told me he hated me and never wanted to talk to me again
>thought he was joking, figured we'd get in a skype call and everything would be fine
>he leaves skype group
>i add him back, he tells me "stop adding me i seriously don't want to talk to you anymore" and leaves again before removing me as a contact
>skype group has had no messages in the past 2 weeks since then, despite me trying to start conversations all the time
>used to be talking every day, especially over the summer, no way that just suddenly stopped because one guy left
TL;DR: had friends, 2 stopped talking to me, the rest most likely made a group chat without me
this is a really long fucking post so i'm gonna cont it in a reply, idgaf if you read it or not
>>29403884
Fuck off newbot. You only get to gripe when you've had no friends for 6 years like me.
>>29403884
I already told the like 3 people who read the last post how i lost every single irl friend i had, here's how i lost my group of gaming friends
>be me
>16yo, sophomore, summer of 2014
>find minecraft server, i know it sounds pathetic but deal with it
>start playing a lot
>make awesome group of friends that i talked to a lot
>we had a faction that dominated the entire server, complete with a base floating in the void beyond the edge of the world, complete with 11-story-tall towers of automated sugarcane farms that made so much shit we threw half of it away because we couldn't store it all
>eventually start to slow down the playing because junior year is a really taxing year
>server falls, a couple guys from my faction make their own server
>has a dedicated group of players
>i'm in the official skype group chat because of legacy technicalities, i.e., my faction basically owns the server so it'd be weird if i wasn't in the chat
>i try to be active in the chat, but it just can't make up for not playing memercraft
>i also happen to have a good memory so i still remember everything about meinkrampft
>whenever someone has a question about the game i answer it and back it up with sources
>unfortunately it still doesn't make up for it much
>people of the chat just really don't like me in general, whenever i start talking "we don't have time for this"
>doesn't matter if it's 4am or 4pm, whether the chat is bustling or the only message in the last hour is a guy advertising his chicken farm
>i guess i'm not really wanted there
>only person there who shows any interest in me is the server operator's wife, which i don't think helps my case any in the eyes of the admins
>get threatened with removal from the chat if i don't stop talking so much
>decide it's easier to just not put in the effort to talk to them if i either get ignored or get told to stop talking
I'm about to hit the character limit so the TL;DR will be at the beginning of the next part
>>29404032
actually for my entire life i've had very very few friends, except now i have literally 0
>>29403884
why did the old group hate you?
>>29404181
TL;DR of part II, had meatcraft friends, fell out of touch, now if i say anything i either get ignored or get told to stop talking so much
>be me
>2 weeks after part I, 18yo just graduated high school
>really can't get into this because the people i lose in part III i know for a fact use 4chan, not sure if they go on /r9k/ but if they think it's me they're gonna doxx the shit out of me
>TL;DR I called someone out, they didn't like it, they took the someone's side, kick me
>that's what i was talking about when i made this thread, they were the last people i actually talked to so now i guess all i've got is you guys and vidya
>>29403726
why not talk to people on an anonymous image board in the meantime?
>>29404688
Because all the threads on /co/ I start about classic animation 404. I don't think they really like cartoons.
>>29404726
iktf, rarely get replies to threads I start here. shits rough
>graduated with engineering degree
>get internship that pays me to go to grad school then guarantees employment afterwards
>80k a year after three years including grad school
>tfw I will marry some whore of a wife once they realize I'm gonna be rich and steal all my money and I will do nothing about it because I really want kids
>fathers day at rich cousins house
>tfw my family is the poorest and least accomplished
At least I am the most attractive one there though
>>29404823
"You're the DUMBEST smart person I've ever known"
- Will Smith
>>29404789
Yeah. You have to appeal to the autists to get the thread going. That's why there's only waifufag and gay threads on /co/. It's really fucking sad.
>>29404896
Wouldn't even call myself smart, just very responsible and hardworking
Only had a 3.2
>>29404823
>i really want kids
for what reason?
>>29405076
Because I'm not a filthy degenerate
Family is the most important goal for a man
>>29405113
So you want a family because you're supposed to?
While showering I thought up a yet another sleep-deprivation-triggered wahh-poor-widdle-meee style post about my inability to real-world-apply philosophy, religion, spirituality, and other "whoa that's so deep and right" topics; the ultimate futility of pursing health, fitness, and self-improvement; what if I became rich and nullified physical problems I'd otherwise be stuck with for life, and so what it wouldn't really change anything, no matter how I look and how much therapy and surgeries I fill myself with I'd still be an introverted autist, etc.
But I don't want to spend the next two hours proofreading it for the handful of people who would read it and, even if they cared, couldn't respond except to offer e-headpats.
Instead I'll just continue wasting my time shitposting and YouTubing. Not like I was ever going to do anything productive with my thrown-away life.