>Try to interact with people
>Wind up being annoying, hurting them, making their lives worse
>Try to avoid this
>Stop interacting with people
>Wind up being annoying, hurting them, making their lives worse but in a different way
This happens both IRL and online. I can't take this anymore. I really can't.
What exactly makes you think you make their life's worse or that you hurt them?
Why do you think they find you annoying and what do you do that is annoying?
Your not the only one take solace in that at least
>>29351291
>Wind up being annoying, hurting them, making their lives worse
the fuck are you doing? gossiping behind their back? trying to solve their problems for them without even talking to them about it or something? how are you fucking up THIS bad.
>>29351333
>What exactly makes you think you make their life's worse or that you hurt them?
It's obvious. Trust me.
>Why do you think they find you annoying and what do you do that is annoying?
Everything. I've tried everything. No matter what I do I'm still annoying, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I'm innately an awful and annoying person and I'm so sick of it. I wish I weren't so passive so I could kill myself.
>>29351364
>the fuck are you doing?
if he knew he wouldn't be doing it you fucking idiot
>THE UNIVERSE REVOLVES AROUND ME
lmao, what a self centered faggot
>>29351425
You seem very likely to just have a very shifted vuew of the world, and an inferiority complex. If you are so Bad why do you still have friends? Maybe it isn't as bad as you think.
If it is however check "how to win friends and influence people"(E-Book can be found for free) basic stuff really (of course think about it and some things are wrong/idealistic but whatever) but it may help you
>>29351425
Also If this thought helps you: I have never despised or hated a Person except for one, and that is most likely not you. Stop being so hard in yourself
>>29351535
>You seem very likely to just have a very shifted vuew of the world, and an inferiority complex.
No, I'm correct, I really do make everyone else's lives worse.
I don't have any real friends. Only online ones.
>>29351570
You may not but plenty of others do. People hating me isn't the issue, anyway, it's my negative impact on the lives of others.
>>29351291
I seem to have the same problem. I don't think I am necessary making anyone's life worse but yea...my only friend doesn't seem to like talking to me anymore and neither does my family. I feel alone now but I'm not going to go out of my way to have relationships with people who seem to just get annoyed by my presence.
>>29351291
Welcome to life with PDD. The important is to try act as neurotypical as possible. Dont talk so much, dont try to show off your personality...Have a gut Shabbos, ok Reb Anon?
You should take the steps to NORMALIZE yourself.
>>29351291
I feel you desu
I used to go out with friends but I would always have anxiety attacks and get angry with everyone so I stopped.. and now everyone thinKS I hate them but I just hate myself
>>29351644
>>29351646
I don't talk much outside of to my family IRL. Only when necessary. I don't try to show off my personality, I take great care to avoid that. I still can't be normal. I've tried.
>>29351291
get a job. you'll be forced to socialize. some retail/fast food have scripts, or flowcharts on how to talk to people in friendly manner.
also, try getting a girlfriend of color. you won't be intimidated by her because people of color won't feel like they count as actual people. and that "person" will just be training wheels while you learn to socialize.
>>29351291
> what are drugs
>>29351721
>get a job. you'll be forced to socialize.
I may be forced to in the future. Get a job, that is.
>also, try getting a girlfriend of color.
I can't even make a single real friend, what makes you think I can get a girlfriend if I even wanted to? Stop.
>>29351721
>get a job. you'll be forced to socialize.
telling that to a PDD is like telling a blind person to get out in the sunlight and that'll somehow magically give him a perfect sight
>>29351291
wanna chill?
>>29351871
No.
I think I'm going to start not interacting with anyone again. While the result still hurts others, at least I'm more comfortable with it.
>>29351903
Temporarily.
I doubt this will be original so i'll just add this to make sure it is
>>29351425
How do you "annoy" people?
>>29351291
Hi OP. Let's see:
>The world doesn't revolves around you. I'm not saying this to offend but to help you realize not everyone is against you or hating you.
>Clearly you have low self-esteem. Have you talked with an analyst?
>Try to socialise as much as possible. I know, easier said than done but try. You can't be worse than many people over here and they do have IRL friends so...
>>29351291
Also can you explain exactly the way you think you're hurting others?
>>29352414
Too many ways to count. Attempting to avoid doing it one way will only lead to me doing it another.
>>29352433
>The world doesn't revolves around you. I'm not saying this to offend but to help you realize not everyone is against you or hating you.
I never said they did hate me, all I'm saying is that I'm a detriment to their lives.
> Have you talked with an analyst?
I've talked to multiple therapists, which is a meme
I've tried to make real friends since middle school and haven't had any luck.
>>29352458
I could name some specific examples. It really varies.
>>29352699
I want to talk to you more. What's your Skype? Clearly you made this thread for some reason.
>>29352699
Would it be possible to name any specific example? Thanks.
>>29352902
I'm sorry. I don't want to talk to anyone new. I've even seriously considered, as I've said earlier, no longer talking much/at all with the people I am in contact with.
>>29352910
Of the "stop interacting with people" variety, I'm awkward and creepy because I'm not social at all, people who knew my family literally would ask "what's wrong with him" which would hurt my parents, obviously, on a note not related to this previous point I led my mother to attempting suicide.Tthere's more stuff but I'd be here all day if I tried to list it all out. Of the "try to interact with people" variety, I'm not sure how to explain what happens the most, people think I'm overbearing even when I try not to be, even trying to initiate conversation visibly annoys or creeps people out. Even for stuff like forced partnered work in college plainly annoyed/disgusted them. There are plenty of other things, too.
>>29353020
You sound like my BF, OP :/ I'm really sorry... However, I'm sure the reason your mum attempted suicide (is she OK now?) wasn't directly caused by you, maybe what other people said of you caused extreme pain to her, maybe she felt she couldn't cope with raising you.
You can't be that bad of a person for sure. I would gladly sit in the backyard with you to smoke a cig and listen some music.
