>/feel/ thread
>post what you are doing, listening to
>post how you feel
>>29332065
>listening to yung gleesh
>feels pretty boss
>>29332065
Sitting on my bed coming down from an acid trip
listening to Oldie by odd future
Feel great
>what you are doing
slowly dying
>listening to
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FmZD0Wo-VYA
>how you feelsad enough to shitpost on /r9k
>shit music, doing nothing at 4 am
>feeling shit and suicidal
pretty normal desu
>Can't get over my crush for few years
>Change uni, move to a new appartment with a bunch of people
>One of my flatmates is a girl i instantly develop feelings for, she is perfect, pretty, not a slut (i am actually pretty sure she is still a virgin), does not go much, she does not even have any social networks (well she does have facebook, but its absolutely bland because she 'does not see the appeal of social networks' or whatever)
>She is the only girl other than my former crush that i felt really anything towards to in the last 5 or so years
>We get on well with each other
>Ohshitsonsheistheone.jpg
>Go out with few Chad friends of mine, they convince me to bring some of my flatmates (including her)
>I do because i was already kind of drunk and did not realize the inevitable result
>The chaddest of the group goes after her, they spend the entire night talking
>He walks her to our flat while I am drifting around the bar, drinking myself to death because all the chads paired with all of my flatmates
>The next morning he tells me that she is such a great girl that he did not even think about fucking her and then dumping her and that he'd like to develop a real relationship with her and that she is so pure that he walked her home without even kissing her
>playing omaha online
>lost, 2 girls like me, strong feelings for them both and truly care about them
>one is my forever gf wifey, other is my coolest chill best friend
>afraid of hurting either of them, thoughts and anxiety driving me insane
if I ever loved you, I'll always love you
>just kill me
>inb4 chad
>>29332249
seriously tho
is there anything I can do other than killing myself (which tbqh does seem a bit tempting because i realise that this is how it's going to be for the rest of my life)
>>29332110
>Harakiri For The Sky
my nigga
currently listening to Eurobeat mix
feeling pretty empty
Even eurobeat can't fill the void anymore
>method acting not breaking down hurting/killing myself
>listening to unname everybody
https://youtu.be/tVfJz77AuZc
>>29332326
Sorry senpai but you've already lost her if she even remotely likes him. You're best just trying to be good friends with her and getting her to set you up with one of her female friends
>>29332395
oh fuck then
she does not even have much friends either
>>29332307
literally. im reading my own post.
I hope I just die in my sleep sometimes, how can be so well off and always play myself like this
>>29332395
This. It's over for you. Sorry man. We all know how you feel.
>>29332395
>>29332249
if i asked the Chad to leave her, I am sure he would. He's not an asshole chad, he's nice Chad.
But I dont feel like ruining other people's chances at achieving hapiness just because I am pathetic beta failure is okay thing to do.
I'll just let it happen and stomach it somehow
>tfw planning out your suicide
>tfw need just a little bit more money before I can do everything I want to do
It wasn't meant to end this way, lads.
>>29332065
>tumblr_nssbe6cc5T1udrc8ko1_500.png
I'm kinda hungry right now so I'm going to get up and eat something.
>wondering why the seroquel hasn't knocked me down yet
>i took 800mg
>(just freaking out tonight)
do you think i should go buy some potato chips?
(it might hit really hard)
>>29332467
I would not mind girl not being interested in me. I mean it would not be the first time it happened.
But the fact this is first girl after LONG time that made me feel like anything other than pathetic sack of shit and the fact that any hope i had disappears the moment first Chad waltz in (which was my doing nonetheless) is fucking killing me.
>>29332065
>browsing /r9k/ and /b/, shopping for a car, and reluctantly viewing snapchat stories of my former friends having fun without me
>listening to chance the rapper
>feels like shit man. lonely, disgusting shit.
>>29332517
>seroquel
>>29332473
>stomach it somehow
jesus man, it still hits you there?
what are you 18?
>>29332517
lol 800. son id be out for 24 hours
I threw that shit down the drain, but sometimes wish I had it still incase of bad panic attacks
>>29332555
22
Being apathic to this kind of shit would be more than welcomed but the absolute apathy just wont come
>>29332307
i'm sorry bro..that seems worse in a different way then most here can appreciate
>>29332307
>if I ever loved you, I'll always love you
anon why did you have to post that, now I feel a type of way
>>29332521It will never get better for us.
>>29332570
everyone hates it, but it does it all for me: ends psychosis, ends mania, ends acute anxiety, ends depressive episodes, stabilizes mood preventing episodes, helps with adhd
>removes 1% brain volume per annum
>>29332521
devote yourself to science
I'm watching Fox News with my dad
Feels good
>>29332307
anon
you need to do something fast, you risk losing both of them
>>29332065
> work at summer camp (on off time right now)
> in training a bunch of us do activities with our supers
> "ok guys, I want to write down the time you've felt most loved"
> sit and stare at my paper
>"ha ha, anon, come read mine, and I'll read yours!"
>"why isn't anything written down anon?"
> laugh it off and tell her I was thinking about the basketball game
Hang in there lads
https://youtu.be/hPD-a1FjUtU
>be me
>fall in love with beautiful girl
>have the best relationship i've ever experienced
>we rush and move in together because we're young and about to go to school together
>move in with friends to balance it out
>it ruins us
>it ruins her
>we fight and argue and she moves out
>we try and stay together but she is distant
>she changes
>break up with her over one of our routine fights
>she just takes it
>regret it immediately.
>too late, she we cant go back from that she says
>sometimes she texts me saying she misses me, but then she always changes her mind
>shes dating someone from our school, seems happy
>moving on but cant help but think i'll never experience that again
so what am i doing anon?
i'm working on my 80th fuckin song i've written for this girl because i cant cope knowing that i had the perfect woman, who loved me completely, and i ruined everything.
>>29333802
>>29333992
your relationship failed the test
you dodged a bullet
would have gotten even worse than what you have now
I've wasted my youth around people I didn't like.
>>29334240
She was just a friend I met when I started working, we weren't close
>>29334240
logically i know that makes perfect sense but the internal longing is so strong
Listening to "You Suck Charlie" by joji
Winding down, getting ready to fall asleep
Watching the daily show with that nigger, getting slightly more annoyed at everything he says
Feeling generally sad. Nothing new. This is life now.
