What's your biggest problem right now?
>>29321394
fucked up with a girl i liked, i said i like her but wasnt sure, she liked me too.
one day i was reminiscing with buds and she came and wanted to talk
but with my social anxiety disorder wasnt even able xD
she took offense and i still havent said sorry to her
>>29321504
How old are you? Was this at college?
>>29321394
nobody trustworthy in sight
>>29321530
highschool, fellow
>>29321532
What did they do to you?
>>29321559
Don't worry, there's plenty of girls left.
>>29321394
Im not sure where i am in terms of progression with the girl I love at my job.
Basically the stats are:
>Talk every night before bed
>Kiss her (On the cheek) every day after work and take train home together
>Let me borrow her plaid shirt (hasnt asked for it back and let me have her hair clip)
>We're the two people everyone at work thinks are datinf
>Confessed my love for her, she said she likes me too
>Set up date after date weeks apart to not look desperate she never goes
>I know more about her family than she does and im cool with her little sister
Seriously what zone am I in? Friendzone? Bf-level zone? What? I feel like im just here.
>>29321394
I miss my friends.
>>29321571
what didn't they do is the more relevant question
>>29321585
theres one girl, im everyday saying to her that she looks nice, she thinks im joking.
and im not xD
>>29321618
Why don't you use webcam to see them?
>What's your biggest problem right now?
student loans
>biggest problem
>it's all relationship shit
>i'm too mentally unstable to get a job even though i need money badly
Fucking normies
>>29321630
Go behind her back and smell her hair. Girls consider that a compliment.
>>29321630
Idk why you added that "xD", you should be fucking crying
>>29321618
i miss my too
>>29321649
done a lot of things, almost always can hear 'fuck off'
my ex has come back into my life after a year and a half and i still have feelings for her and dont know how to handle this
>>29321394
I want to get good grades at university, but I'm never willing to do the work in the middle of the semester.
>>29321394
I actually have most things figured out now.
Stable job, nice friends, driver's license...
>tfw no gf
Not being able to get a girlfriend, and my hormones drive me crazy. I try not to think about sex, but it pops up all the time. I actually want to feel like shit at times just to avoid popping a semi-boner (like, on the bus). But I am not doing anything to coll this down. I never try. I avoid hot chicks because "coocie-cutter" reasons, also, thay would never be attracted to me, ugly chicks don't do it, cause they ugly, middle tier girls that are also interesting are super hard to find, and me not searching or talking to them even If some girl seems interesting and what not is shitty.
>>29321606
You're not bf level zone until she wants to go public with you. What you're saying is more like buddies, depends on you to make a move.
I have these weird feels going all over my body, face included. Kind of like the feeling when you put 9v battery on your tongue but spread in wider areas. Maybe I'm dying.
>>29321643
What do you mean by mentally unstable? Social anxiety or worse things like schizophrenia?
Basically, direction in life, trying to find something to do that makes me happy.
Perfect girl I like has cancer. She gets along REALLY well with me but holds herself back from opening up because she doesn't want me to get too invested. She's also seemingly afraid of her own happiness for fear of her demise being hard on her if she actually gets things worth living for.
>>29321667
Girls told you to fuck off? Wow, tone that autism down a notch.
>>29321668
Is she taken now? Why is she back?
>>29321394
loneliness, i want someone to talk and enjoy silence with
i don't care about the rest, i don't care that i'm probably gonna fail at uni
>>29321740
ya mean her autism? xD
>>29321559
Say sorry to her,, explain you were anxious. It's a lot easier than it feels and most of the time you can brush past it with honest explanation.
Even something like
"Look, I just like you and I'm a little intimidated so I haven't been able to say sorry..."
>>29321673
Then you don't really want it. Simple as that.
>>29321768
its so damn awkward, even dont want to, it was half a year ago
>>29321721
I mean I'm unstable fucking social anxiety has nothing to do with stability even though I have that too.
>>29321694
Did you take something, or just out of the blue?
>>29321780
No, I want it, I just run out of energy, because i'm not a normie on roids.
>>29321796
Doesn't matter. Say it and explain that as time passed by it felt awkward, but it's still bothering you and you don't wanna lose contact with her over a misunderstanding.
Do it.
What's the worst that can happen? She breaks off contact with you and hates your guts so you're literally in the same position as you are right now?
>>29321797
You mean you're a tiny baby in diapers that throws tantrums around strangers?
>>29321687
Im scared, I wanted to go for an actual lip kiss or something to elevate myself to the next level but I fear she'll stop it or say no. Idk why since we're so damn in sync but that fear still lingers.
I need to get her alone on a date and she is the person to make plans and never follow through im trying my damnest to be alpha and I even called her out on that bullshit but it seems to have led nowhere.
Maybe i should toy and flirt more over the phone
>>29321394
I want McDonalds but I'm also tired and want to sleep and I know I will have to choose one and regret not picking the other
>>29321674
>tfw no gf
Get a fat practice gf. Always works.
>>29321803
This started last weekend. But no drugs.
>>29321680
How often are you masturbating?
Erectile dysfunction.
I got a gf last night. I've tried to fuck her a few times before and nothing. I doubt it'll last. She seems to love me but can girls really love someone who can't make love to them?
>>29321825
Yeah I'm just immature cause I have a mental illness. This is why we don't want normies on our board, faggots like you.
>>29321687
Just get a date, and at the end find a nice spot to sit down with her. Get as close as possible and during a moment of silence tilt your head and kiss a little bit. Make sure she's staring in your eyes first. That's how I did it.
>>29321724
How much money do you need or want to make? Don't say a million dollars just because, what's a realistic amount?
>>29321851
Every two days, kinda.
>>29321764
How long have you been lonely? Do you want a friend or a romantic partner?
>>29321911
A million isnt a realistic amount? Boi shut the fuck up
>>29321394
Need to find translation work
Need to find soundtrack or sound design work
Moisture gets everywhere in my appartment, there's dark stains popping up on the paint
Other than that things are okay I guess.
No social circle. I've finally won the battle against depression. But those years of social isolation really took its toll. Hope to catch up with some people on fuckin normiebook.
>>29321826
drag her out somewhere, like "come outside let's go get food/movie/whatever" and it would make her feel like an asshole if she's always not following through with plans or always saying no to going out places with you
hopefully this makes sense
>>29321797
Even better. Say you're sorry now and it shows her that she was important enough to stay on your mind this whole time. Otherwise she'll feel like you never really cared about losing her. Manning up and taking responsibility for yourself is attractive, even if it takes you a while to do it. Running away out if fear isn't.
>>29321929
I want someone to stick my dirty dick cheesed meat into
>>29321821
What are your eating, sleeping, exercise, etc habits? Anything that might fuck with your energy levels?
>>29321929
i have few friends, but they don't care what i have to say and we don't share any hobbies
>>29321962
not me kek
>>29321821
take adderall/concerta once in a while to remind yourself that you're capable of doing shit if you set your mind to it
>>29321948
Youre spot on, when we talked last night she said how she felt like an arse for never following through with plans. Even for her family, Ill try that way method thank you fellow robot
>>29321869
>I have a mental illness
You have a nice excuse. You weren't able to tell me what it is, what's your behavior like.
>>29321849
Something took you higher. Electric avenue.
>>29321998
no problem:)
I think you're making progress now that she's realized her behavior is an issue, hopefully that'll lead to actual change
good luck with the girl bro :)
>>29321860
Depression, nervousness, pills, alcohol, excessive masturbation. Which one is it?
>>29321923
That's your problem. Git gud faggot.
>>29321937
I said for you personally, bitchface. And no it isn't.
>>29322012
Oh I'm perfectly able I just chose not to. Normies don't understand it.
>>29321941
Use the nutrients within the moisture to feed yourself. As for the other things, I have no idea.
>>29321985
>>29321929
i don't really know what i want, i have never been in any relationship
>>29321942
How did you make it out of depression?
>>29321394
My computers are dead
I used to work with them to earn dollary doos to buy overpriced food in my shitty country.
When your main concern everyday is food you know your country is shit.
I've fallen for a guy way too quickly and I don't think he knows me well enough to even reciprocate those feelings anytime soon.
>inb4 "fembots aren't real stfu"
>>29321394
Mild autism and using anime and video games as an escape from reality.
I matched with a qt on Tinder and wrote her in my mother tongue as she was 70 miles away and nothing made me think she's foreign.
However I managed to find her Facebook and realized she's from Turkey and she's only studying here.
If I knew it before I would have written in English.
Now I want to write her again but I hate acting like a creep.
Should I do it?
Also, why do I match with grills but then they don't answer me once I write them? I try to be nice and not too serious but damn that shit.
>>29322182
You haven't had any friends, ever?
>>29322250
>chad might not like me
Wow your life must be so hard
>>29322250
Literally "chad doesn't love me"
This isn't the place for you
>>29322310
>>29321985
^
i had and still have but i've always felt alone
i don't feel like i can tell them everything
>>29321394
My mental acuity is failing.
More specifically, my memory. I was diagnosed with clinical depression (not meme depression, hear me out first) which onset randomly 2 years ago, and ever since recovery have physically changed, lost testosterone and erection strength, am not as happy, always a tiredness, cannot function energetically for long, lost appetite and can't even feel angry without crying.
I was also recently diagnosed with Chiari Malformation, which may have been a contributing factor to what they thought was just a teenage depression problem.
Every day, pressure in my skull, and since it's getting easier, that means apparently my brain is starting to shrink at 18.
I lose memory, I can't even memorize much info anymore, my words and my sentences require dense content levels to actually convey a logical point. I feel mostly sad and disappointed, and have lost most interest in women. Thinking, doing mathematical shit or reading, anything requiring left brain, is a hassle and makes me feel a sort of pressure that just gets worse and worse. People just blame it on anxiety, say "it will get better, just calm down"; anxiety is manageable, whatever this is must be some STRONG "anxiety" then.
That could be my Aspergers at work too though, that shit makes me say things and never realize I mumbled it or said it too fast.
It has been getting worse.
I just wish I didn't feel like I was a useless, pathetic excuse of a shadow of my former self.
Sorry for sob story.
>>29322274
Send her a dickpic.
Or a kneepic.
>>29321394
>have internship with ambiguous tasks
>failing to get enough done
I'm supposed to be getting on payroll soon, but if they knew how little I was getting done, I'd be a gonner for sure
>>29322220
All of them? Why?
>>29322375
What do you want to tell them but you can't?
I like being single but theres a girl that really likese and shes my class partner who I talk to often.
Being single for the past 4 years, im not sure if I should eat this one day past expiry date croissant bread.
>>29322386
Chiari Malformation doesn't have to do with intellectual ability. You are sluggish because you haven't practiced using your mind in challenging ways. That's it. Get back on track and you'll become better. Don't believe in the "use it or lose it" defeatist bullshit. You don't write like an idiot at all, trust me you're good to go.
>>29322271
What makes anime so interesting to you guys? I don't get it.
>>29322578
What ambigous tasks?
>>29322587
The motherboard on the desktop one died and my dog bit the laptop's charger years ago and now it finally stopped working.
I can't afford a mobo so I'm working to buy a new charger. Needless to say even that is hard at the moment.
Having to spend 10% of your minimum wage paycheck for some cooking oil is depressing so I quit my two jobs to work online and after doing that my computers died a month later.
>>29322600
i don't know
i don't feel close to them
they always interrupt me when i try to say something, they don't like going to cinema with me
most of the time i feel like the third wheel
>>29322715
Have you made your dog pay for it? Why don't you PAWn your old computers?
>>29321394
Probably the daily religious drinking.
But I don't have to do anything else right now so my life is pretty kush.
Still going to try to straighten it out a bit though.
>>29322756
Have you tried being less boring? Seriously.
>>29322773
It was still a puppy back then and it was my fault for not paying attention.
I can't sell the computers because then I wouldn't be able to buy new ones.
That's what stops me from selling stuff that I bought years ago when things were normal.
I'll buy a charger and use the money I earn to buy a new mobo eventually.
>>29321835
The only problem I can truly pity ITT
>>29321394
I feel like dying. Bipolar or whatever, but I'm feeling like absolute shit.
I also realized I've never had a personality in my life.
>>29322824
i don't like partying and drinking (inb4 special snowflake)
my life is boring so i only talk about tv series, movies, music and vidya
they dont care about those things
>>29321394
money.
I need 100,000 bucks ASAP
Still think about my ex-wife (18months) too often, it's a fucking issue. Changes my moods drastically.
>>29321394
oh fuck i forgot, no textless images
>>29322871
The dog must be sacrificed to Moloch when the moon ascends to the 4th meridian. Heed this advice and your mobo will resurrect.
My undiagnosed mystery mental illness that I keep to myself makes me a secret addict. I'm miserable. Just all of the time.
>>29322997
What do you think you might have?
>>29322914
Why don't you just beecome happy?
>>29322987
Well the fucker sneaked into my room yesterday and took a shit in it so I'm tempted. He is like 6 years old he should know better by now.
>>29322918
Tell them the story of how the Colonel came across the 11 herbs and spices. Sorry that's all I got.
>>29321394
That image
It freaks me outkenophobia is suck
Waiting for a 10x better job to call me. I've been waiting 2 months now, and I have until October to get called. It's a guaranteed job since I was recommended by someone high up at the job.
I really hope I get called soon. I hate my current job and it's only getting worse and worse. After I get this next job I can also go back to school. Which I'm looking forward to.
I also have "tfw no gf," but I know I can't fix that. I'm just preparing for wizardhood.
>>29322942
What do you miss about your ex wife?
>>29323043
The worst thing is that I've lost every single bit of belief in any self determination in my life.
No matter what I plan or do, or how good I can feel at one point, I'll be feeling like absolute utter shit contemplating suicide the next day.
Every single time I feel like I've made some progress, and that I'm on my way of improving, the pendulum swings back harder than ever before.
I'm lonely.
I don't know if people like me or not.
I'm poor.
I feel like time is racing away and I can't keep up.
My doctor prescribed me medication to deal with my shit but I don't have an ID so I can't actually go get them.
>>29321394
4chan is full of white pride. i used to love my skin color and culture so much. not anymore. the fact that i'm enjoying whites' inventions, makes me hate myself. i wish i was born white and christian.
>>29323067
that's pretty funny
orignel
>>29323061
Yell in his face and make him apologize. If he doesn't, he must face the wrath of a thousand hungry Koreans
>>29321394
i am living
>>29323069
It's slippery too, so you better not fall into the abyss!
>No job
>No friends
>No social life
>Depression
>Anxiety
>Spend all today thinking about a certain twitch streamer and wishing I could spend the rest of my life with her (I hate myself for being so pathetic)
Yeah, things aren't looking so good lads
>>29323083
Check your phone
>>29323023
Heavy depression. I also suspect I have autism. I recently learned from my health insurance that I could afford to check it out but that sounds like a commitment I'm not ready for.
>>29323100
The pendulum swings because of momentum.
>>29323100
Hey anon, I'm >>29322997
I think I'm pretty successful in life but it doesn't matter terribly. I am happy in brief moments but I always end up back on the roof getting drunk and contemplating jumping.
>>29321394
"Living" with parents, remaining in one place, can't move forward, no money, no perspectives, no future.I still hope I can create my waifu app in near future...
>>29323118
Time is racing away. Death awaits you. But until then, make the best out of it. You can start by robing the pharmacy. (just kidding, please don't)
>>29323211
mum just texted me that my tindies are ready! But anon... how did you?
>>29323123
It doesn't have to be black and white. You can appreciate the unique aspects of all races. Forget the hateful drivel, as long as you're not a negative stereotype you can be proud of yourself.
>>29321394
My moms probably going to lose her job because her shitty car broke down for the thousandth time and she has to have a car for her job. I have no way to help her because I am a jobless broke college student hours away from her. I'm terrified what will happen to her and my niece should that happen, they have no savings or anything.
>>29321394
I'm physically sick and mentally unstable.
I can't believe all these "no gf" faggots.
>>29323201
Donate to the twitch streamer and she will offer you sex in return. But only if you give her all you've got she will consider a long term relationship with you.
>>29323224
Hey you might be lonely but at least you're not alone in this.
Very comforting, huh?
>>29323230
Then why does it swing back with more force than I ever gave it? Shouldn't momentum be decreasing?
>>29323253
>back on the roof
Hey man I know that feeling all too well.
What exactly is making you miserable then, if not your lack of success? Loneliness?
>>29321394
I don't know what to do with whatever time I have remaining since it's clear by now my life will never go the way I want it to.
>>29323286
I could smell your mummy's tendies through the internet tubes. But you're out of sriracha sauce so I'm deeply concerned
>>29323374
I live with my girlfriend and I think how I can't help but feel is affecting her and that adds to it.
I'm just sad. I can't help it. Everything just is the way it is. I don't listen to music anymore, or watch shows, or play vidya. I don't care about things anymore. I am never shocked or interested.
I don't know anon. Don't know.
>>29323330
Is your mom able to offer other services?
>>29323428
Heh at least you've got things I could only dream about.
>>29323358
I'm not giving my money to someone who plays video games, I may be a complete loner but I haven't fallen that far....yet
Besides even we did speak one to one and hit it off, it will never happen because life is cruel
>>29323468
I used to dream about them too.
Now I have them and I still feel the same. I didn't know how I felt was a dead end.
Im a virgin and was always really autistic around girls. Been trying to get with this one girl for at least a year. Spend a lot of time with her, similar hobbies and interests, we get along well together , everything seemed to be going fine.
Hook up about 2 weeks ago, playing with her tits, feeling her pussy and ass, giving her hickeys, etc. Fast forward a week later, Stay at her place in her bed, try and start kissing her and feeling her up and shit. Not receptive at all and tells me that staying in her bed doesn't mean i can touch her. I thought I was so alpha this whole time and now she's not interested in me. Next few days shes still tries to cuddle up with me, hold my hand, tease me and what not but won't let me kiss her or anything like that.
I've been ignoring her texts. She texted me like 3 times today. What do? I love spending time with her but I'm not just gonna sit around and let her cuck me.
>>29321967
Junk food and sleep whenever, now that you mention it.
>>29323340
Hey. What's the big deal?
Lack of gf. Literally the only thing I can't help. I can get money. I can get skills. I can get /fit/. Nothing I do affects if someone will like me.
> health status: good
> money status: good
> entertainment status: good
Everythingless virgin, destined to be a wizard, can't attract a gf to save my life.
>>29323374
>Shouldn't momentum be decreasing?
Not at first.
>>29323409
Do the dew
>>29323482
>life is cruel
So grab it by the balls and donate. Make sure to include a lot of smileys and heart emoticons, chicks love that shit.
>>29321394
Biggest problem right now is that I get these depression peaks every day where I tenderly think about offing myself.
I guess a way to partially solve it is that I need to get a job to keep my mind off things for a while, but with a 4 year hole in my resume I can't even go and be a wageslave in a grocery store.
>>29323502
Eat parsnip and go to bed you son of a bitch.
my biggest problem is I have no idea what I want to do with my life
24
everything else, money, sex, women, health, I feel like I have a good handle on
but as for how I am going to make money... I'll never figure it out.
I want money but I'm too antisocial to go out and get a job
I also can't tell if I'm antisocial because I'm too scared to socialise or because I legitimately just hate the vast majority of people and the way that society works in general
>>29323577
I don't want to come across as another creep/beta on the internet dude, I'm too self-conscious for that shit
>>29323492
It's over a year it sounds like she's playing with you. Try making her jealous.
>>29323510
Buy a robot. It's the only way.
>>29323688
I wouldn't say over a year, its approaching a year since we first started talking. We didn't actually meet each other until about a month ago.
Was just gonna ignore her for as long as possible, although she keeps texting me n shit.
>>29323507
-Hey doc I had [serious long term issues] for the past 9 months and [current acute issues] for the past 2 weeks
-Anon, I don't understand how a 23 year old could be long term sick. It's unusual and I can't relate to this, also you seem somewhat incoherent due to being sick and alone, so I'm just going to ignore you!
You are totally fine, it's all in your head, it'll just go away!
Oh, you're persistant? Here, get this generic 20$ blood exam that doesn't reveal anythng about your issues, because I don't want to waste government resources on people like you! Bye bye!
I hate docs. If you're not bleeding to death or have extreme fever and high blood counts for weeks they'll just ignore you.
I wish I could afford just paying for the diagnostics.
>>29323678
Yes you do. Donate and she'll put out. Now.
>>29323727
What are those texts?
>>29323616
no thanks tbqph pham
>>29323779
One is about how much fun she had with one her friends.
One was just about some place she ate it
And the third is her telling me when she wants come visit (She lives a few hours away.)
>>29323762
But I don't like women who put out that easily, I hope she isn't that kind of person, that would be disheartening to be honest with you mate.
>>29323803
Then eat shit you son of basterd bich
No spine, lazy, hooked on instant gratification, getting fat.
Nothing I cannot fix naturally.
>>29321394
this shit triggering the fuck out of me
>>29323826
Listen, do you want some pussy dawg? Then be real man and donate to her twitch stream. I hope she doesn't fall for some other guy that's alpha enough to give a lady what she deserves...
Money. If I had a lot of money or decent career, it would solver literally every problem I have right now.
>>29323740
Your diagnosis is being a little bitch. Don't worry, it will pass on its own as you move away from puberty.
>>29323816
Text her "I have needs". Post result.
>>29323442
Nah she is in her mid40's and does client services stuff for a home healthcare place(old rich people that need people to make them drinks and make sure they take meds). All she has ever done has been client services type stuff and she is so-so with a computer.
I've been nagging her for ages to save more money but anything she does save gets wiped out quick(dog needing an emergency er visit after getting hit/other car repairs). It's just making me feel like shit that I can't help her. Her boss gave her some bullshit taking to today about how "nobody cares about the storm the captain goes through just that the ship gets to the dock". To be a rich old dude I swear.
Jdjdjdidjdjdjdjdie ass ass :D
>>29323839
Are you afraid of monsters?
>>29323933
You think this will work? Imo if I said this I feel like she would not even respond or just play dumb or something
>>29323983
It could work. Add "do you want to talk about it?" so you can gauge her reaction.
>>29323878
Call Donald
>>29324036
What do you think I plan on doing in November friend?
>>29323873
Well I haven't been completely honest with you, told ya I was self-conscious as fuck. I've donated once and she seemed pretty appreciative and sweet. She can't be like the others....right? right?
Fuck my life and my insecurities.
>>29323949
Tell her to mow some loans. I bet she will get right back on track.
>>29323708
Oh believe me anon, I'm waiting for sexbots. I might even end up making them.
>>29324022
I was planning on just ignoring her until she starts to seem really desperate. It just doesn't seem like something I would say.
Maybe I'll say something along those lines. There was so much build up between her ans i all for her to just cuck me
>>29324067
I was messing with you. Donating is useless. Your problem is spending too much time online and being lonely. Until you get away from it you will always have these insecurities.
>>29324060
Building snow forts?
>>29323978
N-no...? What do you mean by monsters?
>>29324082
Just make sure you won't be terminated.
>>29324085
She already seems desperate. Don't push it too far.
Try "gib pussy pls".
>>29324135
The ones that live under your bed. Do you think they will eat you?
What to do with my life I been mostly a NEET since graduating high school still living with my parents working part time here and there,im getting old turning 25 next month oh and...
>tfw no gf
>>29324180
Kek maybe that will work. I probably pushed it too far the second time trying to hook up with her. But then again idk she can just be a bitch that gets off on teasing virgins like me.
She seemed so into me always tagging me in posts on fb and Instagram. Always telling me she had a great time doing whatever we were doing. I'm just really confused and pissed off right now.
>>29321394
having no good memories
i'm dating someone that i hate but i'm too much of a sucker to break it off with her because i don't think i could handle her crying
>girl problems
I have no friends, don't want do anything and I don't want live. Listening to music or video games temporarily numbs the bad thoughts but they always come back. I stopped caring about girls when I was 15.
>>29324118
No, voting for the donald. SILLY.
>>29324248
PUT DA PENIS IN THAT
>>29321394
You.
*unsheathes katana*
>>29324311
Is that so?
*unshits pencil dick*
>>29324211
No, that goes against non-aggression principle.
>>29324107
Well lately I've been trying to better myself, lifestyle changes and all that. So maybe one day I could be worthy of her.
>>29324277
Chop some onions in front of her so you get used to her crying.
>>29324310
I tried and got rejected. I guess the old saying "Third times a charm" may work. Time to wait and see.
>>29321606
Kiss her on the lips faggot. She wants it.
>>29324291
Just stop whatever you're doing.
>>29324328
The boogey man is not a peaceful being. He wants what's worst for you.
>>29324390
I can't because anything that doesn't distract me makes me feel terrible and makes me want to kill myself.
>>29324268
Fake it till you make it. Imagine you have good memories and they will become real.
>>29324374
DA PENUSS
NO WOMAN NO CRY
>>29321606
bro
>>Kiss her (On the cheek) every day after work and take train home together
what
???
kiss her on the lips you faggot
>>29324413
But I am the boogey man.
I just got hired to do for money what I've been doing as a hobby since I was a kid on rather good pay considering I have no education.
I'm getting a rather nice inheritance next month, enough for an entry level apartment with no loan.
I have been single a year after dumping my GF of 5 years who I firmly believed had been cheating on me (admitted to multiple accounts only after breakup).
But I'm fat, ugly, just turned 29 and will never be happy or content again. I haven't cooked for a couple of months now, only take out. I go to work in the morning, come home, sit on my computer bored and unable to be motivated about anything, and sleep.
My father was a shit dad. He left my mother to go marry another woman and has since remarried more times. He never paid child support, and his entire contribution to my life has been showing up once every three or four months for the past two and a half decades to lecture me on not keeping contact with him and talk about how we're family and how I should be closer with him and his side of the family and then proceeds to disappear for another three or four months.
About two or three years ago, when I was 20, I basically figured enough was enough and just stopped bothering. I stopped playing along with the conversations. I avoided talking to him if he called or came over, saying I was busy. I felt like a dick but at the same time I just didn't want to have to deal with his shit.
Recently his mother, my grandmother, passed away. I met her once when I was very young and had little connection to her, but I do think it's a shame she passed away. I've continued to not talk with him but now I feel like a huge dick even more so.
I'm an adult so surely it's my choice to shut him out, and I don't agree that I am obligated to treat him special just because he's my father when he never took on that role at all. I could just humor him and speak to him those few times he comes over, but I just don't want to. I have nothing to say to him.
Am I in the wrong? I'm just fucking tired of dealing with this shit and don't want to have to deal with him anymore and up until recently I was okay with that feeling of being a dick but now he has famly issues elsewhere and he's doing things giving me small gifts through my sister and other shit like that it's making me feel terrible to the point I feel like I should humor him.
FYI he left the gift (some cash) but I said to give it back to him
Can someone give me their two cents on this, please.
>>29321394
half a decade of unemployment, 36 BMI, and dropping out of college.
I need to get it together but they days are starting to go by so fast, I figure I should start with my health since that seems like the easiest. Once I get a good diet going I'll look for a job. That said I haven't done jack shit today, I really fucking hate myself
>>29324449
this is fucking good advice man
>>29321911
It's not about money anymore, really. I've been working for awhile, so I have quite a bit
