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>my inner-dialogue is sparse and empty
>i feel dead inside
>literally feel like an automaton
>depersonalization disorder at its worst, feel like bipolar is sneaking up and developing
>fear i might be schizophrenic for various reasons
Fuck, I can't even write a legible post. I feel fucking retarded. How am I supposed to go to college, get a GF, do fucking anything when I am inherently flawed?
Who mentally ill here
>I don't know what I am
>I'm not what I do or say
>nothing about me is sincere
>everything is separated from me
>even as I type this I don't feel like it's me typing
>even my thoughts are just things floating around an internal nothingness
>only when I die I will finally be true to my nature
>>29317184
Nah, you're just a shitty millenial. Enjoy your internet, bro!
>Multiple personality disorder
>auditory hallucinations
check check
>>29317274
I've been coming to 4chan since before you knew what a millennial was.
>>29317300
Even if I end up getting diagnosed with some severe disorders, having a girlfriend might make things better.
Are there attractive, NEET mentally ill cuties, or are we all men?
>>29317316
If I say I'm a fembot, I get yelled at.
Borderline personality disorder
Very strong derealization
Social anxiety
Major depressive disorder
Insomnia
Body dismorphia
According to other people I'm quite likeable as a person but I push people away as soon as they start to get to know me because I'm scared that they'll abandon me as soon as they find out about my mental state.
>>29317333
It's okay, I'm a non-virgin and most people say I have pretty good facial aesthetics.
However, I'd rather be a virgin desu. Fucked fat, ugly chicks out of desperation and because i thought it'd help my self-esteem.
Casual sex is disgusting, fuck. Save yourself for someone u love guys
>>29317412
If you're wondering why I said this, it's because people think if you've had sex you don't have any right to complain, but I honestly regret doing it with the people I did. Sickening to think about.
Have you actually been diagnosed OP?
A trip to the psych ward might change your mind.
>>29317184
pretty much the exact same thing. ive been to the psych ward once because of various reasons, and was diagnosed with a variety of bullshit that i think isnt accurate at all. one of them was bipolar, but i think its depersonalization or something like it. i constantly feel like everyday life is an illusion, and its my job to say and do things. i literally feel like a robot. it really fucked up my social life, i have none, and is the reason why i never made it far enough in life. because everything feels absolutely meaningless, so whats the point in doing anything anymore? RIP
