How did you end up a social outcast, shut-in, friendless, no sexual experience; etc.
>inb4 muh played too many video games growing up and didn't learn how to be apart of society
it's probably always been like this
>>29315605
>homeschooled
>borderline cultlike, religious parents
>>29315605
Did you know that "apart" and "a part" are opposite in meaning?
I was always weird, but I had a few weird friends. I cut contact from them when I began to mistrust them and stopped desiring real social interaction. It's been the robot life ever since.
its probably because im autistic
>>29315605
Because I'm a paranoid asshole that scares everyone.
Inb4 edgy. Nope. I'm nearly 30 now and I'm still like this. If anything, I've only gotten worse.
Abused and neglected child
mental illnesses
suicidal
alcoholic
please end me
I like to believe I was normie up until I discovered MMORPGs in the early 2000's in my late teens.
Now I'm 28 and still putting the pieces of my life back together. I'm not even ugly or fat, I even lift and eat healthy and keep myself well groomed.
It's just that 15+ years of mmos fucked up my ability to socialise in real life.
>>29315605
I'm schizoid so I have no need for anthing, although it kinda sucks getting bored
>>29315667
>>29315645
lame ass excuses.
>uhhhh i'm autistic ;_; :3333333
Terrible character traits and unwillingness to change.
You can call it mental illness, if you believe in this sort of stuff.
>>29315688
Get your shit together basement rat
>>29315605
Played too many video games growing up and didn't learn how to be apart of society. Seriously, my mom never let me out and socialize, so video games and internet are all I had.
Terrible parents. They were both drug addicts and alcoholics and enforced no discipline. My dad didn't really come into my life until I was about 12 and never taught me how to do anything or how to be a man. I was mostly raised by my overemotional, overbearing, cocaine-addicted mother.
>>29315830
>my mom never let me out
Bullshit
Dropped out of school at 15, thought it was my only option, I wasn't going to take the shit anymore. Could've gone to a other school but I just became depressed and stayed in my room for 4 and a half years.
21 now and making a bit of progress on my life, still never had a job but it may happen in the next year. Uni is a few years off I think, if I even go.
>>29315718
this but I'm not alcholic
>>29315942
Why'd you drop out to be more exact?
>>29315605
I had a pretty normal childhood
>lots of friends
>played a couple instruments well
>good looking
>/fit/
>started having sex at a young age in my teens
Pretty much everyone liked me in highschool but i had a close knit group of friends i spent most my time with.
I did the club thing for awhile when I turned legal drinking age, fucked a few staceys and had a decent time. I felt that I grew out of that stage though and was offered a good paying job in a different province so I moved and left everything behind.
I was working in a mine, lived in complete isolation and fell into a deep alcoholic depression. Ended up quitting the job to travel for awhile. Came back broke and had to move in with my mom, who had moved out of our hometown to a city ive never been before.
Now i spend my days alone, drinking constantly and hating everything about myself. I just cant shake this depression and i cant find work.
I havent had sex in almost a year and you know, when you havent been held in that amount of time, its not the sex that you miss.
>>29315605
Bad mix of abusive, drunk father, parents fighting all the time, and not being allowed to go out or have friends compounded with me going to a school 5 towns over and with me not having any way for me to go anywhere because my dad refused to give my stay at home mother money for gas. Add to that me finding porn at an early age and I viewed women as something I could never get. I saw all my friends get gfs and be friends with women and I thought I was a faggot loser.
So I just stayed home all day because I couldn't go out and I didn't want to. Now I'm a fat loser that still lives at 26 the same way he did at 14. Worst thing about it was that I was a Chad until 3rd grade. I was heavily affected by my family fighting because I was a sensitive kid. I'm probably still emotionally and psychologically affected.
So basically I'm a faggot pussy loser thats a failed man with no hope of having a normal life or being in love and having it reciprocated. Virgin loser and will be my whole life.
>>29316066
LEAVE LEAVE LEAVE LEAVE LEAVE LEAVE LEAVE LEAVE LEAVE LEAVE LEAVE LEAVE
>>29315641
Same
This shit should be illegal
Also general untreated mental illness and being a weak willed piece of shit
The rise of the internet enabled my autism which I didn't know I had at the time. I was almost normal until I moved out and had unrestricted access to the internet. That's when it all went horribly wrong.
Mom cut me from school in second grade and locked up in a room. 25yo hiki now.
>tfw shut in neet for all of summer vacation
Feels good! I needed a break.
>>29316106
>fat virgin neets ridiculing people who haven't been a complete failure
You know, this board isnt exclusively for degenerates just to whine and cry about theyre untouched baby dicks. There is normal people here who just want to relate and have a stimulating conversation. You can repeat words all you want like a broken autistic record but im not going anywhere aspie.
>>29315605
my father beat me for no reason and my mother left me alone in my crib at nights when I was a baby so that when I cried out of fear or hunger or being cold there was only my angry father to tell me to go to sleep as if I was a teenager who wouldn't shut up.
The trauma made it impossible for me to form stable relationships and I was at the dead bottom of the social ladder in school.
I tried as hard as I could to recover -- i went to therapy, I read books, I practiced spirituality, I tried psychedelics, love, sex, travel, and just giving up and nothing changed me enough to feel like I deserved to live.
people can still sense that I don't feel like I deserve life and that I don't like myself. No one wants to make friends with someone suicidal. no one wants to take on more problems than they already have.
I drank too much in my 20s because i was trying to chase the fear and sorrow away. I fear for my health. I have symptoms of liver and pancreas disease.
That's why I am a shut-in and an outcast. I am too damaged and I couldn't be saved.
>>29316172
/soc/ is for you to go vent your normie feelings, /r9k/ is a safe space for us virgin loser NEET hopeless failures.
Extreme anxiety disorder since I was maybe 4 or 5. Led to overeating and not being able to talk to girls
Although luckily I still made friends and dkne things
Getting shit together now at 23 and have a mummy fuck buddy that sucks my wee wee and let's me fuck her raw
. In n4 :-) normie reeeeeeee. Ive tried very hard to always push myself and I will succeed
Just push yourselves you fucking faggots
really strict parents. pretty much wasn't allowed to go anywhere till I was 18. they're still pretty strict now that I'm 21. but yeah. meh, i pretty much just code even when I'm not at work. gonna move out when I have money to buy a house.
>>29316103
Our solution is death, is it?
>>29316066
YOU ARE NOT WELCOME FUCK OFF IDIOT
>>29316054
Bullying, friend moved away, disengaged from schoolwork,moved house at the time and didn't start catching the new bus
I never asked for help so my issues were left unchecked. I dived into escapism.
Parents were busy getting a house built, they saw I was depressed, sent me to a counselor but didn't help.They are not the kind of parents to kick you out too.
>>29316201
damn, I'm sorry man. that shit really sucks.
>>29316213
Ive been a reclusive, untouched loser for the last year. I think we are very much alike aside from the fact Ive had sex before. If you guys weren't so quick to judge, you might learn a thing or two.
>>29315605
Isolation is the key to my academic performance. The more people I have in my life the worse I do in school. In high school I had a small group that I would hang out with during lunch and on the weekends, but I failed to meet expectations. When I moved for college I stopped talking to them and now I literally cannot do any better. Plus my manager likes me because I am available 24/7 when not in school due to no social plans.
Sure my parents worry, but they started this.
>>29316278
seriously fuck off, retard
>>29315605
The biomother took me to R-rated films as a child.
>>29316278
>people posting about being abused and actually having fucked up childhoods
>waaaah I haven't had a girlfriend in a year
Go to /soc/
>>29316066
Dude....almost the exact state im in, I almost envy complete robots in that they never had a taste of the life, so they don't crave for it
>>29316297
You know, i could take the high ground and make you feel even worse about yourself but I dont, i dont think im superior to you, nor will i ever. I just dont understand how having a job and a having sex at some point in my life makes me some kind of leper to you guys. Im a pretty considerate guy but apparently not leading a life of sadness and self perpetuated failure makes me a bad person?
>>29316358
You still replying? You really are stupid.
I'm a worthless human being. Nothing else could summarize it as well as admittance
Worthless, useless, and genuinely forgettable.
>>29316365
Not him but
>not getting your dick wet means your life is more miserable than someone else's
>>29316231
Saddest thing is I didnt use the internet much until 2008, when I started college. I just used limewire and frostwire to download porn. Then, I went to a video game club where guys in the club were talking about /b/. I literally googled the letter b but eventually found 4chand and been here and stuck in a rut ever since.
So since I came here in 2008, I've been doing the same shit all the time. Point is, 4chan fucks you up and makes you negative and addicted to a bad lifestyle. I'm going to workout, lose weight, get a job and better my life. I know I'll never get a gf though. Wouldn't be able to accept a woman with kids or a lot of sex partners.
I haven't given up yet, neither should. Gonna drag myself out of a decade long rut. I can't live like this anymore.
>>29316338
Exactly anon, its worth weeding through all the autism to find someone in the same situation as myself.
>>29316314
I got the shit kicked out of me by my father almost everyday, he was a violent drunk and had no consideration for his loved ones. The only thing that separates me from these robots is that i didnt fucking cry about it 10 years later and let it dictate who I am. That drunk piece of shit broke my arm at the age of 8 years old, still dont give a fuck and never will because im not fucking weak.
>>29315903
I too raised in same situation so no it is not bullshit.
>>29316338
Please don't envy us. not only do we crave for it, but we are also extremely bitter that we never had it. We know very well what we're missing.
>>29315605
Very strict parents. I was never allowed to leave the house without them. Still not allowed.
I was also judged for everything I said/did since I was a kid which made me really anxious and I started avoiding people and social situations because of that
>>29316338
You really don't know anything either. Maybe use your brain for once.
Divorced parents when I was baby so mother had to work and go to prof. school at same time to become OT. Had younger sister so had to be home every day after school or she'd be home alone. Forced shut it by circumstance. Sperg and too skinny as well so made it hard to learn to fake normie behaviors. Got bullied, gave up on being normie, had an internet enabled PC in bedroom by 9 years old in 1994 for fucks sake that my dad set up so we could email and I could learn stuff. Got porn and hentai addicted young of course. Didn't get enough exercise. Went to prom alone like a faggot ass bitch. Remained a virgin into college but lost it to 5/10 qt back home the month before turning 20.
Am sigma male. If I put major effort it and get /fit/ as I did mid 20s girls look at me and see Chad. If not as I am again now >30 they see a dweeb. I got dumped by first gf while still virgin for slacking on gym that Summer and revealing my insecurities and blunted social skills around her friends.
Solution for me is mini-mgtow where I said to hell with hypergamy, I'll stick with a gf who loves me even when I'm skinny. So am with petite insecure chestlet 7.5/10. My sex drive says dump her get fit and bag a tall Stacy with big tits like the ones I used to be able to attract. But laziness and hopefully wisdom tells me fuck that, Stacies are marriage cancer. I was already married to an Iranian Stacy for 5 years in 20s and she was /mothafuckinfuckedinthehead/
There was one year in high school that just broke me completely. My mom was at the peak of both her alcoholism and her bipolar disorder. She was just absolutely insane. She'd keep talking to herself, mumbling complete gibberish at the characters on the TV screen. Whenever I asked her who she was talking to, she'd get really angry at me.
Well her mental health got much worse. We locked her out of the house, because we were so scared of how she was acting. She smashed a window with her fist and unlocked the door. A few days later, she baked the family a cake for my dad's birthday. My dad took a little bite of it. It turned out that my mom purposefully put the broken glass shards from the window inside the cake. I swear to God, she wanted to kill me and every night I was afraid I was going to wake up with my throat slit.
And neither of those are even the worse incident. No, the worst thing that happened to me happened a little bit after that. My mom was hallucinating and delusional on the couch. I was scared for my cat, and I just wanted his company because I was so lonely, so I took him from the couch into my room. My mom started wailing on my door. You could hear the door starting to break apart. Eventually she stopped knocking, which only made me more anxious about what she was doing than relieved that she'd ceased. A couple minutes later, she came back brandishing a knife and she started stabbing at my door, demanding I open up. She told me I was a terrible son and that I should open the door or else she'd break through it. I told her I was scared she was going to hurt me, and she just said, "I hope I do." I tossed the cat out of the room, which made my mom leave me be, and I just rolled up in a ball and cried the rest of the night.
>>29316600
Yooo how old were you? If this had happened to me I would have known how to go to authorities (school, a Dr. or if all else fails Police) and get help for me and my younger sister.
I'm a literal pyschopath. I feel little emotions and people generally can't associate with me. So I don't even bother with social norms. Luckily my parents aren't and they conditioned me to be normal over time.
They know I'm fucked up and I'd kill someone just for the heck of it if I could, but meh...
It also helps that I'm reasonably smart and am going to a college that deals specifically in recluses. (Actually how I discovered r9k)
>>29316657
Sorry HS you said. Yeah man I talk like I would have known what to do but I understand small mind in HS syndrome I had the same because Mom was profoundly religious Catholic.
>>29315605
>cared more about truth than anything else
>bullied from age 6-15, didn't make any friends after it either
>never ever talked to a girl outside of forced group projects in school
>always skinny and weak, parents taught that only dumb bullies do sports and they will work for me when i'm an adult
>strict parents, never happy/satisfied with my grades at school so develop low self esteem
>only child, both parents in business, usually got back home at 8pm so i spent every day alone from age 6
>4+h online every day since i was 8 (obviously more like 14+ these days)
>discover internet porn at age 8
>start browsing 4chan at age 13 (20 now)
>listen to niche music and enjoy gore kino
>never built social skills so literally no idea how to act with people
>dyslexia, asperger, major depression, ocd, add, borderline, high chance to get schizophrenia because of family history
>suicidal for 5+ years but too scared to act because don't want to end up as vegetable by jumping under a train and surviving
20yo khhv neet
>socially awkward
>shy
>scared of many things
>overprotective helicopter parents
There really is no "good" reason to my situation, some people are just born this way. I'm currently going through diagnosis process for asperger's syndrome, and it's very likely that I'm an aspie so that could play a large part in why I'm such a social outcast.
>Be slav
>16yo
>Almost semi chad, kinda popular, liked by most
>Shit tier student for all my life until then
>Only have 2 years left until national exams which determine your university-college
>Have to make up for 10 years of not giving a shit about school
>Went borderline isolation mode
>Completely focus on studying. Stop talking to everyone apart from 3 close friends
>I probably went out with my friends less than 10 times those 2 years
>Become "the weird kid" of the school that went from funny-popular to quiet-awkward
>Sadness gradually increasing
>Start balding at 17
>Lose 10 kilos in a year, went from somewhat buff to skelly
>"Anon what happened? Why have you become so quiet? Why have you lost so much weight?"
>Exams happen. I managed to score a 7.5/10
>Ridiculously good for the shit tier student that I used to be
>Go to 2nd best university in the country
>But it's in another city
>Fast Forward 3 years, I never got out of isolation mode, have made no friends in university, extremelly submissive, don't like going out, don't drink,smoke or do drugs (Any slav can tell you the look you get when you utter "I don't drink), fail every single class in uni
>I am back to shit tier student
>Lost virginity to bulgarian prostitute
Probably would have been a chad If I hadn't chose to study.
Could have tried harder to go back to normie mode after exams/make friends in uni
Deserve it all tbqh.
I don't know, I just have more fun making women feel shit whenever they make advances than I do having sex. I still really wish I had a relationship though. I'm too toxic
>>29316172
>normal people
>relating to robots
Choose only one. Normies can get sex and gf's any time they want, robots never.
>>29316657
I was really afraid of calling the police. They had come before to visit us, when my mom called the cops on me and lied to them, saying I was hurting her. The two officers came into the hallway and made us all come out of our rooms. In front of us all, they started laughing at my mom, because she had peed herself. They said that she looked a little too drunk and she needed medical attention. Paramedics came in and said she needed serious attention. My mom refused to go though, so the officers and paramedics all shrugged their shoulders and left.
I was afraid to call them after that, because I was so embarrassed of how my mom acted. I never really had normal parents, so I wasn't really sure what was acceptable. The only child abuse video we watched in school was this stupid one about adults touching your no-no square, so I didn't have any perspective to what was going on. I could tell something was wrong with my family, but I didn't know the extent of it. When you're in a situation, it's hard to take yourself out of it.
Another thing that stopped me was that I was really afraid of being put in a foster home. I had a long-distance gf in high school and she spent her life going from foster home to foster home. She absolutely hated everywhere she went. She never got any privacy. It sounded terrible to me and I thought that staying at home would be better for me. I don't really know if I made the right choice. I don't know how things would've been if I went to a foster home.
>>29315605
I went to a school with only 60 kids per grade that was K-12 and it was only 30 kids per grade in elementary school after I went to a preschool thru 3rd grade private school and did pretty well socially for how awkward nerdy and gay I am then I transferred to another school where I didn't have much in common with most of the other kids, and the gay ones were deeply in the closet to the point I didn't know they were gay until after high school graduation so I had no one to really talk to until college, which I dropped out of.
>>29317143
Me I'm >30 guy have the gf back home am in medical school in Carib. and like you skelly mode, don't drink socially, prefer to sip whiskey alone and fucking study hard & waste time on mostly /pol/. Not racist or homophobe, just care about rights and concerned about Islam.
My advice is get a reliable gf, let the social life and potential Chad you could be go to hell, be sad, but study harder. I also failed every class first semester of College and now I'm in med school. Old to be starting it but not dead and not a failure. Normies can fuck right off. Thwy get more pussy variety sure but they aren't all that happy either so let it go. I know skinny gangly slavs can bag 8/10 cutie slavettes so get one and if she's good keep her.
Theres plenty of reasons but the at fucking top has to be my drunk father not teaching me shit and choosing the bottle.
I fucking hate him so much.
Fuck I hate his fucking guts.
>>29315605
Well I'm mute so not being able to talk probably has something to do with it
>>29317530
Why are you mute?
>>29315605
i dropped out of school at age 14 and played world of warcraft every day
i'm almost 23 now and not much has changed, i just play less games and watch more anime
>>29317649
I have deformed vocal chords that aren't capable of making any noise.
>>29316066
So you're failed a normie. Get the fuck out.
>>>/soc/
That's your home.
>>29317748
If you get to decide who stays here you can surely ban him can't you?
>>29315605
My dad was always drunk, my mom hated it and i've never wanted to try alcohol so i've been avoiding partying etc
>Parents moved a total of six times by the time I was 18 (three different elementary schools, one middle school, three different high schools).
>Wasn't able to maintain LT friendships and thus wasn't able to build the necessary social skills needed in life.
>>29315605
Only child, raised by just my psychotic and paranoid father in a really shitty location (no other relatives were involved, my dad was not a people person). Not allowed to have friends growing up, bullied, naturally drawn to loser hobbies (anime, vidya, etc). Got out of there but socially ruined for life with bad anxiety disorder and possible spergs. Had a really late start to normal things like didn't get my first job until my late 20s.
>behave strangely ever since I was a kid
>not a big deal
>puberty hits
>hormonal teenagers socially outcast me
>muh spent too much time on the internet growing up and didn't learn how to be apart of society
>mom dies of cancer
>completely deluded and detached from reality
>fail britbong college
>fail to even get part-time minimum wage job, people instinctively sense that I am different and discriminate against me, I was told "you don't have many friends do you" by a jobs advisor and shuffled out of a job interview once after about 10 seconds for example
>soon even my family starts to hate, my sister outright rejects me and says she finds me really annoying and doesn't want to see me again, even implying I should kill myself
>took me years to finally accept there might be a reason I am so different from everyone else
>NEET utterly dependent on my dad
>dad won't help me even though I have all the symptoms of adhdpi
>have no idea what to do
I simply never learned how to properly interact with others in school. I did it mostly okay in elementary school, where it's easy to make friends no matter what, past and before that it all fell apart.
Having obscure, at least to those around me, interests, or interests they weren't interested in made it harder for me to relate to them. I was lied to and told "you'll meet plenty of people just like you in college". I don't want a girlfriend, I don't really care about losing my virginity, I just want an IRL friend who plays and talks about the same games and anime that I do.
As for lack of sexual experience, that can be attributed to simply not caring about girls, not being attractive, and, once puberty started, getting far too into hentai, meaning I'm not even sexually attracted to them so I have even less of a reason to try.
I don't know. Most people gradually turned into normies when going through puberty. I gradually turned into an outcast from a social kid.
>>29317479
I think my issue is this and my mum becoming overly protective because of him.
I turned down every opportunity to go and drink as a teenager because I fucking hated what alcohol would do to people, I went to 1 house party and seeing girls and my friends from school act like my dad gave me such an empty feeling inside of me, it was like the entire world was cursed. It gave me the same feeling as when my dad would be shouting at me and I'd be crying laying in bed. I never socialised because of this, I regret it so much now.
Failed at something that was really important to me really hard and at the same time a woman who i thought cared about me and was loyal had forsaken me. That Set the downward spiral of Isolation and Depression in motion
