With me, I realized I was different in middle school, maybe about 12 years old. I didn't have any friends and I had the hardest time connecting with people. I've never understood how conversations worked. At the time, I didnt really care. It was just who I was, and wandering around the lunch area by myself was routine. Looking back now, it's kinda depressing to think about.

>>29315099
I gradually accepted it throughout my childhood by constant rejection and failure reinforcing my personality. I think I needed a older brother or someone to show me the way because I sucked at life.

Out of my way, sheeple.

>>29315215
when i was around ten i had two very good friends, i always had trouble making friends so i cherished my time with them.
I growed up being treated as the black sheep of the family because my parents did not love me and limited my interactions with the rest of the family out of shame i guess so i would do anything for attention.
Thats where my friends came up, i always bend over backwards for them because i loved having friends, one day as i was bringing them the food i bought them they where talking with the kid who always bullied me and told me nobody ever liked me and that they where using me because i got a big allowance so i could buy them stuff.
Aafter that i just sat alone every recess and ate my allowance away, i was always fat and later on i found out my parents where medicating me so i wouldnt bother them and that medication caused my life long obesity

>>29315344
i know people are going to tell me evrything is my fault and that i can loose weight and do something and get friends but i tryed that last year and i realized at some point i was still trying to buy peoples affection 15 years later and everyone saw me as a freak, i guess i dont realize im doing it, i just think im a completely worthless been so why would anyone hang around me without getting anythig out of it right? i didnt want them to be my friends anyways, i just wanted someone to like me.