can we please have a good old fashioned feels thread?
>real world will never contain the same amount of cuteness as this
why live
NIGGERS AND AIDS
op here thanks for posting guys sure as hell beats lonelieness or however the fuck you spell it
commentato potato
this one always gets me
commentato orignali betali
>>29286067
This is the real world, my tomato brother.
We perceive this cuteness, therefore, it exists.
2D is real, it is very real.
>>29286164
Never thought about that
waifu and fetish threads are getting more replies
isnt r9k kept alive by feels what the fuck guys
Not direct feels, but it does make me feel for the future of men
always a classic
how bright the future will be
Anyone who lives with me or spends any time around me ends up distancing themselves from me. Im just a stoner / loner trying to make his way in the world.
I have a good job and am secure..which is a spot I never thought I'd be in, but I still feel like im nothing inside
fyjfd
>>29286612
well it sounds like you've made your way in the world financially maybe now your craving for companionship maybe in the form of a sex partner or even a husband/wife or even you feel like you want kids
some things never change
rgdr
Promise me guys, you will never fail like he did
and so it is
>>29286659
>implying you will ever get into that situation
>>29286645
Yeah, thats true. Definitely other factors but essentially; I have little self confidence due to being skelly and balding and feel sick constantly due to IBS and reoccurring gut problems. Doing the best I can with what I got though
>>29286702
have faith, senpai
oc from long long ago
>>29286077
Wow. If I wanted to fuck of and die from exposure in the wilderness I'd get rescued by some mountie or someshit.
Lucky penguin.
Just wow
jgcvg
>>29286659
This sure sounds plausible. Come on robots, this is literally anime-tier romance story.
You guys I worry about climate change and the way the world is going a whole lot. I'll worried pic related is true of me. CO2 in the atmosphere is causing more storms and killing the trees. Pollutants are being released and oil is harvested at an increasing rate. I want to make a difference, get people to stop supporting companies that pollute, I want clean energy to be popularized. I'm going to college to become an environmental engineer but is it going to make any difference at all? Does anybody else feel this or just me
>>29286791
Fuck man. Don't you hate it when you wake up from a beautiful dream like that
She's not my dog.
Her name is Karma. Very cool.
>>29286880
>env engineer
you fell into the jews trap senpai. 90% of your jobs going to be wastewater management and fucking nature (albeit gently) to make things more comfy for the meatsacks.
>>29286753
How was turning around with a sly smile her reaction to having her ponytail yanked? I'll never understand normies
>>29287000
Trips of sadness
Seasoned with oregano
>>29286731
step 1 just remember people are judgy assholes also start thinking positive and also think good of yourself and youll just seem more confident to people
>>29287000
>90% of your jobs going to be wastewater management
where's WastewaterTreatmentBro when you need him
engi's don't do wastewater, that's for blue-collar master-race.
That feel where you feel so empty that nothing gives you enjoyment anymore
If this is how I'm gonna feel for the rest of my days then what's the point in going on? I feel so empty that it's almost hurting.
>>29287009
Because it's probably someone she knows.
sometimes i wonder were i went wrong.
>>29287808
>not having music on repeat
this needs to be original
chatted with a bot
got this
>>29287991
damm, do you want a hug anon?
>>29287961
RIGHT IN THE FUCKING FEELS
comin in with the real strong stuff boys
this may or may not be original
>>29286659
What actually happened here? She cucked him with his friend, replaced him or what
>>29288220
he didn't realise she wanted the d.
>>29288220
she wanted to bang him and he brought along a friend like they were both going to fuck her
>>29288244
>>29288239
OHHHHH
Este comentario ser muy original
>>29287808
...ow. That was a realization I didn't want to have.
c'mon guys, don't let the thread die.
am i really alone here?
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>tfw the condoms you bought when you went to college are now expired
i havent cried in years but this thread is pushing it
textless posts are not allowed
domo origato mr. roboto
please let my post go through oh great robot
doesn't it suck knowing that like, everything in the world is limited.
we're so insignificant, it's hard to fathom.
this post is to remember you all that she will never love you back.
>>29287961
Women are cancers on the earth, they need to be subjugated and deported.
>>29289083
i remember that every morning when i wake up alone anon, thanks anyway
>>29289083
this post is to remember you all that she will never rub your back
>>29289152
this one is to remember you that it's your fault.
>the one girl who has ever loved you will turn violent, and blame you and her periods. Your friends will stand by and watch.
>>29289207
t-thanks anoni remember
>>29286031
It's an out of order sign you over emotional baby
>>29289204
i miss her sometimes.
>>29286612
Stop smoking weed. You're an adult
im not gonna let this thread die so easily.
>>29289248
Nah you're just a dumbass
>>29288239
She's kinda autistic too for not being straight up
one more beforo i go to bed.
>>29288110
None of these things bother me. I am unable to feel fear or worry about missing or having missed pleasures others have found. There is a level beyond those cares, a serene nothingness where every day could hold anything and it doesn't matter what. Events will come, big and insignificant, life or death, and you won't care, you won't feel any more than mild excitement or displeasure.
You don't need friends, love, family, success, attention, anything. You're a dot on a speck of dust in space, scurrying about to wherever you can and please; you're already where you need to be, because you're on planet Earth and you're alive. That state is wizardry, and that life can be yours if you only let go of every care in the world.
>>29289701
Thank you, I need this.
>>29289204
this post is to remember you all that she will never call you back
>>29290011
this post is to remember you all that she will nevercheck your dubs/call you black
I had a crush on a girl for over a year and a half in middle school. she was, and still is, the only girl i ever loved.
>mfw she turned me down on the last day of eighth grade when i had finally built up the courage to tell her
>tfw there's a cute reverse trap in my classes
>can't talk to women
>19 turning 20 in July
>just started a part time-job
>still live at home
>not in college
>never have been in a relationship
>no motivation
How did I end up such s loser? I have another job interview tomorrow for a second part-time job.
>>29290316
Why do you want to be in a relationship?
>>29290316
>20 years old
Lmao, stop crying pussy, you're young
>>29286077
If I'm not mistaken the source is Encounters at the End of the World by Werner Herzog. A must watch for any robot
>>29290351
Let him be, it doesn't 'get better.' You have to get accustomed to feeling worse, and understand how to deal with it.
Here's an excerpt from the Exeter Book.
>Often (or always) I had alone to speak of my trouble each morning before dawn. There is none now living to whom I dare clearly speak of my innermost thoughts. I know it truly, that it is in men a noble custom, that one should keep secure his spirit-chest (mind), guard his treasure-chamber (thoughts), think as he wishes. The weary spirit cannot withstand fate (the turn of events), nor does a rough or sorrowful mind do any good (perform anything helpful). Thus those eager for glory often keep secure dreary thoughts in their breast; So I, often wretched and sorrowful, bereft of my homeland, far from noble kinsmen, have had to bind in fetters my inmost thoughts. Since long years ago I hid my lord in the darkness of the earth, and I, wretched, from there traveled most sorrowfully over the frozen waves, sought, sad at the lack of a hall, a giver of treasure, where I, far or near, might find one in the meadhall who knew my people, or wished to console the friendless one, me, entertain (me) with delights. He who has tried it knows how cruel is sorrow as a companion to the one who has few beloved friends: the path of exile (wraeclast) holds him, not at all twisted gold, a frozen spirit, not the bounty of the earth. He remembers hall-warriors and the giving of treasure. How in youth his lord (gold-friend) accustomed him to the feasting. All the joy has died!
Written in the 10th century. The feels are eternal, my friends. No matter how far to the past or the future we go.
>>29290351
You're crusty and old in that case. Get over yourself if you think you have so much experience
>>29290316
>19 going on 20
You're young, it's cool.
>just started part time job
Good on you bro, even if it's a shit job, which in all likelihood it is, at least you might have some cash flow if you don't have a lot of expenses and can save money here and there.
>still live at home
Why is this a problem? I'm in my fucking 30s and live with my mom and dad. Everyone has a higher standard of living because of it since you can contribute to the household budget. Also, learn to budget your shit.
>not in college
why would you want to go there? To be surrounded by Chads and Tumblrwhales? Learn how to service engines or fix shit instead.
>never been in a relationship
Also not a problem. If you can barely handle your own shit, you don't need someone else's clogging your drains, know what I mean? Give it time, these things sort themselves out. Might be tomorrow, might be five years from now, might be never. Word of advice though, unless you plan on one night stands, do NOT get in relationships with chicks who go to bars on a regular basis.
>no motivation
Can't help you with this one, that's a personal thing. Create a goal for yourself. Even a small one. Baby steps buddy, baby steps.
>>29290683
Get back to /soc/. You clearly don't understand actual roboticism.
>>29286430
Not bad. But I don't like how he used the term "safe space".
>>29287961
Funny story, but I'm going to have to call bullshit. Anon mentions that when he arrives at the hospital, "everyone's there". Presumably, this would include his Father's 'new' family, as well as the rest of his family. Only after visiting his father's flat, 3 days later, does Anon realize that there is no 'new' family. You would think that Anon would notice at the hospital, or it would at least register within the next three days. Also, if he was able to go to his dad's flat at the end, why couldn't he go before? Sorry guys, but this story is bullshit.
>>29290996
Shut up, Frodo. SHUT UP!
>>29286864
^what he said. even if anon is actually retarded enough to think she actually wants to move the bed, he would have no reason to bring a friend.
I don't have a gf, and you might think, "aren't you sad that your single?" No. And I'm not saying no as a way to mask my true feeling, because if I was, I wouldn't be here now.
Without a girlfriend, I'm free to do whatever I want. Want to go to Las Vegas? Then lets go! Want to buy a 1000$ computer? Then go ahead, no one is going to hold you back. Without a girlfriend, I am free from the problems up ahead and can do whatever I want without anyone holding me back!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0rWunrNejmA
How could I ever forget our days? I drown in silver, set to go, unafraid into the blue, blue waves. Though I had hoped to hear your voice there; a last song before the fade.
>>29286141
What the hell is that thing?
I am somebody
If this thread is staying up I'll throw a few I have saved out.
>>29291670
This one is one I can certainly relate to.
>>29291537
This feel his too close to home
>>29286141
>commentato orignali betali
Is this a spell from Harry Potter?
>>29290338
In the hope that one day I'll find someone to share my feels with. I came into this world alone and I'll leave alone, but while I'm here I'd like to fine at least one person to share it with.
it was something to get up for
or at least I was convinced it was something to get up for
>>29291933
that describes me perfectly. I do hope I work up the guts to end it soon though.
>>29286031
oh the feels, the feels..
op, this is me.
"people are generally good," he said.
"do unto others as they do unto you," he said.
"just be friendly," he said.
"just start a conversation," he said.
"just FIX it," he said.
"it's not my fault you're such a fucking weirdo," he said.
"looking like a bum dude!!! holy shit did you just crawl out from under a rock lol!!" he said to me, verbatim.
>>29286067
>Amerianons will never experience what it is like to live withing driving distance to Eastern Europe.
>>29290157
I don't remember posting in this thread
>>29292340
you got a shitposter split personality, bro?
>you will never explore the arctic and name a peninsular after your wife
>the night anon made me cry
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=emHAoQGoQic
I don't want to be with myself, either
>>29292274
i hate my life and everything REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
reeeeeeeee
reee
ree
Today I missed my psychologist appointment even though I have nothing to do the whole week because it was early. made my mother cry.
what did you do today?
>>29293120
>what did you do today?
got up
went to work
came home
started drinking
and here we are
>>29293120
i woke up at 3, watched anime, played guitar, and hated myself
>>29293410
well at least you have a job
never got the fascination with alcohol though, makes me just feel bad 8/10 times
>>29293427
playing guitar and hating yourself seems like a great combination to become a songwriter
people loved kurt cobain for hating himself
>>29293465
if only i werent lacking talent, creativity, and motivation
>>29293499
it is a sad feel
>tfw you have to remind yourself that you are alive by fucking yourself up from time to time
>>29286214
That poster absolutely nailed why games are no longer enjoyable for me.
>>29293120
I always schedule my appointments later in the day because of my fucked up sleep schedule. My psychiatrist is aware of the issue so he is pretty good about getting me in after 3pm.
anyway
>get up, get ready
>drive to taco bell to eat
>come home and begin to collect any new hentai doujinshi put up on EXhentai (I do this almost every day
>sort all porn according to fetish
>begin to fap, it takes about 45 minutes because of meds fucking with my dick
>play Trails in the Sky SC on vita for a few hours
>come to 4chan and stare at threads for hours
>as the day nears its end I hope that tomorrow I will have the strength to finally shoot my self
> see this thread and post this meaningless post no one will even read
>afraid to go bed because that means I will have to wake up and start a new day
>the thought of another day alive sickens and terrifies me
>just want to go to sleep and drift off into the abyss never to awaken again.
>>29289349
>Stop smoking weed. You're an adult
>Implying weed is for kids
>>29293585
Just fucking kill yourself and make it a slow death so you get that full life to death transition experience. You're already an outcast might as well feel the ultimate experience.
>>29293626
mine closes at 12:00 unfortunately
sounds like a nice life you're having though
would hang out and share doujinshis with
>>29287009
She wants the D, probably not a reaction you're used to.
>>29293653
wow they only work half a day? sounds like a pretty good job for them.
>>29293120
I just slept a lot, got a good-night call from my brother. I've agreed to trying therapy so he's been very happy about that.
What do shrinks make you talk about? I'm pretty nervous and can't really back out of it now. They only report you if you're going to kill yourself or someone else, right?
>>29293684
yeah it's not a regular one tho she is specialised on people on the higher end of the IQ scale
>>29293585
what does yr arm look like clean?
i do it too
>>29293725
>They only report you if you're going to kill yourself or someone else, right?
Different anon, but yes. If they are concerned that you might harm yourself in a major way, be it suicide or just self-harm, they will notify family or friends. The authorities are next. Before your first appointment, you might get some papers outlining their patient-doctor confidentiality agreements. If not, talk to them about it.
For the most part, though, you'll be talking about you. Your relationships with people, your values, morals, interests, memories, etc. It depends on the shrink, but you'll be doing a lot of talking about yourself.
Is the thread dead now?
>>29293910
Oh. That's a bit reassuring, I think. Thank you.
I don't really like talking about me much. I've opened up on here sometimes, especially lately, but I'm not sure I could share the same things easily out loud. I've never told anybody in real life about the things that led to me being a shut-in drunk.
>>29293725
This anon is right...
>>29293910
But try not to stress out over it too much. You can build up to the more difficult subjects. Try to take it at your own pace.
I originally tried telling myself that I came to this place to remind myself that I'm not the lowest of scum.
As I read through thread after thread of sad stories, harsh feelings, and general emptiness, I started to realize that I empathized with you.
I do know what you're feeling when you say you're socially anxious not because you don't want to speak, but because you realize how inadequate you are in comparison to those around you.
I may have a good job, I may be able to hold a conversation with people and women at work, but I'm lying the entire step of the way.
I can only be honest when I type to you.
But you are no one; you are me.
>>29294066
Don't fall deeper into the pit. It doesn't embrace you, it strangles out your last ounce of hope.
>>29294025
I might never get to the worst stuff if I'm not pushed a little. But I tend to shut down if people tell me what to do too much. Poor shrink is going to have her work cut out for her.
>>29294066
Don't do this to yourself. You have a life, Anon. Make it your truth. Talk to people. Live for us.
I gave my life up a long time ago because I was afraid. Don't do the same just for what seems like the easiest path. It's always a dead end.
>>29289649
Why? you do this to me
>>29294226
You can talk about animals if you want. You could really talk about anything, just as long as you're revealing something about yourself, no matter how small. Like, why you relate to a certain comic book character. That's not to say you can't dig right away into the worst stuff. But if you need time, that will be okay too.
>>29294226
Good luck anon. You'll do fine. For some reason, at least to me, opening up to a shrink felt far easier than opening up to anyone else. However, it depended on the subject, and/or what I was opening up about. Don't worry too much (I know it's a lot to ask, but try for us) and remember that all conversations will be entirely confidential.
>>29294103
>>29294226
It's been 4 years since I talked to a female in earnest. Got cucked by my fiance to an absurdly rich guy -- he offered her a life on a yacht, with occasional breaks to aspen and paris. I couldn't match that.
I have one actual friend. But he's truly throwing his life away. I haven't seen him in person in over a month, or spoken in over 2 weeks, even though I've tried to call/text. He is paying his rent on credit, and has been jobless for 3 months -- he's nearing homelessness.
The only other people I talk to outside of work are my parents and siblings. I have a place to live, but I drive back home every weekend because I know I'd just be alone ordering dominoes if I didn't.
Everyone knows I'm a loser, but they also know that I don't give a fuck about it. My little sister wanted me to get a gf again, so she helped me make an okcupid account.
She mentioned it at dinner, parents laughed simultaneously. Sad times.
>>29288822
This hurts.
Originality shit also hurts.
>>29293427
>played guitar and hated myself
This is exactly what I do on a day to day basis. I also like to sing lyrics I make up despite the fact that my singing voice would make people's ears bleed. But I like to do it because it makes me feel good to spill my feelings out instead of keeping them bottled up like I've always done.
Even if nobody is there to hear it.
>Be me 9
>Grandpa I'm really close with is dying from brain cancer
>Says it's terminal
>I won't accept it and if it's brought up I just say "He's going to live right?"
>Fast forward a year
>He's really bad now he's bed ridden and can't speak very well
>Live in other state so only see him once a year
>He dies after a 3 day coma
>Come the day after he dies on long road trip
>Talking with grandma about him
>Tells me a story about him right before he went in to the coma
>She was standing next to the bed
>My grandma is just standing there while the nurses do nurse things
>He clearly out of nowhere says "I love you" to my grandmas face
>She's in shock
>"I love you to!"
Those were his lasts words. He was a 35 year veteran and the entire town respected him.
>>29294387
You have two siblings that care from the sound of it. That's something anon.
Talking to a therapist can be sort of like talking to someone on /r9k/. A therapist may be more "normie" but they're still sympathetic and try to understand. Usually they've had something in their own life. Whether it's an alcoholic or drug addict parent, bad relationships, etc. So they might relate a bit more than you think.
>when you realize there is no god and we are alone
:(
>>29294319
I haven't really talked to anybody but my brother in a couple years. Except for on here, it's easy.
I'm not big into cape comics anymore, but Superman makes me wish I were stronger.
>>29294320
I'll try, Anon. They don't show if they judge you, right? Is that what makes it easy?
>>29294387
I'm sorry your heart was broken, but it doesn't sound like much of a loss in terms of partner.
This is probably a bad idea, but have you tried just showing up? Even just to say hi from outside the door. When you've accepted despair then reaching out to anybody can be hard, no matter how much you want to.
I'm sorry your parents laughed. That was cruel. It's good you have a sibling that has your back, though. That can make all the difference in the world.
I don't know what to say about living alone. My brother visits a lot, but other than that I don't leave unless I need something. I don't have anywhere else to go.
I expected to be made fun of when I first typed up what happened to me, but /r9k/ has been very kind. Thank you. I wish everybody could see this side of you. I wish you'd show this side of you to yourselves, too.
I'm going to storytime a Hellboy story that always gives me feels.
>>29294627
I'll just get out thoughts to appease the robot.
Lately I've been thinking a bit about how I made my brother lunches for school when we were kids. I feel a bit bad for not always cutting the crusts off. And I feel bad about always watering the plants my mother said not to when I was a kid as my way of being a rebellious little shit. Isn't that stupid?
>>29294680
A little box.
When I first got an issue of Hellboy I said Heckboy because I wasn't sure if it was okay to say Hellboy in front of people. My parents got a good laugh from that.
>>29294712
Based big red.
>>29294627
Personally, I think it's damn near impossible for most shrinks to judge. They've seen every walk of life; it's literally their job. It's still a hurdle to get past on our end, though.
>>29294728
I don't have a lot of happy memories, none that aren't dumb.
>>29294730
I know, logically, that any shrink has probably heard far worse. But I've had so much shame rotting me from the inside out for so long.
I always wished I could just get a glimpse of who I could've been.
>>29294750
Next one.
>>29286880
>but is it going to make any difference at all?
nope
The bright side is the possibility that it will only kill most of us. There is a chance that the survivors learn.
>go get compressed brick weed from aunt yesterday
>she complains about the mexican brick weed
>thought she was gonna say mexican tripping weed at first
hehehe
>>29294785
>Wanting Don Quixote to show up for dinner
He'd probably end up jumping on the table in some fit of crazy. But I guess it'd make sense for a dreamer to respect other dreamers, no matter how loud the other might be.
>>29294474
http://vocaroo.com/i/s1t37SeF97YM
>>29294785
>I know, logically, that any shrink has probably heard far worse. But I've had so much shame rotting me from the inside out for so long.
>I always wished I could just get a glimpse of who I could've been.
I know the feeling, anon. I ended up stopping appointments with mine because I just couldn't open up. However, I have faith that you can do better than me.I have skype and steam if you ever want to talk. just ask and I'll provide
>>29294805
The mouse reminds me of how my brother and I got the chipmunks to get used enough to us that they would take acorns from us.
>>29294814
Thank you for the offer, Anon. I don't have Skype, though. Or anything. That's why I post here.
>>29294873
Next one.
>>29289580
no autistic bro, thats not how it works
>>29294898
I'm actually very paranoid because of someone out there. Someone I hate called me earlier this week, and I need to get my number changed. I'm afraid if I left any more of an online presence in any form he'd talk to me directly, rather than just leaving a message.
>>29294898
Alright, that's fine by me. I'll try and stay in the thread until it 404s then, if that means anything.
Thanks for sharing your little mementos, by the way. I hope it's doing well for you.
>>29294933
>Hellboy says jeez
Take a shot.
>>29294943
Thank you, Anon. I want to say it means more than you'll know, but you probably do. I could post another Hellboy story, if you're going to be here anyway.
After I left high school, I was unemployed for the best part of three years. Locked in my room, on the internet every day, going to sleep at 6am thinking "okay, I'm going to turn things around" and then waking up without that motivation.
My biggest fear was my appearance, I looked sickly pale, unhealthy, unhappy, skinny and disgusting. The brightness of outside hurt my eyes. I felt like I was an embarrassment. In the rare event of social interaction I would lie, I would say I'd just left a job, I was applying for colleges, anything to hide how much of a loser I really was. I stopped self-harming because I didn't even feel anything from it anymore.
Then I visited /pol/, I became a vehement right-winger without even leaving the house. I respected self-accountability, stoicism, manhood, work ethic and self-discipline. I realized the importance of heritage, attended the catholic church near my house, started applying for jobs and got one. Labouring 12 hours a day, not doing well because I was awkward and weak but proud of myself.
1 year later, things are coming together. I have friends from church, I even give speeches there. I've been promoted numerous times, I'm the youngest assistant supervisor in the region. I still don't care about myself, my motivation is literally just being a hardworking white man. I'm joining the military next year.
>>29290996
everyone could just mean his mother and his brother, possibly also an uncle or something, there's no reason to assume that it's "the other family" and you're a retard
also, it's most likely that he was given the address to the flat after his father's death, not that he knew where he is all along, even his mother could have told him since she revealed the letters to him
go fuck yourself, this is real, women are satan
>>29295000
Sure, go ahead. I'll be here.
As to knowing how much it means, that's something I've always found that no matter how much you can sympathize or empathize with someone, it still remains immeasurable.
>>29295017
Any progress is still progress. You're getting pretty far, so keep at it.
>>29288870
http://vocaroo.com/i/s0WAOvpf75hb
^_^
>>29295017
I'm glad you're finding a place for yourself. I'm sure you'll do well in the military if you've accomplished so much in your community.
>>29295038
It does. It never really occurred to me that the things I'm ashamed of wouldn't disgust other people until I opened up on here. People weren't disgusted.
>>29295086
>Hellboy lost a trenchcoat
Take a shot.
>>29295095
Storytiming on /r9k/ is more challenging than I thought.
>>29295107
I can imagine. Recalling old memories can be difficult at times. It certainly is for me. I think it has something to do with our state of mind, but maybe I just have bad memory.
>>29295065
I love the subtle Creep by Radiohead in the background. It adds to the atmosphere quite well.
>>29295107
I mention my brother a lot, but he's all I have. Our parents died when we were kids. I did my best to raise him myself. He even made me a card for father's day a year or so after our parents died. I still have it. Sometimes at my worst I take it out and look at it.
>>29295165
>He even made me a card for father's day a year or so after our parents died. I still have it.
That's really heartwarming, anon. I give my condolences for your loss, and thank you for being there for your brother. My sisters practically raised me when I would be at my father's house during the summers when I was young, as he was too drunk to care about anything but staying that way.
>>29295017
http://vocaroo.com/i/s06XEUdWJKbU
>>29287009
it was either a friend or a hunky guy
not too hard to understand
>>29295181
Thank you. I'm really very proud of him. He's on the path to success and he never lost any of his kindness. That's a bit of why I want to try to get better. I don't want to drag him down with me because I know he'll never really be able to let go of me.
>>29295183
That was great anon, thanks
>>29295205
>That's a bit of why I want to try to get better.
Keep this in mind. Make it a focal point of your effort, and you'll go far. Soon enough, if you stay on the path you just started, you won't be able to drag him down if you tried. Be there for him, and he'll be there for you.
>>29295181
And I am sorry about your father. My parents died when I was young enough that they're saints in my memory. Again, I'm glad your siblings were there for you. I think a small part of that solidarity comes from anger. At how adults can abuse their power over those under their control. That's how it was for me, in part.
Sorry, thought I typed that but I didn't. Kind of getting tired, maybe.
>>29295230
Everything I've done in my life has been for him. I think I'd like to find something to do for myself. Maybe even just find some sense of self, it's hard for me to think of myself as human at times.
>>29295238
Oh, no problem anon. All of us on this website are tired in some way. I still have unfinished business with my father I'm not really looking forward to resolving, but I appreciate your thoughts anyways.
>>29295261
>Everything I've done in my life has been for him.
This is no fault of your own, and believe me, you'll be proud of yourself in the future for having the patience and willpower to do so. In the end, this will only make you stronger, if not a little fatigued :)
Finding a hobby can be difficult, but don't get disheartened. It took me years to realize that I love to write because of my own insecurity convincing me that I wasn't good enough.
>>29295261
We lived with our godfather after our parents died. Long story short we came to an understanding. He could do what he wanted to me as long as he never touched my brother or let him know. My brother still doesn't know.
>>29286430
I don't see how that americunt's greentext story differs from the life of a woman, apart from the "potential rapist" and "lose everything in a divorce" shit, and even that has a turn side of girls being potentially raped and probably beaten by their husband.
>boo hoo girls have it better
Yeah, nah. Everyone has it bad. Women feel more anxiety but men kill themselves pretty easily because making rash decisions is a male thing.
>>29295308
If I could be there to give you a hug, I would be. I hope things are better now. I'm sorry that I don't have much better to say; I've had the fortune to never experience something like that before. Talking about it with your shrink (when you're ready, of course) could prove helpful.
>>29295300
Nice dubs.
Is it anything that you'd feel better about if you talked about it?
I hope it'll make me stronger. A bit much to hope for right now, but it's like that thing from GoT. My skin has turned from porcelain, to ivory, to steel.
I used to love painting. I haven't done anything in years, though. What do you like to write about?
>>29295335
I don't really like hugs from anyone but my brother, but the sentiment is kind and appreciated.
There's not really much to say. I'm glad you never had anything like that, and every time I see my brother do something great I'm glad he was spared. Part of me wants him to know, so he'll know it's not entirely my fault I'm a shell that looks like his brother. But it would devastate him, and I'm afraid he'd be afraid to talk freely or hug me anymore. He isn't violent and doesn't have a mean bone in his body, but I'm afraid he'd try to do something to our godfather. I know I would if our situations were reversed.
I hope I can talk about it sooner rather than later. On to the next story!
Not quite Hellboy, but motifs from this show up in the last story arc. The author's daughter came up with this one.
Lots of feels in this one.
>>29295458
>tfw no snek bro
>>29295319
>making rash decisions is a male thing.
What?
>>29295428
I usually write short stories, little fantasies that come to mind. Occasionally I'll look for prompts, and other times ideas will come to me. I can't paint, I've tried visual art many a time and it just doesn't click with me like literature does.
As for my father, I've talked about it plenty already; it's just that we need to discuss if we want to attempt to piece together a relationship after all the drama he caused between him, his family, and my mother. I'll be alright, thanks for the offer though.
I just wish I had some advice on the information you've been guarding so closely. Unfortunately, there are some battles we must fight alone. I hope you find a sound solution someday.
>>29295475
>tfw you will never fly a kite with your snek bro
>>29295495
Short stories are always nice. I've always been a fan of fantasy. Maybe you should try getting published someday. I don't think I'd be able to paint if I tried. It's been so long.
Sorry I missed it. No matter the outcome, I hope it's one that's to your satisfaction. It's good you're going to discuss it, at least. I'm sorry I don't have any advice myself. Not really an area I'd know much about.
I'd be surprised if anybody had advice, but that's a kind wish for someone to make on my behalf. I've fought this battle for almost a third of my life, Anon. It's over, there's been casualties, but I consider it won.
Probably the most accurate dipiction of depression ever made in a song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CaMlDFdwEiA
>"i invade your existence with my dependence
>and leave you guilt tripped until you take care of me
>for if not, i will surely die
>i dont feed or clean myself and im always high"
;_;
>>29295571
>but I consider it won.
This is a huge step in the right direction. Stay in that mindset.
As for getting published, that's a little ambitious for me right now, but it's definitely something I've had fun thinking about. Perhaps I can try one of these days.
>Sorry I missed it.
You didn't miss much; besides, it wasn't here on /r9k/. My battle is pretty much over as well. Right now all that's left is determining the results of a war of attrition that neither side wanted or meant to fight at all. Your sentiments are greatly appreciated, Anon, even if you cannot offer advice.
>>29295619
I'll do my best. Thank you, Anon.
I hope you're able to find the ambition someday. I read a lot, and when someone puts their heart into what they write you can tell. Those are the stories that really stay with you.
Thought I had glossed over it earlier in the thread. Again, I hope the outcome is one that'll leave you content at the very least.
I really need to go get some sleep. Good night, Anon. Thank you for talking with me. It's helped me organize my thoughts a bit and it means a lot.
>>29295722
No problem, Anon. In fact, I was about to go get some coffee since it's fairly early in the morning. I'm glad I was able to talk with you. It was invigorating and it lifted my spirits.
I can agree on the stories part. That's the primary reason why To Kill A Mockingbird is my favorite book; there's so much emotion in one relatively short novel.
Get some rest, anon. Have some nice dreams. Thanks for the comics! Now I have somewhat of a guideline to find you later here if you ever want to talk again. I don't browse /r9k/ much, but I'll do my best. I'm glad I was able to help you even to the slightest degree, and you should be able to sleep well knowing you did the same for me.
I hope this image is not already in the thread. I dont see enough feels threads anymore.
>tfw social skills are totally kill
>don't even want to talk online to anyone because feel it would be boring and awkward
>tfw no friends
>>29288110
>I am undesirable in every way
>>29288110
Jesus fuck that's heavy
>>29288953
Tell me about it
Heaviest shit I've read
