Aren't you curious what killing feels like?
>>29260621
not really but i mentally prepare myself everyday just incase i must
>>29260664
How do you mentally prepare yourself?
yeah, i think someone is going to kill my dad so i have to kill him
>>29260682
remind myself what i do and do not have to lose
tap into my inner most survival instincts
keep an open mind about an the afterlife/reincarnation
i've literally had dreams where my conciousness was looking up into the sky from the pov of the inside of a casket though i wasn't sure if it was my body that was in the casket in the dream, while i passed by everyone i knew closely before i was shot out of it into a pink laced horizon and it felt like i was falling off a cliff with moisture on my face, before i woke up in coldsweat
ever since then i look at everyday like death is hovering over me, in the distance
it's sort of like that medicine man on cowboy bebop said, if you've seen it, when talking to jet about spike
Yes. I'm an edge Lord.
>>29260868
Edge lords get a bad rap.
>>29260621
Yes. I started thinking about murder a while ago, but not seriously. But I kept thinking about it, and telling myself I wasn't serious, I'm never actually going to kill anyone.
But I just kept thinking about it, how I'd do it, what weapon I'd use, how I'd hide the evidence. At night I would walk around and look at all the houses filled with unsuspecting people, many of which are probably unlocked in this quiet, safe neighborhood.
I don't actually want to kill anybody, though. I just like to think about it. At least, that's what I tell myself. Maybe someday I'll wake up having killed somebody without fully realizing it.
No. Hunting already taught me.
It feels fucking amazing. Eating my first prairie chicken was the most empowering thing I've ever done with my life.
>>29260844
forgot to add and too late now but i know it sounds like edgy angsty teeny bop shit but it all ties together for me. sonetimes life really is edgy, and it can catch you off guard if you're trying to look cool instead of knowing when to look at things for what they are
>>29260900
Don't you think another person would feel different?
>>29260879
How long have you been thinking about?
Do you feel funny when you walk around?
At first you feel nothing because of the adrenalin.
The Problems comes when you learn more about the Person and if you're alone, the Silence eats your conscience.
I shot a home invader four times. I was thirteen at the time. The hardest part was watching him weeze and gurgle on the floor.
The state provided us with a lawyer that represented me entirely allowing me to not go to court. They and my family intentionally made him seem like nothing more than a house robber. To me he wasn't a human.
I'm sure if I knew anything about his life it would be much more challenging for me.
>>29260621
Not really, but I imagine it being quite liberating
>>29261035
Did he say anything? Or just die.
>>29260963
I've been thinking about it for years but I only started thinking about it seriously when I went off my meds about a month ago.
I've been walking around at night so long that I don't feel funny about it. Nobody goes out at night, so nobody sees me. I have nothing to feel funny about.
It's not just about murder and mayhem, I like getting out of the house but people are around during the day, so I go at night.
>>29261083
What meds were you on?
>>29261056
He said some panicked cuss words when he hit the floor until he realized he wasn't going to make it.
Sort of like when you knock that porcelain angel of the mantel, he did it in that way.
>>29261124
abilify. I didn't like it because when I was taking it, I had nothing to say, nothing to think, and nothing to write. Like my head space was empty.
>>29260621
Have put out plenty of animals, I'd imagine a human is not very different from that.
FBI, please.
This is a nice thread to set up station. Come on Johnson bring the equipment.
I don't imagine it really feels like anything.
Who you kill would be more important.
I'd never kill a stranger unprovoked to be sure, but I'd kill anybody for attacking me in a way that endangered my life, no second thought.
I really have had enough of being victimized; it haunts my every waking moment, and there are some very specific people who have been unkind to me in the past, who probably don't even remember me, if I see the chance I might try to kill a few of them.
Nothing macho or overcomplicated, just set fire to their home in the middle of the night.
>>29261337
>>29261368
Do think there's people whose job is to that?
Seems silly but maybe it's true.
Now heres a better question. Is it normal to have these thoughts?
When I think about suicide as an option I usually imagine taking the man who destroyed me with me. I'm too much of a coward to ever do it, and I'm going to try to get better now.
I have intrusive thoughts about kidnapping and murdering out of spite people I liked during high school
If I can't be happy, why should they?
>>29261428
That's ridiculous, don't be silly
>>29261428
>He doesn't think 4chan is under constant surveillance by the FBI
The anons who get got never get to tell
>>29261428
No one is monitoring 4chan come on dude
Now how about those intrusive murder thoughts eh? Anyone ever did it?
I think about it from time to time but I would never harm an innocent.
>>29260621
Not really. Someone nearly murdered me when I was younger, and now this person just seems pathetic to me.
People who go on and on about wanting to kill someone or wanting to know what it's like just seem like weak little children who don't understand life or anything that goes along with it.
Killing in self-defense is different. Killing because you want to be an edgy media star attention whore is the most pathetic and worthless way to degrade yourself.
6 confirmed kills while I was on tour.
I didn't get up close so it was easy to make myself not think of them as real people. I felt worse about not feeling as bad as I thought I should have. I say I didn't see much actual action if anybody asks me about when I was on active duty.
>>29261618
Did you get to see their bodies?
>>29260664
This
I'm a person who values life and will release bugs instead of crushing them but I have this thing inside of me that is prepared to kill without hesitation if I ever have to.
I think about it regularly and it amazes me since I can't clench my fists to hit anyone or even swear to people. I'm capable of killing but I choose not to.
Is this what being in touch with your instincts feels like?
>>29261474
What's your opinion?
I think most people think about it but not very seriously.
>>29260621
I'm really curious about it, like everybody, i guess ?
>>29261843
This, you're not special for having killer instinct. It's in everyone.
>>29261871
men at least
>inb4 roastie
no
>>29261871
Yeah but the real question is
Would you cope with all of it after it happens? We can all become murderers but it will drive many to insanity
>>29261871
Why don't more people act on it?
>>29260621
I'm curious what killing myself would feel like
>>29262028
not much I bet
>>29260621
I've read a lot of philosophy and think about taking a life a lot.
One of the things that has always troubled me, even though I've never been strictly religious, is what effect it would have on the soul.
I mean on the off chance that there is a god or reincarnation is real, I think about how killing may affect my future.
I mean is somebody really up there keeping score? If they are, they aren't really in a position to judge, because they're the ones that gave me this shitty situation to begin with.
What about reincarnation? Can I kill and still be reborn?
Maybe there is nothing, so it doesn't matter what I do.
Does anybody else think about this?
If I knew with all certainty that killing wouldn't affect me in any way after death, I'd do it without hesitation.
>>29262023
Are you serious anon? Ever herd of prison? Or, get this, being killed beause you killed? It's THE taboo of taboos.
>>29262600
This is just pascal's wager.
Good to know I'm not the only one.
The fucking idea doesn't leave my mind.
But I also don't want to go to prisawn, and that's another thing that keeps haunting me.
>>29260996
aw shit, then I probably would go insane or something
>>29260879
Read Crime and Punishment familia.
>>29262776
fuck
I was about to give the exact same reply
>>29262726
I know, which is why it's funny because I was raised atheist and have never believed in God, but for some reason I've always lived with a "well what if?" mentality.
What do you think?
I'm serious, this is perhaps that question that has dominated my mind the most. As in a way, my very future depends on it.
>>29260621
>>29260621
Yes my NSA friendo, I wish I could kill everyone. I remember the first time I hurt someone and blood spurted out, it felt so gratifying, I've cut people but the laws of this land won't let me slaughter you.
>>29262776
There's an alright manga based on it as well.
>>29262891
Just look up criticisms of pascal's wager.
You could just as easily be judged for not killing or any other act.
The idea that if after life exists you will be judged negatively for killing is firmly rooted in traditional morals.
>>29262921
But do you think traditional morals are correct? Do you think what we do in this world effects our place in the afterlife? Is there even one?
stabbing the face is not the fun as its shown
trust me on this
the flesh feels weird and blocky
>>29260621
No I know what killing is like. Im the one who puts down our pets and holds them as their heart stops and I talk to them for like 10-15 minutes afterwards just in case.
Ive held someone at gunpoint before and been in scenarios where I could die.
My emotional part of my brain shuts off and I just do it. Especially when I held the guy at gunpoint everything shut off and it was very hard not to take his life. My body told me to kill him because he was a threat and fighting the urge to kill him was really hard. I let him go naked and crying.
I can kill people or anything really. It doesnt really bother me. Staying alive and protecting the people I love is 1000x more important. If its a necessary action say in time of crisis or war, I would not hesitate to kill everyone to protect everyone, heck I might even enjoy it. I guess that makes me chaotic good.
>>29260621
Yeah, but I'm not confident in getting away with it
>>29260621
Of course, GCHQ,, but no more than anyone else. Certainly I have more morals to the point where I would not do such a thing unless my life or my family's lives were at stake, and even then, I'd probably chicken out and just die. Normally I'd play the modesty card and say "I'd like to think that I would have more morals" but there's no need to waste your agents' time over a desire to appear humble on the internet.
>>29262972
I think traditional morals are based solely on human thought and have no connection some possible god or afterlife.
Let's talk some more.
Is that you, Meursault?
>>29264589
Any good media on this topic?
The Stranger
Crime and Punishment
Rope
On Murder Considered as one of the Fine Arts
Fateanon?
Original
what are some things the normies won't ruin?
>>29261618
> I felt worse about not feeling as bad as I thought I should have.
This is what everyone who was forced to kill feels. Adrenaline makes you default back to a more primitive state where you don't feel human emotions. And after it's over then all you're left with is some random person dead which happens all the time anyway.
Try to not beat yourself up over it.
More interested in dying, all you fags' atheist fantasies will fall apart
>>29264665
What are you asking?a
>>29260621
>being curious about something you've already done
No, OP. I'm not curious.
>all of these pussy moralfags
Yes, OP, I would kill someone if they got in my way or bothered me enough to warrant getting shot.
>le edgy meme dude u dont understand they r people life is great
>>29264698
Serial killing I guess?
>>29264790
If OP is fateanon
>>29260621
I think about it from time to time, and that the world would become a better place if some people were to die. But I get emotional over killing a spider so it would probably have to be a life or death situation for me to actually do it.
ITT
no one has read The Stranger
cucks
>>29260621
Nah. Id assume its just like killing a deer or a turkey, they just drop and sit. Dont think itd be any different at all actually.
>>29260900
only when you're killing prey. it's the feeling of winning the game. doesn't feel so good to mercy kill or kill problem animals or kill livestock that you knew closely.
I would be lying if I said I wasn't
>>29264842
it's already been tainted. plenty of good looking men with charisma have murdered people. even elliot wasn't really a robot.
>>29264846
Don't think I am whoever that is. Does fateanon post similar threads?
there are 3 persons I really consider killing
one of them did something unforgivable to me, it fucked me over completely, and I really wish nothing upon him but the worse
the other two did something shitty too, but it hasn't really affected me, yet
>>29264876
I guess there's nothing left for robots.
Maybe carnival freak shows.
>>29263183
Study and get confidence :)
>>29264851
>implying
What's your point?
>>29260664
God.... Heal this poor poor soul, from the edgy, cringy path....
I actually don't wanna kill or hurt anyone.
>>29262671
>It's THE taboo of taboos.
Disagree. Pedophilia is considered worse.
>>29266253
I feel like you're being insincere.
I get weird intrusive thoughts about kidnapping and torturing people, but I don't think I could ever actually do it. I'm extremely empathetic towards people and even accidentally stepping on a bug makes me feel like a monster and killing myself.
I also want a gf who'll beat me, torture me, scar me, and make me fear for my life.
>>29261618
Mos/rate?
You still in ladfam?
>>29266385
oh shit that was 4 hrs ago
whatever
>>29266295
Nah I'm not being insincere. Trust me.
>>29266347
>tfw we'd be perfect fit except not girl
I hate you god.
>>29265028
OR HUMAN EXTINCTION GENOCIDE
>>29266416
Are you going to harm a loli mister?
>>29266538
I don't think robots can accomplish that alone.
>>29262023
Literally the only thing stopping me is the threat of being caught and going to prison
>>29268391
Do you think you will ever be confident enough to override that fear?
>>29268404
No officer, I wont act on it
Yes, anon
(No, officer)
>>29268484
C'mon be honest.
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