Any robots 25 or older on tonight?
How you holdin up?
30 here. Not well. I have to say I'm really tired of this. I need death, soon.
>>29247078
34
I just went a whole week without internet cause my lap[top died .
Got a desktop working and was on it all day instead of going outside or doing anything
I had to have a drink a few hours ago cause of withdrawl
26. Told myself this weekend was going to be the last time I drink alone, masturbate and watch porn, etc. Pretty much turn my life around starting Monday. Umm...we'll see how this goes.
>>29247078
29.
I thought I was depressed and suicidal before but now I realize what true depression and being suicidal means.
I'm just tired of living.
man im 27 over here
i mean im doing fine but i just feel shitty
so many problems.
i wish i was 8 where i didnt have to worry about a bf
i want to kms
about to be 29 here
I'm alright. Still a neet loser but in good spirits.
All my 25+ robots drink. I like this. Got a question for you guys though. Do you think some types of alcohol affect you differently than others? Cheap vodka a different buzz than a good scotch?
>>29247267
>All my 25+ robots drink.
I don't. I can't handle the hangovers anymore
Looking for the veteran anon I talked to omegle. He was absolutely based. I'll be lurking.
>>29247078
31. Grumpy today, had a sob for my queer brothers and sisters. Raging at the mealy mouthed bullshit out of Obama's mouth. Watched Bethesda's E3 conference. Lackluster. Best thing today was breakfast: tater tots, fried egg, Tapatio.
Don't want to go to sleep in a cold, empty bed, so I've been guzzling coffee.
>>29247078
turned 25 June 1
and it dawned on me while at work that my life is over and it won't get any better
cheap vodka makes me feel cheap desu....
but yeah thats true
>>29247290
was he 29?
>>29247078
I've been here for 5 years. I started as a 21 year old virgin. I've been with my gf for almost 3 years. My daughter is almost 3. /r9k/ has gotten kind of crappy over the past few years.
>>29247309
I swear I feel relaxed after a good scotch, but cheap whiskey or vodka makes me want to strangle someone.
i feel you 31 anon
>>29247322
I never got his age, but we talked about guns, and trump, and about my tfw just broke up with gf.
>>29247267
lol no
alcohol addiction is fucking pathetic
shit tier drug
22 here (I just have a question for the elderbots)
What do you do other than wait for death and shitpost? I'm at uni and most definitely heading your way, just interested to know what's in store for me that's all.
i do draw..but it sucks
>>29247328
Then get the fuck off normalbitch
>>29247366
I'm 30. the worst part about it is that you cant do anything because its too late. I am basically half way through my life and it all goes down hill from here as my looks and body deteriorates. So essentially, my life is over and It was shit.
>>29247366
It will be a constant up and down. You reach the bottom, you decide to go up until something comes and drops you all the way back to the bottom.
Life will continue like that until you decide to end it or do something very bad.
>>29247366
Anything i want.
That's the point of growing up. No longer have to conform. No longer have to do what your group of friends wants.
Tannerite is legal here, so I blow shit up
>>29247282
I'm a civilized robot, I limit myself to 5 drinks. Most nights, just 1-3. No hangover. 2-3 is a solid buzz. Just enough for me
Perhaps once a year I'll go to some normie office party which leads me to drink more in the 8-10 range, and that hangover sucks a little but not terribly so.
>>29247366
>What do you do other than wait for death
I've developed a masochistic desire to see just how fucked up reality can get. It's worse every year. I hang on through sheer astonishment.
It's like one of those theater of the absurd German plays that doesn't make any sense but disturbs you on a fundamental level.
>>29247078
Like shit. Finally got lots of my life together but it all feels empty anyways. Need to sleep but can't, tomorrow is going to be rough. It's hard as fuck to have a social life after college and never seems to get better
I suppose you guys prefer cocaine or opiates. I've been down that road too, and it leads nowhere good.
>>29247366
Well I'm in uni so I mostly focus on my studies.
Just kidding, I still have all my bad habits that prevent me from growing up.
>>29247410
I'm sure most of us here don't exactly have our looks going for us. I'm already planning to spend my life only caring about myself, this whole thing about getting a partner is bs, just do things that you will enjoy, buy a nice car, try out some out door activities, try fulfil your life with all the things you find cool, it's never too late, especially in the times we live in now (sorry if that came off sounding gay af)
18 youngbot here
how have your parents dealt with you guys failing in life?
>>29247508
>I've developed a masochistic desire to see just how fucked up reality can get. It's worse every year. I hang on through sheer astonishment.
>It's like one of those theater of the absurd German plays that doesn't make any sense but disturbs you on a fundamental level.
Sorry if I'm being retarded, but what do you mean? Can you give an example?
>>29247078
30 years old
no gf ever, no friends.
i have wasted my life
i am not doing well as one would imagine
>>29247267
cheaper shit is rougher tasting and usually has a nastier hangover but it's all the same as far as effect. Mostly depends on your perceptions and expectations. If you believe that tequila will get you energized, you're body fills in the gaps. It's all the same though aside from flavor preferences
>>29247366
Work > Lift > Sad > Work > Lift > Sad
Pretty much sums up my life. No joke.
>>29247569
My dad killed himself. My mom just throws herself into her work.
>>29247502
I'll get a hangover off just 1 or 2.
>>29247569
>how have your parents dealt with you guys failing in life?
They stop caring after a certain point. They accept it, will nag you here and there. But after the tears of realizing there son is a failure comes embrace and acceptance.
27
Bought a bicycle recently, I've been riding it multiple times a day to stave off the depression and the urges to drink
>>29247239
>Told myself this weekend was going to be the last time I drink alone, masturbate and watch porn, etc.
I have been saying this to myself since xmas last year. Guess what, I'll say the same thing next sunday, and the next.
>>29247585
So it's mostly a psychological thing? I suppose that makes sense, since it's really the same drug. When you drink Crag you're cool like James Bond, but if it's Tennessee whiskey you just want to smack your bitch wife or something.
>>29247627
damn
that sounds harsh
even worse when both of my older sisters are set up and already earning up to 60k a year
one of them is even married and living downtown in a rich neighbourhood
fuck I'm such a loser
>>29247569
They act like I haven't failed at life and constantly needle me to go get a gf. It's a little annoying but I play along to try avoid breaking their hearts and revealing that I'm a complete failure at the one thing remaining I need for a successful life in their eyes
>>29247569
>how have your parents dealt with you guys failing in life?
My parents failed at life. I suppose that should've been indicative of my life's trajectory. Dad is a burnout, god knows where -- maybe dead! Mom knows she screwed up, so she puts a roof over my head and has low expectations.
>>29247078
30. I've been procrastinating very heavily and throwing my life and career down the drain as a result. I can't stick to any of the habits/routines required to get me out of this rut, so instead I lurk r9k and have alcohol to fool me into a false sense of comfiness
>>29247661
That's the way I've heard it, and it applies for me.
Tequila for breaking shit, whiskey for courage, rum to party about describes my experience.
Vodka/Gin are still up in the air as I usually drink them mixed
26
best sexual experience
>a girl touching my harm to get my attention
best romantic experience
>a girl praising me as a tutor "he is very sweet and kind"
>tfw I don't know how to treat a girl but being overly chivalrous
>tfw girls my age want a chad who treat them as equal
>tfw I don't know how to appreciate a conversation with a girl
>>29247627
I'm waiting for this part. They still call and ask if I am going to parties or getting promoted at work.
>>29247670
Life isn't a competition. Enjoy yourself and what you have. Fuck the rest.
But if you want to make it a competition...
What's your dream city/location? Any reason you can't move there? Don't say too expensive, because honestly right now I'd rather be poor in a city I like than have money in this small town. Well, once my student loans are gone.
>>29247644
Running by the Potomac might be keeping me sane.
>>29247750
dream? Dubai
honestly I like this city where I live right now
I just don't see myself achieving anything
>>29247267
I don't drink. My dad was an alcoholic and I was drinking heavily my senior year of high school up until I turned 21. My dad's health started declining after that so I stopped drinking by myself. He died earlier this year from it and I haven't felt like drinking since then.
>>29247681
holy fuck I'm completely terrified of this shit
my parents know I am a kissless virgin
everytime I went to someplace my father would ask me right after I came back if I "broke the curse" and I would always say "no"
I can feel the discontent building up
I'm a fucking loser
>>29247681
I limit contact with them to avoid this.
>>29247809
Good choice. Alcohol can make life more bearable but for some, but if you know alcoholism and addiction runs in the family, it's probably best to stay away from it.
So everyone has just given up??
Come on guys, you gotta dig a little deeper.
30 is the new 20.
Theres tons of adult children nowadays, its a thing.
You are still young in this millennial world.
>>29247818
I can't bring myself to do this completely but it is getting to a point now where every time they call me it just ruins my day.
>Hey, I'm fine
>Work still sucks but the pay's good
>No, I haven't met any girls out here
>No, I haven't been back to church yet
>I know, I'll figure it out
>Alrigt, uh huh, that's good (repeat until they hang up)
Same call every time and I dread it. I don't even pay attention to it anymore. Feels bad man
>>29247078
26 here. Doing pretty great.
>>29247078
>About to be 25 in a few months
>Feels like age 18 was only 2 or 3 years ago at most
>Realize that I'm now closer to age 30 than I am to age 18
>Too late to really develop any kind of artistic skill, will never match the level of people who started in childhood, even if I could I would be in my 40s or 50s and by then there would be no point
>Realize the 90s are now so long ago that there's adults who don't remember it
>Realize that the early 2000s are getting far away too and that the year 2000 was 16 fucking years ago
>Realize that even the 2010s are more than half over
>2010s arguably the worst decade in recent history, never thought they would be this bad
>Know that the 2020s will be even worse
>Don't even want to live to see 30, can't imagine how people live all the way to old age without killing themselves
>Planning to suicide at age 35, max
>>29247771
Most people don't achieve anything meaningful. Those "rich" bankers sell themselves out for cocaines, BMW s and hot gold diggers. And still live paycheck to paycheck. If you have enough and ideally if you can tolerate your job and find things you like to do in your free time, you win. Everyone who just did what they're supposed to is miserable.
Very few people are happier from driving a $50,000 car, they do it for the status. Buy the big house for the status. The newest gadgets, whatever other bullshit. That's not really living.
There's happy poor people and miserable rich people. Attitude and perspective go a long way. Do you want to wake up miserable or do you want to have a great day tomorrow? For most people it really is their choosing.
>>29247569
It's really awful. I have great parents who have unwavering faith in me. I only recently graduated from community college at 29, yet they insist that should be enough to start my career with.
During the holidays, I always get the cliche joke "when am I going to be a grandpa/grandma" shit. My mother insists I'll find someone and I laugh it off for the x300 time. My father doesn't even bring it up anymore, but still has faith in me otherwise.
>>29247816
The good news is that you will probably break the wizard's curse at some point so don't write yourself off too early. Plenty of people get lucky in their 20's for some strange reason.
I've learned to reconcile their demands with their complete lack of any real support. If they have such high expectations they ought to be offering some sort of constructive criticism or advice, but they never did so it's all meaningless
>>29247952
I probably could, but then I'd have to literally vanish from this city, my reputation is screwed, I have a very shitty nickname
>>29247078
start summer school, and volunteer work tomorrow, I was beginning to get tired of jerking off all day.
>>29247582
>what do you mean?
That would take maybe weeks to explain, if such things could adequately be communicated.
>>29248012
Just give me a partial description then.. I'm interested in what you have to say.
>>29247569
My parents don't give a shit which is at least part of how I ended up this way in the first place. I was an accident and they divorced right after I was born. My whole life they looked at me as a regretful burden and reminder of their fucked up failed marriage. As i got older it became a total passive indifference, they just straight up don't like me. Neither one asks about my life anymore, but back when they still occasionally did my dad would just sigh and say I was lost, and my mom would tell me to kill myself. I would've given anything to have a parent who was invested enough to try and save me from myself but they never took an interest.
>>29247328
>I've been with my gf for almost 3 years. My daughter is almost 3
hmm so you've been with your gf the same amount of time your daughter has been alive?
Got together after you knocked her up?
Daughter from a different mother?cucked?
>>29247078
27 here, just spent a day by myself at the beach. i'm so fucking lonely
>>29248033
my parents ruined me by overprotecting, which resulted in my clearly underdeveloped common sense
29 here but I never bought into all that Candlejack garba-
>>29248051
I've spent the last two months unemployed, only leaving my apartment at night to get alcohol and ramen/mac'n'cheese
If youre a fat guy you get a fat gf and be haapy right?
So loser guys just have to find a loser gf. Not all girls in highschool were popular right??
Sorry for calling ppl losers.
>>29247979
so leave, get a job in another city and start over. It might not be easy, but follow the can'ts until you find something you can handle.
>I can't get a job
why?
>Because I don't have any skills?
How about getting some skills?
>I can't just go get skills
Well no, how about community college or trade school?
>I can't afford that
Work fast food until you can
Somewhere out there is the bottom and that's where you start. Then you build something you want, for the feels in the meantime you can always come here
>>29248090
Them some strong feels anon, how do you support yourself? Neetbucks?
>>29247078
27 here, considered suicide recently.
Decided against it because my life is great.
>>29248118
I cant get a job as a fast food worker or janitor or whore. Tried and tried again, failed. What if the bottom doesn't even want you? Wal mart wont even higher me. So how fucked am I???
Doubt anyone will read but.. I love ya'll. Loneliness is heavy. Weighted and conforms like water. I truly believe loneliness is what causes constant tragedy. People lacking the simple "How are you?" or the "You ok?"
Talk to people. Please. Talk to strangers about their day. They fucking need that.
Everyone posting in this thread is worthy of attention, worthy of being important. Love fixes things that you did not realize was broken. Love is forgiveness before forgiveness is asked for. I want very much that all of my bots are put into a position where they feel comfortable enough to be positively vulnerable. Ya'll are sweet. You deserve to have people be sweet to you. Thank you for being alive people. I need you too!
>>29248118
Thank you, I'm going to try doing that
You're a good person, keep it up
>>29248177
You're right I didn't read it
>>29248189
That's fair. i still think you're a sweet pea.
>>29248177
Read the whole thing and nope'd at
>Talk to strangers about their day. They fucking need that.
I live in a large metro city, no one fucking cares here. It'd probably just be ignored and looked at like a psycho bum. Good try though robot.
>>29248154
Why don't they hire you?
No openings? Apply in other areas
Drugs? Cut that shit out
Lazy? Address the laziness
The bottom varies for everyone, it's not really an absolute. For Chad the bottom might be only having a 50k sports car instead of a newer model. For an immobile fat omega the bottom might be being unable to leave his bed. There is always something you can do if you want to make things better. Or if you don't you can accept things as they are, but don't expect magic to happen
>>29248012
As for where to start or what to say, I'm at a loss. If I knew you, I'd lend you my library, give you a bag of psychotropics and take you on a vision quest. Every passage that rang through your skull like a church bell would spur hours of conversation. And every insight would lead to an unspoken acknowledgement. The top of the hill isn't the end for Sisyphus. It just goes on, and on. There are no words for some things. Only subtext, which becomes apparent to your intuition over time.
>>29248223
You think that but have you tried? Sure some people don't give a shit but hurting is common. Would you be offended if someone was interested?
As I get older I feel an increasing desire to have kids, is this a social or biological thing? I mean either way it's not happening, but still. (27)
>>29248177
lack of love causes permanent damage yes, but it's kinda subtle
I find myself nearly uncapable of bonding, except when it revolves around obsessing about a girl who was sweet but isn't anymore
>>29248147
Living off savings. Gonna kill myself when they run out in like, 3 months.
>>29248154
Try going to a local job center. Since you are over 25, you can basically declare yourself homeless. Go to the job center a few times a week, fill out 4-5 applications.
Ask the workers for any help for homeless people. There are tons of employers looking to hire people on federal assistance because of the tax incentives. I got a part time job because I received food stamps through my mom.
>>29247078
31
weed man is out of town til tomorrow, so, there's that.
>>29248278
Depression is not always subtle. Mistrust stemmed from experience is not always subtle. I find myself detached from closeness as well but I don't entirely blame one thing. If you believe happiness is a condition, is sadness not also? Not saying you do, just thinkin. Love is very broad. Even if one desires non-"conventional" love, they still want their image of love. Do not tell me you don't desire to be desired.
>>29247449
bad is a subjective term
>>29247078
32 here, not holding up that good. Liver disease, backaches, etc. becoming more sexless as time goes on. Still no career.
Have you robots thought about doing what you think you should do?
>>29248335
Not going to kill myself til mom passes.
It'd literally kill her if I did that now.
She's the only woman whose ever loved me and I can't hurt her like that.
>>29248318
I desire intimacy
>>29248256
As a younger person, I would occasionally attempt to talk to random people. I tried my best to be a normie at social events (Id go alone to midnight game release, waiting in line for a concert, lines for movies, etc) and chat it up with a few people. More often than not it was awkward, unwanted, and totally unmemorable.
Of the few people whom I've enjoyed talking to and even gotten contact numbers, none have ever kept in touch. Temporary friends are an annoyance that has never been worth it to me.
27 here, came to a few conclusions lately
>I'll never become a normie. I work, sure, but that is all I have. Nobody calls me after work to drink a beer or something, and it's my fault. The worst this is, I can't change, you just can't after a certain age.
>for this very reason and because I'm no better than 4 or maybe 5/10, I'll never gave a gf, which I like. And my standards are ridiculously high, 6/10 at the very least but ideally 7/10 (obviously 8+ is out of question)
>The worst thing is, I lack the drive to put effort in things, I mean, I'm fine as I am now. I can eat whatever I want, I have internet and occasionally I speak with some people through it
>inb4 you whiny bitch, just improve yourself
I always get this and ask them, why don't you just earn more money? I can, why can't you? It's easy. That usually shuts them up very quickly.
>>29248335
yeah, we have. Some of us do it, some of us stare at it and don't do it for one reason or another. It's one thing to suggest something to people but another thing altogether to treat it like all they have to do is change their minds and everything will be hunky dory
>>29248335
It bubbles up every once in a while, like recently. This is when I get deeply uncomfortable with myself and my actions, not overwhelmed dramatic depression that I usually experience. It's when I'm the most miserable and productive at the same time.
>>29247078
I'm 20 but I haven't felt good ever since I graduated highschool, I'm a NEET with psychosomatic disorder and I have no interest in anything and I don't like myself but there's no reason behind why I hate myself. I can't sleep well and I often sleep for most of the time trying to regain energy but I can't, I'm always constipated even though I'm a healthy 173 pound 6 foot 1 individual. My dad tells me I should go exercise and stretch because I'm really stiff and that's probably a contributor to my entropic state. Whenever I think about things, it's forced, and I don't want to think about things that interest me. I think it has something to do with my brain mostly as well.
I know I shouldn't complain because I'm in a 1st world country but it just feels like hell living like this and I don't think depression pills work.
>30
Have to go back to rehab, no job parents proud or rather would flip their shit if I left... Have a new black bf to cuck me
>>29248444
Your dad is right, exercise more. Go hiking by yourself once a week. It helps.
>>29248363
You desire love. Love, in a very broad sense, should be the foundation of pleasure. Even if you don't love the person, you love the stimulation, which must come from a person. Thus why fapping only does so much.
>>29248367
And I don't even necessarily mean talk to all strangers. Sometimes you can tell a person wants to talk to someone. Even if they reject it, it does not negate how you cared. I have no desire for acquaintances, like you. I'm actually offended by insincere pity, bored talk. But I do think that a little care goes a long way for the right people. I say this because I've had people help me in surprising ways. You never know how a person will respond but it's better than total silence imo.
>>29248444
Eat bran in the morning. It's what us old people eat for fatty poos.
>>29248335
Personally, what I think I should do requires a passion to do something. The thing is, I can't feel excited about anything other than immediate gratification, in my case drinking, because I've lost interest in such a significant way that I don't even have the desire to daydream anymore. I'm fairly certain that I'm only biologically alive.
>>29248478
Idk, I mean I go outside but I don't think it helps me, I'm still nervous all the time and I have headaches and shit, I have to breath either heavily or minimally to try and get back to an ideal blood pressure.
My blood pressure fluctuates all the time and I don't really feel good. You really think exercise and going outside will help clear my mind?
>>29248492
Even when I eat more fiber it's still stuck up in there. I'm not even supposed to have these problems being a young 20 year old going on 21. I always poop little tiny pooplets.
I feel like shit.
>>29247078
Hai im le 12 xD lol
>>29247078
>29
>ran a business in my early 20s
>tried to do the path that would make me happy in life
>all i wanted was to be financially secure, have a gf->wife->kids
>got caught up in expensive lifestyle
>blew all the money, wound up in debt, business failed
>gave lots of money to family
>no family would help me in the end
Its the absolute worst feeling living the good life for a few years and then having to tighten my belt over and over and over and over again. I'll end up selling my house this year rather than end up in foreclosure.
I honestly dont think I would have spent everything if I was able to get in a single relationship. I spent, spent, spent trying to impress people, trying to put myself in places to meet someone.
I used to masturbate and marathon porn but thats all ended. I'm spending all day trying to avoid bankruptcy/foreclosure and get any kind of business going. I'm exhausted by the end of the day. Before I would masturbate a couple times a day. Maybe I'm just getting older.
I'm angry at the world but even more so at myself. How could I constantly fall for the thinnest shreds of affection. I'm amazed at how good I could lie or convince myself otherwise. Maybe the next girl will like me, maybe shes just busy so she never responded to my text, maybe these people really do want to be my friends. What a fool. What a child. I've always felt like a starving animal waiting for anyone to throw out a scrap of attention or love or anything. Willing to pay any price, offer anything I have, down to the last penny if it at least gave me a chance.
>>29247267
Different alcohol can have different effects on you. Could be all in your head, could be because of a slight allergy to something, could be due to the different types of drinks, or your mood or how hungry you were.
Ran out of room to type.
Life doesn't get better unless you get better.
I want to move somewhere where its always snowing, and live away from people.
>>29247078
28
I'm shrek.
I'll just watch the roaches scatter again.
>>29247078
Think about death literally every single day.
I'm 25 but I'm a cutey patootie trap and I just need to get my ass pounded but I live with my parents right now because I had a bad meth problem for a while but i'm doing good now i haven't done it in over a year and also I AM SO FUCKING SEXY, you know those people that are weirdly beautiful well I'm one of them it's a curse
>>29247366
>What do you do other than wait for death and shitpost?
There's more? I guess I go shopping?
hello im 27
i want to kill myself
>>29247078
I'm 32 and I am doing better than I ever have been except that I'm aging and I can feel it. I hurt my liver drinking, I hurt my pancreas eating, I hurt my back lifting. I went too hard on the good stuff in life. I may also have ruined my sex life.
However, I'm making more money than I ever have, by a lot, and living in a major metro area in a clean, comfy apartment on a nice street over a beer house. It's pretty sweet. I just wish I had gotten heare 10 years ago before I had to go through the hard times.
>>29248904
>you know those people that are weirdly beautiful well I'm one of them it's a curse
>>29248601
Personally, I like going on hikes by myself because of the lack of any pressure to socialize. Just go up some local hills and explore.
>>29247078
I will be 53 in October
Tired, got to be at work at 6, after midnight now, prostate is bugging me been up to piss every 15 minutes since I laid down
Never married, no kids, no girlfriend, got a dog, she sleeps in the hallway, never would sleep on my bed
Big disappointment to my folks, my sister is a judge, has grandkids now, when my parents died she inherited everything, I moved into a shelter, she felt guilty and bought me a condo, well it's her place I just get to stay until I die, she pays the taxes I have to cover the utilities
Just 500 square feet, efficiency kitchen/living room, hall, bedroom and bathroom, no car, i ride a bike, she got me a job as a janitor at the main library, she thinks it's funny because I hate reading books, the smell of all these books makes me want to shit all the time
Got a routine, same lunch and dinner, I vary the breakfast, I eat every 6 hours on the dot, same clothes, I don't like choosing, new stuff, I like routine
So not so bad, been around longer than I expected, got a while to go, got my dog, my tablet, my movies, got a job
I suppose I am a success, lucky me
join.skype.com/CjwJDzoT2Nwr
join us
>>29249075
Any advice for us younger 18-25 yr old anons? Especially given most of us are robots who just want a comfy life and aren't normies?
>>29249075
>because I hate reading books
What is that oldchan?
>>29249104
Yes, one thing. Breed.
>>29249091
wow that girl is hot
>>29249117
Before tablets, they used to print the letters on paper and put the paper in a cover, called it a book, after a while they smell, libraries and bookstores always make me want to shit, as soon as that smell hits
I prefer my tablet, one device millions of stories
>>29249137
Breed with what sort of woman? As an older anon who has probably seen many of his peers kids grow up what sort of parenting style usually results in chads/stacies and what results in failed normies and robots?
Do you have any other regrets? General tips? You seem to have a pretty relaxed lifestyle many here would envy
im 19. how bad is 25? im looking forward to 21 but i dont think it'll be too good after that. pretty sure suicide is in my future before 30 after my mom dies
>>29249104
Find a simple job, a state of government job, a nighttime janitor or guard
Places are closed no one to deal with
Find a small place, not too big, just enough room, close to your job, you can walk or bike
Get into a routine, sameness makes you blend in, no one notices, bothers you
Get a pet, will keep you from wanting to die, something to love and get love from, who will never hurt you
Once you get into your routine, the time speeds past, pretty soon all the things you dreamed about doing are no longer attainable, then you get to a point where you say fuck it, and just live for the moment
No more dreams, no more plans, mo more the hero of fantasies, just work, eat, sleep, watch a movie, play a game
You no longer matter to anyone, your life is no longer important to anyone else
It becomes liberating, very few really accept that to others their existence is meaningless, you wake up a realize that you don't matter
Other people laugh or feel sorry for me but I have accepted who I am and my part in life as a background player, just a blur in someone else's story
What I have might not be much but it's mine and my life matters to me
30 and started to think I don't want a gf anymore because every interaction with females makes me think they are all pure evil. Men are just too stupid and I'm not attracted to them. 2D never makes me feel like that.
>>29247078
25 exactly
I'm old enough to realize what was done to me during my youth
I'm old enough to see how the vast majority of my peers got a free ride
I'm old enough to see that I'm in a sliver of the population that got cheated
>I'm old enough to give up
>>29247569
>how have your parents dealt with you guys failing in life?
My parents mutilated me shortly after I was born. The deformed my face, chin, and jaw with unnecessary "orthodontics." They isolated my form my peers and keep me away from girls with Puritanical rules that I can clearly see as being utterly insane now.
They annihilated my potential before I was even a teenager.
The questions is, what will my parents do for me to start paying the debt that have to me?
32...been trying to get a career going but its probably too late. Too autistic for normies so i am stuck in low wage hell.
>>29249705
give me a hug friend. you'll get through this
>>29248968
no its true, its true. if I had realized my trap status at 20 I would literally be the most beautiful human to ever exist on planet earth, but I realized it not long after so I'm still in the clear. I love sucking the souls of men out through my anus, there's few loves I have so strongly. I am the dionysian spirit personified, I am walking seduction. It is what it is, but it's not just a curse, it is also a blessing. There's nothing like it.
>>29248107
Loser girls are hard to find because there are so many societal, familial, and cultural safety nets to help women succeed.
>>29247078
48, and starting to wonder whether it's time to step away from r9k. I'm a robot: severe depression, social anxiety, bouts of homelessness, and I'm fat and ugly to boot. But I've also managed to live a pretty exciting and adventurous life despite my limitations, and I come here to give robots the benefit of my experience.
The problem is that I can't talk about any part of my life without being called a liar, and whenever I end up outing myself to prove I'm not lying, people call me a "normie" or an egomaniac or both. What's worse is, if I don't speak from my own experience and back up my advice with anecdotes from my own experience, people here simply ignore me. My guess is because my life falls so far outside their white, teenaged, privileged suburban existence, they just figure I'm trolling.
At one point, a robot who wrote about soon being homeless was looking for a place to crash. I offered to put this robotfriend up as long as necessary and sent this person some email with details about who I am -- and was completely ignored while this person continued to post about having nowhere to go. It's hard not to feel annoyed.
>>29249826
>you'll never move across country and crash on a fellow robot's couch, listening to his wild gen x 80s stories
Why live.
>>29249946
I'm the caretaker at a union hall, so I have the key and 24/7 access. I have a standing offer to host robot get togethers here. We have comfy counces, a back meeting room which holds 50 people, and enough coffee urns to brew up 150 cups at a time. Plus I recently turned out water cooler into an iced coffee dispenser for the summer. I even have a couple of extra pipes for anyone who wants to join me for a smoke of some quality Balkan Blue or Escudo Navy Deluce tobacco. Sadly, no robots seem to live close enough to the Detroit area to make it down here.
>>29249946
>Detroit
Whew lad. But seriously, I picked up a tobacco pipe a year ago, it's the comfiest thing I ever did. Don't know much about blends. The shops don't specialize in that kind of thing, so I've got the illustrious choice between some variety of Captain Black or American Spirit.
What's the hall all about -- labor union, or like a rotary lodge or something? I live on the east coast, so it's way out of my way, but you sound like a cool guy.
>>29250080
Seconded, you seem cool and if I lived near detroit I would so be your live in housemaid, but I got a year of school left and a job waiting after :(
>>29250080
Order your tobacco online. It's hard to find quality tobacconists these days, and the few that exist specialize in cigars rather than pipe tobacco. That drug store tobacco like Captain Black's is crap. Trust me, once you've had something better like Dunhill 965 or Scottish Cake, you won't be able to go back to drug store stuff with their tops and chemical taste.
I'm an organizer with the IWW, the Industrial Workers of the World, and I'm helping to organize the Street Labourers of Windsor (SLoW). We're a union for anyone who makes their living on the street, like buskers, scrappers, panhandlers, vendors, and so on. Our union hall is called the Utah Phillips Centre and is sort of a community centre celebrating the traditions of hobo life. We have drop-in jam sessions for street musicians, offer free classes in traditional hobo arts like walking sticks and spoon rings, and we offer a place for community groups to hold meetings for free.
You can see photos of the place on our GoFundMe page:
www dot go fund me dot com slash SLOW-IWW
25yr old Aussie cyborg. It's near impossible to be full robot here.
>>29250149
you know i was almost impressed by that tabaco shit because i'm really craving some death
but the fedora lord party your trying to throw ruined it shill cancer first and then shill your your communist in disguise shit after
>>29247078
I am 33 years old. You can say I'm a model r9k citizen. No friends, virgin, living at home with my mom and no hope for at least a decade.
>>29250187
It's Canada, dude. Did you expect right wing death squads. Of course they have a hippie commune union for buskers and whatever other weirdos. It looks pretty comfy. Would bring my ukulele to one of their jam sessions.
>>29250187
You sound a little silly if you know anything about the history of the IWW. We were founded in 1905 and shortly afterward there was a huge fight which split the whole union in two. The communists wanted the IWW to get into politics and back the Socialist Worker Party in the US. The anarchists told them to go pound sand, so the communists left en masse. As a result our constitution actually forbids us as members of the IWW from promoting any political or anti-political ideology, as we are supposed to be a union for ALL people regardless of their politics.
And I happen to own *three* vintage fedoras, wear them on a regular basis, and look good wearing them. So there.
>>29247267
I may smoke ciggerates, I may not be in very good shape overall...
But, I hate belligerent drunks. There really is a point to where someone is drinking so hardcore they might as well have a needle in their arm.
>>29250218
One of our members actually offers free ukelele lessons to the public. In addition to the uke, he also plays harp, keyboard, recorder, guitar, and Irish drum.
>Waste my entire life NEETing and doing small jobs
>Want to go to college but not good enough grades
>Going back to HS to improve them
JUST, I'm turning 25 this year.
I am going to be 29 on Friday. I feel completely disconnected from everyone else, I'm more of a failed normie than a robot, I just wanted a gf and never got one. I hate myself.
>>29248263
I want to have kids too anon. I probably never will though.
>>29247078
27 here
met a 16 year old in a video game. we've been skyping a lot and falling asleep with each other on skype a lot lately. I do not want anything sexual with her we are just friends. She is very kind and nice.
>tfw ur a senpai to someone
>>29247304
I can't remember the last time I had tater tots
I'm 26 and at work. I'm holding up fine.
I'm eager to get home and continue playing Skyrim.
The last few months I've felt my anger has grown stronger, it's a nice warm feeling. Although I try not to show my anger but I always looked angry anyways.
>>29249612
tell us more mister deformed man?
holy shit I was playing into the depressive posts
thank you to the anons who were seeing things in a positive light
I feel I have a really changed point of view
>>29247267
People say this but I've never felt a difference. I'm generally not in touch with my body though, and can barely feel the effects of coffee so it's probably because of that.
>>29247569
My mother has been dead for 18 years and I haven't seen my father in 11 years.
>tfw you find yourself angry, nervous and just in a shit mood
>you dont know why
>>29248089
I love you so m-
>>29247725
>>tfw girls my age want a chad who treat them as equal
Chad treats women like disposable sex toys, which unfortunately works wonders.
>>29247569
They've accepted I'm going to be living with them until they die, and have told me not to expect any help from my siblings when this happens.
>>29247750
Agreeing on the fuck competition part.
Tale from the Psych ward:
Had a guy move in into a rich neighbourhood with his wife and kids. The house they bought is a $300,000 home in a $1,000,000 house neighbourhood. Guy ended up going psychotic cause of the perceived bullying from the neighbours about him being a "poor" fuck.
Without going into further detail, he got better, although had to move out of there.
>>29249321
i feel a lot like this and im 26. either way it doesn't matter
i enjoyed your posts oldfag
26. im in the same situation as i was at 16.. living at parents, no gf, job or car. i do have a couple friends though, which help keep me attached to normalcy.
the sadness and frustration has given way to acceptance, apathy, calm.. over the last couple years. i dont care about sex or a gf. i dont even speak to people when i dont want to now, nor do i have to keep a facade of being happy. the depression has overriden my anxiety making things easier.
i quite enjoy getting older. not only are you closer to death but you grow in acceptance and apathy so things get comfier. i feel like my brain has "shut down" a lot because of depression, and i like that, because i think all our suffering comes from our mind.
