Who /lonely/ here?
Let's try to find other lonely people to talk with.
>How old are you?
>How do you spend your days?
>Is there any particular kind of person you'd like to talk to?
>>29237325
24
I wake up looking for my controller and fall asleep with it. everything in between is bathroom, eating, masterbation and shitposting.
Id like to talk tona wizard, like a magical one. But i know theyre not real, thats why im lonely. Real people suck. We're so lame compared to our own imagination
I'll post my own I guess.
>How old are you?
23
>How do you spend your days?
I work 9-5 during the week which mostly keeps me distracted. When I'm not at work I'm just a shut-in playingOverwatch or Rocket Leagueand watchingTwitchto keep my mind off the loneliness.
>Is there any particular kind of person you'd like to talk to?
Anyone who enjoys vidya, Twitch orprogramming/game dev.
>>29237325
>18
>riding my motorcycle, playing vidya, having my family drag me around town
>a girl, a therapist, anyone my age who doesnt let sports and hanging out with their normie friends
>>29237325
>How old are you?
23
>How do you spend your days?
I'm uni graduate therefore now i spend days looking for future slavery and spending time on pc in between. I'd like to play games but my laptop is 5 years old and barely works.
>Is there any particular kind of person you'd like to talk to?
Just a person who would be open to any topic, maybe some sensitive person who has dreams and aspirations.
>>29237557
What did you graduate in?This comment is 100% original.
>>29237582
Bachelor in Physics
>>29237609
Cool. What kind of job are you hoping to get?
>How old are you?
19
>How do you spend your days
Right now watching E3, vidya usually, making good use from the free time I have from uni, but I'm looking for a job and hopefully I can get one soon
>Is there any particular kind of person you'd like to talk to?
One that is not really toxic when it comes to it's view on the world, someone that can be positive with the right motivation, someone that seeks self-improvement just like me.
>>29237615
Maybe something engineering/research in laboratory but eventually hop in programming stuff.
>>29237325
>24
>college/go/fucking around on the computer
>a (smart, maybe majoring in something interesting) girl
i know that last part makes me a faggot but talking to guys about life stuff is weird for me
>>29237639
As a software engineer I can highly recommend programming but only if you're passionate about it.
>>29237663
>i know that last part makes me a faggot but talking to guys about life stuff is weird for me
I feel you, famalam. I've connected with a bunch of females from /r9k/ much better than guys.
19
Taking my pills,playing videogames and generally feeling like shit.
just anyone who isn't a meanie.
>>29237799
>only if you're passionate about it
I have no choice anon, i dont live in 1st world country that i could live off from minimal wage.
>>29237829
What kind of pills are you taking and what for?
>>29237829
Hey, what kind of vidya are you into?
>>29237385
What kind of work to you do? How do you find it?
>How old are you?
18
>How do you spend your days?
I lift a lot and download pictures of lolis. Also i like music
>Is there any particular kind of person you'd like to talk to?
other lolicons or lifters
>>29237912
Give me your best loli anon.
>>29237853
Benzos,anti depressants and mood stabilisers
I take them for my depression,bpd and anxiety disorder.
>>29237859
Im nearly into everything,right now im playing overwatch,dark souls 3 and the occasional round of dota
>How old are you?
21
>How do you spend your days?
working, going to class, and doing stuff on my computer
>Is there any particular kind of person you'd like to talk to?
Someone interesting, but tbf I'm pretty boring to talk to, so that requirement is unreasonable.
>>29237928
I couldnt pick!
>>29237325
>19
>I practice on my guitar playing,vidya,sketching some stuff every now and then,learning Swedish,going to the gym to get /fit/ and stop being a skelly
>This girl who i liked a lot,i mean A LOT.
Sadly she moved to another city we had our last hug yesterday i also kissed her on the neck.I mean i can go see her it is just a one hour bus ride but im afraid it would be a little weird.Should i do it ?I really like her and would kill to just smell her scent or to feel her in my arms.
>How old are you?
18
>How do you spend your days?
Workdays busting my ass off in school, but when I come back to the dorm I start wishing I'd die.
The weekends are better because I can play my drums, and I'm back on my computer
>Is there any particular kind of person you'd like to talk to?
Not really, I have nothing to say to anyone anymore. I know I have to change, but I've been alone all my life so how to start
>>29237887
I'm a software engineer at a mobile app startup. I wrote our entire backend by myself and a good chunk of the apps on both iOS and Android. I quite like it but it can be frustrating at times like when my boss pulls new features out of his ass and wants them implemented immediately. We're actually launching a pilot of our app this week though so it should be pretty interesting.
>>29237938
I'm on antidepressants for depression too. Do you feel like they help much?
>>29237938
I'm on anti depressants mood stabilizers and benzos too, but the benzos aren't prescribed
you should smoke weed everyday, the combo between the four medications is fantastic
unless you're not a degenerate, then whatever
>>29237962
Something non-sexualizing?
>>29237325
>>How old are you?
31
>>How do you spend your days?
M-F: Work, Home, Tea, Lift, Internet / Vidya, Eat, Sleep
Sat / Sun: Tea, Internet, Yardwork, Housework, Lift, Eat, Sleep
>>Is there any particular kind of person you'd like to talk to?
Someone as pessimistic as I am.
>>29237799
>I feel you, famalam. I've connected with a bunch of females from /r9k/ much better than guys.
yeah, same. but i've fallen out of contact with them for various reasons. so now i'm here
>>29238072
What kind of tea do you drink? And how do you feel about coffee?
>How old are you?
I just turned 18 a few days ago
>what do you spend your time doing?
Either school, work, or vidya usually
>what type of person would you like to talk to
A girl preferably which I obviously won't find here.
>>29238125
>>29237454
>Girls
There are no biological girls on this board
>>29237325
>How old are you?
19, 20 in a month
>How do you spend your days?
High all day, living on borrowed time leeching off anything that comes near me but playing to their emotions and using my charisma to let it happen. It's gonna crash and burn hard one day when people stop liking/feeling bad/being intrigued in me. But that's the day I overdose on Xanax & Heroin anyway. I keep IV needles underneath my bed for when that day comes. Oh, and I browse 4chan from the moment I wake up until the moment I go to bed. Days, months, years, half a decade, 7 years go by doing this with a whole bunch of horrible life stuff in-between.
>Is there any particular kind of person you'd like to talk to?
No. In fact I forgot the point of this thread. But I feel lonely as fuck and feeling like at anytime things could come crashing down. Life is stable right now, but I feel like I'm on thin ice with how I play life. I wish I could feel a connection with anybody.
>>29238069
But they are sexy even when they dont try
>>29237609
Same. I am doing my masters now. What was your thesis in?
>>29238150
I know which is why i said I doubted that I'd find any here
>>29238096
I did coffee for years. Usually just did Folgers Colombian straight black because I want to taste how coffee tastes, not how coffee-flavored sugary milk tastes.
Got tired of the caffeine spike even though I would only hit 2 cups a day max, usually just 1.
Tea gives you a longer and more gradual stim and it's easier to drink more of without ill effects. Coffee on an empty stomach will typically send you to the bathroom - tea not so much.
Usually do straight black tea in the morning, green / ginseng in the afternoon. Sometimes will hit some other herbal-type stuff if I just want something good to drink.
>>29237996
im on different ones for about 2 years and it never really helped much desu.
>>29238062
no idea where to get it.
>>29238183
Something along programming in ubuntu aka making a virtual particle detector.
>>29238214
It's okay then anon. I just hope you feel better soon. Use the tiny energy boost your meds give you to your advantage - that's what I've been trying to do lately.
>>29238214
Which characters do you play in Overwatch? Make or break right here famalam.
>>29238189
>folgers
disgusting. black coffee is god tier though.
What side effects did you get from coffee? Sometimes I'm super jittery when I make it super strong, but it makes me feel normal. Did you get any withdrawal symptoms when you quit?
The taste of green tea makes me cringe for some reason. It tastes sour to me.
>>29238246
im trying to study again in february and hope ill feel good enough to go through with it,otherwise ill just stay neet forever
>>29238251
Anyone my team needs,favorite character to play is D.va though
>>29238242
Holy shit, you wrote it yourself? That's pretty impressive.
>>29238295
>What side effects did you get from coffee?
I could just feel it artificially racing my heart which I didn't like. I'd get jitters as well if I slammed 2 cups as quick as I could.
Never got withdrawl because I never abused it that much, also kind of tapered off instead of going cold turkey.
Tea has a lot more flavors to pick from that don't taste so artificial. The flavored coffee I tried from Starbucks or wherever else always tasted like chemicals.
>>29238359
I hope you can push through. I'm neet, but still haven't gone to college yet. I'm so scared of debt, I hate it and I plan to manage to get by through life without it somehow. It'll work out maybe. But I hate school, it's not a place for me, but I'll be kicked out if I don't go. This NEET life has been sweet, but it's almost coming to an end. For now, anyway. I'll probably dropout after 6 months and go from there. I should get NEETbux for my diagnosed GAD, derealization, depression, anxiety, and regular welfare for my leg
I'll be raking it in
>>29238359
What are you planning to study?
>Anyone my team needs
My nigga. D.va is a fun character but she badly needs a buff.
>>29238437
I've been drinking double espressos at work lately and I get quite a kick off them. Feels good man.
19
I was working a job since I was 17, but I quit cause of school schedule last semester. I live with my parents, and I've tried getting other jobs but no one wants me. So now I'm living a lonely, neet summer until school starts.
I talk with my cousin and my 2 best friends almost every night, we play games a lot. But I don't hang out with people in real life so I feel really lonely. I've never had a girlfriend either, but that doesn't bother me too much.
I'm trying to do a YouTube channel because deep down I've always wanted to be an entertainer, so I'm giving that a shot.
>>29237325
>How old are you?
i'm 18
>How do you spend your days?
I spend my days either playing Csgo (i know, dont start.)/GTA 5, or just sitting in chatrooms (tinychat/kageshi)
>Is there any particular kind of person you'd like to talk to?
someone who respects space and that i might not reply for a few hours and someone who likes 80s music
>>29238437
I've been trying to ween off of coffee because if I don't have my cup in the morning and one in the afternoon, then I get a massive headache and I feel crappy all around. It's been hard though since I've been drinking it regularly for ~7 years.
I agree with you on the flavored coffee part. I usually make my own pour over coffee so I can control the strength of it depending on how much I sleep.
What kind of yardwork do you do? I've been trying to grow arugula and sunflowers but the deer keep on eating them
>>29238597
>What kind of yardwork do you do?
I pay tribute to the grass god and mow this stupid 1 acre plot I was dumb enough to be convinced to buy along with this house I've been trying to rid myself of.
And all the little detailing shit that goes with it - bushes, edging, whatever. Of course the yard has to look fucking perfect if someone's going to buy the thing.
All in the wonderful Georgia heat. I just got done actually.
>How old are you?
18
>How do you spend your days?
Fucking around on the computer, playing vidya, been trying to get into music lately, working out
>Is there any particular kind of person you'd like to talk to?
Anyone really
>>29238648
I wish you luck in selling your house, and I hope you turn a profit. Wouldn't it be worth it to pay for someone to do that stuff?
>>29238770
>Wouldn't it be worth it to pay for someone to do that stuff?
But then I wouldn't be a "Man"
>>29237325
>how old are you
19
>how do you spend your days
Study for finals, work in the fields, watch anime, listen to 90s music, smoke cigs
>is there anyone you'd like to talk to
I'm past the point of caring. No arguments make me excited and when I'm with others I'm not myself.
I would like to speak with someone that doesn't fake pity and the willingness to talk to me.
>>29237325
>How old are you?
19
>How do you spend your days?
I spend my days mostly sitting and thinking about stuff, making music, or smoking weed.
>Is there any particular kind of person you'd like to talk to?
Yeah, someone nice and empathic, who doesn't mind my depressing view of the world and likes to listen to a lot of random bullshit.
Actually, that isn't even needed. Just somebody who is interested in talking to me.
Fuck I would talk to anything that can reply right now
I guess I'll just go to some random AI pages
>>29238806
Is yardwork really what defines you as a man
>>29238953
>No arguments make me excited
Why not? What happened?
>>29238953
you seem okay
whatup in your life?
(I suck at opening conversations)
>>29239068
No, but petty opinions about you do, sadly.
>>29239095
Truth. What else do you do? Why are you lonely?
>>29238436
It's not that impressive knowing i changed only some parts of other code.
>>29239068
>>29239095
>>29239149
When you're 31 and live alone, you have no option to be a NEET. Someone has to go to work, someone has to cut the grass, someone has to fix the car or the AC when it breaks, someone has to do everything.
When that someone is only you, there is no one else. You must do everything.
No one to talk to.
No one to even look at.
When you're 31 and alone, you're alone. You live alone. You sleep alone. You die alone.
People who are 31 don't have the convenient context of high school or college to go make new friends. You're just seen as some creepy fucking hermit who lives alone.
>>29239063
What kind of music do you make anon?
>How old are you?
26
>How do you spend your days?
Sleeping as much as I can, on 4chan when not. Sometimes animu if I can get up the motivation for it.
>Is there any particular kind of person you'd like to talk to?
I just can't, sorry.
>>29239190
>I just can't, sorry.
Why not?
>>29239079
Dunno. I was always alone and with time I got used to it. In class I would always look out of the window and pretty much daydream all day.
I had one friend in HS wich I felt comfortable with, but he disappeared from my life and here I am. Got used, bullied and made fun of, does not help the fact that I dislike talking about myself (cringing right now) and always felt a bother.
I've been told that, even tho everyone dies miserable and alone, I would have been even more than the others.
Let's just call it autism and be done with it.
>>29239188
I play guitar in a few bands but since that shit goes horribly slowly I started making electronic music.
I started with some experimental stuff, then started doing trance, and now I'm on trap/dubstep kind of thingy. I'm trying to make beats for rap songs, so I can find some young rapper and be his producer.
If I'm lucky I might even get somewhere with that stuff.
http://soundcloud.com/skopa-larzdi/002a
here's a sample of my music if you're curious...
>>29239086
I work the fields, i'm a gardener and sometimes I join some "friends" with D&D, wich actually helped me fake emotions.
>>29239242
You sound exactly like me. Except instead of out of a window, my head was down. The teachers got so used to it that they made an exception for me because they knew I was suicide-tier everyday. I had one cool friend in HS who played vidya with me, he was awesome. We were best friends. He moved away and we lost touch. Wouldn't know how to get in contact with him again, sadly. I got bullied, made fun of and all that but I hate talking about shit too because I feel it's pretty pointless and time could be spent doing better things.
I guess we're both just two apathetic autists coasting by.
>>29239183
It makes me sad to know that people like you exist. What did you do to deserve such punishment?
>>29239285
>wich actually helped me fake emotions.
Why do you need to fake emotions?
Don't get me wrong, I also fake emotions a lot, I'm just curious about your motive.
Joining an acting sessions may help you more with that though.
>>29239183
Did you miss your chance when you were in your 20's/in hs or uni? What field do you work in?
>>29239283
I like it anon. Funny enough I've been trying to do kind some kind of rap thing, but I've got no examples or anything. I like rap but I don't think I have the voice for it. Keep up the good work.
>>29239326
It's ok brother. We are good alone.
The only thing I regret is that i won't have kids for this very reason and I'll be that pleasant yet lonely old fart.
Thanks obama
>>29239356
Because it's pointless to talk about your true self when none really cares. I also don't feel like I deserve attention at all, so I really need this emotional wall
>>29239338
>What did you do to deserve such punishment?
I was born in an ultra-conservative home, went to a private Christian school, and fell out of the church when I realized the "no sex before marriage" thing was a meme and all religions were equally based on an illogical assumption of faith.
>>29239375
>Did you miss your chance when you were in your 20's/in hs or uni?
Never had a chance. Never tried to get with anyone because "God" was supposed to send me someone.
>>29239375
>What field do you work in?
Insurance. Used to be a teacher until it became an untenable position - not enough money. Way too much bullshit and politics.
And being a male in the teaching profession has its own problems.
>>29239400
Thank you. Music is the only thing in my life I was ever truly proud of. I feel uncomfortable talking about it and showing it to people in real life, but in my head it's the only part of me that ever had any value.
Do you have any lyrics? We could make a collaboration if you want.
>>29239499
>none really cares.
No one cares for people who don't care for themselves, at least I think so. I used to be pretty full of energy and ambition back then when I just discovered Nietzsche - people used to listen to me with interest and care about who I was and about my ideas and thoughts.
It was my depression that actually turned people away from me. I feel like a total fraud now, I tried to fake a whole new person out of me just because I read a few Nietzsche's books. I can't run away from who I am.
So I guess if we found a way to bring back the ambition and the will to live, people would care again.
What do you think?
>>29239616
All I've got right now are some lyrics I made for a joke about a rapper that raps about mayo and other white stereotypes. When I get on my PC later I can send em to you on SoundCloud or whatever. I haven't made anything good yet.
I need someone to text while I'm at work or something. I have eight hours to kill and some days I have very little to do and no partner to work with.
I like video games, anime, guns, model kits like gunpla and stuff like that. So those are my general interests.
I'm 23 and male if that matters and I live in New York so hit me up.
>>29239522
That's rough. What is keeping you going?
>>29239708
sounds like a soIid plan
>>29237325
>24
>working, playing games, reading books and masturbation
>no, not realy i like being alone
>>29237965
>call her and ask if you come around
>was the kiss on the neck based on a mutual feeling?
>if not you can kill your self right now you fucking creep
>>29239708
I think it doesn't really matter, since all the trust you spend in a relationship will be spoiled and ruined.
Let's call it a necessary evil, something i can't stand.
>>29239922
I don't know, all the trust in a relationship is what keeps me sane. It's like an opiate to me.
It's just that nobody wants to be close to me, because I'm toxic and depressed, and I frequently turn the topic of the conversation to that subject.
"If you don't have anything to say, then keep quiet" - well fuck, I never have anything to say. Should I just live in isolation? I need closeness like everybody else does
>>29239744
>What is keeping you going?
Existentially, the surety of Absurdism. The understanding and conviction that all existence is completely, and utterly devoid of any meaning or purpose.
Emotionally - nothing. Life has just become routine psychological pain. I wish I was trying to be edgy here but I'm not. I feel constant despair and misery all the time for wanting things I can't possibly have: intimacy with someone for one. Not "sex" but intimacy. Someone I could connect with, empathize and be empathized with, share my thoughts and feelings with.
That person, for whatever reason, does not exist.
The entire process is a reciprocating cycle. No one wants to be around someone miserable. The more miserable I become, the more I repel people. The more I repel people, the more certain my fate becomes. I tried for a while, tried to make effort. Tried to stick my hand out and be a friend. My problem is that I just don't find a lot of people worthy of friendship, and I'm sure people feel vice-versa about me. My loyalty and affection is all or nothing, and for most, it's nothing.
The few I've really put effort into - they're beyond my reach now, or were. Long gone. More misspent opportunities - maybe if I had known them sooner before they had no need of me.
And therein even more humiliation: that people have no need of me. No one does.
When you're alone you could die in your sleep and no one would know for weeks. I guess after long enough of not paying bills or coming into work, cops would get into the house and find me dead.
But no, there's not much if anything keeping me going. I've fantasized about suicide since I was about 24/25. Do it almost reflexively now. Best part is I've lost most if not all desire to improve. I just come to /r9k/ to wallow in misery. It's all I have left.
>How old are you?
24
>How do you spend your days?
at work, studying, 4chan, books, walks, booze
>Is there any particular kind of person you'd like to talk to?
literally anybody, at this point, I don't even care
>>29239994
>I need closeness like everybody else does
We're humans, it's only natural to go after such designs, yet I always felt better alone for this very reason. "Since I can't live with others, I'm going to deal with it."
Most probably you need to break something inside you to reach this. A kind of apathy that gives zero fucks about everything but itself.
Honestly, I'm more scared of what I could become, a shadow, rather than actually be alone. People are actually concerned when they see a glimpse of what I really am but I'm so done that I reassure them and tell I'm just tired.
i don't want to be like this, but I guess I have no other choices. Changing myself it's nigh impossible.
Also gotta go, have a nice day
>>29240017
>That person, for whatever reason, does not exist.
Do you believe that there is someone for every person, because it sounds like you do. You say that there is no such person for you to be intimate with while also saying that you didn't have the opportunity to pursue relationships when you were younger. It's easier for you to build relationships in university or college because you're forced to be in social situations, whereas afterwards you have to force yourself to participate in socializing which is difficult when you're introverted/pessimistic/miserable/what have you. But I suppose you have to fake it til you make it if you're stuck in a cycle.
I know you didn't ask for any of that shit, but you being sad is making me feel sad
>>29240152
Thanks, you too, kind anon.
>>29239994
OP here. I thought I had a perfect relationship with my ex. She seemed loyal and like she genuinely cared for me. It felt good. I did everything I could for her including travelling half way across the world to be with her - twice.
It turned out that it was all a lie. She was not the person she made me believe she was. The last I heard from her she was having unprotected sex with people she barely knew.
As good as I felt during that relationship I would take it all back to save me from the pain I went through at the end. My heart and my trust were destroyed.
Relationships are just pain.
>>29240302
>It turned out that it was all a lie. She was not the person she made me believe she was. The last I heard from her she was having unprotected sex with people she barely knew.
>As good as I felt during that relationship I would take it all back to save me from the pain I went through at the end. My heart and my trust were destroyed.
>Relationships are just pain.
I also had a perfect relationship with my ex. She was the reason for my existence, my fuel and my fire - it was one of the rare periods where life really felt good and meaningful.
But I wouldn't take it all back. I still don't know what exactly happened, but I wouldn't ever take it all back - even if it was fake. I wish I never found out the real story and just lived in a lie with her for my whole life. What is truth but a lie undiscovered...
Fuck I miss that fucking bitch.
>29237996
Anon, one day you should launch your own startup, I believe someone with your knowledge could be really successful.
Godspeed anon
20 here, spend my days playing Left 4 Dead 2 by myself and listening to podcasts.
I just want to vent a lonely feel
>haven't had a oneitis in years
>met a guy
>never felt gay the past, but we've grown so close since we met last year that I feel romantic attraction to him
>first oneitis in years is a man
>he's not gay
Why did my brain decide to turn gay just to make me feel lonelier?
24 years old
Been in and out of College ever since I was 18. The good news is that I'm two semesters away from finally finishing. But I don't have any friends or any sort of relationships at all. My life for the past couple of years have basically been the same thing over and over again.
Lately I've been living through movies and video games. I've been playing Uncharted 4 and even rematched the Indiana Jones trilogy. I constantly think about if I could just get off my ass one day and have my own adventure and make some life long friends. I don't even care about girls anymore.
>>29240630
>Do any other robots feel this sense of loneliness? That you have nothing in common with the majority of people, so you have nothing to talk about at all?
Dunno why you deleted your post but yes, very much so.
>>29240704
I read it back and it sounded like a problem probably every robot has, so there was no reason to really say it.
I don't know, I'm autistic. I'm glad it's not just me though.
>>29240732
We're all alone together, friend.
>>29240099
What are you studying anon?
What are some of your favourite books?
>>29240822
Being alone together is probably the coziest feeling, and a huge reason why i browse here
>>29240822
>>29240864
Same, now I feel a bit less silly about my post. I'm glad I have you guys. I don't care if this board is 80% shit, at least you can find some threads with people you can relate to.
>Age
20
>Day
When I'm not working I play video games, or practice piano/guitar. I like writing music and currently trying to make my bedroom into a mini studio so I can produce an album fo fun.
>Person
I want to meet someone who likes music. Bonus points if you like indie/alt rock. My favorite bands are: foals, Silversun pickups, cage the Elephant, and death cab for cutie.
>>29240934
Foals are great whats your favourite album of theirs mine is probably antidotes
>>29240864
>>29240896
There's actually a lot of good people lurking on this board. It's a shame that they're all overshadowed by the hated and shitposting.
>>29241018
I feel the same way. I've always thought that most genuine robots ended up here because they were really nice to everyone when they were young, but others were just not very nice back/they got bullied quite a bit. Maybe it's not true, but I've always thought most real robots were really nice people, just quiet and socially or emotionally stunted.
>>29241018
one of the reasons 4chan is so addicting is because it's kind of fun and challenging to find a good person and good discussion amongst the piles and piles of shit. it's why it's baffling to me that /r/4chan is popular. What's the point of seeing a great post if you weren't there to see it yourself?
>>29241056
>I've always thought that most genuine robots ended up here because they were really nice to everyone when they were young, but others were just not very nice back/they got bullied quite a bit.
That's me. No good deed goes unpunished, eaten bread is soon forgotten, etc. But I stay begrudgingly altruistic/nice anyway.
>>29241089
I feel you. I guess it's a form of projection but that's how I was growing up and so when I see robots I really relate to I always assume they're like you or I, and generally they seem to be. Some get bitter but most just get sad, and even more quiet.
>>29241056
>hey were really nice to everyone when they were young
That was me and I was taken advantage of plenty. Now i'm cynical and think i'm being manipulated if someones being too nice to me or compliments me
>>29241056
>>29241057
>>29241142
>>29241149
I wish it was easier to find and connect with you guys.
>>29241149
Yeah exactly, we just end up so emotionally or socially stunted we can't believe anyone is being genuinely nice to us. And we withdraw, and withdraw, until we end up where we are now.
>>29241173
My issue is that even when I do find good guys I can relate to like you all of you, I feel so stunted that I don't know what I would do if we stayed connected or were friends. What we'd talk about, what we'd do, plus I could just never convince myself any of you actually would care about what I have to say. And that's not a condemnation of any of you, it's just a symptom of all the being taken advantage of, like the other robot said. You just don't know if anyone is being genuine.
>>29241247
>I feel so stunted that I don't know what I would do if we stayed connected or were friends.
This is why /r9k/ is a great place. Talk for 3-4 posts with somebody completely anonymously, and never have to interact with them again with them knowing who you are. It's like talking to a completely different person every time, so the passerby effect really makes you open up and not give a fuck, as opposed to talking to them privately one on one.
>>29241247
>What we'd talk about, what we'd do, plus I could just never convince myself any of you actually would care about what I have to say. And that's not a condemnation of any of you, it's just a symptom of all the being taken advantage of, like the other robot said. You just don't know if anyone is being genuine.
Don't worry, I feel exactly the same way. It was hard enough for me to believe anyone was genuine with me but after what my ex did to me it seems completely impossible for me to believe it now. I'm a broken robot.
>>29241285
Exactly, that's why I'm happy to be here, and see you guys.
But then I worry about if I am disappointing someone if I don't keep in touch, if that's not the nice thing to do, all of that. And a part of me wants that lasting connection, but I know functionally it's not something I could handle.
>How old are you?
23
>How do you spend your days?
4chan, youtube, playing guitar, Trials Evolution
>Is there any particular kind of person you'd like to talk to?
no
>>29241323
We all yearn for that personal connection, it's just very difficult for some of us pragmatically due to how complex and even tiring it can be. Some of us take it further and just give up on wanting to ever feel that long lasting connection.
>>29241308
I get that anon, I get that. Relationships can really mess you up, too. Bullying is one thing but when it's someone you're supposed to be vulnerable with, it's severely damaging. For you it's your ex, for me it's my mom, for other robots it's probably a parent, sibling, long time friend, other ex, and so on. I think a lot of us feel that same "broken" feeling, like we're just simply not functional when it comes to the social realm.
>>29241348
Exactly. It's just hard, it's just really hard for us to do. It's so tiring, too.
>>29241357
People are so cruel, man. No one deserves this.
>How old are you?
23
>How do you spend your days?
I used to work 9-5 with a job I hated...until I got fired last week for retaliation.
>Is there any particular kind of person you'd like to talk to?
I wish I could talk to someone about anything, preferably a girl. My "friends" have become SJWs and talking to them about anything is basically offensive to them.
>>29237325
>18
>sit in my room on 4chan and playing video games
>anyone who can talk a lot about video games. No shit taste loser normalfags, WoW or esports
>20
>Staying at home, doing solitary activities like watching tv, browsing online...
>Anyone who can tolerate my cringe. Bonus if you're in Utah too.
>19
>Mostly on the computer, playing videogames, browsing 4chan and other sites and jerking off. Occasionally I'll go out to a park to be out in the woods, but I am primarily inside.
>Someone who doesn't constantly talk about themselves or other people. Someone who enjoys or at least can keep up talking about abstract ideas. I really just want someone in my life that isn't my family that I can express myself to fully.
>tfw sitting in a discord channel i found not talking
>watching their discussions on E3 pretending i have friends
feels bad
i found a stream of them playing a game together and there were 6 of them all spouting memes and yelling over each other. put me off the idea of talking to them desu.
>>29242521
i keep getting lonely and feeling the urge for social interaction but every time i do something social i remember that i don't actually enjoy talking to most people
>>29241994
Do you always go to the same park? Have you noticed anything cool there? Any other "regulars" perhaps?
>>29242595
i do the same thing
for some reason whenever i watch twitch streamers and youtubers they all have a group of chill friends that i get jealous of, but when i go searching for a group of my own all i find are the most obnoxious people
>finally get gf
>lonelier than ever
>How old are you?
23
>How do you spend your days?
Playing video games and browsing 4chan unless I'm at work
>Is there any particular kind of person you'd like to talk to?
My friend only black friend, Dishawn. He's been dead for 4 years now.
>>29242721
obnoxious how?
I jusr wanted to apologize to guys who'se posts were accidentally ignored. I'm sure you're nice fellows.
>>29242800
depends on the group, but mostly just loud people trying too hard to fit in and be the center of attention
>>29237325
>18
>I like to cook and run, and browse the internet
>Someone into deep conversations
>21
>4chan, lifting, mathematics, vidya games, trying to find new music to listen to
>Uh, anyone at all really. Bonus points if you're going to be watching E3 tomorrow or if you like bleeps or ambient or if you're studying math/physics or if you're around Brooklyn
>>29242721
ever see northernlion? i enjoy his bantz with friends and they talk about a lot of the stuff i would want to. inane humorous deep analysis of whatever subject. but i never find people like that. in my experience people gossip a lot and don't want to talk about anything they'd have to think about.
actually i can think back to some real life male friends and i think we just talked about whatever bullshit. honestly i kind of wonder if it's because i mostly talk to girls online (feel more comfortable with them, probably just transference or something) because they usually seem to have less patience for that sort of thing. but it could theoretically just be selection bias idk
>>29242930
what subfield of math is your favorite?
>>29242998
Algebraic Topology or Differential Geometry are the ones I've enjoyed the most so far
I think differential topology and in particular vector bundles are cool as shit but I'm still taking intro grad courses.
>>29242721
I get a mixture of jealously and pure hatred.
>>29243104
I've never really taken either of those. Just an undergrad topology course. I've mostly just taken algebra, logic, and complexity/computability stuff.
>How old are you?
20
>How do you spend your days?
Wake up around 10, take a shower and get dressed. I have no job or car, or anyone to hang out with. I'll usually walk to a public spot with wifi like a Starbucks and use my laptop to browse the Internet for an hour or two.
When I get bored of that, i usually walk around other public spots like malls or stores by myself. There's something trance-like about it, because I do it almost every day. I feel like I'm in a dream. Just walking around with a blank mind, with no particular goal. That usually keeps me busy for another few hours, at which point I go back home to watch a movie or draw. Then I got to bed and my day ends.
>Is there any particular kind of person you'd like to talk to?
I'm not sure. Not any kind in particular. Just someone who clicks with me.
20
I just listen to music most days, that's pretty much all I can build up the motivation to do.
Anyone really.
>>29237325
31
I work one or two days a week and spend the rest of the time shitposting, smoking weed, and masturbating.
No one in particular, don't really care.
>>29243590
What sort of music do you like?
>>29243658
Recently been listening through some of the /mu/core albums again (Deathconsciousness, Hospice, Soundtracks for the Blind) but I really listen toand enjoy most types of music.
>>29243638
What do you do senpai? Working as little as possible is the dream
>>29243791
I unload a truck/throw freight.
If working as little as possible is your bag, just look for shitty pt jobs.
I mean shitty, like worse than mcdick's.
>>29242711
There are two or three parks I generally go to, all within a large area. I usually don't see the same people there sans the park rangers.
The one I go to the most is a watershed for the entire area, and I go fishing there sometimes. Nice place but it's not somewhere I see the same people day after day, more like a spot for everyone to go on the way home from work.
>>29243287
I'm taking a logic course this upcoming semester. I like group theory, but ring theory scares me. Homological algebra and category theory are cool as fuck though.
>>29243748
What're your favorite albums?
>>29237325
>How old are you
22
>How do you spend your days?
Sitting in a miasma of my own shame, wishing that I had died much sooner.
>Is there any particular kind of person you'd like to talk to?
Anyone, is there really a question of why I'm here?
>>29244127
Did you like Dark Souls 3 senpai
>>29237325
C-can i be your o-online girlfriend anon :3
>>29244126
Aside from those I said probably Crystal Castles III, Lonerism and Thank Your Lucky Stars. It's kinda hard to pick since something like Bottomless Pit (which is really good) is a world apart from Lonerism.
>>29244148
I haven't been fortunate enough to play it, but I've seen no commentary playthroughs. Granted being a long time souls fan, I know from experience that mere playthroughs do this franchise no justice.
>>29244148
I should probably reciprocate your kind gesture, so as to look less autistic. Did you?
>>29244314
>I know from experience that mere playthroughs do this franchise no justice
Yeah. Similarly when I heard you could beat it in 2 hours I didn't bother flipping out like a good portion of /v/ did, speed runs are hardly representative of the game at all. I had a lot of fun with it, it wasn't as difficult as I expected it to be, but I still enjoyed the many hours I've put into it. Level design didn't stray that far from the established motifs, but the levels still felt large and fun to explore and were in general quite pleasant to look at. Probably because Bloodborne was the first Souls game I'd played in about a year, I found that game a lot more difficult, though about equally as fun as DaS3. I've heard the DLC blows the main game out of the water though. Of course DeS is my favorite so take my opinion with a grain of salt.
>>29237325
>How old are you?
22
>How do you spend your days?
Mostly vidya and movies all day every day
>Is there any particular kind of person you'd like to talk to?
Just anyone I can relate with my hobbies and that is a good talker (I'm a very good listener). Finding people to talk to after you've moved to a new city is so hard. Even more than normal because I'm really introverted in general.
>old
22
>spend days
Either working at the store or just wasting time at home
>you'd like to talk to
Some loser who is online just about all the time and always willing to talk about the most minor, inconsequential shit.
>>29237325
>How old are you?
20
>How do you spend your days?
Working my summer job for a couple hours a day. Then slinking back to my place to watch anime, play CS GO, and shitpost
>Is there any particular kind of person you'd like to talk to?
Someone who isn't an elitist when it comes to anime or games. I'm tired of /a/ and /v/ fags
>>29237325
i am quite often lonely
sort of empty inside
sometimes the most lonely i feel is with other people
it's hard to explain
i suppose we are all trapped inside the realities of our own mind
we should do our best to make the reality we are trapped in the nicest and comfiest possible, i guess
>>29244110
i'm really interested in cat theory. i'm lucky that the faculty at the local university are pretty into it
ring theory is actually a lot easier than group imo. everything is commutative so that makes things nice and uniform. you can pretty much just view them as a bunch of copies of Z (the additive group) with multiplication defined on generators.
>>29241442
are you a girl? post skype and I'll add you
>>29237325
>>How old are you?
23.
>>How do you spend your days?
I wake up in the mid-afternoon, log into my computer, play games and browse 4chan. I'll occasionally stop to lie down if I'm too tired or depressed, and sometimes I've got to go and get food or go to the bathroom, but that's otherwise it.
>>Is there any particular kind of person you'd like to talk to?
Anybody who isn't a newfag, underageb&, female, meme-master, or Reddit-tier know-it-all.
>>29237325
how old are you?
>34
How do you spend your days?
>Gaming, working, going /out/, various card and board games, gambling
Is there any particular kind of person you'd like to talk to?
>No. I don't really want to talk.
>inb4 you're not lonely
it's not always about a lack of people.
>>29242766
tfw i had a dog that looked just like that one.
sleep tight forever pupper :(
>>29237325
22
Studying for exams, drinking
Someone whose not a cunt
>How old are you?
23
>How do you spend your days?
Watching videogames on the internet, painting miniatures, anime, 4chan
>Is there any particular kind of person you'd like to talk to?
Probably not. I'm socially awkward as fuck, by the time I get comfortable enough with someone to let my personality show they've likely lost patience.
>>29237325
hell yeah, I am hella lonely now
>>29237325
>24
>work, jogging, lit, videogames, music
>somebody who'd give me a chance instead of forgetting about me 1st second I'm out of sight
