>>29194300
get a job

fhr dhei

Same boat--19 though. I did a lot of drugs in my teenage years. I can still think critically and abstractly about ideas, but my memory is complete shit. Plus, it also caused extreme anxiety, which still persists.

>>29194300
>only 230 pounds at 5'10

Literally so fucking close to not being over weight. You could so fucking do it. You can become a chad

same except I never did drugs
how does a neckbeard NEET virgin work up the nerve to buy drugs?

>>29194458

Are you joking or are you a fat fuck?

>>29194402
I used to Smoke weed, get blackout drunk and huff petrol with an old friend who's now in the army.

>>29194467 I know a guy from school :p

>>29194550
>huff petrol

Never would go that low, but yeah that'll fuck you up alright.

>>29194300
Glasses aren't bad. In order to carry a conversation you have to feel like talking, but thanks to your apathy you will never feel like talking to people and most of it will be dull as fuck. Get out of the apathy abyss and you will become much more easy going because you will be able to enjoy talking to others.

>>29194646
I hear voices too sometimes, they whisper so I can't make out what they're saying.

I also sometimes see things that aren't really there, like insects crawling and faces staring at me when I try to sleep. Shadow people watching me from open windows.

Sometimes I randomly feel this inextricable high, It's like a low level beer buzz only with a pins and needles effect like pine cones in may and pink pigeons drawing in the canvass of life

I'm alone now ;_;

>>29194300
>into extremely degenerate porn
This is the worst thing on the list. Stop that shit.

>>29194300

I was 230 1 month ago

I am 218 now

start the weight loss first, you get a euphoria when you body starts burning fat for energy

after a sweaty 1 hr work out its bliss