Who /mentalwreck/ here?
Me
>Chronic depression
>Insomnia
>Death wish
Im stuck between wanting to die but not wanting to commit suicide
i refuse to go to a psychiatrist or therapist or whatever because i don't want them putting me on happy pills. Is it fucked if I say I have shit like MDD and Borderline Personality Disorder and AvPD if i have all the signs and symptoms of them? Just wondering because recently I've been thinking I shouldnt use those as an excuse for my shortcomings if I don't have an actual diagnosis
managers and co workers compliment how im a great worker and I always work smart and organized.
my life is in fucking shambles at home.
>>29156981
yea your a faggot for self diagnosing. See an actual doctor before saying you have an illness.
Protip: If you actually had one, you'd want to see a doctor/get help.
Sever Insomniac here.
Literally unable to sleep, I just have to stay awake until I eventually pass out, and even then I always wake up exactly 3 hours later. Makes life an absolute horrorshow sometimes, but like 70% of the time it's pretty bearable.
>>29157105
>>29157044
>>29157010
>>29156981
>>29156754
so did a doctor diagnose you or are you being a literal retard snowflake that should off himself?
>>29156754
I suffer from chronic memeing. It's chronic. mfw
>>29157044
>actual doctor
Stahp
>>29157105
Im always awkward at a new job until I develop a script of possible things I can say to customers in a given situation. I say the same phrases to every customer.
Ive never been formally diagnosed but at 21 is it even worth it trying to see if somethings up? At this point ive noticed im not similar to everyone else/
>>29156754
>Chronic depression
>Insomnia
>Death wish
Dr.'s prescription for you op:
>Smoke Chronic weed
>Sleep like a baby
>Want to live again
>>29157174
you're probably fine, just shy.
Im suffering from olfactory reference syndrome
for almost a year now and its destroying my life.
Basically I have a strong belief that I smell really bad even if I shower a thousand times. People around me always seem to be uncomfortable (coughing, sniffing, scratchin noses...) Ive asked my parents and a bunch of friends if it is true and I even went to a psychologist and they all told me that it was all in my fucking head but still I feel that it is all a lie so that I can feel better...
What should I do?
>>29157174
i have no problems dealing with customers, besides stuttering/messing up words/word salad. but having to see the same people everyday, that try to get to know you, that try to really get to know you, and these people just seem so fake, you know they're talking shit about you the minute you turn your back...
i have a panic attack nearly every day as i walk in to work.
>>29157218
go to doctor
tell them what's happening
they'll probably prescribe you antidepressants which seems to correct the problem in ors patient's brains
oh and you should do cbt as well
that's assuming you can't just stop
people cough, sniff, rub their nose all the time. most people if they actually smell someone bad do their best not to make any type of signal because they don't want to be rude (unless they are making it obvious, in which case it will be BLATANTLY obvious not a nose scratch)
>>29157218
why do you think you smell bad? what is causing the smell?
>>29157281
Stupid nigga. They diagnose everyone who walks through the door with one meme disease or another. Smarten up. It's a racket.
>>29157218
Bathe in butter.
>>29157235
this is really true.My co workers always give eachother shit. I give off this vibe where noone ever messes with me to my face atleast
>>29156754
Not diagnosed but fairly sure I have OCD
>wash hands 20+ times a day, and I'm a NEET
>hate uneven numbers (except for three)
>when I see uneven numbers, do random math equations to make them even or reduce it to three
>can't sleep until all the cupboard doors and drawers in the house are closed
>organize and align everything
>extreme "fear" of germs and diseases
>>29157363
Sounds like a case of chronic OCD to me.
>>29157281
I guess ill take an appointment I just want the endless stress and shame to stop it is breaking me even if i made some progress by myself, I got the courage to get a new job and stuff but it still gets ruff sometimes
>>29157295
Three different people making the same kind of ''you stink'' joke around the same time but they all said it wasnt true when I confronted them. That triggered it for me. I have no clue what could trigger such a strong smell really it could be anything (its all in my head)
>>29157363
>Identifying with everything, thus your OCD kicks in.
>Caring as much as you do.
>chronic depression
>tried several different kinds of anti-d over 3 years
>nothing works
>same for the multiple therapists ive tried
>too lethargic and cynical to fuck around with doctors anymore
>had to drop out of college and move back in with parents
>cant even overdose right
im pretty sure theres no hope for me at this point boys
diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic
i see people in the corner of my eye, i see hair growing on walls, and i hear voices of people i know and i can't tell whether it's real or not
>>29157464
>had to
Oc
>>29157493
Omg. You poor demon child.
>>29157194
Not op,but i smoke like the end of the time and feel like want to die right now, have an great job,house,car family, friends, sex... 2 cats,but always been empty...
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>>29157412
what was the joke desu
if you DID smell bad, it was only temporarily that day
smells go away after you shower, especially if you wash with soap/use shampoo and use deodorant.
your clothes could smell bad, but that's a smell you would be able to detect yourself. that's an issue with laundry. try getting washing machine cleaning shit and running it through if you're still worried.
there is no one that inherently smells bad, that'd be extremely rare and would be a lifelong thing not a recent development (obesity is an exception i guess but thats mainly because some obese people don't/can't wash themselves properly)
but no, after you took a shower whatever smell (if it existed?) they were talking about would have gone away
>>29157612
Because anon is a histrionic moron. That's why.
>>29157527
yeah probably better to phrase it as 'got kicked out of college' lmao there wasnt rly much choice involved on my part
>>29156754
Who else /AvPD/?
>>29157612
Exactly the jokes were by different people in different situations during different days, as my best friend (with who I spent thousands of hours during my life and would tell me the truth even if it hurt me) told me it was only a funny coincidence and they are jokes people do all the time and that I never smelled like anything.
>>29157564
>i smoke like the end of the time
if you smoke too much, especially multiple times a day, and don't take Tbreaks then weed can end up becoming a negative thing. i think you're probably smoking too often
>2 cats
toxoplasma gondii makes men depressed
may be a cause desu
>>29157680
>there wasnt rly much choice involved on my part
>>29157670
you responded to the wrong post?
>>29157689
then it's settled you literally don't smell bad
there's no evidence for it
it's not even a physical possibility if you do what i said
just relax and breathe and when thoughts like that come into your head acknowledge them and let them go out with your breath
>>29157729
what were his other available choices, friendo
>>29157762
Yeah ill keep working on that, I kept it to myself in the last months since I did not want to annoy people.
Talking about it really helps, thanks man!
>>29156981
Shit that sucks. What is it like living with Alien vs Predator Disorder?
>>29157778
Both times he failed to take responsibility for what where ultimately his choices friendo.
His available choice was handling his business.
>>29157762
Nope. Right post. Kek.
I have major depressive disorder diagnosed
They recommended me to get tested for schizoid and avoidant personality disorder but I never did. They also tried to give me pills but I said no because I didn't believe them when he said no side effects and he was being vague with a lot of things. Also I don't feel comfortable with having pills change who I am, but I never said that to the doctor because that's embarrassing to say.
>>29156754
just rip off some gangsta's or move to detroit, bound to get shot
Panic disorder
>>29156754
Do we really need two of these threads at once? Is it too hard to just search the catalog, see if someone's already made a thread? Or is the whole purpose you get more attention in your own thread.
Mental disorder threads are fuckung tumblr tier bullshit where everyone's self diagnosed and thinks that they're qualified to diagnose everyone else better than a doctor could.
Fuck off.
>>29157685
AvPD + Borderline
My life is a joke
>>29163040
Aren't AvPD and BPD's symptoms like, complete opposites? How can you act in an incredibly reserved way, and an overly emotional extreme way at the same time? Especially when they both come from the same general idea (fear of abandonment of some kind is a common theme). How can you react in two completely different ways at the same time to the same thing?
>>29163040
>Aspergers
>Depression
>Borderline Personality Disorder
I suspect I may have AvPD on top of all that so, yeah, I feel your feels.
Lately I'm just getting bored of everything and any attempt at trying to structure my days I'm met with feelings of intense bordem and meaninglessness.
I hate it and it really feels like there's no way out.
>>29156754
Then just find a way to die without killing yourself. This is the ultimate freedom. You could become an assassin or a pirate, both dangerous but you want to die so it doesn't matter
>>29164515
Or just go bare handed fight a grizzly or a lion. That will do it
>>29156754
You people really piss me off sometimes. I have just as much mental damage as you do and probably more, but I've never let that stop me from pursuing the things which are important to me, making the world better and giving my life meaning. I live with clinical depression so severe that I've gone weeks without so much as standing up and gone so many months without speaking to anyone that when I finally did try to speak, nothing came out but a frog croak. But when the depression relents to the extect that I can push myself to function again, I do -- and make up for lost time by working twice as hard while I can.
The problem you robots have isn't that you're fucked in the head, but that you're cowardly and lazy. And that's something you absolutely CAN control and change.
I'm bipolar. How do I stop being abitchto my boyfriend so he won't break up with me because I'm crazy? I fly into psychotic rages over the most trivial bullshit and then I start sobbing uncontrollably and apologizing and telling him I love him. I also self-harm when he hurts my feelings. I think I'm emotionally abusing him. Any other bipolar people here? How do I control myself? :c Don't worry, he's moving out, away from my clutches.
>>29164638
If we weren't cowardly and lazy most of us would have taken the final sleep by now
>>29164638
>I live with clinical depression so severe that I've gone weeks without so much as standing up
No you haven't, that's called catatonia, and really only happens in the absolutely most severe cases of mental illness. As in, they live in hospitals sort of bad. Fuck, even catatonia doesn't realistically last for weeks on end.
Are you seriously trying to tell us you just lay there and didn't get a deep vein thrombosis, or shit yourself, or dehydrate until you died?
Fuck off anon, I agree with your sentiment that most people here are just refusing to improve rather than mentally ill, but making up bullshit stories doesn't help your case.
I'm currently having a panic attack. First time.
Lots of twitching. Hitting things.
Its been two hours. I thought i could stop but if i stop i cant breath.
I called a hotline and they didn't help. Then my roommate woke up and said shes going to take me to a mental hospital when she gets back from work. She's probably going to kick me out.
r.i.p
>>29164652
Doesn't really sound like bipolar anon, but I'm not a professional. If you think you need help coping with mental health symptoms, contact your GP to make sure there's no physical cause (brain abnormalities, hormonal issues, heaps of stuff really), and then talk to someone who's studied this stuff for years.
Even a psychologist is required to have a masters degree at least before they're allowed to practice, up to PhD in some places, and a psychiatrist has an MD specialising in the field.
They're going to give you better advice than some random untrained anon on the internet that's never met you will ever able to do.
>>29164652
shoot yourself in your roast beef vagina
>>29156754
>BPD
>Schizophrenia
>Social anxiety
>Maladaptive daydreaming disorder
I'm way overdue for another stay in looneybin.
>>29164652
The answer is stoicism. You need to learn the self-control necessary to remain still and quiet even while your mind is raging or weeping or exulting. YOU are responsible for your actions, and change begins with accepting that responsibility. No one cares what's going on in your head. Really. I know you believe that other people secretly think about you, but they really don't. People are wrapped up in their own lives. They absolutely do not want to spend time thinking about you or what's going on inside your head. Keep what's inside, inside, and learn self-control.
>>29164682
It never fails. Any time I share anything about my life in here, I get called a liar. Every time. Every. Time. It gets really fucking annoying.
What makes you think that my long periods of immobility DOESN'T cause me harm? It does. I have all kinds of severe health problems ranging from contact dermatitis to neuropathic nerve damage. When I'm stuck in bed, I piss into bottles and just don't eat, so I don't have bowel movements. I go a week to two weeks without food on a semi-regular basis, and my longest fast lasted 37 days. I use spirulina pills to make sure I get the minimum necessary protein to keep from cannibalizing my own muscles.
The only way I can actually function is with the help of benzos and opiates. I'm falling down that rabbit hole way to quickly
>>29164706
That sounds more like a psychotic break than a panic attack. There's a hypothesis that what makes a psychotic break maladaptive isn't that you're out of touch with reality, but that you're choosing to act in an antisocial and/or self-destructive way. In other words, you don't NEED to express yourself this way, and the source of your problems isn't your malfunctioning brain (which you can't control) but rather your conscious decision on how to react to your malfunctioning brain (which you totally control).
Just choose to stop. Choose a different reaction.
>>29164804
I tried that. I thought i could just stop and i tried and then i couldn't breath and i hit a table top really hard and i hyperventilated and went back to twitching and shit more. And here i am still doing that. This happened twice now.
>>29164747
>Any time I share anything about my life in here, I get called a liar. Every time. Every. Time. It gets really fucking annoying.
Gee, maybe because it's completely unrealistic and obviously made up?
Also, I love how you're so depressed that you can't even get out of bed apparently, but are able to take fucking supplementary pills in order to make sure you don't die, as well as pissing in bottles, while not actually explaining where you're getting any water from. Because empty bottles and protein supplement pills are totally something you keep next to your bed.
You're giving this image of depression from the perspective of someone who's never had it. Even in hospitals people aren't this bad, the worst you ever see is someone stays in a room all day, but they still move around within that room.
Why do you feel the need to make up stories to back up your motivational speech? Evidently it's a consistent thing where no-one believes the shit you're saying, so why not just post the normal motivational stuff instead of making yourself look fucking retarded?
>>29164804
Wait, your argument is you can just stop being psychotic? I'm not saying you're wrong, but can you post a source to this? It seems contrary to everything I know about treatment of psychosis.
>insomniac
>depression
>undiagnosed adhd but the symptoms are there
>avoidant personality disorder
>crippling social anxiety
>literally can't function without drugs
jdimsa
>>29164892
You know how I know it's not unrealistic? Because I fucking live it. See, you people do this shit constantly. Any time someone tries to inject a contrary view into your little echo chamber of helplessness and apathy, you just declare that it's bait or lies or delusion. It's really easy to draw a straight line if you just discard all the data points which fall outside your desired trajectory.
Given that I've lived with severe depression for the last 40+ fucking years, it's not surprising that I've learned to survival techniques. Like recognizing the signs that a major depressive episode is coming on and laying in supplies in preparation.
And no, I'm not telling you that you can stop being psychotic. I'm saying that there is a hypothesis in the psychiatric field that the problem isn't the psychosis itself, but rather how people react to the psychosis. For example, there is evidence that untreated schizophrenics who have been told that it's okay to hear voices are highly functional, and that there voices are either mischievious or friendly rather than threatening. Just because a person is having hallucinations or hearing voices doesn't in and of itself make them non-functional. (More than 90% of the population reports hearing voices occasionally, incidentally.)
>>29165006
>Any time someone tries to inject a contrary view into your little echo chamber of helplessness and apathy, you just declare that it's bait or lies or delusion.
Except I fucking agreed with your posts you retard, I simply called you out for an OBVIOUSLY fake story. I can claim I'm literally God posting on 4chan, it doesn't change the fact I'm obviously not, and me going "Uh yeah, well then how come I am" doesn't change that fact.
>Given that I've lived with severe depression for the last 40+ fucking years, it's not surprising that I've learned to survival techniques. Like recognizing the signs that a major depressive episode is coming on and laying in supplies in preparation.
Kek, you've been dealing with this for 40 years and aren't living in a group facility, despite your apparent complete lack of ability to take care of yourself? And once again, where are you getting water, why are you so depressed you can't get up, but can piss in bottles and eat a regular pill (which is much harder than a regular meal, by the way, meals are ingrained rituals we follow, pills to maintain protein intake aren't). Your story just gets less and less realistic, including that you're now apparently at least 43, and likely over 50 and still posting here and acting like a fucking teenager.
> I'm saying that there is a hypothesis in the psychiatric field that the problem isn't the psychosis itself, but rather how people react to the psychosis. For example, there is evidence that untreated schizophrenics who have been told that it's okay to hear voices are highly functional, and that there voices are either mischievious or friendly rather than threatening.
And what I asked was for you to source this claim. You simply making the claim doesn't mean it's true, though that's a concept you seem to struggle with.
The whole 90% figure is addressed in the DSM, and hallucinations when waking up or falling asleep are considered normal human experiences and not signs of psychosis.
>>29165094
Actually, I'm not even going to bother continuing this, I'm just giving you the attention you so obviously crave. We both know your story isn't true, no-one else here gives a shit about what we're saying, so I'm done with this.
Have fun pretending to be schizophrenic in the next thread though, maybe you'll get a better response there.
>>29165124
You're a bitter, obnoxious little twerp, and you truly deserve to be here. I'm here offering robots the benefit of a lifetime of my experience living with severe depression, and all you can do is proclaim my entire life to be a lie from the depths of your Dunning-Kruger expertise derived from teenaged angst and many hours of animoos.
You are *exactly* the kind of toxic, obnoxious, sneering little fucknozzle who has earned his damnation here. I was about to ask whether you have any conception just how fucking arrogant you are, but I realized that (a) you clearly have no insight -- like, at all, and (b) even if you did, you lack the empathy to care.
TL;DR: Go to your madness, frog-boy.
