ITT: What made you a robot
>watching porn since age 7
>beating my meat at age 8
yep that did it
>>29085423
I am a failed normie I went to higher ed until 23. at that time I had a gf I knew since childhood for at least 8 years and she turned out to be a typical stacy-ho. She left me when I left higher ed and entered menial work in a factory and I am still there now. I feel like a ghost of my former self and I know it sounds cringy and deep but I feel like I am no longer my own self and I died years ago.
>>29085423
This, also
>have friend who's 2-3 years older than me
>he's the one who taught me about it
>8 years old and we decide to try sex
>mfw he made me play the female
>>29085463
YOU ARE ME
We only live as phantoms
Love and life ruined
i was always the robot. i would say the rape made me more one. i also had a hot fat girl throw herself at me...feels bad.
>grow up as a decent human being
>never been popular or charismatic but had a small group of friends, couple of gfs, etc
>move to the other side of the state by myself after high school so i can go to uni
>lost touch with small group of friends and never made new ones
>alone all the time except when im with my roomates. They're assholes who make fun of me whenever they can
>depression hits hard, uni goes to shit
>2 years later get kicked out because of bad grades
>come back to home town, depression hits even harder because now my parents hate me and im a failure
>spend another year or two being a neet and not talking to anyone that isnt one of my parents. Never set foot ouside the house during that period
I tried to get my life back on track after that but ive never been the same. I still dont have any friends or gf, i lost all my social skills and now i socialize like a sperg. I have a shitty job and i go to a shitty college. I dont like any of those things but standing still any longer would kill me, i was seriously considering suicide at the end of the neet year.
I just wish i could go back in time and tell myself to not leave for uni.
>High-functioning Autism diagnosed by a professional
>Easy access to the internet at an early age
>Parents let me be unless my grades were slipping
I don't know
I've always been like this. Sure, I've had problems that didn't help but my inability to not fuck up made them worse than they needed to be.
>>29085423
>staring in fetish porn and regular porn
>inability to show up anywhere out of shame
>>29085463
Holy shit dude, been there, keep going
My abusive drunk mom who installed in me the idea that all women will hurt you than go on with their life like you never mattered to them.
>losing all my friends in middle school
>never making new ones
>becoming silent and avoiding people
Now I have no idea how to interact with people. All in all it could just be autism I suppose
>>29085423
lol
you little kids
there wasn't even porn when i was 7
>>29085423
abuse from mother as a child and then my parents leaving me with my strict orthodox grandparents for 2 years while they were both in the hospital when i was like 11
getting fucked over by a crazy girl when i was 16
not having any friends that cared about me until i was 17
mental health issues since i was 10
Still doing ok, I might land a date with this really hot girl because I learned how to fake being normal pretty well
>>29085869
Good taste in pictures anon.
>>29085423
> no friends in middle school
> became more social in high school
> too little too late
> low self esteem b/c no gf, no gf b/c low self esteem
>>29087602
you 600 years old?
>never had a birthday party
>never had any "friends" who wanted to talk to me
>heart broken by the oneitis (only girl to ever talk to me in my life)
>never had anyone want to talk to me outside of school/online
this all ended up leading to a shy, socially isolating and hostile personality
