>Be me, 19
>Skitzo, Manic Depressive, feel and act borderline retarded regardless of 118 IQ, have ASPD
>On and off homeless or past year
>Only friend has become cucked heroin addict with brain cancer
>On probation, paying thousands in fines, license suspended for 7 years for something i didnt do
>Live in basement, So moldy blankets are wet every morning
>Play Runescape 3, 8+ hours a day, on a chromebook with 32 gb memory i bought used
>Sleep every 72 hours, never at night
>Heart condition will end life in mid 30s, New heart condition emerged
>Got fired and started shitting blood on the same day 3 days ago
>Virgin, acne, all standard robot features
>2 inch long Bugs crawl on me when i sleep and wake me up at least 3 times a month
>girl i loved in high school is marrying a friend from high school
>joints are going brittle from compulsive cracking, bite all the skin off my fingers
>$30 phone broke, $5 vcr broke
How are you anon?
add me rs3: Jack Tate
>>29075212
Just go out and talk to people, bro. Get a hobby. I recommend wakeboarding.
Girl I love admitted feelings to me over a phone call and I got really excited
Later that day I drove to her house and told hugged her and she pushed me away and said we haven't spoken since highschool (3 years ago)
I was confused and checked my phone records and there was no call
Weird because I never have hallucinations and stuff that strong
About to become homeless too :)
>>29075212
Shieet nigga.
Thought I had it bad
>19
>showing signs of schizophrenia past 6 months
>feel like shit constantly physically and mentally
>probably going to be homeless soon
>>29075530
Talking to people is kind of a challenge when anything I say makes people want to or actually walk away from me and I make body gestures that make them feel uncomfortable. Also when I actually get to the point of conversation, if it isn't about porn, runescape, war history or cult drama movies I'm basically oblivious. And I can't do vigorous exercise because of the heart condition, it reaches into my cardiovascular system.
>>29075560
Got my first really bad hallucination a few weeks ago. Saw Sister walking by the windows while i was making food. I went outside and saw her walking down the street. She didn't get home for 2 more hours. If you're gonna be homeless skip state to Garberville, Redway, or Eureka, California. Free weed, unlocked dumpsters, and half the people there are basket cases so you won't stand out.
>>29075683
The irony in it is the harder I try, the more fucked my life gets all around. Tried to do better at work, ended up fucking up and getting fired. Tried to pursue girl more, she just completely cut me off. Tried to exercise, new fucking heart problem appears. Fuck, even when I use acne pads the shit comes back 3x as strong.
>>29075900
You gettin any Neetbux? Surely with a heart condition you can get on disability or some sort of shit.
>>29075853
From Australia man
Shits fucked
Might check myself into a mental hospital when I become homeless so I can have somewhere to stay
>>29075954
They gave me an EKG to monitor my heart for a month, to see if I had Supraventricular Tachycardia, and not something less serious. The two tachycardias I had in the month I was on the EKG, I wasn't wearing the damn thing, so they just dismissed it. I have to finish the EKG even though it's about as clear as day what I have considering my grandfather had it and my sister has it. They won't directly go to an MRI, and even if I do get an MRI and they confirm it, my claim could be dismissed because of my work history.
>>29076148
You said you were in aus? You could probably get on the dole. If not mental ward sounds better than the streets.
What even happened at your last job?
>>29076200
(I'm OP) I'm in Minnesota. Other replier lives in Australia, was giving him advice on being homeless because i thought he was also American. And I had to process and ship about 100 orders a day and like i said I only sleep every 72 hours because that's about the most I can really fall alseep, so I sometimes get groggy at work because I go past the 72 hour mark, and fuck up the orders. They fired me on the third fucked up order since January.
>>29076084
And I couldn't deal with being homeless in Australia, the wildlife is too insane. Find a gypsy town if Australia has them. They'd let you take food from their trash and they would harass you. But I don't really know how things in Aus work.
