ITT: Stories from your childhood, or just in general, that made you into the robot you are today.
>Dad beat me
>Dad constantly yelled at me, my brother, or mom whenever he was angry
>Only ever apologized to my mom afterwards
>Dad would raise voice at me, get mad when I raised my voice at him
>Constantly insulted me or told me I was shit at doing work when I helped him do a chore or something
>When I was 18 formulated a plan to get out of house ASAP
>Dad gets angry because I talk about joining the army
>Decide fuck it, I'll go to school
>Dad decides he will control that too, goes with me to school and asks all the questions
>After I graduate I find a wageslave job and tell him to fuck off
>Move out
>Living a meaningless life now with nothing but pent-up rage
>>29041780
>brother and I just initiating regular bantz
>both get home
>brother storms into my room
>tells me that I am always treated better than him and nobody likes him
>tell him thats not true
>shoves me to the ground
>beats on me for a while
>mom walks in
>she seems shocked, I tell her to call the police while I'm getting punched in the chest
>she walks away, no response
>brother eventually leaves
>follows me around to make sure I don't call the cops
>I call my dad and ask him to call the police since I was too scared
>police come and grill out my brother
>show police the multiple bruises
>mom just buys a cake and tells us both to apologize
People wonder why I have little to no empathy or trust.
>have Tourettes syndrome
>was legitimately the weird kid with something wrong with him in elementary school
>ignorance is bliss
>don't know how bad my situation is because I'm so young
>what few friends I had were also the weird kids but none of them had any actual disorder
>thankfully only minor Tourettes
>puberty hits and symptoms fade
>come highschool it's practically gone, I realize how bad my situation has been and finally get to start my life and be someone I want to be
>become outgoing and friendly, everyone from my elementary school is surprised how much I've changed
>make actual friends that I chose and wasn't just stuck with
>value them with my life
>my first oneitis is one of them
>get complacent and loose sight of my social boundaries
>come end of grade 12 I have 1 friend and my oneitis hates me
>going into third year of university and I've finally recvovered and have a small group of friends again
I know I'm going to make the same mistake again. The social retardation just hides in you regardless of how long it's been inactive.
>>29041780
>I was squeezed out of a vaginal opening onto a planet I knew nothing about
>wasn't even sure what I was, I had to read books and shit just to figure out that I had organs and all of these tiny little pseudo-people living inside of me, and more malicious ones competing to devour my flesh
>have absolutely no memory of anything that actually matters, yet for some reason am wired to seek importance that apparently doesn't exist.
>oh yeah, and I was a cunt, and other people were cunts. I don't blame them anymore, we're all just confused.
>then a lot of drugs, they were my false messiah
>fucked me up in the long term though
Just b urself, right?
>>29041780
>eldest son
>watch my parents learn how to be parents
>im the guinea pig
>get shunned
>get baby brother thirteen years apart
>suddenly become defensive as fuck and flare up at slightest impudence from parents
>thought of my baby brother going through what i did made me hate them intensely
>fantasize about tearing parents heads off necks many times
>they stop being dicks
>they even stop being dicks to each other
>honest to god family effort is seen from parents now
>out of nowhere
>dont know what to think or feel
>still cant trust them
>younger bro almost ten now
>hes a very confident child
>parents visibly aged
>feels like they ran out of the energy to hate
>can tell that they feel death creeping up on them (old age, not me) and wish to just leave behind the best world that they can before the night takes them
>meanwhile, me
>no catharsis from the abuse
>think im a freak for having murderous fantasies in my past
>no motivation to better myself
>barely graduated four year uni
>home doing nothing
>cook clean and ferrying lil brother to and from school is all i do
>realize that theres still one great struggle left
>and thats to create a life for myself
>realize i have to do that by myself
>parents will do all they can with the few sparks of life they have left
>cant ask them to apologize for anything so far in the past
>cant ask them for an explanation
>things are just quietly moving on
>and i have to take the reins handed to me
>mfw the ride really never ends
>mfw contemplate suicide but doing that would mean being responsible for giving a shittier childhood than what my parents gave me
>mfw the comical, bitter, black irony of life
