>that feel when your life starts going in a good direction and you star to feel consistently happy but then the depression and autism hit and suddenly all the self confidence you've built disappears and you're disgusted with everything about yourself and you just want to die
>>29036364
You stuck in the loop too man?
>tfw stuck in a loop of existential angst -> depression -> fear -> anger -> hate -> suffering -> try to cope with it -> get happy -> think about what makes me happy -> overanalyze it -> cycle begins all over again
>>29036405
>fear -> anger -> hate -> suffering
>>29036364
I think I've been there about 4 times already
I just keep going back and forth
>>29037229
Path of the sith, that is.
>>29036364
Some people believes that life is pain with little bits of happines sprawled around only so you can hurt the worse. But that just increases the value of those treasured moments, no?
>Fail out of university
>Forced to get job, wageslave and move out
>Actually not bad
>Coworkers are nice enough and don't expect too much socialization
>Making just enough to put away some money after expenses
>Company is growing, might be positions in management opening
>For the first time since I failed feel like life is on track
>Realize I haven't spoken to someone who wasn't family, roomates or coworkers in over a year and a half
>Realize I'm 27 years old, have never dated a woman in my life and I'm too much of a coward to start
>Realize I may be putting away money now, may even have a good income in a few years but it means nothing, I'll still eventually die alone
>Even the contendedness I had in work starts to fade and start seeing it as a chore, start calling in sick because I don't want to be there any more
>Even as I do this I know I'm just fucking myself more
>Can't care enough to stop
>>29036364
>>29036405
This shit is real
