Hey guys a few people asked me to provide an update about my life and my time with Marina. I don't know what else I can say, or if what I can say is welcome on this board any more.
/r9k/ doesn't have a specific topic. Tell us about Marina, why does she wear the mask?
Some anons just wanted to hear from you so I will bump this thread so they can see it.
Hi escortbro, please continue with your stories!
Can someone paste a link to all the threads?
>>29032733
Have a bump normie
>>29033099
Here you go:
Thread 1: https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28427858/
Thread 2: https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28473632/
Thread 3: https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28563840/
Thread 4: https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28588279/
Thread 5: https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28634920/
Thread 6: https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28681400/
Thread 7: https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28745482/
Thread 8: https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28798775/
Thread 9: https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28821140/
thread 10: https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28912265
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LADDIE
finally make it to a live thread
dunno if thats a good or bad thing since a lot of people complain OP takes forever to type
>Marina had her second shift tonight at the restaurant
>she returned home around twenty minutes ago and is in the bath right now
>she wore flat black shoes to work and small white socks
>when I saw the socks inside her shoes by the door there was blood on the heels
>my landlord / flatmate left on Thursday and will not return for a week or so
>he works a "freelance" job but one company in particular hires him a lot
>he is visiting one of their offices for a short time
>Marina had her first shift on Wednesday
>she said she was told it would be quite quiet and easy way to start
>she was nervous when I arrived home and had her uniform out ready to wear (just black clothes really)
>she had bought them from a store which sells clothing at low prices, not great quality
>she looked so pleased it made me a little sad, since it's only a small thing to achieve though to her it seems like a lot
>she asked me if I would tell her how they looked and I said yes
>she went to the bathroom with her clothes and returned
>her clothes were a little baggy and not very "flattering" but to me she looked beautiful
>I told her I would accompany her to the restaurant but she said it's fine
>but I insisted and knew she would not protest
>we left and briefly there was rainfall
>we approached the restaurant and it didn't look very busy
>we held hands as we walked along the side of the street to the door
>she began to "swing" our arms back and forth as we approached and I let her do that
>I asked "are you nervous?" and she said nodded to say yes
>I don't know if this is normal or whether I am overthinking something but I have thought a lot about how I see Marina
>I don't know if it's healthy, as I have written before, that she stays with me for a long time
>I have thought about her age and so on
>perhaps it is "moral" of me to encourage her to become more stable with her money and lifestyle and then stop seeing her
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>>29033099
Thread 1: https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28427858/
Thread 2: https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28473632/
Thread 3: https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28563840/
Thread 4: https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28588279/
Thread 5: https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28634920/
Thread 6: https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28681400/
Thread 7: https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28745482/
Thread 8: https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28798775/
Thread 9: https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28821140/
Thread 10: https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28912265/
Can someone explain in less than 10 giant threads what happened? Did he ever fuck her, are they going out now or what?
>>29032733
it's time to leave now
i like you but you're a full blown normalswine now
I hope you are feeling better now OP. What you write touches us, you share what we all feel inside. You are a true robot.
>if she begins university again next year our lives will be very different
>I also don't know if I am a person who even desires such a relationship
>I don't mean this in a callous way it's just I have been alone for so long I wonder if this is how I naturally like being
>although in the past I have longed and become obsessed with the idea of finding a romantic partner
>occasionally in university and school there was an opportunity to know a girl but I always acted indifferent
>sometimes I was but sometimes I was just following my instinct
>perhaps I am a "narcissist" as my father said or maybe it's just fear
>but for around a year before I met Marina I had told myself that a life alone would be ok
>my visiting her was really just something I wanted to do to prove it didn't matter
>I didn't want to be old and suddenly see the reason for a "failed" life as a lack of sexual experience
>I also don't know how I feel towards Marina
>sometimes I feel very sexually attracted to her, but most of the time I feel she is just a friend
>I know it's "creepy" but sometimes I also just see her as a sister or even daughter
>I'm not old enough for that to be possible but I feel a responsibility towards her wellbeing as though our lives are still being lived separately
>perhaps I don't explain it well but that's what I feel
>on Wednesday I waited down by the bus stop and when Marina arrived we walked home together
>it was already dark and we talked quietly while walking home
>her face looked so pretty under the streetlights
>her hair was a little sweaty and it stuck to her temples and her forehead
>the air was still warm and I felt like sitting outside with her but she was obviously tired
>I explained to my flatmate / landlord before that she had found a job
>I said sorry if she arrives late at night and showers
>but as usual he just mocked me for being so apologetic
>I think he must think I think he is a bossy guy or something
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>she showered quickly and returned to the bedroom
>we sat with legs crossed on the bed
>her feet looked very clean and I noticed she kept widening her toes while we sat
>we ate toast with marmalade
>when I look back on the past two or three or even more years I am surprised how I could have eaten almost the same food every day
>it's almost as if I was trying my best not to live without actually ending my life
>every aspect of my life I think about was just so avoidant of the outside world
>I don't blame myself really and I don't think I have changed a great deal
>this time with Marina is still so strange to me but it feels like I have been pushed outside a comfortable but silent house and that the door behind me is closed
>but I know it isn't locked and again perhaps my nature is best suited to a life of calm and solitary routine
>we finished the toast with marmalade and Marina burped in her throat and said "sorry"
>she looked at me with wide eyes and I said it was ok
>I am so terrified of doing anything like that around her still
>I often feel that I need to break wind but I always tense my stomach so hard that I begin to feel ill
>when I was around thirteen years old my close friend invited me and three or four others to sleep at his bungalow
>it was him, me and a boy who was the most attractive in our class
>there were also two or three girls, and I liked one of them
>the girl I liked left the room where most people were sitting and the attractive guy went with her
>not really understanding the situation I followed too and sort of followed them around the house until it became clear that they didn't want me there
>at night my friend's father sat in a chair in the hall between the two bedrooms
>in the morning I wore red swimming shorts that could also be worn as normal shorts
>while sitting down on my backside with my knees tucked to my chest I accidentally broke wind
>the girl I liked looked at me with disgust and said "ewww that's disgusting!"
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>>29033813
>ewww that's disgusting
y-you too
tyb escortbro
Keep on posting escortbro, we are all catching up on the last posts.
>since I hadn't showered I felt greasy as well so her saying that made me disgusted with myself
>on Thursday (yesterday) Marina did not work
>I arrived home and Marina was "naked" in bed
>my landlord / flatmate had left
>I entered my bedroom and realize she was naked under the sheets
>but I pretended not to notice
>I don't know why
>it's as if I can't maintain an emotion for very long before it goes away and is replaced by a blank indifference
>she said "how was your day?" in a childish kind of voice, or at least playful
>I just raised my eyebrows as if confused shy she was talking like that and emptied my satchel bag
>I asked if she was thirsty and when I turned to see her reaction she had one eyebrow raised
>as if saying both "are you serious?" and also "would you like to have sex?"
>but I don't know why but I just left the room and went to the kitchen
>perhaps my brain is ruined in some way
>although I have always felt quite detached from the real world I don't believe that I have "autism" like a lot of people say
>maybe I do, but I'd like to think I experience empathy and can understand subtle emotions and expressions
>when I returned to the bedroom Marina was wearing a pair of sports shorts and a red and yellow striped soccer jersey
>I don't know if she was pretending that she wasn't offering or encouraging sex before but she was just folding some of her clothes then
>I sat on the bed and watched her a while and she didn't turn to look at me
>it's not as if she annoys me in any way, and I enjoy her company and all the tiny aspects of her character which appeal to me
>but after so long sinking deeper inside my own thoughts and so on I wonder if this has had an effect on my ability to experience love, sexual passion and so on
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>>29033437
they won't because they're too edgy for that
Guys I can't post for much longer. I hate typing when people are nearby and I feel like I begin to type thing in a way that is like "performing a character" rather than how I feel.
>I have been thinking of visiting my hometown soon
>I would like to take Marina with me
>I have not told my mother or my sister about her but I have wanted to
>every time I visit home I feel so relaxed and happy that each time I regret that there is nobody there with me
>when I return I often listen to music loud when I have the house to myself and walk back and forth the long kitchen dancing and singing or at least "mouthing" the words
>I usually pretend that a cute girl is sitting there watching and laughing as I do this, but there never has been one
>in university I used to hold my own hand at night sometimes
>sometimes I would lie sideways and try to imagine a girl lying there
>but with Marina I experience these things but still it feels like I am "past my prime"
>that something has changed which does not allow me to experience things "properly" or without a feeling of regret that accompanies each positive experience
>I mentioned to Marina yesterday night that I was thinking of visiting home next week
>she said "next weekend?" and I said "yes" and that I'll probably take the Friday from work
>she said "I'm sure it'll be nice to get away for a little bit"
>I didn't know how to interpret this and felt stupid for making it obvious (I thought) that I wanted her to come by just telling her that at random
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>>29034059
>>29034234
yeah, she's cheating on you bro
>we talked about our hometowns for a little bit
>eventually Marina said "it sounds really nice" and I said "you should visit"
>she said "would you want me to?"
>I said "yes" but then realized about her job
>I asked her if she would be working then (as weekends are busy for her job)
>she said she doesn't know since the shift rota changes all the time
>she said if I'm definitely going home and that I want her to go to she will ask to work all she can this week and next week so she can have the weekend away
>I felt bad for pressuring her this way
>today she said in work the older woman who works there who I have met was making a rota for next week
>as Marina was there she placed her name over pretty much every day
>another young girl has joined but she wasn't there but seem to need to work much (she doesn't ask for more shifts)
>later last night it became dark in the living room
>we were sitting on the sofa with our legs up
>it felt like we were trying to fit our bodies as closely as possible together and then make our conjoined form as compact as possible
>holding Marina in my arms makes me feel mature in a way I really enjoy
>the idea that someone views me as a source of stability and reassurance surprises me but I "play the role" of that person well I believe
>when I said I needed to go to bed since I had slept so poorly all week Marina groaned and complained quietly
>as a "joke" she clung to my body and first I lifted her but her body was in an awkward position
>she grabbed my waist and laughed a little without looking at me and I began to drag her away from the sofa
>I then picked her up as in a movie where a man carries his bride through a doorway of a home
>I almost hit her head on the wall but just missed but I know it would have hurt since my body was swinging in that direction
>in my bedroom I placed her body on the duvet and then wrapped her up until she could not moved
>she realized what I was doing and began to laugh as though I was tickling her
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>>29033437
>guy wants to lose virginity, finds escort
>doesn't secks her up, falls in love
>goes on date with girl, not sure whether real date or GFE
>actual date, they keep texting & dating
>she decides to stop whoring
>mommydrama, schooldrama
>pimpdrama, fight
>qt escort grill moves in with escortbro
post those marinas
>finally I rolled her onto her back so she was facing the ceiling
>I placed my knees either side of her rolled up body and sat on top of her gently
>she laughed then looked at me seriously with wide eyes
>I felt my heart begin to beat and it these moments that suddenly arrive without me expecting it and which remind me how I feel towards her
>but I still feel that I am being "silly" or childlike to kiss her if she doesn't kiss me first
>so I just smiled and then got off her and unrolled her a little
>in bed I tried to sleep on my back because when I lie behind her I can never sleep
>she asked me quietly at random if anything was wrong
>her head was lifted and she was looking right into my eyes
>I said no
>she said she was looking forward to meeting my mother
>I rubbed my thumb back and forth the smooth skin of her shoulder but stopped because I don't know if she is thinking to herself that it's creepy or something to do this
>in my dream last night I was with a lot of people from my early childhood
>we were running around and I was trying to organize something but I couldn't make anybody sit still
>it was very frustrating and I became exhausted
>I even woke up feeling exhausted as a result
>I showered and dressed without Marina waking up
>but in case she was awake and faking it I kissed her cheek lightly and then left for work
>she had already left for her shift when I arrived home
>she arrived home late and took a bath soon after
>I decided to post this thread as some people asked me to say what is happening
>it's very strange at the moment
>although the weirdness of the past recent weeks has sort of lowered a little I still feel a different kind of strangeness
>although I have always waited for a girl to "save me" from sinking too far into myself there came a time where I stopped hoping or expecting that
>for so long I have been filled with hatred
>I don't know if that sort of thing can just "go away" but I doubt it
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>>29034644
>in my dream last night I was with a lot of people from my early childhood
>>we were running around and I was trying to organize something but I couldn't make anybody sit still
>>it was very frustrating and I became exhausted
Analysing your dream - the people from your childhood are aspects of yourself. You are trying too hard, too consiously to organise these, to marhsall and direct these, you are controlling these parts of you and it is making you both frustrated and exhausted.
>but I still feel different from how I believe a guy in a "relationship" should feel
>sometimes I am with Marina and I just want her to go away
>other times I panic that she is thinking of doing that and I try really hard to impress her and it always works
>but then I wonder am I just trying to impress her all the time
>like is there a "me" to act like naturally any more? or am I just an act
>Marina means a lot to me
>I have told her I love her and I believe I mean it
>we talk a lot about our childhoods, our school days, our hopes for the future, what hopes we once had that are no longer, our faults and the pleasant things we see about each other
>sometimes I tell her she is beautiful and it feels like enough
>other times I take the time to explain why I think that and why I am saying it
>on Tuesday I said her face was symmetrical and she smiled in a strange way and looked away smiling
>I also said that at great length how her features suggest a fragility and gentleness and that perhaps in evolution terms these things appeal to me as they suggest certain things about her health and the health of our offspring and so on
>but she just shook her head and said I was strange but not in a mean way
>but I honestly don't know if I am too poorly adjusted or too far along a different mental path by now to ever be able to love someone else consistently
>tomorrow we are going to eat a picnic in a park where there are some ducks where I have walked through with her before
I am going to go to bed now. I'm sorry if this was boring or something. Thank you again for your support and guidance. Goodnight.
I'm glad things are calming down for you. It appears as if now your two lives will have to become closer and more integrated. More sharing.
Yes, take her to see your parents. In a different environment it would be good. also you can get feedback from other people about her.
>>29034841
sorry there wasn't much noise as your usual threads. Your posts have been the best thing on /r9k for a month. Your writing is observant and honest and true. The story is gripping and interesting. We all wish you the best. Please keep us informed.
If you look through the archive http://boards.4chan.org/r9k/archive you can see about 7 threads asking about you. We are interested. Perhaps having a summary of what went before as the first post would be good, to get new readers?
I lost interest when the story turned to you two having sex, after that is seemed too artificial.your gf is a whore
>>29033437
wants to sleep with escort, doesnt, they chat all night, they date , they sex,drama after marina sees her mother and feels guilty about hiding stuff to OP and her mother about leaving uni and whoring herself out
they are still together, OP goes to surprise her, shes with her pimp (was friend of landlord but we thought pimp) fighting ensues because OP goes full tard strengh alpha, hes scared, runs home, marina comes to see him, they go with tennant bro who eats his peanut a la cowboy bebop to take marina's stuff, landlord's friend shows up, western style staredown, and now marina is living with op and found a job ina restaurant.
sidenote OP didnt mention flood in thread so maybe he isnt in Paris as we thought
>>29035001
He mentioned rainfall though, also he said his apartment was on a hill before I think. Does Paris have a lot of hills?
>>29035037
yes but just a bit of rain, yes paris has hills and is huge, its just a theory
does anyone have a pastebin of all the stories?
>>29034841
Love you Christophe. These threads are absolute gold
Good Lord shut up and die in a ditch
>>29034234
>>in university I used to hold my own hand at night sometimes
>I usually pretend that a cute girl is sitting there watching and laughing as I do this, but there never has been one
>in university I used to hold my own hand at night sometimes
>sometimes I would lie sideways and try to imagine a girl lying there
>>29034557
is this rare enough for you?eredeti komment baszod
>>29032733
>>she wore flat black shoes to work and small white socks
These are the details that I live for
>>29034841
>>like is there a "me" to act like naturally any more? or am I just an act
existential crisis escortbro style
>>29034841
Thanks for the heads up, man. I appreciate it. Sorry I arrived late to the thread, but I can't be on r9k 24/7.
>>29032733
>>it's almost as if I was trying my best not to live without actually ending my life
Direct hit to the feels confirmed
>>29034841
glad you came posting.
why do you not talk with her about yourself?
and enjoy while it lasts. if she goes to college you could not see her again, or worst she will leave you, maybe not worst but you know what happens when you start eating a lot of sugar and then you drop it, everything will stop taste good.
>>29035998
she goes to uni in the exact same city, so he could still see her pretty much every day, especially if she moves in permanently.
>>29034234
>but with Marina I experience these things but still it feels like I am "past my prime"
>that something has changed which does not allow me to experience things "properly" or without a feeling of regret that accompanies each positive experience
we will never get those years back
>tfw you will never pay Marina a large sum of money to get her back into whoring behind anons back and then fuck her weekly so that you can wait for these threads just to know what you are doing to this anon
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