How fucked are you today, /r9k/?
I want to die more than anything.
It's only a matter of time before I'm diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder..
I've been fucked since day one.
>>29017401
Hang in there bud.
Cook some tea and be mindful of your great moments.
Life does suck but it's unfortunatly most likely all you've got. There've been strong people with your deck of cards that made something of themselves.
Think big, maybe going totally rogue in asia or becoming a farmer might be something for you, think drastic lifechanges.
Good luck/autist
Normie here, i just want you guys to know that life is worth living on. I know my words mean very little to you guys but push on. Try to find something you enjoy, a passion, and let that flourish into a new meaning in your life. Your life is one worth living, so live and be happy
-Anon
>meet girl by chance online
>lives about 90min from me
>the more I talk to her, the more I realize she's exactly what I'm looking for
>last night she implied that she's not into me
>been depressed as fuck since then
>new clothes and shoes i ordered online for my vacation next week came in today
>figured I'd try them on in the mirror, and maybe that would help me feel better
>they all look fucking stupid on me
>going to have to drive an hour to the store tomorrow to return them
>will probably get lost in the big mall the store's in
>more depressed than I was before
Just thinking about life and how miserable my existence is is making it worse. I want to go to sleep so I don't have to be awake, but I know I'm not going to be able to fall asleep. I don't want to wake up tomorrow either.
Having some mood swings today family. I hope we can all be euthanized one day and mental illness will be a thing of the past. The medications simply don't work.
First day on /r9k/.
I think I found my new home.
>>29017401
>decide to check dsm-5 to see if my depression is legitimate
>need 5 out of 9 criteria to count
>I have 9 on 9
Got diagnosed with ADD, depression and general anxiety disorder 2 weeks ago. Been taking wellbutrin for like 5 days, feeling a bit better but not as well as I expected. Anyone else take these?
>>29017826
go back to /a/ faggot
>>29017826
Welcome.
Major depression and anxiety here. On Zoloft, trying to come to terms with the fact I'll be a kissless virgin and on these forever.
Severe social anxiety, clinical depression, OCD or Tourette's, not quite sure.
>>29017838
bwhahahahaha......check your horoscope next.
Depression isn't a disease.
Trying to come to terms that existence itself being meaningless and all the pain you've suffered through was futile in the grand scheme
>>29017877
>Major depression and anxiety here.
MAJOR
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I've got chronic major clinical persistent depression.
>>29017896
Severe chronic major clinical persistent depression.
sorry.
>>29017401
Schizoid Personality Disorder. Probably pretty fucked but I don't care enough to mind.
>>29018023
>Schizoid Personality Disorder. Probably pretty fucked but I don't care enough to mind.
sounds like solid medicine
>>29017877
I thought that I would have to resort to drugs in order to cure my depression. Turns out that all it took was a radical diet along with a shit ton of exercise.
Avpd& bdd
How do i meet a scholl shooter?
>>29018088
No medicine. Just very limited affect toward all things in life. I function well enough to hold my job since all I have to do is fuck with presses so I don't care about any other possible repercussions.
>>29018115
>Turns out that all it took was a radical diet along with a shit ton of exercise.
throw in sunlight and that's about the reality.
>>29017401
At what point does feeling like shit become a mental illness?
Majority of my waking moments I have feelings of blankness or shooting myself
>>29018023
A personality disorder isnt a mental illness
>>29018134
You're not schizophrenic anon.
>>29018177
It's just semantics really.
Neither are a physical disease.
>>29018179
I am well aware of that.
Schizoaffective reporting in, anyone feel like sharing some A E S T H E T I C S ? They always make me feel better.
>>29017456
it's not fun.
>>29018177
It is classified as such under the DSM.
Diagnosed with Aspergers at age 5, retroactively declassified and reclassified with Schizoid Personality Disorder, MDD, and GAD.
Abusive parents are fun.
Every doctor I've ever been to has told me I'm chronically depressed. Every time I describe how I feel to them they always tell me it's a case of depression.
I honestly don't think so though. I don't feel sad most of the time, just incredibly bored and uninterested in anything. I haven't actually taken pleasure from anything and I have no desires or place any value on anything. If I lost my home or my leg or something I feel like I wouldn't even care.
Sometimes I think I might have Addison's disease but I don't fit many of the symptoms other than being constantly bored and uninterested. I thought it might be a serotonin deficiency but common symptoms of that are depression/anxiety which, again, I really doubt I have.
So what the fuck is wrong with me robots? Can I even be classified as "mentally ill"?
>>29017664
Thanks anon, you're a good guy. Always nice to see some postivity around /r9k/
>>29017401
basically just slept through the last five days. this is the worst i've felt in a while
>>29018330
I'm >>29018285
Go to another therapist, ask them to talk to you in full before looking through your medical records, and try your hardest to talk about your inner monologue and how you feel about the world instead of the fact that you don't have many emotions.
Schizoid personality disorder can appear very much like depression if they can only figure out that you feel like shit.
>>29018285
>Gullible parents are fun.
ftfy
>>29018416
I was diagnosed with Aspergers thanks to them playing off the effects of child abuse, the other diagnoses came at the age of 21.
>>29018330
>Every doctor I've ever been to has told me I'm chronically depressed
>doctor
>"chronically" depressed
done and done
So, how fucked are we, boys?
>>29018375
>Schizoid personality disorder can appear very much like depression if they can only figure out that you feel like shit.
nigga you can't be this retarded.
Yo do understand you're in a cult right?
Going to a Neurologist next week but I'm starting to realize how my co-workers hold me in contempt. I want to go back to my state of blissful apathy.
>>29018454
The therapist is only going to be able to go off what you tell them and your appearance/mannerisms.
If you have SPD and you don't mention anything that would clue the therapist on to your condition, he's going to diagnose you with depression as that's the only thing he can see.
>>29018437
Anon, they 'diagnose' everyone who walks through the door with one of these bullshit meme diseases. Smarten up.
>>29018453
>intermittent explosive disorder
I shouldn't be laughing but lel
Today was one of the worst days I've had in a long time, it was just a perpetual sad feeling. Usually I can use escapism to forget my feelings but today all those doors were just closed.
I am closer to actually killing myself now
>>29018486
>bullshit meme diseases
If you're talking about the Aspergers diagnoses I agree to a point, if you're talking about the SPD you can go fuck yourself.
>>29018483
>therapist
You're therapist is almost certainly a fucking loser who is going to do and say whatever he needs to do to get the check from your insurance. Don't be daft.
>>29018494
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Intermittent_explosive_disorder
That's a real fucking thing, mate. It's basically a free pass for acting like an absolute cunt to everyone around you but then getting to play the poor victim afterwards. Just like BPD.
>>29018512
I'm in Australia, he gets paid by the government, not me or my insurance.
Stop being a cunt.
>>29018115
I'm already in decent shape. I try to get out more, just going for walks, but it doesn't help much. Having ripped muscles would solve nothing for me.
>>29018453
So where is Obsessive Defiance Disorder?
mental illness (other than insanity) isnt real you're just pussies who disappointed your fathers
>>29018535
same thing.
This shit is cultish nonsense.
>>29018567
Not saying that it works for everyone. But it worked for me.
>>29017401
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and either Paranoid Personality Disorder or Schizotypal PD (which one it is is not yet certain, but we know I have one of them).
>>29018588
it's 43 meme degrees from due north.
>>29017606
Farmer here, life is no better. Organic lettuce on Maui btw.
>>29017838
Go check some of the other clinical disorders in the book. I bet you can come up with at least 2 more.
>>29018650
point of origination and magnitude?
>>29017401
managing my crippling mood disorders with deveined maeng da kratom from kratom xp, 4.5 grams every two hours
i have to hide it but it's better than living without and and being suicidal 24/7 praying for an end to the pain
>>29018494
you're right, you shouldn't be leling. It puts you in with the narcissists.
>>29018644
>Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and either Paranoid Personality Disorder or Schizotypal PD (which one it is is not yet certain, but we know I have one of them).
I've got a great deal on this bridge in Brooklyn if you're interested...
>>29017664
That's so sweet <3
>>29018726
I'm afraid I don't understand, anon. Too focused on my own paranoia desu. I am ever vigilant.
Pic unrelated.
>>29018115
>Tfw doing crying squats at 150kg
>>29018453
>Beyond hope tier
Well, at least I don't come here outside of the times I need a laugh, so there's that!
Very, still cant get hard to girls my age. I crossed the thin line without even noticing recently.
>>29018509
Just talking about going into the doctor's office and coming out with a diagnosis and a prescription on the first visit. Then they don't change their mind.
>OCD intrusive thoughts hitting me hard again and keeping me up all fucking night
AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
>>29018453
>Bipolar
>Tumblr tier
Obviously the person who made this has no idea what bipolar disorder is.
>>29017664
cute manga
i want to shoot heroin with and fuck the smiles
being content is the easiest thing you could ever possibly do, nothing is required to do so
please kill yourselves to speed up the evolution that was already going to naturally occur when you don't reproduce and to save resources
psychiatry is a jewish scam to keep idiots like yourselves from actually improving
kill yourselves [2]
>>29017859
I'm afflicted by the same stuff anon. I took Wellbutrin and tbqh I didn't like it. Made me too emotional.
Good luck to you though
>>29018889
>no idea what bipolar disorder is.
But that's just the point. The doctors have come up with a "spectrum" for bipolar so they can give more people that diagnosis.
The first doctor I saw mailed out a screener and basicly said Bipolar 2. Only asked questions that confirmed his opinion.
It wasn't until I got smart and saw another that actually talked about the disease and I didn't feel like it really fit. Got pulled off the original meds and feel a lot better.
>>29018889
>OCD intrusive thoughts combine with your paranoia to make you do weird shit to make sure you don't get eaten by a monster that is downstairs while everyone else is upstairs
>>29018889
t. Dr. Goldstein.
>>29018967
>Tfw fighting thoughts of beating my family to death because my emotional belief is that if I think of their harm/death the universe will act to bring it about
Our god is a vengeful god
>>29018991
I, too, know that feel. Though I usually more fear that people will know that I am having those kinds of thoughts.
>>29019012
I mean, I never worried about that. More the magical belief (in typical OCD fashion) that these things will happen. I would NEVER hurt anyone or them, but the Intrusive thoughts make it seem so dangerous.
Hey do you ALWAYS have parts of songs in your head? And I'm not talking just little blurbs, I mean a running background music? Even when I have a quiet moment THERE IS ALWAYS FUCKING NOISE IN MY HEAD MAKE IT STOP
>>29019045
Yeah, usually it is either Soviet marching songs, the Napoleonic marching song "La Victoire est a nous!" or any Orthodox chant.
It has actually been detrimental to my physical health, because I grind my molars to the music without realizing it.
I also make sure to match my steps to it.
>>29019045
Yea, I do. But that has to do with me having a song on repeat for weeks at a time.
>>29019088
This is hell. OCD is hell.
I want to sleep for Christ sake.
This is the second night in a row my thoughts keep me up.
I have music right now, even when I'm trying to rant to you. It keeps playing OVER AND OVER on a loop, and I'll jump to another piece and that'll start looping and my thoughts will splinter a mile a minute
How do you treat yours?
>>29019124
I have an appointment with a psychiatrist in a couple of weeks, I really hope they can prescribe me something for it.
I have been saying "What I cannot crush with words alone, I will crush with the tanks of the Imperial Guard!" about every minute or two in my head since this morning, so I know how you feel.
And, great, now la victoire est a nous is here because I mentioned it.
>>29019156
Man fuck you, you got the old Soviet Anthem running in my head. I consider us even now that it's been playing the same section over for the past 10 minutes. This will be my night
I have a psychiatrist appt in about 3 weeks as well. God they're hard to get a hold of
>>29017401
>OCD (pure-o intrusive/fucked up thoughts ocd)
>depersonalization
>Bi polar
>possible ADHD/ADD
>Anxiety/panic attacks/hints of social anxiety
>paranoia
>drug addiction
>possible tismo or assburgers?
fuck my shit up senpai.
>>29019190
>tfw Soviet marching songs play in my head so often that I know the words to most of them
>tfw I don't even speak Russian
>tfw I have learned songs through intrusive thoughts
Po dolinam i po vzgoriam, shla divizhia vperiod
chtobys boiu vziet Primorye, byeloy armia oplot
(chtobys boiu vziet Primorye, Byeloy Armia oplot!)
(brief section of one).
Doing pretty good, can't complain.
Just need to get my sleeping schedule back on track, you know?
>>29019249
you're literally just a bitch
get a job
How do you improve when you're completely fucked?
>>29019190
>>29019254
Communism is for normies. It's just Comrade Chad forcing the robots to slave away for the Proletariat (Stacy).
>>29019370
got a trustfund and an inheratance. iwill probably never have to work in my life, imight be crazy but atleast im not a wage cuck like you faggot.
I'll probably kill myself soon so I don't have to live with myself anymore
I always feel much worse at night but here I am up at 3am on 4chan and I'll probably be up another few hours until it's light out.
>severe test anxiety, even for bullshit that i know i have memorized
>toughed it out through highschool
>not even 1/3 finished with my degree track
fuck just shit my up senpai
Goddamnit, I'm shit posting right now because the melatonin hasn't kicked in, and I'm too psyched out about my physics test tomorrow fucking morning
If I had the means to I'd probably kill myself today toobehonest
Full blown schizo tier psychosis.
If symptoms are 4 months longer it's a confirmed diagnosis for schizophrenia
KILL ME
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>>29017401
Totally fucked. Bipolar II. I used t want to die, now I want the truth. In its absence I want the world to burn.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9ZN3KD7p3vg&index=42&list=RDtBVDdr3wqm4
>gf with BPD left me for bullshit reasons
>fell into depression
>want to sleep but can't
>every time I remember her or see something that reminds me of her I get an acute stress reaction
>can't remember the last time I slept properly
>dick stopped working due to my anti depressants
>feel numb
>can't concentrate or enjoy anything
help
>>29017401
>autism diagnosed
>chronic depression diagnosed
>i suspect schizotypal personality
