ITT We share our many reasons we want to kill ourselves
I'll start
>Morbidly obese
>Socially retarded
>Leech on my parents
>Things i'm not proud of
>Lost hope a long time ago
>cut
>abused as a child
>my brain is all fucked up
>droopy lower eyelids
This is literally the only reason.
I never asked to be born. I genuinely think it's immoral to have children. It may be tips fedora-y but what Rust said in True Detective is true "The hubris it must take to yank a soul out of non existence, into this, meat. And to force a life into this, thresher."
>>28993396
>workers will never seize the means of production
>retail wageslave
>2 year degree
>25 years old, still live with parents
>no friends
>making $11 an hour
>alcoholic
>>28993396
I don't, I just want to live just long enough to see the rest of you burn.
>was popular from years 5 to 8/9
>get 2 girlfriends during this time
>time goes on
>all the other guys get bigger
>i stay skinny
>start downward spiral into anxiety
>proceed to finish school a virgin
>going on NEET for 4 years
>6'1" 50kgs
>can't take myself seriously, always thinking people judging my weight
>now I'm 22, underweight, no job experience, no confidence
It's not looking up, tbqh. Being a normie is hard
>>28993506
Kind of feel the same way being a beta. Why spread my genes if it will just create another failed humanbeing like myself. We are meant to fail.
me next I guess
>Leech on my parents
>Ugly
>Dumb
>Boring personality
Going to school for IT currently only to discover that I can't possible remember all the content they teach. I have no hope for a future anymore.
>>28993506 I agree only to the extent that ugly/unintelligent people should not breed. Its the whole reason I am in this mess.
Because the world I was born in sucks. I don't want to feel guilt about wanting to be around people like myself, and feeling bad when I live in a place full of strange creeps.
>>28993396
>almost always hear what sounds like people screaming in unison in the distance, not sure if its in my head or ear problem
>cannot get more than five hours of sleep a week without being woken up from a nightmare or sleep paralysis
>this results in movement in the corner of my eyes and hearing things (other than the weird screaming)
>afraid of germs and other people so I isolate and live off disability
>no longer in contact with family, childhood friends, or old co workers
>body slowly eating itself
>i feel like an inhuman leech on society
If I could only show people what I see in my sleep, maybe then they would understand my feelings of indescribable horror and anxiety.
Maybe then I could share the burden these phantasms of unspoken dimensions reveal.
>>28993693
Have you thought about getting into art to show what you see? H. R. Giger did that I think.
>socially inexperienced
>socially phobic
>>5 year NEET
>depressed
>unattractive
>ashamed of my appearance
>gay and it's obvious based on my moderately effeminate voice
>find it very hard to even get motivated to do basic everyday tasks
>inability to concentrate
>memory problems
>dissociation
only thing keeping me alive is a combination of fear of pain, fear of being injured and suppression/repression
>>28993693
is it scarier than the monsters in bloodborn? Maybe you could be a concept artist?
>hardly ever had any friends growing up
>always feel lonely and pathetic
>no goals in life
>no desires
>constantly bored
>the few things in my life that weren't boring to me faded away
>see no meaning to life or existence
>have this never ending empty feeling in my chest
>whenever something does happen to me that makes me feel even the slightest bit happy it always goes away or turns into something that just makes me feel like shit
What's even worse is knowing that I'l neverl kill myself cause I know dying is worst outcome I could possibly have
>Younger brother is taller, lean, muscular, and handsome, "good skin tone"
>I'm 100 lbs overweight, to dark to be considered attractive in the society I live in
It literally doesn't matter how much smarter or funnier or generally nicer a person I am than him. I will always be the invisible brother because people can't imagine wanting to have sex with me on first sight!
does anyone know the easiest and least painful way to end it?
>Parents died when I was little
>Abused as child
>Basically had to raise little brother
>Am unpleasant to people I don't know
>Alcoholic
>Shut-in
>NEET
>Am a martyr
>Accepted hush money from abuser
>Jealous of happy brother sometimes and hate myself for it
>The thought of having sex makes me want to die
>>28993914
Probably a gun to the head.
It would be the quickest anyway.
>>28993741
>>28993768
If I found a media that I felt could effectively express visually and emotionally, I would invest my time into the craft.
Sadly, even written language retards the full effect. I experience night terrors during my short sleep; most involve my past sexual abuse mixed with a heavy passion for Lovecraftian mythos.
I just want it to cease so I may finally rest.
Fucked up back and neck posture/pain
Urinary incontinence yes I leak and piss myself so I spend much money on clothes diapers don't really help and are embarrassing
Former cutter and eating disorder
Former drug addict
Used to be homeless
Best friend died
Spend all day in room $99 of day leave to take a piss
Can't keep job because I piss myself
Schizo affective, I believe people are out to get me I hear voices people's thoughts and see things
I have a voice in my head I carry on conversations all throughout the day and people hear me talking to myself
I yell randomly and sreech against intrusive traumatic thoughts and experiences
Diagnosed PTSD
Wake hot and sweating from night terrors and lucid dreaming where I commit crimes do drugs and get killed
I have no friends
Very poor
Constant anxiety and panic attacks my body is always tense and I'm always ready to fight someone
I have fantasies of killing people and children
Tortuing young girls in my basement
Have constant ticks and always physically moving
Failed at everything in life dropped out of college several times and been kicked out
Dropped out of job training schools
Rejected from military for deep scars all over my chest legs and arms
Have been publically made fun of for pissing myself and staining pants
Beaten and abused for years growing up being choked suffocated and taking blows to the head
Been to rehab twice and kicked out the second time
Think about killing myself all the time
I'm only 22
>>28993936
I got submitted to a psych ward but got out a day later. Thing is I don't know if that will show up on a background check to register for a gun.
>>28993396
There's nothing good to look forward to in life and I'm miserable every day.
I already know how the rest of my life is going to go, and it's nothing worth experiencing.
>>28993955
If I was in your shoes I would end it. Why are you still alive?
>>28993396
>4 inch penis
>poor
>dependent on parents
Life is not worth living if you're poor. It becomes a sunk cost fallacy.
>No dad
>abusive stepdad, literally got beaten the shit out of until I was 14
>severe body image issues, always wearing jumpers, even in 40degree heat
>no friends
>shitty job
>alcoholic
>depression
>various other mental issues
>haven't spoken to a female in probably 6 months now
>someone end me
>>28993955
Continued: used to shoot up meth 4-5 times a day
Robbed houses and other people with guns just to eat and support my drug habit
Had to sleep outside and hear and see all this crap,y shit other addicts did
Been to jail off and on
Been to therapy and seen psychiatrist all my life
Doctors won't give me my addrrall or Xanax anymore because I don't have insurance
Family hates me
I basically don't exist
Time is running out
Money is running out
My mind doesn't work
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>>28994024
Because it's hard to kill yourself man it really especially when you brain basically goes through so much trauma it kinda breaks into different personalities and some of them are noyous and see a bright future and when in that mode life seems bearable and it's just plain old hard to do it sometimes all memes aside
>Autistic but not enough for sweet bux
>Broken household, only refuge is y room and the internet where I can pretend to be loved
>>28994073
Your life is like an aristocrats joke with no punchline.
>>28994058
What are jumpers?
>>28994140
sweaters, idk hoodies? etc
>>28994140
It's britfag talk for sweater
>>28993971
It's not the quickest way to go, and getting your hands on a gun is hard.
Suicide by asphyxiation is the most painless way for you and everyone else. Also it's quite easy and hassle-free.
http://lostallhope.com/suicide-methods/plastic-bag-gas
>>28994126
Ya it sux mane
Thx for telling me even tho I just told u that basically
Trust that I know shitty life experiences definitely don't make my life cool or anything or eventful it makes it shit
>>28994106
Ur fucking 15 shutup
>>28993396
my dick is 5 inches and 4 inches in girth
it feels so fantastic seeing everyone blossom into an actual man who could make somebody happy while you stopped developing at practically age 10 or some shit
Reading some of these, and it's like, why are you guys all measuring your lives against society's arbitrary expectations and definitions of success, a good life, etc.?
Why do you care so much if you're poor, a virgin, autistic, or "ugly"?
What about the fact that you're breathing and that there's a breeze outside and that you're alive? I don't get it.
>>28993868
u ok bud? being a guy that gets laid doesnt mean shit if ur 80 iq scum that dropped high school in the junior year. You mean NOTHING if u have looks and you arent smart.
>beat as a kid
>poor as fuck growing up
>cousin/neighbor in high school overdoses
>best friend dies of cancer
>all sorts of addictions
>most of my family was dead by the time i was 30
>work from home shutin never sees daylight
>>28994243
Give me a break. You can't be serious or your just ignorant.
>>28994243
I work my ass off 6 to 7 days a week My life is going to work and coming back home to 4chan or sleep. I've done this for over two years, I don't make enough money to rent my own place without spending 3 weeks of my earnings on rent.
I did everything my parents asked me to do from elementary to university and work. I never did anything crazy, I am a virgin male 24 years old, I have never held hnds with a girl.
My life is just a cog to work for my company. Don't I at least deserve a bit of happiness? All I ask for out of life is a girl, and a place to be with her so we can be happy together.
I'm stuck as a poorfag with debt, a dead end job, and no future.
>underbite+crossbite
>has accent
>voice sound like shit
>little to no social skill
>left hip protrusion and fucked up shoulder, cant into lifting
>head flattened on left side making left face looks swollen
>basically my my face looks funny
>looks funny when i eat
Stones has been set for my path of being an arch mage
>>28994303
Yeah, that sounds like a pretty difficult situation, but then why are you keeping yourself trapped in it? It sounds like this job is your biggest problem; if it's not even bringing you any happiness or money, why not just find a new one?
And I can assure you that there are a lot of girls out there who want nothing more than the same thing as you. What exactly is your problem?
>>28993396
To be honest, I've been wondering what it feels like to slowly die. To sleep and not wake up. When I have enough money, I'm getting a plane ticket to Massachusetts, as I have a friend up there to meet. After I part ways with her, I'm going to Muir Woods to lay down and just think about things for a while, and if decided, die.
>>28994482
>It sounds like this job is your biggest problem; if it's not even bringing you any happiness or money, why not just find a new one?
Well for one, I wasn't born a yuppie with boomer parents that could pay for my rent in a big city
Go look up all the youngest up and coming cities in America, and then look at the rent. No, those faggots working at starbucks aren't paying for their own 3 thousand dollar apartment in san Francisco.
I have been offered work paying what seems like a decent salary (50k), but in places like SF and NYC, where I'll have to live in a dumpster to make it work.
I'll sooner plot like a supervillain to kill all the yuppies before I lick floors for 70 hours a week for some boomer so he can make more money to send to his kids in san Francisco so they can cosplay ponies and have massive sex orgies six times a week.
>26
>still living with family, rarely work because of my shitty anxiety
>the only jobs I can get are harsh factory/warehouse work for sub $11/hour wages 12 hours a night
>no friends, no gfs, virgin
>life has been pretty much stagnant hell since 20
>find no joy in life, best I can hope for is temporary escapes through imageboards and anime
>the world is twisted and I despise it
Depression.
That's it, life's pretty good otherwise.
To put it simply, I think life is a rigged game. Taking the black pill opened my eyes, and the scientific journals in support of my ideas widened them.
Life is a joke. We struggle and fight and claw our way. We study. We practice. We hope and pray that the future will yield our happiness. It's a farce. THE GAME IS RIGGED. Yet, we must play. Why must we play? because we are alive. And the ache of an empty belly will always be more motivating than some metaphysical ideology. I don't want to keep fighting. I don't want to play the game anymore.
So damn unfair.
I hurt someone so close to me because I was being an absolute idiot and blinding myself to their wants and needs. I kept pushing for something I thought would make us both happy but in the end I did more damage than I ever could have thought. I was the last person they could trust and I destroyed it with my selfishness. Now all I can think about is taking myself out of this world for their sake, so I can never hurt them like that again. They're still around, talking to me, trying to make things normal again. I don't know why, it confuses the hell out of me. By all rights they should hate me more than anything because I hurt them as bad if not worse than the people in their past. I seem to just hurt people when I get close to them and this experience has cemented that in my mind. I feel I should simply die rather than hurt them or anyone else again.
I have never enjoyed life, im 21,virgin, start something in life and drop it immediatly cause i get bored and stressed, currently renting, dont have a house, dont want to have friends all i wanna do is sleep and hope to wake up dead, i only see myself as a hobbo in the future.
please end me
5'7", bald, hairy, asymmetrical facial/skull features, and poor. I made a promise to myself that I would commit suicide after I got out of the military after 1 year if I couldn't be successful. I have 6 more months to go, and it looks like I'm done. No gf, no friends, no prospects. Fuck this gay earth.
>>28994243
what do you do to feel worthy then? just survival is pretty underwhelming as a human being. i dont actually consider following those expectations but the whole world is, and if you wanna do something you HAVE to deal with it.
>>28994243
Humans are social creatures. If you don't care about socialising then the latter two don't really matter. But being poor can greatly influence your quality of life.
>>28993693
shrooms and or ecstasy. Go for it
>>28993582
god damn anon
hits too close to home
>>28993396
I have cracked.
Don't go to school tommorow in NC.
>>28993396
>Heroin addict
>Antisocial
>Bored
>At least borderline alcoholic
>Constant up and downs in mood
>Lost my foothold in normaldom
>Poor self image
>Low self esteem
>Risk of multiple sclerosis
>General contempt for most things
>No direction
>>28993396
>depressed and deemed weak and was bullied up until 7th grade (I think lol) the depression still is there
>pretty sure my brain is fucked and I'm going more schizo by the day, suffering more breakdowns, I need to see a doc
>family is disappointed in me
>socially retarded
>did i mention depression?
>>28993914
Look up exit bags.
>am tranny
My penis looks like a 12 year olds.
I also have phimosis.
i want to get into my next reincarnation but as a qt girl or qt trap this time around
i sort of want to be born into the future if we can ever end up living in space and on earth
>>28997496
>am tranny pre hrt
at least it gets better...r-right?
>>28997567
I've never taken hrt either so I can't say if it does or not.
People seem to say it does but I'm too scared to act on any of my desires so I'll probably just keep trying to ignore it, even though I spend a lot of time thinking about it.
> live at home
> barely employed
> depression and personality issues
> see the bad side of everything (this world is shit btw)
> having trouble finding something to live for
> lie to my "friends" and tell them im ok
i figure i'll either start caring about myself or find a reason to off myself. preferably after Trump gets elected though, i wanna see that happen
>21
>5'8"
>123lbs
>curved spine
>crooked, rotten teeth
>kid face
>balding
>parents are alcoholics since I was 4
>still living with them
>poorfag
>neet without neetbux
>socially retarded
>bullied in school by many people
>depression, social anxiety, OCD
>never had gf or even female friend
>barely had any friends at all in life
>no driving license or car
>>28993506
This
>>28993693
And a little bit of this, but in my case it's fairly mild. The potential still terrifies me, though. I know how these things progress, they tend to only get worse with time.
>>28996078
And this
I feel like I'm on top of the world, but from this vantage point the world is just so fucking sad
I got dealt a good hand, a really good hand. I think, though, that's exactly this that allows me to feel the way that I do.
>>28998140
Also my only ways out (dreams and drugs) turned on me very quickly.
For the first time, I literally feel like there's no escape.
>>28993927
Is it too late to get vengeance on your abuser? That should give you a goal to aim for. People are generally happier with goals. Maybe you can get them imprisoned. Or take matters into your own hands. Slowly disembowel them, chained up in a location of your choice. :)
>>28993396
>it never got better
>dont find enjoyment in anything
>no one to spend my life with
>>28993396
>>Morbidly obese
just get fatter until you die, sounds like you already don't have to wait too much longer
