I want to become blind with nothing else but unstoppable rage when im mad
I want to cum my association with reality when I bust a nut
I want to be immersed and consumed by the food I consume
I want to feel so happy that I cant help but scream
I want to cry bitter warm tears when im sad
yeah
how do I
>>28970708
>I want to become blind with nothing else but unstoppable rage when im mad
That's actually not something you want to be, you'll get your face punched a lot
>I want to cum my association with reality when I bust a nut
Stop watching porn, and masturbate less often
>I want to be immersed and consumed by the food I consume
Learn to cook, stop drinking sodas and eat whole foods.
>I want to feel so happy that I cant help but scream
Find what makes you happy like that duh? Also drugs.
>I want to cry bitter warm tears when im sad
Well it depends on your personality but thats not something you won't don't be a "I WANT TO FEEL SADNESS" type of guy
not sure why you'd want this tbqh fambam.
a lot of the stuff you wrote is straight emo.
you could become a degenerate and try to become a woman, they have a heightened emotional response to everything.
men have control of their emotions and are stoic.
as for food/orgasm, you could try living in the moment. Learn to appreciate things in a very controlled manner. Some poeple like to eat while watching tv. You'd probably enjoy them more separately.
In order to experience the highest highs, you must be willing to face and endure the lowest lows. Then you unlearn. Then they're one and the same.
>>28970708
Sounds like you want to be bipolar OP
Which is stupid btw
just google how to simulate being bipolar or whatever
>>28970708
>I want to become blind with nothing else but unstoppable rage when im mad
Retarded as fuck but binge on meth for two weeks and then cold turkey.
>I want to cum my association with reality when I bust a nut
LSD and MDMA low dose
I want to be immersed and consumed by the food I consume
>LSD medium dose
I want to feel so happy that I cant help but scream
>MDMA high dose
I want to cry bitter warm tears when I'm sad
>LSD
you gotta end the depersonalization, man
Its simple.. eat some MDMA
>>28971486
How tho?
(Thisisaveryoriginalcomment)
>>28971819
this
shit's pretty crazy though
went from smoking weed to eating some pure MDMA (no mixed shit), had no idea what to expect and was completely taken over by the massive headrush and sweatiness
I just let the trip do it's thing, didn't even worry about anything
wasn't screaming or going crazy either, was pretty calm and went to the park at 2 am with my two other friends that were tripping with me
One of my friends was touching me a lot and I was touching him occasionally too (hugging and holding hands and shit)
MDMA will make you want to do that, so don't do it alone, do it with at least one other person.
>>28971859
you gotta move forward
Same here OP, I can't feel anything anymore, it's all so dull.
I just watched a brutal video about war, in the comments everyone was shocked about the contents of it and how sad it must've been for everyone and I just didn't feel much.
Feel pics don't get anything out of me anymore.
I'm not a sociopath or anything, I just can't feel, it's so fucking frustrating.
