>tfw sick of life
>tfw sick of job
>tfw sick of tfw no gf
>tfw video games no longer interest you
>tfw nothing interest you
>tfw taking anti-depressants makes everything dull & boring
>tfw life feels like a dream
>tfw all you really want to do now is drive out somewhere nice with your rifle & blow your brains out
I just want to be free. That's all.
Man, I don't really want to die. I just need some assurance that everything is fine and always will be. I don't want to be bored, or tired, or hateful. I don't want other people to boss me around and fuck with me.
I literally just want for everything to be okay forever. But then the question is what is okay? Shit's crazy.
Anyway that doesn't seem possible in this life so I'm pretty much with you OP.
Don't necessarily want to die, Just rather would have not been born
>tfw no convenient off button
Humans are so poorly designed desu
Too bad you can't just take a vacation from being yourself. That would be nice.
>>28947980
instead of waiting for things to become okay, make things okay
if you catch my drift
>>28948025
>what is the carotid artery
i suppose it's more of an off wire than an off button, but you get the point
>>28947746
Yea. I know that feeling.
I'm 27.
I hate my job.
I was going back to school but had a mental breakdown last semester and dropped out before it cost me any more money.
I don't know why I even play any of the games I play anymore since not only am I terrible at them, most of them just make me frustrated or sad.
I sometimes play mtg but haven't played in over a month because everyone is busy, and even then I don't even enjoy it anymore.
I try to look at things positively, but I can never find anything to latch onto.
I've been in a downward spiral for the better part of 10 years, and my time is running out.
I have a .40 in my nightstand full of hollow points, and I'm running out of reasons not to pick it up.
>>28948201
20 here. Feel as if I am starting to slide into a crippling depressing life too. Got a shit wage slave Job cause there isn't that many good jobs where I live. Would go back to college but nothing interests me for more than a month. Already dropped out of a course a few months ago. Can't see myself getting a gf either, I just go home from work, waste time watching shit on TV and playing vidya I have no interest in. Only upside is the one friend who is in the same kinda situation. But he said he has a date this weekend. Fuck life, so pointless unless your rich or good looking
>>28947746
Just go do drugs or something to pass the misery. I'm being serious it helps a lot.
>>28948286
I wouldn't say good-looking despite what /r9k/ thinks. It helps, sure, but money is all. That matters. The rich get rich and the poor stay poorer. The worst part is that at least here in America, we're fooled into thinking we have a chance, which is bullshit.
>>28947746
You know that feel when everything fucks up, literally every single thing in a day fucks up, to the point where you hope it's just a bad dream because it's impossible for everything to become so bad at once?
I feel that feel. And I don't have the balls to just kill myself. I'm actually scared that I'll fail to kill myself and will have to live with whatever disability it'll leave me with.
>>28948201
Where do you work?
>>28948313
Too bad my job does random drug tests. But I guess that won't matter soon anyway. What do you recommend?
>>28948145
Basically this
Too bad we're not given instructions on how to use it at birth
>>28948427
I work for a shitty shitty company running metal through a saw. I can't even afford their health insurance on what they're paying us.
>mfw I realized that I don't feel depressed anymore
>I just don't feel anything anymore
>>28947746
I just got myself landed in the ER from a suicide attempt
Just remember what your teachers say-
Try, try, and try again! I'll finally do it someday.
I feel you OP.
Whenever I get these feelings I just go up to a nice view and just watch the sunset.
It sounds stupid but a sunset to makes me cherish nature and living alot more for some reason.
>>28949011
This sounds like a good idea but I'd need it to be sunset 24 hours a day to work
Has anyone successfully deluded themselves into being religious? Sounds like it would be extremely comforting desu but I couldn't keep it up
>tfw god is dead
>>28949281
I grew up in a Irish Catholic home and went to Catholic school for 7 years. After many years of misery, I learned that God either doesn't exist or doesn't care.
>>28949011
Normie advice.
>look at the sunset xddd itll make depression go away forever xdd
Kill yourself tripfaggot
I have no reason to live, but I'm scared shitless of dying. Will this just be my life until I keel over from old age?
I don't know who or where to ask this question so I'm going to do it here.
Does anyone know if difficulty reading social cue is a criteria for aspergers?
I just want to know I have been misdiagnosed.
i wanna die also
>>28949431
know if I*
>>28948313
>tfw weed is making me schizophrenic.
>>28949371
>forever
I didn't fucking say this at all
>>28949281
I'd say yes. I believe not so much in god, jesus, or "wonders" but in christian teaching. I believe in love and that the world would be a better place if we could forgive everything and if we could all pull on one string. To me it has been not reality, but how I would like reality to be, from the beginning.
The illness remained though. Worst part is, that I am bored and disgusted by the things I believe in to be good. I hate myself to some degree, I think.
>>28948427
then it's alc
>>28949484
I tell you! It makes the whole thing less grave because you will rise in depression level. When others already cry and run to psychologists you just start your day.
Speaking of this, the whole society is sick and ill-minded. I would bet, that those who claim to be sane, are insane to the max sometimes. What you might call schizo actually might be normal nowadays.
>>28949281
I keep reading CS Lewis and he makes me wish God was real, but I just can't make myself believe it
