Does anyone else get the urge to scream due to the sheer horrific nature of life?
>>28901348
yes
origigi
>>28901348
not really, I want answers more than anything when faced with it
Calamity
Despair in the night
Tranquility
At the end of the fight
There's gotta be light for darkness to appear
There's gotta be a night for a day to come
There's gotta be pain for health to bear
There's gotta be a way that'll lead you home
All is nothing
Nothing is all
Forget about your wounds for they'll ever be bleeding
May your own light shine upon the soil
Srsly man it's time to focus on the light rather the shadows it cast upon this world
>>28901348
Reality behind all the dopamine and serotonine is like a psychological horror movie on steroids. The amount of suffering going on out there in this very moment is mindboggling. And people don't care nor understand and just keep reproducing like the good little domino bricks they are, and the rest of the animals and life have even less of a choice.
You try to deal with the pain by thinking about how small and insignificant your existence is, but naturally that does not work because our existence and experience of consciousness are one and the same to us and this qualia cannot be insignificant - the very notion is ridiculous. At every waking moment we look out of our heads into this competetive madhouse where almost everything wants us either dead or to submit - even the very essence and laws of the universe (entropy)!
>>28901348
>can't be happy without companionship
>too afraid to open yourself up to people
>>28901348
>>28901348
Life's not horrific for me, it's just empty. Empty, banal and pointless. I want something to give it meaning.
I mean, I know I'm lucky to live the life I've got.. I'm breezing through medschool, money goes into my bank account faster than I can spend it, I've got girls pursuing me. But fuck I wish there was a revolution or something to make life feel it mattered.
>>28901348
No I just get happy that I won't fear death, but rather welcome it.
>>28901348
>tfw you will never have the means to destroy this planet in one instant, painless moment, saving every single last creature from ever experiencing the pain of existence ever again
a few times a week but there is NOWHERE to let it out. Just nowhere. Unless you travel like way way out you're always going to be heard. I think the trick is not to care.
>>28903523
Get a trailer, anon. I have my very own place with steel walls where I can scream, turn up my music loud, or be as autistic as I want. I even fired a gun in here once and nobody did shit. Move out of your parents house, guys.
>>28903617
I don't have the money to buy a trailer to scream in anon. And I moved out of my parents place 2 years ago.
>>28903661
Why not? Get a certification, work as a bench technician for a few years, get your own mobile home, and then let Uncle Sam do the rest. Best NEET life ever.
>>28901348
>sheer horrific nature of life
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>>28903617
>tfw i crave living alone so badly but cant bc my mom is mentally unstable and feel bad for leaving my sibling with her
>>28901348
I've given up on trying to fit in, I enjoy life but I don't over think it, I know how it all ends
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>>28901348
When I still commuted to school (took about an hour), I'd kind of zone out, and when I came back into myself I'd be screaming my balls off. Was kind of disconcerting.
Anyway, do it in your car. Unless you're a eurocuck without a car
>>28901348
It's not an urge to scream. It's more of an urge to die.
When I realize what a bloody horrorshow life is, I just want to rent a van and go out to the woods and just eat snacks and nap in comfy blankets and breathe fresh air until it's time to blow my skull into wet, red bone fragments with a shotgun or a huge firecracker or something
>visit property girlfriends family is giving to her
>63 acres of untouched woodland
>go deep into it and primal scream
also
>visit financial aid office because school fucked me on my aid
>come out and got a parking ticket from university, after already getting a parking ticket from the city police
>scream at the top of my lungs in my car
>campus police cruiser starts rolling toward me
Thankfully he stopped following me. You can't get in trouble for screaming in your car can you? I scream a lot. it feels good.
