Im bored and everything is annoying
my head hurts and i feel i am slowly atrophying
>>28886973
Maybe you are lucky
>>28887002
yeah, maybe i am
>>28886957
I'm boring and everyone is annoyed.
>>28887667
Bad on you anon
>>28886957
Same.
I feel like it's only a matter of time before I decide to off myself
>>28887738
I dont want to off myself, but everyday is worthless
>>28886957
Are you gonna be the next CebruzAre you Cebruz?
>>28887831
I'm in no hurry either, I just don't see this going down any other road than that
>>28887862
No
>>28887863
Same, anon. I feel like there will be a day I will end it, I dont want it though
>>28887919
I'll probably wait for my parents to die first, since I don't want them to go through that.
Afterwards, it's anyone's guess.
>>28888031
My mom would go insane and dad would be destroyed if I died, so same with me I guess
what's your steam, anonymous internet user?
>>28886957
hello again! maybe you should try forcing yourself to start doing a new hobby like art or reading. At first it will be boring but if you give it a fair chance then you just might find it mentally stimulating
>>28888197
It doesnt matter
>>28888569
I want to learn drawing, but its waaay too hard, I dont know
>>28888569
This
Or you can look for something more physical like martial arts or cycling, believe me, it really gets you high on life
>>28886957
What annoys you the most these days?
>>28888736
Martial arts looks amazing, have no energy and health for that though. Used to go out with my bike every morning, didnt change anything
>>28888569
Not OP, but I understand him.
Everything is boring.
Trying something that would be boring to begin with is insurmountable. Things that you used to enjoy become pointless after 5 minutes.
It's depression. Medication might help, but the depression itself makes it impossible to go and get the medication.
The longer you are in this state the larger the threshold to do anything about it becomes.
>>28887831
You depressed m8? Sounds like it. Everything feels pointless and the future is hopeless to me.
I sometimes go for a walk to clear my head but I just end up seeing couples and my stomach churns knowing I'll never experience that.
>>28888771
Even the smallest things, some people will get me
>>28888804
This very much
Im in this state way too long already, meds would help for that time, but it would come back
>>28888817
When I go outside, I just see people that seem to enjoy their lives, it just makes me more sad. I understand you
>>28888772
When practicing martial arts health and energy will increase exponentially believe me, you just need the right amount of inspiration, but that is something that you have to find by yourself
>>28888995
Let me make some wild guesses
You go to bed when you get tired, usually very late. You try to sleep as long as you can, but usually you feel like you can't sleep long enough.
You masturbate out of boredom more than out of any need.
You spend your days mostly browsing 4chan and other pointless websites, be that youtube or image-sites. You feel guilty that you don't see your family enough. It's not because you don't like them, but it's because you are bored while visiting them. You get bad conscience because of that, feeling like you are selfish. You lie to them about your life because you don't want them to worry about you.
You feel like you should go to a therapist, but you just can't get it done.
Am I even close?
>>28889340
not OP but i checked on everything, the family one really hit close home
>>28889215
Learning it at home not a possibility I think and being around people is a big no for me. Even if I forced myself, not sure if there is a place for that in my city and would just panic
>>28889340
I go to bed and wake up randomly, dont try to sleep as much as I can. But spend a lot of time laying around
Dont masturbate that much, dont have that much interest anymore
Pretty close about family, but they know almost everything
Will see a doctor in monday. I was already sent to mental hospital, but got out of there the first day, couldnt take it. Almost got locked for one month
some testosterone going would help with your 'slumber' state (assuming ure a dude). do some basic workouts. it does bring some clear mind state, especially when you assure yourself 'you're currently helping/improving yourself'. It's a distracting activity like any other and helps your body chemistry wise. Don't take this as "go get jacked" suggestion, this is merely to help your mind breathe better. With clearer mind, plan ahead yourself. Likely you'll have a drive for other activities as well, like drawing.
OP you have some very nice Rei pics. I saved almost all of them.
>>28890543
Used to exercise, didnt help much, dropped it like everything else
>>28890607
My pics are always the best
