What makes you happy, robots?
Doing drugs
>>28882863
What kind of drugs famalam?
>>28882863
certain drugs can be helpful at times, but the only time any drug made me feel actually happy was the first 50 or so times i smoked weed.
WHEN IM FINALLY AWAY FROM OTHER PEOPLE
>>28882851
this
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yhAeVfpy_Mo
>>28882889
>drugs
>weed
pick one
>>28882942
Based Papa Franku
>>28882951
Shoo shoo faggot
>>28882851
Fitness and healthy eating, started recently doing this, and feeling a lot better/happier
>>28882886
I brew Mescaline once a month. I also grow it. Its very fulfiling to brew up and drink a plant that you have cared for and then trip with it. Thank you to the anon that suggested this to me years ago.
Nintendo games
Mario is my oldest friend
and the inklings from Splatoon are literally the cutest things ive ever seenthey may or may not have awakened my paternal instincts.. growing up is weird
>>28883004
ahhh, no. Doing this for 9 months still feeling like shit.
>>28882851
seeing other people fail
>>28882889
Yeah unfortunately weed loses its magic for a lot of people. I am also one of them. I give anything to re-experience the first time i got stoned.
>>28883051
>seeing other people fail
Degenerate
>>28883092
>Degenerate
A degenerate is a person who has declined, as in morals or character, from a type or standard considered normal.
a degenerate is usually a person who is frowned upon by society for being an individual. Like me. Is it so wrong to be different?
Smoking weed and being incredibly drunk
>>28883051
This.
SCHADENFREUDE
>>28883177
opdonderen kanker Duitser, tering mof.
>>28883065
ever tried some strong edibles or dabs?
>ywn trip fucking balls on weed again
>>28883149
>is it so wrong to be diffrent
Yes, u piece of filth. Do the world a favour and dispose your self from this earth
Drugs and music.
>>28882889
I take it you've never done heroin or meth.
>>28883254
its quote from urban dictionary you stupid fuck
>>28883215
Never done dabs but i did do good edibles once
>mfw watching 2001 while on edibles
>>28883281
I guess to be fair I should also include physical exercise, accomplishment of personal goals, and making other people feel good. Part of that last one is vaguely altruistic, but a lot of it also comes from the fact that manipulating other peoples emotions gives me a rush.
Mommy sitting on my face and fuck my butt
>>28883349
DUDE IM EATING FUCKING FRUITS FUCK OFF
When somebody talks to me.
It doesn't last long, I soon remember why I stay away from folks.
I don't really like or understand most of them.
But Jesus Christ, I don't even live alone and I can spend days without having a significant conversation with anybody.
And if I try and force one I'm accused of wasting other people's time and it devolves into an argument.
I can't help what's wrong with me.
Why now I'm a man do they begin to hold my illness against me?
There is no understanding for people with poor social skills and emotional regulation issues.
You're just viewed as a nuisance.
I tell you what would make me happy.
If I could talk to another person without feeling like they're judging me, or just humouring me.
>>28883498
Id talk to you but im really bad at talking senpai
>>28883498
GET OUT OFF MY HEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!
>>28883498
>If I could talk to another person without feeling like they're judging me, or just humouring me.
I have bad news for you - this will never happen. Undeniably, through every conversation with a person, you're being judged, on a subconscious or conscious level. You do the same thing.
Know what's the good news though? Their judgements are harmless. Someone might think you're stupid. Alright. What now? Nothing - you can continue living your own life. Someone might think you're smart. That's cool. But it doesn't mean anything, it means if YOU think you're smart. You're the main source, everything comes from you. So start talking to people when you feel like it, don't give a fuck if they judge you, you won't get harmed. No one will ever be you, and you will never be someone else, so just live for yourself. I know you can make it.
>>28883747
Don't presume to tell me what I do when someone talks to me.
I'm just grateful to have a polite conversation
I am genuinely that pathetic.
And yes, I know nobody will ever stop judging me, this is the sort of thing that makes me dream about pipe bombs and burning office blocks.
If "they" will never stop hurting me why should I not bide by time until I can hurt the most people possible?
Give me one reason I should suffer quietly that isn't drawn from a communal concern that fails to encompass the likes of me.
>>28883531
I know, me too.
It's not the same online anyway.
A person on the internet is just a hypothetical; a ghost of an impression.
>>28883897
Maybe its just me but ive had some of my greatest times with ghosts of my impressions.
If I could get a job assembling Gundams all day I'd be the happiest man in the world. Too bad it can only be a hobby for me.
>>28883874
>I am genuinely that pathetic.
You're the one who sets the standard. Why is it pathetic to want to have a polite conversation? Stop thinking like this. I'd understand if it was pathetic to lick someone's boot, but to think you're pathetic because you want a polite conversation?
>If "they" will never stop hurting me
Except they aren't hurting you. They're judging you, but you are the one who feels pain from those judgements. They are literally abstract, you can stop thinking they're big shit. With this mentality in mind you won't make it when it comes to social status, but why would you want that?
>Give me one reason I should suffer quietly
How about you stop suffering? I'm not saying to be yourself, that's a shit advice, what I want to say is that you should stop caring about abstract shit that much. Not even people on the highest step of the social ladder are 100% loved. You will always have someone who hates you, thinks you're stupid, ugly etc
Either learn to deal with it by not caring for such shit and living your own life (or turning towards people who think positive of you, but my own viewpoint is that it's not worth it), or suffer for the rest of your life.
>>28883959
It's probably down to personal difference.
I'm somehow less sociable online than in person, and I am an actual IRL hermit.
Not as introverted online, but then, to me this isn't real, it's like dicking about in astral space with inconsequential spirit beings.
>>28884051
I am constantly hurt by others, not by their judgement but by the way they treat me and speak to me.
I am an ugly timid looking man with the posture of a natural born victim.
This pretty much means I have a big red fucking target on my back wherever I go.
I've had no self esteem or confidence since I was a kid because my father beat me every day and made me feel worthless, never had friends at school, instead I got beaten and chased off the grounds, I've never been able to hold down a job because my education was poor and no employer ever took the time to teach me to do my job properly.
I've likely got an un-diagnosed learning disability, because I've consistently been slower to pick up new information than people of an equivalent age or developmental level, and despite having been in and out of involvement with "special education" for years nobody cared enough to even try to figure out what was wrong with me.
I have no reason to take anything you say as the same meaningless shit I get from everybody who completely fails to understand how the world alienated me before I could even cogently embrace it.
Fuck you, if I ever meet you I'll stab you in the gooch just to see you crawl in the mud.
>>28884059
I suppose it could be personal preference, but who cares whats real and whats not when youre being entertained, even mildly. Whatever makes the time pass faster
>>28884175
But I am not being entertained.
If I was I wouldn't be complaining.
There is no joy in being alive.
I want to die but I am afraid, and more than that, there are others I would see die first.
>>28884165
I definitely can't know how you feel, but I myself have low confidence levels, major social anxiety (almost always feel like I am being watched by everyone while in public) etc
While you can't erase the past, you can try to change your views and improve yourself. Yeah, you have bad experiences with people, but fuck them. You're on this ride, at least try to fucking enjoy it a bit. Improve yourself, start drawing, lifting, reading etc, concentrate on the activities which don't require the involvement of other people.
>>28882909
YES
muchos originalos
>>28884224
I think we have different definitions of the word entertained.
You dont have to feel joy to be entertained in my book.
I havent felt joy in over 4 years or so, but i can say my life is pretty entertaining at times.
So what entertains you?
>>28882851
Watching people suffer.
>>28884232
I am now too physically and mentally ill to do anything but gush impotent bile.
My life has broken me completely, and I wait now only for death or the last of my rational mind to disintegrate.
Sickness of the mind has lead to sickness of the body, and crippling addiction and indifference to the ideals that stop other people from crossing boundaries they should not, or alienating themselves from their people as a whole.
I am no longer, I feel, properly human, but that itself does not make me sad.
>>28883051
>>28884319
same edgyfag
Collecting pictures of people from Afghanistan is honestly one of the few things that bring me satisfaction.
I'd collect pictures from other countries but I don't think I have enough space, so I just collect one picture of a person from each ethnic group for each country.
Is this autism?
>>28884304
It used to be that I would entertain guests to distract myself.
They are gone now, their places still set, but vacant.
My doorbell is almost invisible under a coating of creeping green mould.
>>28884377
If you make an effort to categorize them accurately then that's Anthropology, which is a kind of applied autism.
>>28884421
Rate this attempt. I'm only up to Costa Rica, was thinking of doing Croatia today but couldn't be arsed.
>>28884390
From what do you want to be distracted?
I'd love to be like Jigsaw and play morality games with people while being exempt from any moral standards myself. I like tattletaling.
>>28884352
>having paranoid schizophrenia
>>28884458
From how utterly empty my life is, from my own total lack of discernible desires, identity, or aspirations.
I have been quite thoroughly trodden down by the boots that have stamped over me throughout the years, and now my self-esteem is so low that I find it hard to even care for myself unless I have an external reason like guests.
So I forget to eat or sleep or bathe or go to my appointments or take my antidepressants or sleeping pills, and nobody really cares enough to remind me.
I am dying.
Feeling productive makes me happy
>>28884563
Is there anything you want, no matter how small or no matter how big?
>>28884457
Not bad, nicely illustrates the varied phenotypes in the area.
From the swarthy Dravidan, to the more East Asian and Indo-Aryan appearances.
>>28884457
Do you save pics of the landscape and some architecture too?
>>28884627
There are many things I want, but attaining them never brings me any great sum of pleasure because I cannot fully appreciate anything when I am simply mired in generalized loathing.
Pleasure is like a bird that flies just out of your reach even as you scale the cliff to it's nest.
And there are no eggs in the nest, only the bones of dead vermin.
>>28884664
Naw, I'm interested in people. Sure I like landscapes and architecture, but not enough to make autistic lists like this
>>28884676
Doesnt bring you great sum of pleasure, but does it bring you any pleasure at all? Have you found a single thing that gives you not pleasure, but any good feeling what so ever?
>>28884712
Can a white guy just go and fit in over there?
>>28884775
Good feelings are fleeting and fragile.
They become scarcer and scarcer until they reach a near mystical state.
My emotions are in a constant flux, I can approximate "good feelings" by inflicting my unhappiness on other people, as their discomfort is satisfying on some level, as it feels like a redistribution of my own suffering, but guilt always rebalances the scales.
All my relationships are now profoundly damaged or disintegrating.
I've begun a final purge of the last few people who are willing to have anything to do with me.
I have denounced their "friendship" because it no longer makes me feel safe or appreciated, and simply serves to highlight their richer more fulfilling lives.
It hurts me to see other people happy.
>>28884883
Paint yourself black and you're ready to go.
Here's a whiter country
>>28884943
Even if they are fleeting and fragile even the little bits count.. Why dont you try to surround yourself with other unhappy people if you think thatd make you feel better?
>>28882851
Talking with people
Watching good movie/anime
Spending time with family
Going outside with someone
>>28882851
Tu crash ma enemis
se tem triven befou me
Seeing a normie suffer is enough to relish me for a week
>>28882942
This for me.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gbt61vcAkG0
>>28885024
Came here didn't I?
Too bad it's full of normies, /pol/aks and cuckposters.
I used to have my own wee posse of tenuously allied wreck-heads but I've alienated even them now by being a crazed relict hominid.
coming home from work to an excited fiance and dog.
sex
mdma
cocaine
close friends
oxycodone
unfortunately this list is both in order of magnitude and chronological.
i miss you, G.
