How are you feeling tonight on a scale of 1-10?
1 is feeling the worst you ever have in your life.
10 is absolute bliss.
About a 4
Friday nights are always hard
>>28872298
Trust me man. I know. Watching other people go out and have fun while I'm shut in wasting my life is normally how I spend Fridays.
>>28872272
3-4
More regretful feeling than usual
Afraid of the future
Just injected some heroin so beautiful
Gonna spend my sat (Aus) nodding in and out
Beautiful
>>28872272
7
probably a 10 in an hour or so
My life seems fucking perfect I dunno why i use this board anymore.
>>28872272
Early mornings are always the worst. Staying up all night, living in your own little world. Sun is rising, reminding you that time is passing while you're doing the same shit day and night. Stupid ass birds chirping, Womens high heels clicking. Normies getting their keys out, unlocking their car and driving to work. Little faggots walking to school with their friends. Fuck it's a solid 1 today senpai
I'm feeling like. I spended the day with the girlfriend yesterday, and today I stayed inside doing fucking nothing at all. Ugh, I wish I stayed inside but playing vidya, I chat up a bit with my sidegirl and I can't see her this weekend, I wish I was drunk right now.
Fuck, I wish I had more money. At least I finished my novel. I feel like a fucking zero tho
Probably a solid 4.5. I was a good 8 earlier but then I heard the news about No Man's Sky.
>>28872272
4-5.
I'm indifferent, but I feel like I'm missing out. What parties are happening that I wasn't invited to? What events could I be participating in? Who could I be talking to right now? Why aren't I losing my virginity?
>>28872654
People are out there right now having the time of their lifes and here I am once again too bro.
What makes me mad is my friends. We have a chat group and then I fucking ask "so guys what are we up to today?" and nobody fucking replies it pisses me off so much.
I stay high all the time now, so I'm at about a 5. Panic attacks and mood swings will send me anywhere between 1 and 10 for a few hours, but I settle back at a steady meh sooner or later.
I just abide my time until my next manic state, when I tear through shit for a few weeks and play catch up with the world and who I want to be.
All things considered, I'm doing pretty good, OP. I've had some real bad lows in the past. Stayed at a 1 for almost 10 years. But I'm still here. A loser like me is actually doing it. Just earlier this year, I overcame one of my largest fears and moved out on my own. Now I'm working on my biggest fear of traveling by driving a little further away from home.
Most of my money goes into gas and rent, but I can feel it, you know? I can see progress being made. I know I'm getting somewhere. And it makes it that much easier to shrug off that overwhelming sense of stagnation that comes with depression.
9, I have forgotten and don't care about normal fags anymore.
I was losing my sides to a weird ass vaporwave video that I found fucking hysterical. I am not bored of life yet, but I know I will soon.
I was a 10/10 until this board brought me down to a 9.
>>28872781
Can you share the video?
>>28872272
4ish I guess
>>28872799
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=hoYxTQw8cB0
Here ya go. I don't know if that "m" can fuck up your experience on a desktop.
>>28872654
I know that feel all too well.
I really wish summer break didn't exist, I always used to idolize it when I was younger but now I wish it didn't exist just so that all the college students would be forced to stay on campus so I could continue building up a social life.
Instead I have fuck all to do until August 20th other than work out at the gym and sit in my room.
>>28872328
fucking thank you! watching people fucking show off their skin and go outside in teh summer is cancerous to watch cuz i cant do that
About a 6.5
played overwatch the last couple hours
have the weekend ahead
pretty comfy
>1.5
Too scared to off myself. I just want to die in my sleep.
>>28872880
>played overwatch
Fuck you do you have any idea how badly I wanna play those new games? My PC can't even run Portal 1 and I still stuck on my PS3. I really wanted to play some sweet sweet Uncharted 4 now.
>>28872924
I know those feels. I just ditched my obsolete computers and consoles and no regrets.
>>28872924
I want to play demons souls but I can't be bothered to buy a fucking PS3 just for that
I'm sitting at about a 7. The Twins won and I had a cougar hit on me
>>28872880
How is Overwatch anyway? Worth the $50 or should I wait till it goes down to $30?
>>28872272
5 maybe a 6 but really only because my fucking computer is so loud
otherwise it's good
1, daddy is trying to break down my door to take me to a facility.
I've barracaded it with everything in my room and I've wrapped myself with a blanket enjoying r9k for the last time before I'm taken awy
>>28873053
it's really good, imo it's definitely worth its current price. if you have some money to blow then get it
>>28873131
Cool man I do some to blow this weekend
>>28872272
6, watched a shitty movie and drank some booze, should go to sleep now.
>>28872272
5
Not bad as it used to be
>>28872272
7. My friends and I won the last three rounds in Overwatch, but it's already 8 am here and I really should sleep.
>>28872272
>2
I am just depressed all the time,i might get drunk later.
>>28872924
IKTF anon, but I don't care. Overwatch looks like tumblrshit, to be honest.
W-what games do you play
Could I add you on PSN since all I have is PS3 and no friends to play with anymore?
>>28872880
Whatchu main nigga
Reaper/Widowmaker here.
>>28873316
>tumblrshit
Zarya's the only one I'd consider to be tumblr. Rest is prime waifu material.
Everyone except for Symmetra. Fuck Symmetra.
>>28873364
The Korean girl is qt
I've fapped to that sfm gif many times
>>28873330
Different guy here, this one:
>>28873253
I'm mostly playing Mercy desu. Gotta get my heal on.
about a 3
I recently got suspended from college cause I'm a fucking moron and haven't told my father the truth, he thinks I'm close to an AA
There's another school I could go to but it's $72k tuition
>>28873397
Mei's pretty OP in-game, I can't play her for shit but she's unstoppable if you get her in the right hands.
Unless you're talking about D. Va, in which case she's still pretty good but I still can't play her for shit. Her ultra is fucking devastating though.
>tfw Nerf This
>>28872838
this is some solid content ty
>>28873413
Hey, if you can play it you can play it.
I have issues with playing healing characters in particular. Can't control them well and can't defend myself if some giganigga comes along to fuck me up.
>>28873481
I get about 2-4 kills per game by myself with Mercy, no idea how, her weapon does so little damage. Best one was when I almost killed a D.Va after first killing her mech suit even though she was shooting at me the whole time. (She didn't manage to kill me, she just ran away) Also love flying around the battlefield healing my teammates.
Warning:long angry/sad rant.
I'm sitting at a solid 3 right now, it's been a rough year.
>Step-father diagnosed with spinal cancer, been in and out of radiation therapy & chemo
>Alcoholic mother arrested for D.U.I., was still drunk from the night before
>Finally get a job as a wagecuck, hate 95% of my coworkers
>Get a girl to go on a date with me for the first time
>Ignores me the whole time
>Father is found dead in his apartment, painted his brains on the ceiling
>Dog I had for years dies
That's not what's bringing me down to a 2 though. It's what happened today.
>Go to graduation party with friend, maybe 10 people there
>see girl I've known for years, we've become close friends over time
>hang out in my car for a while, talk about what we want to do with our lives
>hands me her phone to show me messages she sent to her friend
>scroll up
>"anon is such a sweet guy, I just don't want to waste a high school relationship on him."
>go home
>get really high
>mfw I'm going to college 3,000 miles away from her
>mfw I will likely never see her again
2 or 3
i had a heat stroke on sunday, and ever since then an irrational fear of being alone and an irrational fear of being watched has being switching back and forth. about 3 years ago i started showing some signs of schizophrenia that i think was triggered by meth use. ive been clean over 2 years though, but ever since sunday its gotten a hell of a lot worse.
when im alone i feel like im being watched and when im talking to people (i only talk to other robots on skype) i get the feeling everyones plotting against me.
when i was in ER for that stroke sunday they tried getting me a psychiatrist appointment, which i promptly cancelled when i was released. as the weeks gone on though im not sure if i should actually go see the guy after all. i know its a guy, which is good, but im not sure i want an actual diagnoses, and im afraid of what he'd do. i dont want locked up or anything.
i just want to feel normal again.
>>28873563
That's rough ,i can relate ,my step dads more then likely gonna die soon to,my moms not doing that great either,shes kind of lost her mind.
>>28872272
3. I'm starting to get the feeling that the girl I like doesn't like me back. There's been some stuff that I won't get into, but this seems like the end. Feels bad man.
Not to mention, I always hated the weekend, so I'm already depressed about that. What makes this feeling go away?
>>28873330
im reaper/hanzo
for some fucking reason I'm way better with hanzo than wm even though he's supposed to be the shitty sniper
Probably 3 for about this whole week.
>>28873634
Whatever you do anon, stay clean. Going back to meth will only make things worse.
>>28872272
she didn't respond to my message.
>>28873719
oh i burned all those bridges long ago, if i could relapse i would have all ready.
constantly seeing shit and non stop crushing loneliness or mind shattering paranoia is killing me though. if i had meth money id honestly spend it on a cheap gun to blow my brains out with instead.
At a 3 I think. Warning for long.
> Got dumped by gf of 3 years
> mother gets cancer
> surgery coming up soon for me
> Uni decided to get really fucked up with regards to just not providing any support for disability
> diagnosed agoraphobic
> Uni got even more fucked up - possible suspension, meeting on Monday
> obsessive, rumination and agoraphobia and deepening knowledge of social defcit n that
Yep. 3.
>>28872272
She blocked me on FB probably wondering why I still care about her
>>28873764
Maybe you should go see that therapist. Not even for a diagnosis, just to have somebody to talk to.
4uniquetextarinonigger
Just got back from college yesterday. I'm finally back in Texas and it feels great! I'm back with my family and I've got all my favorite snacks and my PS4 its all pretty great, 10!
4
I'm having a good day today.
1
i pushed the person i love into depression by trying too hard to be there, and fucking up while just trying to reach out to them, they cut all contact with me today. i may have lost them forever now.
I was gonna say 2 just because I'm in the regular "I want to die" mode, but reading some of yours, I guess I'm a 4.
>>28872272
5-6
I'm not doing bad but i'm not doing great, just an average night really.
>>28872272
2
I got a D in organic chem 2. Now I have to seek departmental permission to retake it and the cocksucking professor replied with a rude email to "stop bothering him"
I'm going to print out the email and file a complaint.
Also no friends etc.
>>28874181
Oh forgot to mention that I fucking despise this major, school and all the faggot premeds that surround me. I have to force myself to interact with these autistic faggots day in day out and it's fucking soul wrecking.
Im sitting here alone at 3 am wanting to cry but no tears come out.
>>28873711
It can only get better
>>28873779
Anon just hang in there!
>>28873876
Good on ya anon!
>>28873903
why only a 4 if you are having a good deay?
>>28874026
there is no way to contact them at all?
>>28874091
yeah that mode sucks but glad to know you are better!
>>28872272
10
I just returned from a trip to the astral realm.
I've never been more at peace in my life than the last couple of days. Something changed, I don't understand it, but it's great. I'm free.
>>28874091
if you want to die you would be dead senpai
Pretty sad lmao
4/10
Im sick and a guy told me a lot of harsh words so
Anyways who cares
Hope you alllll feel better
5. I'm really tired but i'm listening to two old friends talk on skype so its cozy.
Anyone else really like to just listen to other talk?
>>28872272
7
listening to relaxing music, reading manga and eating yogurt
this suffices as the best day of the month
Has anyone here even had a 10 star day? Im trying to remember my happiest memories but even then I was always slightly distressed by something. I think the happiest Ive even been was playing world of warcraft on release.
>>28872272
iM FEELIN LIKE IT REAL NIGGA HOURS
AND U FAKEASS NIGGAS N THOTS BETTER GETCHO ASS TO SLEEP OR TAP DAT MF LIKE BUTTON
>>28872272
8/10.
I've accepted my fate, not much can make me feel bad now.
I'm not at a 10 because minor headache and other physical factors.
>>28872894
Just go to sleep, dude.
>>28873563
That sucks. Condolences.
6.5 and rising
>>28873316
My PSN ID is Vagabundo_da_Lei bro
