Will some experts on homosexuality help me? I am starting to think I may be a homosexual. This is not a shitty shitpost trap/boypussy thread, I do not like traps and never have.
My issue is that I recently made a friend in college, and he's the first real friend I've ever had. We relate on so many levels and really seem to understand each other. We share the same interests and it's awesome. But these last few days I've had random thoughts come into my head like "I wander what his dick looks like" and "I'd like to let him relax and jerk him off", but I've never felt gay before. I've been slightly aroused by dicks I see on 4chan but otherwise I'm all about women bodywise. However, I find women's "personalities" awful and I do not wish to be around them. I don't know what to do, if I'm gay or if I just have weird intrusive thoughts, or what. I don't think I could actually act on homosexual thoughts like that, and I just feel so connected to him that I almost love him in a way, but physically I don't find him attractive, I just want our souls to be together. Am I a homosexual or am I just starved for human connection?
>>28870961
>I'd like to let him relax and jerk him off
yous a fag
>>28871027
It's more of a "so I can show my appreciation for him being a good guy" thing, but also an acceptance thing, to show him I'm fully accepting of him.
Putting those feelings/thoughts into words, it sounds like a joke/troll but it's honestly true. I don't mean it in a forwardly sexual way. But this is disconcerting. Rereading my post I can see more clearly that I may be what I fear. *wonder I meant.
>>28871051
No you're fucking gay. Just suck his dick and see if you like it, retard.
>>28871051
>>28870961
Yeah probably gay, just go for it senpai.
Only way to find out is to put that dick in your mouth. Putting my money on gay though.
>>28871066
Truth be told I would find that really shameful, and I don't want a dick in my mouth much less my ass.
This is why I'm so confused?
>>28871082
But I don't even like that idea much. The most I can fathom is handjobs.
>>28871084
Dick in your mouth or ass doesn't make you gay anon, sex isn't mandatory to a relationship.
>>28871206
So I am likely a homosexual because I feel this feeling of deep attraction based only on his personality, and no physical appearance at all?
Interesting. It certainly could be true.
>>28870961
It sounds to me like you are at least a little bicurious, but you've also got a heavy dose of internalized homophobia going on, causing you to be both attracted and repulsed by the thought of being romantically/sexually intimate with him. This is actually a super-common situation for bi guys, especially those who are "mostly straight" (like 1-2 on the Kinsey scale) and who never even consider doing anything homo side until later in life when an unexpected crush hits them.
My advice, first of all, would be to stop worrying about what label to assign yourself. Maybe you're bi, maybe you're straight, maybe you're "heteroflexible"--you simply don't have enough information to go off right now, and pigeonholing yourself isn't going to make things any less confusing. Instead, get out there and explore your sexuality. Try fapping to a few different varieties of gay porn, maybe try hooking up with a couple guys, whatever. Worst case scenario: you have a couple crappy, awkward sexual experiences and determine that you're straight after all, not the end of the world.
The majority of robots are gay and just don't know it yet
>>28871811
I grew up with a very, very accepting family, and have never had any issues with homosexuals. However I've always felt an internalized disgust towards them and what they do behind closed doors, and I could never understand it really.
I'm just confused is all, and I'm pretty sure this friend of mine is 100% straight so it doesn't matter if I decide I'm bi/gay for him anyhows.
It's just a situation where I suddenly feel an intense love for him, like I could spend the whole rest of my life with him, happy with understanding each other, but at the same time I feel disgusted at myself for having any such thoughts for a man, despite never being told gay was evil or gross or shameful.
It's so bizarre.
it's not gay if it's just to help a buddy relax and feel good (it feels good to help people
relationships where one is the girl, holding hands, making love, kissing are all pretty gay
Just have some gay sex, get it out of your system, you'll put an end to the curiosity, probably discover that it ain't that great, and move on. Don't make it a lifestyle or tell anyone, well if you do tell anyone just say you're experimenting while you're young. You should eventually move on to women as you grow up and actually getting the gay curiosity out of the way now will prevent it from eating at you and breaking up a relationship later on in your life.
>>28871842
I'm starting to feel that way, too.
Like, I can't describe this, it's not even a crush. It's like that fairytale love where looks don't matter, I am not attracted to him physically in any way. I'm no repulsed but I just see no physical attraction, but I would still gladly do anything with him except buttsex. It's scary.
>>28871882
I guess so.
>>28871901
I don't want to have buttsex though, that's gross.
Guys jack off together all the time. They just dont talk about it.
Put on some porn at night and watch the magic happen.
No butt stuff tho k cus too gay.
>>28871981
That seems exploitative and sexual. And I don't even have that much of a drive to do sexual things with him. It's just this powerful love that I feel I could do sexual things with him if we got to that stage.
>>28871950
Sorry m8 you have to take it in the butt once and then also fuck his butt once, that's the only way to know. Man up and get through it.
>>28872017
I could never do butt stuff/anal. I won't even consider playing with my prostrate or whatever either. Feels too gay, and shit comes from there.
>>28871950
Most guys feel like gay=buttsex. Its not
Look up M2M, men2men its a group/movement who arent sissys or fags who ate masculin and might marry a girl but dnt mind playing with his bros, you dig? Butt stuff usually doesnt happen, they frot jo bj, which is awesome. Its very spartan. Did you like that movie?
I used to have similar crush. And I think it got very obvious because one day he asked do I have a crush on him. I just said yes and he said he likes me too. We weren't gay or dating but we were often kissing and it felt good. And when we slept on same bed we were making out and "dry humping" but never had sex. It ended when he got a girlfriend and we just drifted apart. It was the only time I kissed and did something sexual with someone. I don't care anymore I stopped yearning for human touch ages ago.
>>28872040
Well maybe you should just forget the whole thing then. Find a nice girl sitting at the library or something and start up a conversation with her. You'll be better off.
>>28872055
I haven't seen 300 but yeah spartan sounds good. That sounds like stuff I could get into, no butt stuff is good. Thanks for letting me know anon.
>>28872078
I don't like women's personalities though. I've yet to find one that doesn't repulse me.
>>28872070
That sounds nice. I'd like that life with this guy.
>>28872002
You sound very gay, not in a sexual way but just gay. Anyways nothing wrong with loving your fellow man.
And its normal to be curious of other guys dick. Guys like to compare. Its normal, natural.
>>28872135
I suppose so. Is "gay but not in a sexual way" even possible?
I don't want to get into those made up bullshit tumblr labels like "homoromantic" or whatever.
>>28871863
I hear where you're coming from, man. I felt very similar to you when I first started coming to grips with my own sexuality. I didn't consider myself homophobic at all, but as a teenager I still had this deep kneejerk aversion to the thought of gay sex. And at the same time I often found myself with this weird sorta "admiration" for certain guys, which at the time I always wrote off as a result of their personal charisma or my own envy.
As I got older I started gaining an interest in certain highly specific bits of gay porn. First it was "just" traps and feminine guys, which I easily explained away as just being interested in their feminine features. Then I found myself fantasizing about dicks, and sucking dick... even though the rest of the male body still disgusted me, as did the idea of being in a romantic and/or sexual relationship with a guy.
Then I ended up developing a bout of "admiration" for a cute guy, who turned out to be a openly gay and also interested in me. After quite a bit of waffling, I eventually took the plunge and started fooling around with him. It was very slow going at first, but once I finally started exploring my sexuality, I found myself realizing that a lot of my hangups were due to deeply-ingrained bits of subconscious homophobia that I didn't even realize I'd had, that I'd been holding on to as a kind of self-defense mechanism. Once I finally got comfortable enough to start letting go of that shit, I found myself more and more romantically/physically attracted, not just to this guy, but towards men in general.
I'm not saying your situation is definitely the same, OP... just saying you should keep in mind that we can be very good at fooling ourselves.
>>28872249
>nd at the same time I often found myself with this weird sorta "admiration" for certain guys, which at the time I always wrote off as a result of their personal charisma or my own envy.
Damn, that sounds like me my entire life.
Well based on that and the rest of your post, I think I might be bi. I do like dicks and I do want to jerk one off. I guess that's pretty gay. I'm not sure what more to say because you kind of hit home for me, in that that's exactly how I've been my whole life and it sounds like that's where I'm headed/who I am.
Thank you much anon, I'm not sure what else to say. I need to think about things I guess, but that's pretty big and hitting home hard.
Well homsexuality by definition means love for their fellow man sexually. But I think its too simple of a definition
Sodomy means buttsex, you dont have to do that to be homosexual.
Its difficult to seperate because of how ppl use the word today. It means stupid and other thing's. Look up greek or roman man love it goes into more detail.
Look up the history of homosexuality. It use to be widey accepted as normal. Imo I think it is but there's a stigma around it now. You.yourself seem to not want to be labeled it because you think.you have to be gay and do "gay things" but im guessing you like regular guy things so its confusing you.
You can love your friend and even be open to sucking his dick but you dnt have to be labeled gay. And you dnt ever have to suck his dick. Id suck my friend off if he really needed it. But thays cus hes my friend and I knw what it feels like to need it you know? I understand him as a fellow man and even more so cus im his friend.....I wouldnt do it for any guy tho....and I wouldnt marry him and it just be the two of us living like a straight couple. That would feel weird.
Idk sry if im confusing you.
>>28872373
That makes sense anon, that makes sense.
I also feel something very erotic about jerking off your friend because he needs someone else to do it for one, like that primal need, and you care enough to do it for him and let him pretend it's his dream girl or something.I really am a faggot aren't I?
>>28872307
Honestly, don't even worry about labeling yourself at this point. Terms like "bi" and "gay" have all this fucking baggage associated with them, mostly pop culture bullshit and half-remembered middle school nonsense that worms its way into your subconscious and shapes your opinions without you even realizing its there.
Just worry about exploring your own sexuality, and figuring shit out for yourself -- you'll find that even if it doesn't turn out that you're into guys, that doesn't mean you have to act or feel like a stereotype. You're still your own person and you can still decide what it means to be you.
>>28872527
True anon, true, it makes sense.
It's just hard to shrug labels off, especially with such a strong "insecurity" of sorts about being gay/bi.
But thank you for the advice. You really have been a big help.
