Who /schizoaffective/ here?
>tfw I've evolved from hallucinating white flashes of light and tracers to physical objects and people that are impossible to distinguish from reality
Psych nurse here. Every half the Dr's on my ward think schizoaffective is probably bullshit and that schizophrenia with a secondary personality disorder is more likely. But ds5 gonna dsm5
>>28859161
Then your doctors are retarded plain and simple. Schizo features of schizoaffective aren't severe enough to be classified as schizophrenia.
>>28859188
This. Schizoaffective is somewhere between schizophrenia and bipolar. (I'm the bipolar type). I do have borderline personality disorder as well though.
>>28859114
>tfw currently at white flashes of light and tracers
god damn, I don't want to be crazy :((
Does hearing voices count as hallucination?
Esecially at night when i'm walking. I hear footsteps behind me,
I also I hear people talking quietly, but nobody is there.
>>28859792
Beginning signs of schizophrenia exiting the prodromal phase.
>>28859687
White flashes of light and tracers and other visual distortions aren't always psychotic disorder indications.
I have a condition called visual snow and another called derealization/depersonalization disorder that causes those same things + more, like the dimensions of objects becoming distorted or the road undulating like water.
>>28859836
>depersonalization
I have experienced that for 1 second couple of imes in my life when I was younger, really a good feeling.
>dimensions of objects becoming distorted
when I was young, I dreamed exactly 3 times in perood of 7 years a 2 dimensional dream, also once one dimension was stretched to infinity. I woke up crying it was unbearable. I was 12yo
>>28859836
>derealization
I had something that while having a bad trip on shrooms and months after.
I felt as if no emotions were genuine, people themselves are fake, everything we do is all just an act,
basically we people are nothing. We're horrible biological machines, like enormous bacteria with sophisticated brains developed to survive and communicate.
Fucking FUCK i still get chills just thinking about that bad trip. I don't feel terrible having these feelings anymore, but they're still there. What you learn you can't unlearn.
I often see flashes of light in the night sky, even when its not raining. I'm pretty sure its distant lightening but I have no one to ask if they can see it or not so I don't know if it's only me.
>physical objects and people that are impossible to distinguish from reality
It's time to make a tulpa.
http://www.tulpa.info/
>>28859929
>A good feeling
Months long episodes where you don't recognize yourself in the mirror and feel alien are not good feelings lad.
>>28859955
That's really derealization but it sounds awful nonetheless.
>>28859955
>horrible biological machines, like enormous bacteria with sophisticated brains developed to survive and communicate.
But that's EXACTLY what humans are.
>>28859991
well, I experienced for that one second, that I was a whole universe, everyy humab beeing, everything, maybe there is a better term fot that. would really love to experience it again
>>28859836
I have self diagnosed myself with depersonilaztion disorder only because im too stingy about apending money on a psych visit. I have these feelings like something isn't quite real with reality sort of like im hyper aware of reality and it feels really strange like I shouldn't be existing. Used to cause anxiety but I just sort of pull myself back to reality and tell myself everything will be ok your not crazy. Is this what depersonilzation is or should I get checked?
>>28860102
That's derealization, and it doesn't matter if you get checked because there is no treatment for it. Either you're capable of "pulling yourself out" of it, or you're not and you deal with the anxiety somehow.
If you have those feelings on a regular basis without a trigger then it's probably the disorder, but again: no treatment.
>>28860102
this, sometimes i'll space out extremely hard and feel like i don't exit, the universe is just existing around me
I can't pull myself back in when it happens and usually the only way to come back is to change the scenery(such as taking a 20 minute drive) etc
>>28860154
Ok good. It only happens in medium to large social situations. Sometimes a one on one situation if its stressful.
>>28860154
Different anon here. Sometimes I feel as though the world or myself has changed somehow, but it's not an anxiety-producing experience. It's actually quite serene (whereas usually I am quite anxious). And sometimes, halfway through a conversation, I realise I have no idea what has happened for the past two minutes, I have just been nodding and saying "Yes" (at appropriate times) while the other person was speaking. Are these signs of a dissociative disorder, or is it normal?
>>28860031
>But that's EXACTLY what humans are.
Yes, and I did "sort of" think that before i had a bad trip, I just didn't have a connection in my brain with this thought and anxiety/disgust. After the bad trip, I do.
Now, I believe we humans shouldn't really exist and if i had the power or ability to wipe out all the humanity including me, my family and my friends, believe me, I would do it.
>>28860228
>Usually I am quite anxious
>Middle of conversation
You use disassociation as a coping mechanism for anxiety. It's completely normal and you don't have a disorder besides the anxiety.
Try ketamine (or DXM if you're a poorfag and don't know how to get ketamine). If dissociation feels good to you then this should help greatly.
>>28859114
I see white flashes of light too anon, sometimes bright green/blue, sometimes electric blue, sometimes when im stressed its neon red.. see shapes and ripples in the corner of my eye
aside from that im dissociated and it makes me fucking stupid and people eventually pick up on it wherever I go and I get made fun of
Im schizoid and bipolar. I don't hallucinate, unless you count hypnagogic hallucinations or sleepwalking.
>>28860292
Sometimes it happens when I am not feeling anxious, though. Such as in that conversation - I don't feel anxiety when I'm socialising; I guess because I have something to concentrate on (I think I have ADHD).
I like ketamine, but I don't think it would be useful as a functional drug to deal with anxiety if that's what you're suggesting. I've tried socialising while ketted and I couldn't speak properly. I sounded like a complete sperg.
>>28860365
Well maybe there's more to it then. Doesn't sound like a dissociative disorder to me. Maybe used as a coping mechanism and maybe you're just more prone to natural dissociation like daydreaming. It's not uncommon for people to "space out" during conversations or driving. Happens all the time and there's nothing pathological about it.
Having been through the mental health systems of this country, I just wanted to thank any mental health workers here. It baffles me that some people don't take these things seriously.
Also on a side note, Schizophrenia scares me
