Hi, /r9k/.
I lurked here I tiny bit when I was younger because it seemed interesting, but I didn't really feel like I related because I was too naive to know what a NEET was. I was a school kid who enjoyed /b/ and memes and porn. What kind of people hang out here?
tl;dr: Greentext your current life situation and describe what draws you to /r9k/
>failing university student
>should be finished by now but i literally don't study and scrape by where possible
>basically a NEET under the guise of being a student
>fucked out completely this semester
>have about a month to get a job before i am unable to get student loan money to pay rent
>wake up everyday after midday and do nothing but play league of legends/skyrim and fuck around on duolingo
>i'm not even challenger
>tried to doublethink myself that i had ambition but in reality i really don't give a shit about anything
>haven't had sex in 3 years
>diet consists of pizza and mountain dew
>"redpilled" from /pol/ and hate going outside because everything is degenerate and/or a jewish conspiracy
>everything seems shit, but at least I just rolled dubs
Additional question, am I a failed normie or a cyborg? How does this shit work?
>>28857276
cyborgs are fake robots
failed normies are extroverts that are shunned away because of their crippling autism
you are failed normie, and i gotta say you are hopeless at this point. welcome to r9k
>>28857348
I see. Ugh. Would it be a regression or progression to go from failed normie to full-blown robot?
>>28857276
>Not having Very High on avoidant.
Why must i suffer alone
>>28857799
It all depends on how you look at it. I made the transition.
>>28858089
Are you happier for it? Have you accepted yourself?
>severe medication resistant MDD
>on and off suicidal for several years, come close to it many times
>polydrug abuser
>NEET for almost a year
At least right now I'm in a phase of not giving a shit about anything to the point where I don't even want to die right now.
>two trips to the psych ward so far this year
>>28858225
What happened at the psych ward? I've thought about committing myself but I feel like they'd just put me on drugs and put a black mark by my name in a file somewhere. I've been depressed since I was 17, tried antidepressants for a few months but went off them because I thought they were fucked. Fuck medication.
>>28858287
First time at the psych ward was actually kind of comfy. People were mostly nice, though one bitch got me really, really mad.
Second go around was different. The first 14 days there I probably declined more than I improved. There were a bunch of shitbags there, and conflict exploded several times. I dived in headfirst because I'm a self righteous faggot who felt like defending someone who was defenseless. Eventually, those assholes left, nicer people showed up, and things got a bit better.
It's really all completely down to the quality of the hospital and the quality of the other patients.
They can't force meds on you unless you're an immediate threat to yourself or others, and hospital stays are entirely confidential. If you're involuntary, you can't buy a gun, but I don't think there are many other repercussions.
I'm guessing they tried SSRI's with you, which are fucking bullshit. But there are other med options. Celexa and Zoloft got me nowhere, but Wellbutrin helps at least a little bit.
>>28858349
14 days? Fucking hell. What caused you to go to there?
Yep SSRI's. I just hated the fact I was being medicated. It pissed me off.
>>28858644
14 days? Motherfucker I was there for 20, I was just saying that the first two weeks were the shitty part. I was there for drug abuse/overdose, severe depression, and suicidal ideation. I finally found a med cocktail which works alright for me. Wellbutrin for depression, Seroquel to help with depression and anxiety (I take much less than I'm prescribed so that I'm not half asleep 24/7, and gabapentin as a mood stabilizer. I was also prescribed lithium, but that was basically just a test run, and I got off it, which the prescribing doctor said would be fine. I've also got trazadone, hydroxyzine, Benadryl, and clonidine as needed.
