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Hello, dear robots. I have so much to tell.First of all im 24 years old. I just dont have with who else to talk about it. I have so much problems bothering me. Mental problems. I dont even know how it all started, i remember i was so happy kid in my childhood without any problems. But everything changed when i hit puberty. I was world of warcraft no lifer all the time. I was playing since 2008 until 2016. I stoped playing it couple of months back. I just dont feel fun any more while playing it. When i was young WoW was such a comfy game. In that game i was someone that i couldnt become in reality (not physicaly). In WoW i was strong, confident, communicable. In that game i made so many virtual friends. In my skype is 90% people is from world of warcraft. While i was in school 1-10 grade i had many friends irl, i knew everyone in my school and i was friend almost with everyone. But everything, my whole life, my whole understanding changed in high school....
In high school i was around people that i dont know. I was shy and never talked to them( i always was shy, but most of my friends was from childhood). After couple of weeks they started caling me names, they find out im virgin, they was laughting at me everyday for that. When they bullied me that effected me a lot, but when they find out that im virgin, i thougth i will freak out. Every time someone called me virgin i felt dizzy inside my head. I couldnt understand a shit what was going around me at that time. I though that was a nightmare, i just couldnt accept that was reality. Any way, after 1 year i changed school wich had good name, there was tolerante people, but still i didnt made a single friend. If i was going at first to school with better name, i could find some friends. But that bullying in shitty school destroyed me. I never imagined that could happen to me. Since that time im so much more closed person and i need much moret time to get along with someone than i needed in childhood. 1/2or3
>>28836262
you sound stupid
original
Cool story bro.
Big fucking deal, you have depression crawling in your skin and wounds that will never heal, now just put on a brave face and worship Pepe.
>>28836262
WoW destroys another youth. When will Blizzard pay for their crime of destroying an entire generation?
>>28836303
>>28836364
Ignore these anons OP, ill listen to your story
OP here.
Any way i finished high school and i was happy atleast no1 bullied me again. I finished school with shitty shitty grades. So aftwr high school i had to work shit-jobs.
Now a little bit about my feelings being virgin. When i was teenager i didnt care about it much. I always was in good mode while playing world of warcraft and i thougth w/e im handsome and have good genetics, some hot girl will come and take me ( i was so fcking wrong). I was thinking like that until i was bullied. While bullied i was only deppresive about it, becouse i knew i couldnt get some pussy. I was only confident while i was playing WoW, while playing WoW i was thinking how could i afraid of such a little things, rly that game was like a DRUG to me and i was pretty good at it, atleast better than 90% people. After highschool i didnt care any more. I became normie, i still didnt have many friends, but i was more social with co-workers (only if they were males). I rly enjoyed life then, atleast i had some money, i bough car, i bougth clothes and food what ever i wanted. My parents was kinda plebs, they always said i dont know anything and i will never be someone special, they said im not smart and its waste of time for me going to college, they wouldnt pay for my college any way. But i didnt care much about that. I love my parents who ever they are even if they piss me off sometimes. And i didnt rly gave a fuck about my virginity anymore.I was indeed happy. I uploaded my picture in some forum for rate. Girls rated me 7-10. Picture was pretty good, my acne was invisible in that picture.
Like 1 year ago i find this forum.... I found r9k, i never posted here before, but i loved reading stories on here, becouse i related so many things with others r9k's. And 1 month ago i found out about Elliot Rodger manifesto..... I never liked reading, but i read that manifesto twice..... That effected me so deep... 2/3
>>28836382
>implying their lives would be better without Wow, they'd just be even more depressed, at least WoW offers some kind of socialising and dailies give them a reason to wake up in the morning.
OP here.
>>28836303
Sry for my english. I know its bad, im from eastern europe.
Reading Elliot manifesto, i thougth i was reading my own life history, expect i didnt have rich ass mother fucking parents who could buy me new BMW, armani clothes and invite in partys with hollywood stars. before finding Ellio manifesto i saw some pictures of him here. I didnt knew who is he. He is rly good looking. I thougth its some Chad trolling this whole forum.
Last few weeks i started paying attention at other young people. And when i say young man talking with other young and hot girls that i would gladly date, that piss me off. There is 2 blondes in my job. I find them very hot. Ofc im fucking shy. I never talk to them, they are also my bosses. We are not on same level. But i saw one of my co-workers talking to them. That effected me.... I was so bloody jelous. I know they would talk to me the way they talk to him. Im good looking, i guess.... When i go to store i always find atleast 1 girl cheking me out. But not the last few weeks. That manifesto destroyed me it changed my whole point of view in existence of my self. Im so much thinking about it. Elliot was 22 yo old viring and he did such a terrible thing, killing 6 peoples and his self... I couldnt kill my self like that... yet. And i didnt gave a fuck until 24 yo old that im virgin. Whole that time i expected some gilr to come and take me. I will not lie, i had oportonities, i had 1 girl in high school who had crush on me even if i was shy quite kiddo. But i didnt rly liked her, she wasnt my style. She was shy and quite just like me. I never wanted shy girl. Any way, now im thinking about it every fucking hour that im 24 years old virgin.... I feel tired all the time last few weeks. idk becouse i stoped playing that stupid game or becouse i read that manifesto wich makes me think a lot about my life (even if i was thinking a lot about my life and before reading that manifesto). 3/4.
>>28836487
>implying their depression and inability to find motivation dont stem directly from wow
OP here.
I can see in the mirror how tired my eyes are even if i sleep enough of time. Yessterday i though what if i kill my self? will that hurt? will someone give a fuck about me? I though if i will do it i will do it quitely and not painfull. Ill over does medicaments or smth like that. In the past i was afraid even thinking about suicide, but now i think that might be a good idea to finish everything... And if i will keep being virgin more couple of years, i will fucking do it. But before that, i wanna try my best, to change my life in better. i will start lifting, i will clear my fucking acne, thx god atleast i dont have these deep acne scars... I have scars , but only those little red dots. But what i need to change, is my mental state. How to become more confident. Inside i feel like same shy hid, when i was 7 years old and i was so inlove with my 18years old neighbor that i was even afraid to rise my eyes up while she looks at me. In job i cant have a single conversation with those 2 hot blondes. I feel so retarded when talking with girl. I dont know how to flirst, i dont know how to act in that situations. I know if i were confident , i would get a lot of puss puss. But alone by my self i just cant overcome that anxiety of talking with girl. I just dont know why i have that anxiety. I only have 1 bad expeirence with girls. I was walking from store and 2 ugly chicks started screeming when they saw me. They talked to me like "where you going" "where are you living" "what are yuou going to do" but i knew they wasnt talking with me becouse they were friendly... Any way, they called me words later like "faggot" "idiot" and so on. I was only 10 years old and i was shy before that.
I had opotunities with girls in past. I had few situations when girls out of blue come and talk to me, but this times they were rly friendly. That all happened when i was +18yo old. Some of them asked me number and planed to go on date with me, but i refused it becouse of pussyout.4/5
i didnt knew on with that gilr on date becouse of reasons like "where will i go with her" "what will i talk with her" "when she will be my gf i will not bring her at home, bcz i live with parents and i dint wanted my parents to know" i know that is most stupid reasons, but i was rly autistic... I dont know how to outcome that shyness. I want to be normal. Right now im still shy, but i pretend like im mysterious. Im always silent, i talk only with few people from my job. This is shitty job, so people are also shitty, same level like in high school when i was bullied. But they dont mess with me, they are afraid of me lmao. They sometimes start ass licking trying to make friends with me, but im not going deep into conversations, becouse i know that wont last long becouse i have nothing achieved in my life. There is 3 girls in my job who shows obviosu attention to me. One of them is my boss, she never tells me to do hard work, she never blames me for my mistakes in job, she blames others instead, she nervous when she talk to me. She is like 6/10, so im not that shy around her. Other girl is 8/10, but she have bf, i can tell she attracted into me, becouse she aklways staring at me, shes blushing when i see her staring at me, when she talks and she see me coming she stops talking. I act cold about that and that's probably why is she attracted. But if she start talking with me trying to know me better, i would probably turn her off badly because of my boring life style.
Im beging you guys, i know some of you have gf's and expierence with girls and not only robots are on r9k. im beging you tell me how to overcome this shyness, what steps should i do? pls dont leave me.
i dont want to die virgin.
>>28837180
5/5
oorriiggiinnaall
I read all of that. All i have to say is that you should consider yourself lucky that you are good looking. That fixes most of your problems. As for the shyness, i don't know. Perhaps just try? Also try dating apps. Dont kill yourself, you have more opportunites than most of us can dream of.
>>28837267
i remember few years ago when i smiled to girl and she looked at me with disgust, and before smiling i could feel anxiety running though my veins. So what will happen if i will start talking to girl by my self? i will probably die. and im not rly good looking in pictures cuz of my fucking acne. I dont even know why some girls likes me.
>>28837353
I don't know, but read more here. This isn't the best place to ask for advices on girls
>>28837180
The best advice I can give you is not to willingly search for someone, but just let it happen.
>>28837397
that's what im doing. My main goal is not to get gf and have sex. I just want to overcome this shyness. I feel like being traped and somewhere, but i cant get out.
>>28836262
Try pickup. I used mystery method and rsdnation stuff (yt vids were really good from 2013). I invested a lot of time doing pickup, hanging out with rrtards and cool guys from pickup forums, forced myself to go out, did a lot of approaches. Maybe total over 2000. Starting from age 21 to now 25. I know guys with much better results but I take what I can get. Had sex with 5 different girls, now having gf for 8 months, previously had gf for 6 months until she broke up with me. It's all during that period. Before I was total loser. Right now feels meh, stagnating a bit, when doing pickup I feel like a boss tho
I have a similar story to OP's, when I was in elementary school all would do is either play video games or watch star trek. Some of my friends tried skyping me but I always denied to play vidya. I wondered why no one really paid attention to me. When I want to high-school I want to one of the more out there ones, only 3 out of the some 100 kids from my elementary school went to it. In high school I had a chance to become reborn. I still played as much vidya as I did but I actually talked to people, this resulted in friends ships amongst people
>>28837180
>Im beging you guys, i know some of you have gf's and expierence with girls and not only robots are on r9k. im beging you tell me how to overcome this shyness, what steps should i do? pls dont leave me.
>attractive
>failed at life
well mate just bee urself is a good advice for you.
start by talking about movies or other shit stacey likes.
do not try too hard and make her do the talking.
well what should i know? i am a ugly skinny bastard that cannot talk to girls.
you come here moaning about your life being shit when you are attractive and have people that want you.
well i am not soo lucky.
>>28837597
Well, these all pick up lines sound cool when its in english. and i know its really popular to approciate girls like that, but here where i live no1 speaks enlgish (eastern europe) and we dont have such a cool pick up lines in our lenguage, ofc i can translate it, but if i talk to someone like that in my lenguage, they will think that im serious retarded.
>>28837709
im not that attractive, im also skinny. only 71kg on 188cm, im living skeleton. And my face have rly a lot of scars and acne, i really cant imagine, why these girls like me. My face skin is worse than 99% of people i see.
>>28838051
/fit/ + accutane
You have shitty genes but your ancestors managed to find a woman and impregnate her since literally the beginning of humanity. Think about that.
>>28837557
go with hookers if its just about sex.
>>28838728
that wont change anything.
Where from east europe are you? For some reason I could tell, because I am too.
>>28838051
I told u the best advice and told the truth because you were begging man. Fuck you.
