Do you ever get over childhood abuse?
>>28830310
Meh. I've stayed jumpy, can't let people touch me on the back, shoulder, or neck, but other than that it's alright.
I have mild agression issues, but nothing debilitating.
That was 15 years ago mind you.
>>28830346
For me I avoid people, even my family.
Also things like yelling in the house really get me extremely anxious and sad. I can't stand it.
>>28830433
me too senpai. Same thing. Stuff especially like slamming doors or loud footsteps get me goin real bad.
>>28830310
no
you develop it into odd mannerims PTSD and fetishes until you die
>>28830481
Do you have any other issues? I'm a disgusting pervert and I have trouble controlling my sexuality. I also have fuzzy memory in general, and no self confidence. I've given up hope on ever socializing like a normal person, but I at least want to believe I'm not a completely worthless, idiotic piece of shit...
>>28830526
Yeah but where are you getting that from?
>>28830526
yeah but the resulting fetishes are super-fun
>>28830549
from being a victim of childhood neglect, bullying and abuse
>>28830599
How old are you?
I'm 26.
>>28830310
honestly I think you just get more aware of it, I would see a doctor and see if he could prescribe you steroids to up your testosterone. the stress turns your test to estro
>>28830621
I'm >>28830632
I'm 25
>>28830581
I like you, Rick-poster.
But sometimes your posts lack impact, which is why you get ignored a lot.
>>28830549
>I'm a disgusting pervert and I have trouble controlling my sexuality
Yeah me too I have fapped to pretty much every fetish imaginable. And I even kissed my dad's most recent gf for some reason like 6 months ago. idk why I did that. It was fucked up. I also feel like I'm bi or gay sometimes but idk I'm just all kinds of fucked
>I also have fuzzy memory in general
yup I hardly remember shit. I especially don't remember anything before I was like 10-11 years old. Honestly I don't know what kind of abuse I went through, but I would break down and cry a lot in school and stuff.
>given up hope on ever socializing like a normal person, but I at least want to believe I'm not a completely worthless, idiotic piece of shit...
Self loathing masochist, yeah me too.
I also talk to myself and have suicidal thoughts that come and go.
>>28830673
I dont care too much. Its just nice to say things.
thanks though
>>28830687
I talk to myself too. It's more thinking out loud than anything though. I also have periods of depression. 2014 was really bad and I almost killed myself.
>>28830650
>>28830632
I'd rather not take anything like that.
>>28830741
your hormones may be off balance
http://www.wikihow.com/Balance-Hormones
>>28830621
same
>tfw im trying to block out thoughts and images
>>28830847
Proof that is a symptom of past abuse where?
>>28830850
I'm usually pretty good at it, but then something will remind me. This time it was those vocaroos that robots recorded of their parents yelling a them. I felt like crying...
Never. There's always a new victim.justkiddingjanniespls dontb8I'mtoolazytogetanewIPrightnowshit
>>28831043
This is why I know I can't have kids. Any girls I've convinced to talk to me see how unstable I am and go running for the hills.
>>28830481
>>28830433
these
When i was at my worst something like dropping/ having something slip out of my hand two feet from the ground would send shivers throughout my body and id feel metaphysical daggers stab into my flesh from the jolt of my nerves making me feel super anxious. Then id realize it was only a cup or a wallet or a bag dropping to the ground and id feel disturbed and upset that that made me go back into a trauma state
>>28830310
How severe abuse are we talking here?
Not sure if I belong itt since ya'll probably had much worse.
I never really thought about it until I read a pamphlet at uni about emotional abuse and realized that my dad did a lot of that stuff.
I still don't consider myself an abuse victim, but I am socially retarded because of it and sometimes comfy animu is the only thing that keeps me from being a paranoid nervous-wreck.
Haven't yet at 22. I do however have fantasies of being molested again by different men and getting treated like a little fucksleeve cunt.
I suppose it just depends on how good you are at blocking out memories.
I for instance, have forgotten so much of my childhood that there's basically not enough left to hurt me. I still have terrible anxiety, I hate speaking to anybody I don't know, even gas station clerks and people at the drive-thru, and just about anything unexpected will scare me out of my skin, so in some ways you are never the same.
>tfw raped repeatedly by family member when i was 5-7
>hes in jail now
>parents think ive forgotten everything
>i remember it all
would get help for my issues but if somehow they found out i remember theyd be crushed, like they failed as parents
>>28830310
>IIT what happens if pedophillia was accepted
>>28830310
no
I'll do it until I die
>>28834472
I wasn't sexually abused though.
>>28830346
This. It takes YEARS but eventually yeah you become alright. It also depends on what kind of life youre living now.. if youve managed to get away from that type of lifestyle and have created something better for yourself as an adult then on some days you will actually find yourself to be quite happy and enjoying life. Took me 10years, keep your head up anon
>>28830433
Yes this
Original ravioli
Medicated as I currently am, I stand a good chance at a normal life but I will never be clear from the effects of it, I have a lot of personality quirks and I dissociate constantly even when I am not stressed.
But if I was not on meds I would be FUCKED
>>28836033
Did it ever get better for you, or just worse?
>>28836060
What did you get diagnosed with?
