Who here /apathetic/
>don't care about my degree grades and dont give a shit about my future
>given up on finding a gf and dont want one any more
>Lifting but no desire to really improve, I just do it out of habit
>relative I loved died and I felt nothing
I just feel nothing, not even sadness. I just accept that I am a useless, dysfunctional retard. How do I escape this limbo when I don't even care about myself enough to clean myself.
Not even sure if I am completely apathetic since I still slightly hate my guts
sorry for the blog post
I know this feel. Although, some days I'm full of energy and I feel like I could go out and kick ass, but I have no dreams or ambition. Sometimes I wish I could get mugged or something so I could feel like I'm alive.
>>28826497
This is my life. I'm not sure what I'm going to do anymore. The only thing I have going for me are my programming skills, but I just can't give a fuck about completing college. I figure there's a chance I'll be able to find work even without a degree, but if that doesn't happen, I'll probably just kill myself.
Yep
But I'm apathetic until it's too late and then I suddenly care and wonder why I didn't do so and so when I had the chance
>>28826696
>But I'm apathetic until it's too late and then I suddenly care and wonder why I didn't do so and so when I had the chance
Literally every time just hours before an exam, fucks sake
>relative I loved died and I felt nothing
I kinda know this feel. Cousin of mine (he was chad) died in a crash a few months ago. First time a family member ever died in my life. I always imagined a family member passing away as this horrid and tragic experience, but it ended up not affecting me that much and I ended up forgetting about it pretty quickly. Am I fucked up? /blog
Yeah I feel ya OP.
Ive just accepted that Im a shitbag, the bummy type our moms would make fun of.
No future, no career, no gf, no kids, no wife. Just a fucking manchild.
Since I have nothing to loose I wish I could say fuck all and dedicate myself to a life dedicating cause I also want to die violently so I fantasize about flyin over to fight ISIS, or get involved in the war in Ukraine. Or die in a shootout in a bank robbery with some other robots idk
But it sucks being a fucking nobody everyday.
>>28826497
Yep add/adhd is real
>>28826793
depends on how much you interacted with that family member, also the way your family reacted to it
>>28827123
Didn't know him all that much, but I somewhat admired him. It tore up my extended family pretty bad, shit was rough. I just felt nothing while the rest of them were destroyed emotionally.
Same here, i got fired and i stopped exercise, gained 30kgs over half a year, i just lay inside everyday feeling nothing
>>28826497
>relative I loved died and I felt nothing
wow thats tought man, was it your grandma or your dog?
>>28826980
>I also want to die violently so I fantasize about flyin over to fight ISIS, or get involved in the war in Ukraine. Or die in a shootout in a bank robbery with some other robots
I don't know if it really is that common but it feels like almost everyone on this board that is apathetic has this wish to die in a shootout. I also have it and I have no clue why.
>>28826497
I'm sort of /nihilist/ in some ways. Just saving up money, working and saving more. Year by year the money pile grows and I do nothing with it. Still live with my parents but I feel no incentive to leave and I'm pretty sure it wouldn't matter if I had double what I have now or made twice. Because then I'd just save more.
Nothing is wrong, I'm comfortable enough. But I am pretty apathetic about 'moving forward' in life. Because that costs money...and I've been focused on saving it.
>26
> $40,000 to my name and growing
Not asking for pity, I know many people have it much worse than me. I'm just stuck in life.
>>28826497
If you're posting about your dead relative, maybe you do feel something
>>28827588
Probably because we play too much vidya desu
