Why am I so fucking stupid /r9k/
Everytime I try to do math I just can't do it or get it wrong. I hate myself for being such a fucking stupid idiot. I'm going back to Uni after dropping out two years ago for mental health shit (psych wards, homelessnes, etc) but I feel like I'm just gonna fuck it all up again.
Example, Art of Electronics: Prove R = R1 + R2
I'm incapable of critical thinking. I'm a monkey. Give me the formula I punch it in do the calculation and call it a day. Same thing goes for all aspects of my life. I'm a hack guitarist who plays classical nit bits from tablature. I'm a shit tier painter who makes up for his inability to shade and paint properly with vibrant colors and semi-abstract designs. What am I so afraid of? I don't have any friends. I won't have any. I don't know how to have any.
Should I just kill myself at this point? I used to attention whore without actually realizing what I was doing because I believed the lie, then it all came crashing down when I realized it. I'm just a big airheaded retard. There is no future for me. Should I drop out again? Or just bite the bullet?
Can I at least get a (you) or a "Wow OP you really are a pathetic faggot"
can I at least have that.
>>28826439
have you tried talking to tutors? my uni has free tutoring for some subjects.
>>28826439
Just practice, f.am
Put confidence in yourself and learn to accept that you're a complex person whose talented in some fields but lacking in others, like every human being on Earth.
I suck at advanced math, I can do basic everyday math easily without a calculator but higher concepts fail to stick with me. Does that mean I'm a piece of shit? No, it just means I probably won't be an engineer.
>>28826439
Life isn't fun when you're stupid and don't have anything to compensate for it. I'm ugly and stupid and tired of being around people, so I'm just going to kill myself soon, I think.
>>28826832
>tfw 27 and still no idea what I'm good at
Some people just aren't meant to be anything but barely average
Are you good at absolutely anything?
If not, have you practiced? Like actually sat down, and practiced for months?