>>28813176
>I use swearwords sometimes
>I gave in to using the -fag suffix
>I'm at times convinced to greentext

>>28813176
>never had a gf
>dedicate wife fucker; fucked 50+ wives and counting
>can't get hired to do a trial run to prove being capable of the jew succ

>>28813176
>can't even begin to describe myself

>26
>asian
>5'4 manlet
>100 lbs.
>ugly
>balding
>ESL
>KHV
>high school dropout
>friendless
>jobless
>have severe anxiety and depression
>chronic fatigue

>emotionally/mentally abused by narcissist father entire life
>self worth 0%
>diagnosed with severe social anxiety, panic attack disorder
>too afraid to see psychiatrist alone, had to take my mom in with me and she did half the talking for me
>can't answer the phone, the front door without sweating and panicking
>never leave the house, only if absolutely necessary
>anxiety is getting worse, not better. paranoid all the time, think people will attack me or try to rob my house
>been fat all my life (food addiction, can't stop binge eating)
I have lost 70 lbs and am at a normal weight now, but my self worth didn't increase

>never worked a job in my life, dropped out of high school my final year
>just got diagnosed with crohn's disease
>not really any enjoyment in my life, just hatred and bitterness
>no friends, no gf
>too pussy to kill myself

All I do is walk my dog and save my NEETbux and play vidya/watch movies. I'm very thankful that my psych helped me get the bux, but I'm so afraid of everything I just save as much as I can in case I need to help my mother with bills or whatever. I'll probably kill myself before spending any.