Feels thread. Get in here and share your feels, robots.
>tfw will never have a phone/Skype call with a girl that makes me feel warm
>tfw will never have a girl to hangout with again
>tfw spent entire senior year barely interacting with girls
I'm destined to be alone. I swear to god I am.
Tfw never had a gf
Tfw my entire life no girl ever liked me
Tfw will never kiss a girl
Tfw why would a girl choose me when I have nothing good going for me
Tfw will die alone and bitter
>tfw no girl will ever take laxatives and go on a special diet just so she can shit for you
>tfw no girl will ever say to you; "what's mine is yours..tee hee"
>tfw no girl will ever fill the toilet bowl up for you and look longinly into your eyes because you're not a chad
girls will literally shit themselves just to pleasure chad
http://www.pornplaying.com/video/132213/Drunk_Girl_Taking_A_Huge_Shit/
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>20 years of age
> no car/liscence/permit
> washed my passport on accident so now no form of I.d
>never been employed
>have one eye
>failed out of community college bc autistic
>mom now needs help paying bills bc she is sick and in/out of hospital
I'm so fucking stressed and all of the 18-19 year olds are waaaaay ahead of me
tfw no friends
tfw failed a class last semester
tfw abusive parents
tfw nobody cares
i just want a friend
>tfw got three hugs from a cute junkie with HIV who stole $200 from me last August and I'll probably never see her again
>tfw watching people relapse
>tfw only emotionally attracted to batshit insane people (BPD in particular)
>tfw nine different pill bottles sitting on my table
>tfw spent 30 days in inpatient settings and 10 in outpatient settings so far this year
>tfw missing the girl who smoked too much spice and fried her brain, who talked shit to people right in their faces, and just sort of danced around occasionally free styling out of nowhere
>tfw watching the girl who ended up in the hospital the same day as you attempting to hang herself and then trying to escape
>tfw never going to stop wanting drugs
>tfw the depression seeps back in no matter what
>tfw thinking about the girl who I talked to online and how I fucked it up
At least it's been interesting I guess
>>28804242
id love to push her face into that bowl
or she can push mine in and id eat every last ounce of her pile of shit
>>28804465
>>tfw only emotionally attracted to batshit insane people (BPD in particular)
You poor bastard, why anon?
I've dated two girls with BPD, the most stressful times of my life,
>>28804465
Did you just post the HIV junkie thing in a thread about making friends?
>>28804496
Probably. I'm an annoying faggot and whenever I get out of the hospital I basically shitpost what happened a few times.
>>28804494
I think it's about ferocity of the emotional highs and lows.
>>28803816
I just started getting close with a guy I met on POF, we only talked online so far. It said his town was decently close by, but he didn't specify that he's in the marines and thousands of miles away. He's visiting this week for two days and I don't know if I should get close with him, because it'll only break my heart more. I'll just miss him more. He's coming home for good in five months but jfc that's a long time, it'll be October by then. It would be weird being in a long distance relationship with someone I only met once or twice, he'd have to ask me out over Skype or something. I do like him a lot and coincidentally we have some mutual friends...not that I stalked his facebook or anything.
I busted out laughing when I saw the shirt
>tfw family won't pay for a good university so I have no means of escaping the wagecuck cycle and fucking off to the mountains to live as a hermit
>tfw have to spend every day around a family of histrionics pretending to appreciate all the shit they give you
>tfw any attempt to dissuade them from dumping money/attention on you sounds to them like depression or a mental disorder.
Hate.
Hate.
>>28804494
>>28804537
>that feeling when you have borderline personality disorder (diagnosed by psychiatrist)
>that feelio when you know what a piece of shit you really are
there's good in me but its snuffed out by all the bad. its like our emotions are either on or off. ive done so many horrible things in my life but almost everyone that knows me doesn't know all the horrible deeds ive committed.
things like low empathy and fits of rage are what make it possible.
I can't stop fucking men.
>>28804618
For me for some reason the emotional highs are just so fucking intoxicating that I can't even think about the bad shit most of the time.
>reinstall tinder during drunken episode
>swiping right on everyone in a 100 mile radius
>no matches
End my life
>>28804605
>in the marines
>tfw no gf to send me home made care packages with a love note and some snacks
Anon if you do date him then send him ketchup packets from fast food, maybe some Taco Bell sauces too. Don't send generic shit like toothpaste
>>28804618
>>that feelio when you know what a piece of shit you really are
my last gf said this. I generally didn't blame her for what she did, because it's not her fault she has BPD, and tried to assure her that I didn't think she was a piece of shit (I didn't), but after a certain point I just couldn't handle it anymore, she would be purposefully cold and mean when I needed emotional support the most, and whenever I tried to help and support her emotionally, it was always wrong, and she would tell me to kill myself, and I broke and had to break up with her.
I have went my entire life just feeling like an observer, I watch others do things but never do anything myself. Finished high school two years ago but havent done anything at all since, just letting the days go by.
>>28804798
Keep on observing.. that's what we do best.
>>28804700
yeah. i hurt everyone around me so i refuse to enter another relationship ever. i know i'll lose control because i always do.
>>28804900
Have you tried cbt?
>>28805009
its pretty useless senpai. even my psychologist has given up on it. autistic brains dont respond to most psyche treatment.
I've always been depressed. I thought more friends and a relationship would solve it, but it was still there. Been happier lately, though. The truth is you only have yourself.
>>28805243
whatever little boy
>>28805295
who u callin lil
Everybody around me always seems to be doing better than me. I have a semi hard job, but no degree and I make 45k a year. My friends all graduated and make over that with more potential. I always feel like a failure, even though I somewhat like my life. It's other people who make me feel bad about myself, I can't help it
>play multiple instruments
>try to record music using more than one
>have to record each track separately, then try to get them timed up together
>would be much easier with a band
>no friends to be in a band with
why
>>28803816
Brother is having a birthday party in a few days, hes inviting his friends and a girl, the girl is suicidal and i talked to her on kikebook trying to hit on her
Now shes going to show up and see how terrible i really am in person, just cuck my shit up i might just get drunk and hide in my room
>>28805476
Where do you live? I play music some
>>28805528
In a dumb Mill town outside of Boston. Just keep in mind that I'm a poorfag college student with no gear besides a usb mic and audacity
>>28803816
I stopped reading manga temporarilly because I get fucking depressed by the thought of never having a 2D gf
>>28806006
Iktf, at this point I want my waifu more than an irl gf. I gotta get back into lucid dreaming
>tfw 31 wizard
>tfw you've had an offer for sex
>tfw you don't take it because the girl raises a lot of red flags
>>28806022
At least you have a waifu senpai.
I simply get this sad feeling in my chest when I see romance in manga/anime. It's not healthy and I'm even starting to feel jealousy over 2D chinese cartoons.
>>28803816
>tfw face is covered with moles, freckles and acne scars
my skin is by far my worst feature
I will just post what I posted in the other thread
I have a girlfriend, a side girl, I finished my novel and even though I have a job that pays me little, I pretty much don't do anything in there. I'm not happy, but, I think I can be.
Pretty much tbqhfm
>27 years old
>completed BA in prof writing with honours
>working dead end retail job running night shifts
>live in shitty rental that is literally falling apart
>housemate's unemployed
>fiance finished teaching degree last year and can't get a job and has to do shitty CRT where she might get one shift a week
>slowly falling behind on rent/bills because i'm the only regular income
I'm so fucking sick of being poor and going nowhere with my life.
>>28805624
it's not that hard to compose music, idiot.
>>28806416
Let's hear your's, then
>>28806444
how about you give me your college degree and I'll make better use of it and you can fuck off to a bookstore and read how to make music.
>>28806469
You're sounding upset about something. Anyways, I thought you were a great composer, I want to hear your stuff
>>28806401
>fiance
yeah fuck you
>>28806497
no no i'm not having you steal my work but you're acting upset about the most easiest subject in the world and I'm not having it
>>28806579
>post your music
>"n-no"
I know you're baiting but I'm amused
I'm a wizard. I watch anime all day after getting off wagecucking. I live alone in a tiny apartment with only a bed and computer. I have never had a girlfriend, never dated, never had sex, never kissed. There is no reason to not just kill myself right now. Every day is filled with dread. I feel this grinding in my head like blocks of metal scraping and machinery with something stuck in it. I can't live like this.
MY FUCKING PUPPER IS DYING TOMORROW'
sSEND HELP
>Was "valedictorian" in highschool
>There were 20 "valedictorians", but whatever
>Was on the track and field team
>Had a qt gf
>Applied for university
>Was accepted into the commerce program with a concentration in finance
>gf was accepted into the econ program
>First year went great
>Second year
>Hear my mom and dad call my name
>Go downstairs, ask what they want
>Anon, we never called your name
>Oh, that's strange
>Happens hundreds of more times
>Eventually just ignore it
>Start hearing distorted, faint voices
>I'm probably just stressed out
>Develop paranoia
>Assume everyone I see is a spy
>Stop eating
>Thought all of my food was laced with cyanide
>Lost 30 lbs
>So paranoid and anxious I stop studying
>Fail everything
>Voices become more aggressive
>Start to see people looking into my bedroom window
>December
>Start drifting in and out of sleep
>Feel my life is in mortal danger
>Don't have the strength to get up
>Middle of winter and I'm sweating profusely
>After 30 minutes I muster the strength to get up
>Absolutely terrified
>Stumble outside, setting off the alarm
>Stumbling through the snow in my pajamas and socks
>Parents pick me up
>Take me to the hospital
>Diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia
>Had to stay in the hospital with 3 weeks
>Had to drop out
>Girlfriend tried to be supportive, but she couldn't cope
>Broke up with me
>Checks in with me every month to make sure I haven't died
>Spend the next two years as a NEET
>Gained a lot of weight, am now 5'11 and 235
>Started to go bald
>Can't hold a job
>Can't go back to university
>Yesterday
>Went on facebook for the first time in years
>All of my friends posted their graduation photos
>I was supposed to graduate this year too
>See ex-gf's profile
>She's still a qt
>She graduated and has a new bf
>Suspect my parents are tired of me
>Might be homeless in a few years
>Spend the night crying over how shitty my life has become
>>28806691
I'm sorry man. My dog got run over by a car a year ago
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rYERdjstR0I
This song still makes me cry now
>>28806691
shit man my dog got ran over like >>28806723 's
best of luck
>>28806772
>>28806723
I CANT FUCKING TAKE THIS SHIT
AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
>>28806797
Read the lyrics for that song if you really want to kill yourself
>>28806717
Dude sounds like you just need to lift and be yourself ;-)
I think I need a break, I mean I know I do next to nothing but I'm so fucking bored with everything. Depressed too. I'd love to go back to Japan again, but I know it isn't feasible at the moment.
>tfw no steam gf
this is oregano
