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kSup /r9k/

I've never been on /r9k/ and I rarely post anywhere, I am 99% of a time just lurking around the few boards. I came here for, opinions, rather than seeking help. Also somehow, I deemed that the /r9k/ is the most appropriate board. I do not seek validation nor some attention whoring on /soc/ nor some dank memes from /pol/.

The question is, how severely rooted the personality changes can be, and whether you will get back to your normal status or are you permanently changed from the past experiences. It's not something related to heavy illnesses or other medical stuff. It's quiet simple really, but I cannot seem to find an answer on my own.

I've been with this particular girl for almost two years, and as with every relationship, it got it's up and downs. But the question is, I sometimes feel like I am slowly decaying, when I look into mirror, I don't even recognize myself anymore, and got a feeling, that I am someone completely different. And it's not a change that only I noticed, even my parents are saying this. Today when I was rereading the conversations between me and her from more than two years ago, it felt to me, that the one typing there wasn't me at all, he was happy, constantly joking, laughing, was very open to everything and you could just feel the energy from that person even by reading the stuff. While nowadays I am I'd say extremely boring person or at least compared to what I've been. Now I know, that this is artificial change and not my true progress, you can't go from someone, who had shit tons of interests and friends before meeting the girl to the person, that only lays on a couch for whole day, being completely cut from the world and as lonely as it gets, feeling alienated just from everyone, interest-less, friendless.

I can cont if there is at least some interest, as there is a lot more I could say, I just don't know, whether it's something you guys would like to discuss.